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Mine is to have lost down to where I was a year ago. I see the numbers finally going in the right direction. It is very exciting. Also I am excited when I can't finish a meal when we eat out. C

I had my first fill today. He only put in 2cc, I am pretty disappointed. I have a slight tight feeling in my chest, but everything passes. I had 6 oz of milk with no issues at all. He won't do anything for 4 more weeks. I have to trust him, but this is discouraging. I have a 14cc band. C

Turns out I am having drainage from allergies. When it goes down my throat, I freak in my sleep. I worry what will happen when I get my fill..........one day at a time. C

I had hernia surgery, so the acid reflux was supposed to be at bay. I have no fill but........... Last night I woke up dreaming I swallowed gum. I rolled over and tried to cough it out before I remembered I was sleeping. Ever since then I feel I have something stuck in my throat not where my stoma is. It could be drainage ( I have a slight cold) but when I sat up I couldn't sleep any longer. I guess I worried myself that I was having issues. Slipped band, reflux etc or that I pushed past my hernia repair everything UGH! Anyone have this? I called into the nurses line, but so far no calls back on what to do. I was just there yesterday having my nutritionist appointment. Started introducing real bulky foods. Cyndi (5/8/09)

WOW, I would so hate for that to happen! I had a much harder than usual month hormonal swing ( I had a hysterectomy so no warning for us). So I kinda feel your pain. I usually don't have that bad a time b/c they took an ovary. I do know that not being able to turn to food, worrying over every gain ( Water or not) is going to wear me down soon. Hopefully after a few fills I will chill out. Hopefully my friends will learn to roll with it and not walk out the door ( one did already sigh). C

My port incision is raised. I think it is the dissolveable incisions in there just under the skin. I am 4 weeks out and still have 2 scabs waiting to heal. HOW frustrating, I really want to go swimming.

I have a reaction to the tape, but not the glue or steri strips. Not sure what the difference is. Staples and sutures on the skin level are your only choice if you choose not to use the glue option. Cyndi

The nutritionist replied to my email today. She said I would need to follow doctors orders and start on the pureed diet. It is her opinion that I have had a reaction to the massive amounts of unjury they make me drink(3 shakes a day). Soooo I am off to decide how to get the Protein I need in and not get anything stuck:-( C

[and my unjury turns my stomach instantly. I ordered a caseload of it too, so now I have no clue what to do with it all. I haven't been able to find anything I can hide it in successfully yet. I believe you can call unjury and they will accept returns. C

I am 7 days out of surgery and still experiencing pain after I drink or have a shake. I am supposed to start pureed today, but the thought terrifies me. ( my doc seems to run fast with introducing foods again). I did have a hernia repair with my band, but there is just still tons of pressure. I have to rub my stomach and make the gas/burps come out. The past two nights I can hardly lay down to sleep the pressure is so uncomfy. I have taken the anti nausea meds b/c I do dry heave at times:-( I honestly think I am the exception not the rule. I don't want to scare anyone who has not had their surgery yet. Gas Ex does help some...........as does the heating pad on low. Anyone else have this?

oh YES, that is a perfect NSV (non scale victory) for me. To be able to use the tray for my laptop or water. Also I can't wait to be able to find clothes that look age appropriate on me! So may of the plus sizes make me look older than I am:-(

In less than 24 hours I will be banded. I know I wanted this, I know I need this, I know I will look wicked awesome............but I'm scared. I just had my last breakfast that was allowed, I opted for a protein shake as I don't want to get my chewing on today. So from here on out it is liquids for the next 14 hours then zip. I get a shot of water to take my meds tomorrow morning and then night night. I had to ask the doctor to place the port on my left side. It is kind freaking me out b/c he said he always put it on the right. I self doubt myself b/c what if he messed up and doesn't sew it in right, what if what if what if. I told him I could deal with having it near my pulled rib area, but he said it is fine. THEN to add to my stress he asked what band I wanted. He does the realize or lapband. I don't know which one to go with. I asked two people I highly respect in the band field.......they each suggested a different band. So here I go giving faith to my doctor to choose. He is going with the Lapband, but I so wonder if the support you get from the realize is better argh! I will research it today, but odds are just go with what he wants.:thumbup: I also have to decide it I am going to stay in the hospital or go home after a few hours. I don't make decisions well at all. So will just wait to see tomorrow.

In less than 24 hours I will be banded. I know I wanted this, I know I need this, I know I will look wicked awesome............but I'm scared. I just had my last breakfast that was allowed, I opted for a protein shake as I don't want to get my chewing on today. So from here on out it is liquids for the next 14 hours then zip. I get a shot of water to take my meds tomorrow morning and then night night. I had to ask the doctor to place the port on my left side. It is kind freaking me out b/c he said he always put it on the right. I self doubt myself b/c what if he messed up and doesn't sew it in right, what if what if what if. I told him I could deal with having it near my pulled rib area, but he said it is fine. THEN to add to my stress he asked what band I wanted. He does the realize or lapband. I don't know which one to go with. I asked two people I highly respect in the band field.......they each suggested a different band. So here I go giving faith to my doctor to choose. He is going with the Lapband, but I so wonder if the support you get from the realize is better argh! I will research it today, but odds are just go with what he wants. I also have to decide it I am going to stay in the hospital or go home after a few hours. I don't make decisions well at all. So will just wait to see tomorrow.

May 8TH Atlanta Ga

I don't want to tell people about my surgery, at least not yet. I seriously worry that I will take awhile to lose ( always been a slow loser unless it is water weight). So many WLS people lose faster b/c they had the RNY. I just don't want people waiting like cats under my fish tank:-) I know it will come off. I know I will look amazing, I know but I don't know. Hope someone can relate. Today I am off to try and have tea with a friend. I realize so much of my life is surrounded by food, eating out with friends, celebrating everything with food, feeding my kids, loving to cook. Non of this will change, but I will control it. I just have to learn to cook the banded way:) and go for soup instead of a meal. Family parties.......putt putt golf;-)

I don't want to tell people about my surgery, at least not yet. I seriously worry that I will take awhile to lose ( always been a slow loser unless it is water weight). So many WLS people lose faster b/c they had the RNY. I just don't want people waiting like cats under my fish tank:-) I know it will come off. I know I will look amazing, I know but I don't know. Hope someone can relate. Today I am off to try and have tea with a friend. I realize so much of my life is surrounded by food, eating out with friends, celebrating everything with food, feeding my kids, loving to cook. Non of this will change, but I will control it. I just have to learn to cook the banded way:) and go for soup instead of a meal. Family parties.......putt putt golf;-)

YIKES I am nervous. I have waited so long for this surgery, and it is only 3 days away. Yet the dreams have kicked in again. This time about being in quick sand. I think it is more related to the article I read about bathtub beach......who knows. The nerves give me a giddery feeling. Like all my muscles are edgy, strange. My tummy is the same, very odd day indeed. Tried to eat less to start shrinking the stomach. Did well, but I am hungry. I didn't need to do the liquids, I guess because of how my fat is on my belly who knows. Tomorrow is a new day, lets hope it is better.

YIKES I am nervous. I have waited so long for this surgery, and it is only 3 days away. Yet the dreams have kicked in again. This time about being in quick sand. I think it is more related to the article I read about bathtub beach......who knows. The nerves give me a giddery feeling. Like all my muscles are edgy, strange. My tummy is the same, very odd day indeed. Tried to eat less to start shrinking the stomach. Did well, but I am hungry. I didn't need to do the liquids, I guess because of how my fat is on my belly who knows. Tomorrow is a new day, lets hope it is better.

I decided to use up some gift certificates this weekend. It was a bad bad weekend dealing with teens ( not mine, but need I say more). I ate Japanese and BBq. I am SOOOOOOOOOOOO swollen and in pain. My feet don't even look like they belong on the end of my feet. I hate the feeling and the fact people can see my deformed feet. Salt isn't my friend. Drinking isn't worth it, and frankly I need/want the change. Just being grumpy. I am jazzed about the surgery on Friday! ME

I decided to use up some gift certificates this weekend. It was a bad bad weekend dealing with teens ( not mine, but need I say more). I ate Japanese and BBq. I am SOOOOOOOOOOOO swollen and in pain. My feet don't even look like they belong on the end of my feet. I hate the feeling and the fact people can see my deformed feet. Salt isn't my friend. Drinking isn't worth it, and frankly I need/want the change. Just being grumpy. I am jazzed about the surgery on Friday! ME

I have made it through some of the rough and toxic things in my life this week. I ended my job working reservations for my neighborhood. That was huge for me. I always saw this as my way of not making a hole for myself in my house and not going out or meeting people. I had quit the social committee and board of directors earlier in the year. All that is left is the website and that is easy. I went to another meeting for WLS surgery. I still feel this is the best thing for me. I was worried, but know I have to for my life. My surgery is in 7 days and I am very blessed to have this chance in life. So I feel I am as ready for this change as I can make. I am back at the YMCA, have done 2 workouts, took today off since I have a huge blister. Will buy new shoes tomorrow so this won't keep happening.

I have made it through some of the rough and toxic things in my life this week. I ended my job working reservations for my neighborhood. That was huge for me. I always saw this as my way of not making a hole for myself in my house and not going out or meeting people. I had quit the social committee and board of directors earlier in the year. All that is left is the website and that is easy. I went to another meeting for WLS surgery. I still feel this is the best thing for me. I was worried, but know I have to for my life. My surgery is in 7 days and I am very blessed to have this chance in life. So I feel I am as ready for this change as I can make. I am back at the YMCA, have done 2 workouts, took today off since I have a huge blister. Will buy new shoes tomorrow so this won't keep happening.

:thumbup:UNJURY Chocolate Jell-O Pudding Pops Use Instant Sugar-Free Chocolate Jell-O Pudding1 , 1 oz box, makes 6 popsicles Use Jell-O Sugar Free Instant Pudding (Not Cooked), 4-serving package Measure 2 cups of cold skim milk following package directions. Add two scoops of Unflavored UNJURY to the two cups of cold milk. Thoroughly mix the UNJURY powder with the milk by shaking or stirring. Put the Jell-O Sugar Free Instant (Not Cooked) Dry Pudding Mix into a bowl. Add the UNJURY and milk mixture to the dry pudding mix. Stir for 2 minutes. Pour into 6 small paper cups (3 oz pudding per cup). Place popsicle stick in center of each cup.2 Put cups in freezer for 4 hours. Once popsicles have frozen, peel away the paper cup and enjoy! Nutrition Facts per 3 oz popsicle (makes 6): 10 grams protein, 9 grams carbohydrate, 4 grams sugar, 77 calories

:thumbup:UNJURY Chocolate Jell-O Pudding Pops Use Instant Sugar-Free Chocolate Jell-O Pudding1 , 1 oz box, makes 6 popsicles Use Jell-O Sugar Free Instant Pudding (Not Cooked), 4-serving package Measure 2 cups of cold skim milk following package directions. Add two scoops of Unflavored UNJURY to the two cups of cold milk. Thoroughly mix the UNJURY powder with the milk by shaking or stirring. Put the Jell-O Sugar Free Instant (Not Cooked) Dry Pudding Mix into a bowl. Add the UNJURY and milk mixture to the dry pudding mix. Stir for 2 minutes. Pour into 6 small paper cups (3 oz pudding per cup). Place popsicle stick in center of each cup.2 Put cups in freezer for 4 hours. Once popsicles have frozen, peel away the paper cup and enjoy! Nutrition Facts per 3 oz popsicle (makes 6): 10 grams protein, 9 grams carbohydrate, 4 grams sugar, 77 calories

I went to the Y today for a work out. I am so stress over some non band related personal issues, I thought it would help. I got to the elipitical and started my workout. There were not too many people around, so I felt ok. Almost as soon as I stated my slow workout, someone came up beside me. He jumped in and zwoosh he was running full tilt on his machine next to me. Now I support his workout, but it make me seem like a slug to a rabbit LOL. I did step up a bit, but got a cramp and thought I was being STUPID. Someone was walking off a cramp and I could feel them looking at me ech time he passed me. My mind went to the old me "wow she is big, look how slow............you get the idea" . I couldn't do the positive self talk thinking they are saying "good for her exercising, her heart will thank her etc"...... So I cranked up my music and started thinking of my new life ignoring them all. I am 99.9% done with the stuff in my neighborhood and will soon be stressfree. I can not WAIT whew. I thought of my new friends for the remainder of the 30 minutes. In 2 months I have learned so much about my band and made some new friends. It is cool because they didn't know who I was before the band so much. Sure they know some, but for the most part they are getting to know the real me. The future me and going through the same journey. They are people who will know the hell you go through when you get the slimming or how much it hurts when you get a fill ( I hate needles). My life is enriched with the new friends I have made and will make in the journey. Tomorrow I will go back and do some weights. I am excited as I haven't done weights in a year. It is always amazing how strong you feel after you are done. Even if I don't lift much, it is a positive step for me. I can't WAIT to start seeing some positive results!