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Blog 65988

A blog by bashful1269 in General

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A weight loss surgery blog by bashful1269 on BariatricPal. 53 entries on surgery, recovery and progress.

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Haven't posted for a while

Well, it's been a while since I've posted. Mainly because I have been so frustrated and down about my band...For three months my scale did not move, despite repeated adjustments and hours of exercise everyday.   I'm happy to report thanks to my last adjustment a week ago, I have finally had a change in the number on the scale. I kicked the darned thing out of my bathroom and refused to look at it for a week. Low and behold this morning the number shocked me so much I had to take a picture!

I did it!!!

I finally reached my first goal!!!!!!   I am now at the lowest weight that I have been since my freshman year of high school. I am still quite a ways from the goal my doctor has set for me(67 pounds to go:blink:) but, it's still an AMAZING feeling:thumbup:! I'm so excited!   Hope everyone else in band land is doing well, keep in touch!

He's just not that into you

So, as you know I went to the phyc the other day and she told me to keep a stress log in addition, she suggested a really good book that is actually now a movie called "He's just not that into you". Two chapters in; it's been one of the most informative books that I think I've ever read...There are some really great male insights to think about while reading. I must admit it has triggered my..."ah ha!" I've been hanging out with A holes all along! I've decided that there are some people in my li

Phyc appointment

Well, as you may have been able to tell, I've been having some issues trying to get through a few rough times emotionally. I made an appointment with the psychologist that I had to see before the band surgery. She's great, I love her attitude and even though, she really didn't have a lot to say I feel better. She made a few suggestions that I think will be helpful. I need to be more aware of my eating and emotions. She suggested that I keep a log or a journal about my feelings and acknowle

Adjustment again

Well, I found myself not losing any weight over the last three weeks, so I went to see Tina and got another fill yesterday. I'm feeling a little too tight, but not sure that I am. I think I just need to take my time and chew better. I'm actually full after only a few bites, but I have had the feeling of being stuck and pb'ing too.   I guess I'll wait and see if it loosens up a bit by next week. If not I guess I'll go in and have a little taken out.   How's everyone doing out there in b

My birthday

WOW, it's hard to believe that I am 39 years old...seems just yesterday I was wishing for 21.     My friends had a party for me last night, HOLY BUCKETS! I will NOT forget this birthday for a while!   I'm three months into my journey and it's funny how much I've changed my personality along with my looks. A friend of mine, whom I haven't seen since before I was divorced came last night. She called me this morning and told me that she just couldn't believe the change in me. It made me

Quelf

If you haven't played it...you need to play!   I bought this game on a recommendation from a friend of mine...It is HILARIOUS! I laughed so much I cried!   You have to be willing to act like an idiot, having a video camera on hand is helpful, to recapture what you miss while laughing historically.

Ourselves and rejection...intimacy???

do you believe this statement? the paradox that we want to be known and loved for who we are; but refuse to reveal ourselves because we are afraid of rejection; creates a tremendous loneliness in our lives.     I was reading a book tonight and I read this sentence and it really spoke to me. So often I hide my imperfections because of the fear of rejection. Have you ever really thought about why you were or are overweight? Is it because we fear intimacy? Do we fear letting someone get clos

Road trip time

Last week was a little stressful and I needed to get away, so I jumped in the Jeep and took off. I ended up in Springfield at the Octoberfest. PS...Beer and the band don't work so well together.   OOPS!   It was nice to just get away and the drive was beautiful down Hwy 5. I love the fall colors.   I decided that I'm not going to weigh everyday like I have been doing...yes, I am a scale whore. I have a really busy week this week and fitting in time to work out is going to be challen

My band is being tested

I'm having a really rough week this week. It's been crazy at work and then I found out that a friend (or someone I thought was my friend) betrayed me to a point that I doubt that I will ever speak to him again. I am so angry, so hurt, so freaking pissed off that I don't even know what to do with myself besides cry and wonder why? What was the point? Why? :biggrin:   I of course am an emotional eater and turned to the cookies the other night. I ate four and got sick...thank you band! Yes

Scale Happy Dance!

:thumbup::thumbup::mad::thumbup::thumbup::thumbup:   THE SCALE MOVED!! My scale has been stuck for the last four weeks, mainly because I've been eating out a lot with work functions. This last fill has finally given me what it takes to break the plateau, I've lost three pounds since Thursday.     HAPPY DANCE HAPPY DANCE HAPPY DANCE!

Pictures

I just posted some pictures...WOW, I never realized until now the difference! I'm excited!   Update on HG, I finally told him that we should go out. He's gone out with me and my friend Dalena a couple of times and it was fun. Not sure anything is going to progress. I'm just going to kick back and let what happens happen. I'm going to invite him to Jeff Dunham on Sunday.     I will be spending the next three weeks in Columbia training all the new people we hired last week. It should be

Restriction

I had my fourth band adjustment yesterday and I now know what restriction feels like. I'm SO EXCITED and a little nervous.   It took me almost 30 minutes to eat about 2 oz of a grilled hamburger and 3 tablespoons of refried beans today for lunch and I was FULL!! I'm excited about that, portion size has always been my down fall and now I finally feel like I have that under control.   I'm nervous because as I was eating, I could really tell it if I didn't chew well enough and had to wait

Ah, today is much better

Today is a much better day. I went to my PT appointment and then went to see Tina and got another adjustment. I just felt like I needed a little more restriction to keep me from over eating.   I had lunch with my sister which consisted of five bites of soup and three bites of salad and was full. She just bought a new car from my old boss and he told her the next time I was in town that she had better look him up so that he could see me. So, we stopped by the dealership that he works at an

Bad mood

I'm in this funk of a bad mood today. I'm just cranky and I've made terrible food choices all day and have paid for it all day by being stuck most of the day. My tummy hurts because I'm stupid!!!   I know better than to try and eat pasta and bread but that of course is the comfort food that I crave when I'm in this mood. I need something to get me out of this funk...These days don't happen often but man when they do...YUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I survived it!

Well the three intense days of interviewing are over. It was an amazing experience and I'm excited to say that I have been invited to participate in the next store opening that we will be hiring for in January. I had a lot of fun with our corporate officers.   Over the last three days we managed to hire and schedule training for over 325 people. Crazy!   Unfortunately, I got stuck tonight at dinner. We were eating at Chevy's mexican and I wasn't paying attention and took a bite and all of

OMG I'm brain TOAST!!!

I made it through the day without having to really deal with the food issue too much, lunch was the only time I had to figure out what to do. We had sub sandwiches, I tore mine apart and only ate a piece of the cheese and a piece of the ham off of it. I didn't feel much like eating. I guess I was really tight this morning because yogurt made me feel like I was stuck...HOW CAN THAT BE?? Grrrr   I interviewed for eleven solid hours with less than a minute between interviews and only a 15 min

Eating with strangers

Tonight was the first of four nights of eating out with a group of people that I don't know very well.   I'm helping set up a new store in Columbia and that requires hiring almost 500 people of the course of the next three days. Can you say STRESS!!   There are a bunch of people from our corporate office along with the entire upper level of management from the new store and a couple of HR's from around the area, doing the interviewing. We will be working eleven hour days ending with di

Holy BUCKETS it's WORKING!!!!

I had my third fill today and had to go to the nut as well. I stepped on the scale and about fell off of it. I am losing at the rate of 2.6 pounds a week! I've lost a total of 33.5 pounds since starting this journey. Currently I'm at 231 and hoped to get to 215 by my birthday, October 18th, I told Tina (fill nurse) that today and she told me that she would prefer that I did not lose it that fast...POUT POUT. So, I'm shooting for 220 I think that's doable. She told me that I had to remember that

Just did it

I worked late today and I really just did not feel like working out. I skipped yesterday because I had a late orientation and was TOAST when I finished, so I knew I couldn't skip tonight.   So off I went to the gym. I just did it...didn't want to do it, but I did it. I feel better for having done it, not necessarily the exercise but the fact that I didn't talk myself out of it.   :tongue_smilie:

Great day at work

It was good to be back to work today, I was busy but it was fun. I love my job!   Food was much easier because I was working. It's my down time that I have a problem munching. I have an incredibly busy week planned for after work this week so I shouldn't have too much trouble sticking to the plan.   I have my third fill on Thursday. I'm pretty excited about it, I'm hoping that it is the fill that gets me to the sweet spot! I have the dietitian appointment that day as well. I have a

Back to work

Well, vacation is over...POUT POUT!! I think it's actually going to be a good thing. I eat way too much when I'm home. I want to snack all day and that's BAD! I try to choose healthy snacks but found myself eating CHOCOLATE today, that's BAD BAD BAD!!! I am a sugar addict so, I know not to eat it.   I did manage to lose five pounds this last two weeks!!!!! So, I'm not going to beat myself up over it. I did take my diabetes medicine just so my sugar didn't spike. I haven't had to take

The lapband and tears

One year ago today my best friend April called me from the hospital and told me that she needed me...Alex (her four yearold son) was not going to make it...I called work and rushed to the University of Missouri, he was alive when I got there...I saw the change at about this time 10 am..The life in his eyes was gone, his body was being kept alive by the machines ...but he was gone...They tried everything in their power to save this little guy, but it was too late. It wasn't until 8:45 pm that

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