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I have thought the same exact things. I went in for my first fill on the 18th and I only got 1ml ... absolutely no restriction as you can imagine. I really need the restriction and I'm having a hard time with it actually. I guess its pretty normal from these posts but its sooo frustrating!! My next fill is the 16th of Dec and I dont know if I can wait that long! Hopefully I get more than 1 ml next time.

I am a size 18 .. I am 5 ft though so its ginormous ... I have lost weight. I started my pre-op diet at 228. When I went into surgery I was 219. On my post op diet I got down to 199 (for a day). I was really sick because of all the gas and my body wasnt reacting well to it at all. But when I was able to finally eat, thats when I started gaining weight. I got back up to 210 but today I am at 206.6. When I talked with my PA it was all because I was taking too big of bites. Supposedly LOL. I have PCOS, a condition that affects your hormones and makes it very hard to lose weight. Before surgery I was eating a clean diet and working out but nothing helped and I just stayed where I was weight wise. It is frustrating for sure ... I know it will take time but I'm just ready for some progress. This takes me back to all my feelings I had before surgery when I would do everything I could and nothing helped and I lost all determination because I felt like "Whats the point?" ... I just pray for some changes SOON.

You would think so Kelly LOL ... I mean I know its a tool to help but I just dont feel like it helps right now. The PA said to eat smaller bites and eat slower ... well its really hard to eat smaller bites when you dont *have* to. If I felt restriction then yes, I would be eating smaller bites ... If I could do it on my own then I would have. This was my last option and I feel like its failing me so far ... I'm really hoping that as time goes on it will be better ... I need a bit more of the aggressive fills and not the conservative right now.

Congrats on doing so well and that is so awesome about how accommodating the restaurant was! And that soup broth sounds really good! Its always good when you can voice your concerns or opinions instead of shoving them down with food ... its still a battle with me but I'm getting better. I didnt even know there was a chat, so I'm not help on that question!

Wow ... I'm completely lost! I knew there was some trouble with the site around the 20th because it seemed like no one was posting. Then I wasnt getting any e-mails saying anyone submitted a blog (at least the ones that I'm subscribed to). This is definitely going to take getting used to. A lot has happened recently since my last post ... besides the reformat of the site, all of these things contribute to the "WOAH" title of this blog. To begin with, my first fill went really well .. it was VERY conservative, only 1 ml and I felt nothing at all. She didnt want to do a lot since it was the week before Thanksgiving (I hope everyone had a great one by the way). I still feel no restriction though and cant wait for my second one, but I'm assuming it will still be just 1 ml since it will be right before Christmas. I really want to feel restriction though ... I feel like I dont even have the band and I feel that if I dont feel like I have it, how is it working for me? I'm stuck at 210 and not moving ... I'm supposed to be moving ... thats the whole point in getting this 30,000+ dollar surgery that put me out of commission for 2+ weeks to include complications and a trip to the ER ... when am I going to see more benefits of it? when am I going to fall in love my band? (Wow he really needs a name lol) Number two Woah ... it was my 31 st birthday on the 23rd. I thought it was going to suck. Seriously ... my husband decided to go to see his family for thanksgiving without me and our daughter. Granted he wants nothing to do with me right now and I was told last week that he would be filing for divorce when he came back, praying he doesnt though! Anyways, I had no hopes for a nice birthday at all. but to my amazement it was one of the best birthdays i've ever had that i can remember! a friend took me out to lunch and then to get our nails done. again to my amazement she paid for me to get a full set of gel nails .. how freakin nice was that?! her daughter watched my daughter and when we got back to her house my daughter brought me a beaded bracelet she made me and a handmade, hand written by my 4 year old birthday card. it said happy birthday mommy i love you and she drew and colored a heart! my own heart just about melted! that was the first gift and card she has ever made me!! my mommy meter went through the roof!! well my daughter decided that i needed a cake because well .. it was my birthday. how could she sing happy birthday to me if there was no cake so we went to walmart and she picked out a cake (a single slice cake) and we shared it after we ate dominos pizza ( thin sliced and i ate chicken wings). after that we cuddled on the couch and watched movies... it was the most perfect day which i could not have imagined going that well at all ... OH and i've been searching for jobs like crazy and walmart and mcd's didnt even call for an interview but a college called for a secretarial position on my birthday! I was like YAY!!! such a great day! Unfortunately that great day was followed by thanksgiving ... it was really hard for me because i had no family to spend it with, no great close friends to spend it with. i felt all alone and like no one cared for me at all ... i dont feel like my husbands family cares for me .. i know they love me but it just doesnt seem like they do. it was really hard thinking that he was with his familyl having the grandest time and i was stuck at home with no one. like i was the one being punished for standing for my marriage. i know that just lies and i cant believe them ... but it was just really hard. well i went to two dinners that night ... ate very slow and mostly protein and veggies and the dinners were a few hours apart. the first dinner was .. eh, i didnt really know alot of people and i was just totally bumming from earlier in the day. the second dinner was with a friend and her family who moved a way 4 years ago and just recently moved back and we hadnt been able to connect until last night. it was really great to see her and talk to her again. we used to meet up for lunches all the time when she worked at the local hospital as a social worker in the behavioral health dept. i was really wanting to talk to her about everything going on with my hubs and get her intake on it. anyways, we talked and my daughter got to play with her daughter, and we just had a nice evening. thank God my second dinner was better than the first, and i went home in a much better mood i went there in. its just really nice to reconnect with people. i hope we can keep close. tomorrow we are going to a boat parade on the river together which should be fun. sorry this is so long, i really need to keep up with blogging. i am having some problems with the whole no restriction and feeling like i dont have the band. i'm trying to limit my portions, trying to eat better but some things just seem to make it past my lips and then i regret it later. if i could do this without the band i wouldnt have gotten it ... so why am doing it with the band but feel nothing?? is this what they call banders hell?? I never really knew what that referred to .. but if this is it ... then i'm in it!

So today is my first fill .. I hope at least! I'm literally 15 minutes away from walking out the door to head out to the docs office. It will be the first time I'm seen in the office since before the surgery since I was in there 2 weeks after surgery because of my complications. I'm not really sure if I'm supposed to eat, fast, drink water beforehand or not. And the office isnt even open till 9am! Oh well, I guess if I go in there hungry, and I get the fill that will take care of it for a while LOL. I'm alittle disappointed going into this first fill. With myself that is. I got down to 199 (YAY!) but then I started eating real foods and I gained 7 back. I forgot to weigh myself this morning in my birthday suit (which coincidently happens to be on Tuesday! My birthday that is lol) so I will weight before I leave to see how my scale matches theirs. Anyways, I'm really bummed I'm still not under 200. I hate the 200's. Its just been such a hard month for me (family and personal problems, that arent going away) and granted I probably had 2 pieces of Halloween candy per day but BLAH ... stress/emo eating sucks! I want to be losing faster (Stop eating junk Laurie!) ... I was doing great on liquids, loosing like 2lbs a day or so ... I know thats fast but it was progress ... right now I see no progess. Hopefully tomorrow and thereafter I will see what I want. Wish me luck, I really need the fill today!

Good luck! Tricare moves fast! Was it a referral to see the doc? From the time my PCM sent the original referral to the surgery date was about 2.5 months or so ... be prepared, it can go fast

You look so good Beth! Great job on your successes! Look out your gonna be smokin' in no time!

Tricare is pretty good, I got approved in a week. Good Luck!

I have PCOS as well and before banded I was doing really well with clean eating but not losing. I got to the point where I thought it was completely pointless to even try to lose weight since my PCOS wouldnt let me. I am having a hard time getting to the point of saying now there is a point and i cant treat my body that way anymore ... so thanks for saying self evaluation for self control ... definitely dealing with it right now! good luck to you and your journey!

Thanks winks ... I hate cottage cheese though! lol So canned chicken/tuna and cheese omelets? I think thats what I'm gonna do ... I cant keep on this path, last time I stayed on it I got up to 230 on my small 5ft frame!

Ugh .... I was on mushy foods for like 3 days then realized I could eat real food and moved on to solids. I have no restriction what so ever and can basically eat anything I want. Today I decided to look in my handy dandy information book the surgeon gave me and it says not to move on to solids until day 25 out. I moved on to solids 16 days out. I've gained 8 lbs since I started on regular foods ... granted I was so excited I was basically eating whatever I could get my hands on. :smile2: Plus halloween candy being around really sucks!! So yeah I've resolved to eat better, going to the grocery store today to get some healthy foods ... but ... should I go back to mushy or just eat healthier solids? I am so ready for my first fill so I can not have such freedom and screw this up for myself ... could someone please help me??

Wow what progress!!! That is so great, congratulations on such great work so far! Keep it up!!

OH MY GOSH!!! I'M FROM SAVANNAH! And from your description of everything I bet you are going to Memorial? I just had my surgery on the 19th there with Dr. Whipple who is amazing! Message me and I'll talk more with you! Good luck with everything!!!

That is GREAT! I have PCOS as well and understand the struggles. Congratulations on the baby and getting back on the wagon

I reply to people if I know the answer :cursing: I"m just 3 weeks ago so I dont have A LOT of experience but mine is still sore and tender too .. If I move alot in like a twisting motion it gets "tired" i guess.

That is AWESOME! I love the whole stomach being married to the body now! :cursing:

Please dont worry about not exercising! You need this break and time to heal! Prayers are with you my friend! I was hit with the realization of taking things for granted as well today .... everyday we need to give thanks to God for everything we have! Love you LB friend! :cursing:

Oh my gosh! I had to wait 2 weeks to move to mushies and mashed tators were my first meal LOL SOOOOO good! :cursing:

YAY! Thats fantastic Beth! I just started and my size 18s feel comfortable, not tight ... I cant wait till I can say that about 14th!! Way to go!

That is beautiful Beth ... I bet she would be supporting you, along with everyone else here! You are doing a great job!

Okay, so I've been feeling nauseaus sometimes (I'm 13 days Post Op and still on the liquid diet). Its like all I have to do is burb. Sometimes, like just a few minutes ago, it got so bad I could have sworn I was going to throw up. I got up off the couch and that was it, I felt it coming. I got the hot/cold flash, the wet mouth, felt really pale and then .... I burped. Over and over and over again. It was like I was going through the motions of throwing up but it was just burps. What the heck is going on? This has happened to me two or three times before, but both were before I went back into the hossy for as gas bubble problem. I thought maybe it was PB'ing .. but I did some research and I dont think it is ... but is this dangerous? Why am I doing it? What can I do to NOT do it? Do I need to be taking gas meds still? Anti nausea meds all the time? Someone PLEASE help!! :wink2:

I remember last November I did a Turkey Trot 5k and I walked up to a certain point then turned around before I got to the turn around point. I still came in second to last and that was only because I sprinted the last few feet so I wouldnt be last! How pitiful right? So CONGRATS on not turning around, for going the whole way and finishing!!! Just think what you could do the next time!

Okay, so Tuesday will be 2 weeks out from surgery. Even though I had that mishap last week and it set me back a bit on my diet, I think I'm ready to move on to soft foods! Last night we had Trick or Treating in our town and after days of candy being in the house, untouched by me of course, I decided to try one Reeses Peanut Butter Cup. I figured, its soft, it can be chewed down to nothing, it will be okay. I took extremely small bites, chewed it to the extreme and it went down well. I waited about a minute or so in between each bite too. I know thats not exactly the best food to try first, or even at all since I'm trying to lose weight but look, a girls gots needs okay?! lol Anyways, after that went down well, I was really hungry. I've been resting a lot so I've been missing meal times and mine are off now. Like I"ll eat lunch at like 4pm etc. Anywho, it was like 9pm and I made some low sodium veggie soup and I ate pretty good! Small bites, tons of chews and then waited. I ate the veggies in it and the broth!! I felt pretty good afterwards and went to bed a bit later and didnt have any problems!!! YAY!!!! I can eat soft foods now! So ... Monday I'm going to start of softs. I'm going to figure out what I can eat today so I can plan it all out. I know I can have eggs and mashed potatoes .. but what else can have? Does anyone have any suggestions? I had planned on making 1 egg with cheese and giving half to my dog and trying to eat the other half, or as much of it as I can. I cant really think of anything else that I can have so if you do, let me know! I'm so excited to be starting on REAL foods soon!!!:thumbup:

I think almost everything is going to be a learning experience for us. Lesson learned right? You will be fine hun! How far out are you? I had my surgery on the 19th and last night ... very foolishly of course, I had a reeses peanut butter cup. I was thinking i'd just take a small bite and chew it until it was nothing ... it went down fine. then I had some veggie soup and even that went down okay! You will start feeling better soon, dont worry! *hugs*