Chooky

My world has become very obviously split into two neat compartments these past few days. Those who support me and those who don't:mad: The thing is I knew this was happening, but it is still a little baffling to find that you were only friends with some people because of your foodiness:confused: It's upsetting really because I actually thought the friendship was more than that but............... On a high note had the fill yesterday and the wiegh in , lost 5kg:thumbup: so am definatly on track for a tummy tuck for my birthday in April. Even better will be normal size for Christmas Day:biggrin::thumbup::biggrin: Have a dress hanging in the cupboard and I will be wearing it and feeling great, except for the huge flap of skin sitting on my lap, just gunna chop it off. Tempted by a boob job too, but will probably settle for industrial strength bra's. Although Now I am beginning to think about it.... Imagine, nipples that were in the middle not under my arm pits, gee it's really beginning to be a possibility in my brain now!!! Cheers Chooky

:laugh:Why is the week leading up to the fill the hardest????? Of course I know why, but it's a hard few days to get through. Really I find myself smelling bakeries and bbq's that last week never bothered me and I can feel myself picking at things that last week I wouldn't of touched. So I really struggle with the last couple of day's. Any idea's guy's to help combat this???? Cheers Chooky:thumbup:

:thumbup:Why is the week leading up to the fill the hardest????? Of course I know why, but it's a hard few days to get through. Really I find myself smelling bakeries and bbq's that last week never bothered me and I can feel myself picking at things that last week I wouldn't of touched. So I really struggle with the last couple of day's. Any idea's guy's to help combat this???? Cheers Chooky:thumbup:

Its amazing how far your eating progresses between fills and its a shock to go back to the basics again, but it makes you feel great. My motto is Chew Chew Chew or spew. Cheers Chooky

Goodluck on your journey, your right you are never abandoned. Cheers Chooky

:thumbup:I went to the gym after all that whinging about it, only really put in half the effort i ususally would but I s'pose its better than no effort at all today. I was putting off getting out of the car and actually going in the door at the gym by cleaning out my bag and purse, I found a drivers license with a photo from a few years ago on it and all I can say is I was really shocked by the id photo. Was I really that fat? :smile2: why didn't somebody tell me?????:thumbup: I mean I knew I was that fat but.......I must of been really close to 300lbs and so miserable looking, probably 299.9lbs. :cursing: It was looking at a picture of someone else, yet really puzzled because you know them. How or why I did that to myself I will never understand so now I will look forward and not back. So what if yesterday was a bad day, this morning I didn't give up like I would of done before at around the 3 month mark on a diet so I will focus on that positive and get through today, it may not be a fully yahoo pumped up daybut it sure as s**#t not the day that license id photo was taken. Cheers Chooky

:thumbup:I went to the gym after all that whinging about it, only really put in half the effort i ususally would but I s'pose its better than no effort at all today. I was putting off getting out of the car and actually going in the door at the gym by cleaning out my bag and purse, I found a drivers license with a photo from a few years ago on it and all I can say is I was really shocked by the id photo. Was I really that fat? :tt2: why didn't somebody tell me?????:sad: I mean I knew I was that fat but.......I must of been really close to 300lbs and so miserable looking, probably 299.9lbs. :biggrin: It was looking at a picture of someone else, yet really puzzled because you know them. How or why I did that to myself I will never understand so now I will look forward and not back. So what if yesterday was a bad day, this morning I didn't give up like I would of done before at around the 3 month mark on a diet so I will focus on that positive and get through today, it may not be a fully yahoo pumped up daybut it sure as s**#t not the day that license id photo was taken. Cheers Chooky

:thumbup::confused:I am over it today, I just can't face the gym again....Aday off won't hurt a little voice is saying but my butt is sasying ," well we know were that got us before don't we?":mad2: I am counting down to this holiday, I so want to just do nothing for a few days. Hence all the exercise because the holiday requires tons of suncream and bathers. The big difference this time is I am losing weight for ever this time not just for the trip and till I hit the buffet at breakfast, so why I put all this pressure on myself is crazy but I'm still doing it.:cursing: Maybe I should wear a sign around my neck when I get there saying "I used to be much fatter guy's give me a break." UGH Do I go or not:confused::thumbup::confused: CHeers Chooky

:sad::confused:I am over it today, I just can't face the gym again....Aday off won't hurt a little voice is saying but my butt is sasying ," well we know were that got us before don't we?":mad2: I am counting down to this holiday, I so want to just do nothing for a few days. Hence all the exercise because the holiday requires tons of suncream and bathers. The big difference this time is I am losing weight for ever this time not just for the trip and till I hit the buffet at breakfast, so why I put all this pressure on myself is crazy but I'm still doing it.:biggrin: Maybe I should wear a sign around my neck when I get there saying "I used to be much fatter guy's give me a break." UGH Do I go or not:confused::thumbup::confused: CHeers Chooky

Today is bad bad day. Everything is up and down, the mood the scales the food.......:thumbup:I guess this is one of those days i used to have pre banding, you know the days, it all just gets to you. I have eaten a heap of crap today too. YYYYYYYY did I do this??????? Help>>>>>>> I am just not in the mood for anything.. Exercise can take a big jump for itself today, It is slipper day here. This will pass I know .. but for now it really sucks:crying: No Cheers today Chooky:frown:

Today is bad bad day. Everything is up and down, the mood the scales the food.......:sad:I guess this is one of those days i used to have pre banding, you know the days, it all just gets to you. I have eaten a heap of crap today too. YYYYYYYY did I do this??????? Help>>>>>>> I am just not in the mood for anything.. Exercise can take a big jump for itself today, It is slipper day here. This will pass I know .. but for now it really sucks:crying: No Cheers today Chooky:frown:

Thats great ... I must be on board of directors of SWA, I think a lot of my exercise can actually come from going back and forth to the scales. I'm about 3 weeks in front of you and I have a fill booked for the end of the month also good luck cheers chooky

HA HA People are starting to notice that I have lost weight, which has been nice and I am finally after all these years acceptting the compliments.:thumbup:Un til today at the gym one of the other members commented that I was looking like I had lost wieght, when one of the instructors butted in and siad " eh but she doesn't have work at it like you though cos shes been banded so its just the cheats way":cursing: This woman then went "oh how dissappointing for you"!!!!!!! WHAT THE??????:eek: Finally accepted this is not the easy way only to have ones nose rubbed in it. I really wanted to either scream "Oh F***** off" or just leave, instead i was very grown up and finished my work out put in a formal compliant about member confidentiallity and left thinking well my ass may be bigger than yours but my mouth certianly isn't!!!!!:wink: Would the general public judge people with other addictions like this? or would they have a bit more empathy and think good on you? Cheers Chooky

HA HA People are starting to notice that I have lost weight, which has been nice and I am finally after all these years acceptting the compliments.:thumbup:Un til today at the gym one of the other members commented that I was looking like I had lost wieght, when one of the instructors butted in and siad " eh but she doesn't have work at it like you though cos shes been banded so its just the cheats way":cursing: This woman then went "oh how dissappointing for you"!!!!!!! WHAT THE??????:biggrin: Finally accepted this is not the easy way only to have ones nose rubbed in it. I really wanted to either scream "Oh F***** off" or just leave, instead i was very grown up and finished my work out put in a formal compliant about member confidentiallity and left thinking well my ass may be bigger than yours but my mouth certianly isn't!!!!!:sad: Would the general public judge people with other addictions like this? or would they have a bit more empathy and think good on you? Cheers Chooky

Back on the protien shakes again... as that fill sure is working hard this time and not letting much down at all, was so happy the yogurt went down:thumbup: But.... I think I'm going to start hanging around the butchers and maybe licking the windows because I really need to eat a giant juicy steak.:frown: My friend said to me at least you can't be a piggy anymore, all I could think was what kind of piggy???? Roast? Sweet & Sour? Sizzling????? AAGHHHHH:cursing: I swear if I see anyone wearing leather I will start to drool and shake. This hasn't happened before, my boy say's I must be turning into a vampire or something,, v.supportive that one let me tell you. Why is it when you decide to give it your all at the gym those skinny girls who bounce around yelling at everyone to "Push it Guys" or "The work is worth it people" and never cast a glance in your direction decide to be your best friend when your just about having a corony and your only thoughts are "the only thing you are gunna push is her head into her butt." But oh no she's going to chat away as if you met for drinks. This one stood in front of the treadmill so no matter how far i ran I couldn't get my hands around her neck:biggrin: Gosh should I have vanilla or choccy shake for dinner? they should make a Rare Sirloin with mushroom sauce and fries shake. That would be walking out the doors. Expresso tonight I think. m mmm Cheers Chooky

Back on the protien shakes again... as that fill sure is working hard this time and not letting much down at all, was so happy the yogurt went down:thumbup: But.... I think I'm going to start hanging around the butchers and maybe licking the windows because I really need to eat a giant juicy steak.:thumbup: My friend said to me at least you can't be a piggy anymore, all I could think was what kind of piggy???? Roast? Sweet & Sour? Sizzling????? AAGHHHHH:cursing: I swear if I see anyone wearing leather I will start to drool and shake. This hasn't happened before, my boy say's I must be turning into a vampire or something,, v.supportive that one let me tell you. Why is it when you decide to give it your all at the gym those skinny girls who bounce around yelling at everyone to "Push it Guys" or "The work is worth it people" and never cast a glance in your direction decide to be your best friend when your just about having a corony and your only thoughts are "the only thing you are gunna push is her head into her butt." But oh no she's going to chat away as if you met for drinks. This one stood in front of the treadmill so no matter how far i ran I couldn't get my hands around her neck:biggrin: Gosh should I have vanilla or choccy shake for dinner? they should make a Rare Sirloin with mushroom sauce and fries shake. That would be walking out the doors. Expresso tonight I think. m mmm Cheers Chooky

:cursing:EXHAUSTED..... No I haven't been slogging it out at the gym or running a marathon, it's pathetic really.... I was doing the afternoon kids sports run around. Finally they are ironed and put away for the night, so I'm hiding from the washing and the dish's hoping the faries will magically do it for me:biggrin: It's alright I'm not that delusional yet. Big question and I would love some feedback on htis one:thumbup: Party at a Chinese saturday night!!! What will I eat???? It will be the ususal chopsticks at dawn over the plum duck and don't get in the way over the prawn toasts or you could lose an eye out there:crying: But what about me? No way am I going to food bullied into trying this stuff, cos I can just imagine how that will end:drool: so I am thinking soup of somesort... But how to make it last as long as everybody else??? any idea's??? HELP Cheeers Chooky

:thumbup:EXHAUSTED..... No I haven't been slogging it out at the gym or running a marathon, it's pathetic really.... I was doing the afternoon kids sports run around. Finally they are ironed and put away for the night, so I'm hiding from the washing and the dish's hoping the faries will magically do it for me:biggrin: It's alright I'm not that delusional yet. Big question and I would love some feedback on htis one:thumbup: Party at a Chinese saturday night!!! What will I eat???? It will be the ususal chopsticks at dawn over the plum duck and don't get in the way over the prawn toasts or you could lose an eye out there:crying: But what about me? No way am I going to food bullied into trying this stuff, cos I can just imagine how that will end:drool: so I am thinking soup of somesort... But how to make it last as long as everybody else??? any idea's??? HELP Cheeers Chooky

hey its so diff in the states to aussie. You know in your heart what u are doing is right for u , i come here for the support i need, and have made some great friends. goodluck Cheers Chooky

Well its fudge cake day today, so far I am surviving it, but there are only so many cups of coffee I can drink, especially since everyone else is saying "Well a little bit won't hurt". But everyone here know's just how much alittle bit can and will hurt:frown: The other thing is I normally go to the gym in the mornings and hadn't really noticed how I get into a routine and now that I am not there it is really bugging me. Took me longer to get ready today as well because I couldn't just chuck on the gym gear actually had to make a bit of an effort. Maybe I should take some of the cake to the gym and hang it in front of me like they do in the cartoons.:cursing: I feel now after nine weeks I;m really beginning to get a grip on the food I can and can't eat and if in doubt vow to try it out in the privacy of my own home not in the middle of a packed out restuarant, as this can lead to a hasty exit to the ladies room.:cursing: I'm wondering about alcohol these day's and do you end up drunk quicker? Because generally if I drink I eat lots and it's a good night out because it used to happen so rarely. But now because now there is no food too soak it up I think I will end up on my ear a lot quicker than ususal, so this is something I am going to have to watch out for . Cheers Chooky

Well its fudge cake day today, so far I am surviving it, but there are only so many cups of coffee I can drink, especially since everyone else is saying "Well a little bit won't hurt". But everyone here know's just how much alittle bit can and will hurt:frown: The other thing is I normally go to the gym in the mornings and hadn't really noticed how I get into a routine and now that I am not there it is really bugging me. Took me longer to get ready today as well because I couldn't just chuck on the gym gear actually had to make a bit of an effort. Maybe I should take some of the cake to the gym and hang it in front of me like they do in the cartoons.:thumbup: I feel now after nine weeks I;m really beginning to get a grip on the food I can and can't eat and if in doubt vow to try it out in the privacy of my own home not in the middle of a packed out restuarant, as this can lead to a hasty exit to the ladies room.:eek: I'm wondering about alcohol these day's and do you end up drunk quicker? Because generally if I drink I eat lots and it's a good night out because it used to happen so rarely. But now because now there is no food too soak it up I think I will end up on my ear a lot quicker than ususal, so this is something I am going to have to watch out for . Cheers Chooky

:cursing:Thank goodness the sun has come out..... I think the constant rain must contribute to the low day's, but today warm and sunny.... so is the mood:smile: Back to curves today and finally got around to getting the smart card thingy, but after my workout the computer said I had only burned 350 calories which has really made me look at everything going in my gob today. So I've cleaned the windows but.... Now I'm just confused. I really thought it would burn more than that for some reason, especially since I am a sweaty wobbly mess by the time I have finished the circuit. Grandma's birthday tomorrow and the kids want to make her a fudge cake!!! *#!^* :cursing: Will I end up swimming around in the mixing bowl singing "memories?" or should I just let Foghorn help the kid's?? He will definatley fight the kids for the mixers (this is a grown man who will sulk if he doesn't get a beater or the bowl). I hope his tongue gets jammed in them.:cursing: So because it has been a warm day I thought I would look at last year's board shorts collection that is laying in the wardrobe. This stuff fit me last summer:eek: Now I cant get some of it past my knee's!! What have I done to myself again is all I can think and why, at least now with the band that cycle is over with because I couldn't do it again, it's just to exhausting. Fat' Thin & Fat again. So it's 10 weeks ish to the great family holiday in the sun and I'm praying for the board shorts to fit and to be able to move in the dam things.:cursing: Cheers Chooky:biggrin:

:tt1:Thank goodness the sun has come out..... I think the constant rain must contribute to the low day's, but today warm and sunny.... so is the mood:smile: Back to curves today and finally got around to getting the smart card thingy, but after my workout the computer said I had only burned 350 calories which has really made me look at everything going in my gob today. So I've cleaned the windows but.... Now I'm just confused. I really thought it would burn more than that for some reason, especially since I am a sweaty wobbly mess by the time I have finished the circuit. Grandma's birthday tomorrow and the kids want to make her a fudge cake!!! *#!^* :sneaky: Will I end up swimming around in the mixing bowl singing "memories?" or should I just let Foghorn help the kid's?? He will definatley fight the kids for the mixers (this is a grown man who will sulk if he doesn't get a beater or the bowl). I hope his tongue gets jammed in them. So because it has been a warm day I thought I would look at last year's board shorts collection that is laying in the wardrobe. This stuff fit me last summer:eek: Now I cant get some of it past my knee's!! What have I done to myself again is all I can think and why, at least now with the band that cycle is over with because I couldn't do it again, it's just to exhausting. Fat' Thin & Fat again. So it's 10 weeks ish to the great family holiday in the sun and I'm praying for the board shorts to fit and to be able to move in the dam things.:thumbup: Cheers Chooky:biggrin:

My partner is the same,, y cant you just do it. Which i did and piled it all back on.... But i know in my heart this is right, and that is what is important and my friends who support me here. He just doesn't get it and as hard as he tries his best he probably never will, but he gets everything else and he wants me to be happy and this will make me happy so i guess he is being supportive. You know in your heart 2. Cheers chooky

:thumbup:I know why I have been so blah>>>>>>> I miss all my best friend soooo much. Grease, chocolate and fish and chips and I go back a long way together, I miss the times we have shared at the beach or late at night in bed together and my new friends protien shake and tuna with its bestfriend white sauce just don't understand me:lol: Gone are the Friday nights with my 11 best friends (tim tams) laying in thier pack ready to share my crappy day and my bar of fruit and nut ready wrap me up in it's comforting hug and I can't settle to anything else to replace it.. This will sound really crazy now, I know as i'm writing it even, but I feel like someone has died somehow berefit and unable to shake that feeling of just lonliness. This is plain pathetic over a bar of chocolate and I will have to smack myself and get out more . But after of what really amounts to a lifetime of having these crutches to suport myself I'm beginning to find it very hard not to have them anymore. OLD HABITS DIE HARD So after 8 weeks even though i had read heaps, researched what I was doing and spoken to others who had already had the band I am now glimpsing that this is really it..... I dont regret this at all but the support is some what lacking here at home at the moment :frown:and my old friends can't come over to play at my house anymore and if tuna knocks on the door tonight I will have to set the dogs on her.....:biggrin: Cheers Chooky