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called today, it's 200$ for a fill PLUS $66 for the office visit. i can not post pone my dentist appointment, i NEED this tooth filling. we are making payments. and i didnt mean just one fill. i'm pretty sure my band is getting rotten, cause its been there for ahwile and hasnt done much. it seemed that my docotor isnt all that concerned cause he never checked up on me after i got my surgery, and still doesn't. i was dry heaving at the begining and they didnt check to see if it went out of place or whatever(if it can with dry heaving). im pretty sure all they want was their money. to me it works in its own way eventhough i have no fill...if i eat too fast it lets me know..to slow down or throw the food away.. but i have told my doctor when i use to go for the monthly checkups whats going on and every thing. november 11th was my last vist before i no longer had insurance. that was the ending month of my nausea, i would have gotten my first fill that day if i wasnt so nauseated, but now thats gone and yes i desperately need a fill.. there is no other doctor around here, the closest is vermont and it stills costs $$ to go over there, the next one i heard of is NYC and thats 6 hours away dont call me a failure cause you dont think im giving it my all, you should be giving me props cause im in my last year of high school and trying to do everything right and dealing with a bunch of crap..i should get props for losing 36 pounds and not gaining more that 2 and then losing that 2 i like what BetsyB said "ETA: A final thought: If you really aren't willing or able to make a fill (or, more likely, series of fills) a priority, there is NO reason why you can't eat as though you have restriction. Many of us who are not yet at our sweet spots eat as though we were. We choose lean Proteins, nonstarchy veggies, fruit, heart-healthy fats--all in moderation. We weigh and measure our portions, and when they're gone, we stop. Even if we are still hungry. Even if the person across from us is eating something that looks good to us, and that we want to share."

1. im not sure if i heard it right but the fills might be 180$ 2. i'm going to ask my mom to call while im in school tomorrow cause i forgot what time they close 3. he does his fills in the office 4. this is the place i got my band surgery and is the only place around here that i know of that has lapband surgery 5. i seriously do need this fill or two, i need to get my teeth bill out of the way first 6. maybe my mom and i can come up with a plan 7.i do have a job, right now i'm saving up for something ive wanted for awhile, i probably wont be getting one untill after graduation 8.i have a lot of things i want to save up for, yes this is one of them 9.the school does have a counceling service i think, but i just dont feel comfortable and when i talk face to face i mess up my words and i feel embarrassed so yeah, if it really is 180, thats not bad, i know we can definitely come up with a plan for that, i will see if my mom will call them up. my mom really wants to get back on track too and i think shes going to start buying better foods since we got this helpful book to help us, but god...thanks (:

hey, so i am getting so lost and i cant find my way back. i've been lost for ahwile. i am not doing well with this band, i feel hungry all the time and the worst part is that im hungry RIGHT after i ate. i need a fill so badly but i have no insurance still, to pay for it and i have no money in my pocket..i keep forgetting to chew slowly and then getting the productive burp i think...i feel like i'm falling apart on everything. if anything i gained 3 pounds and i'm getting discouraged pretty badly, i am also very stressed with school, i feel like i have to get all my grades above 95 (i am already a high honor roll student), and i'm stressing that i'm going to fail, i'm stressing that i'm going to forget to hand something in on time, and one of my classes is really frustrating to me, the teacher is moving to colorado this summer to teach at a college and she misses fridays and mondays and i cant learn that stuff unless someone teaches me, i have hard time reading directions like those (this is an advanced computer applications). i dont know, im just really stressed and have no time to really think about what im doing. but i'm really hating the fact that i feel so hungry right after i eat. and i looked at some clothes yesturday that i liked and im like "i'll never fit in those" and i saw myself in the mirror today and GOD i looked horrible in the new top i got which i love, i hate how my body is, it's discusting, i feel the most discouraged/upset by the fact that i didnt try hard enough because by now i should've been 20-30 pounds away from my goal weight and im deffinitely nowhere near close, i didnt try hard enough, theres so many temptations that need to be thrown away or something and everyone should start eating healthier in this house. i wanted to be at or close to goal weight by graduation(june 26th 2010) and that got blown up, i feel super sad about that =/, i like..hate myself for not focussing better. and this head of mine..ughhhh! i'd like a new mind please, it feels like its getting to full of things to remember, to do, and things like that arghhh , i dont know what to do, people say to make it a daily routine but it doesnt seem like itll happen...i have plans for the summer for fun exercises so i hope that happens, hope to be down to goal by the end of the year =/

but wait, you only get a 5day free trial? on thedailyplate website?

thedailyplate.com is the website i was looking for! i remember seening this one on the threads thanks everyone (:

michael, do you think it'll work on iPod touch too? Cutie, it might actually be that website

hey, so someone told me about this website that calculates your calories or something like that a few time before on here, if you know what i'm talking about please send the website url this way please. but first, if you use this site, do think it helps you with your weightloss better than writing it down on paper? is it free to join? does it give you any other tips?

well i guess i wont be seeing doctors for a loooonnnng time then, i planned not going to go to college(always been what i wanted) and i dont plan moving out since i feel safer at home..

JaxNole88- 19, yes, college no, still in high school, last year Melinco- thanks (:

im sorry for posting again but i just got denied by another health insurance! only because the income is too high. i live at home. i need a health insurance that covers basically everything, cause i dont have the money to pay them back. i guess since im living at home, they go by what my parents make. so dumb. please help me look for one

thats what im going to do, since i dont really need it, why have it. without any fills, i dont feel restriction, i feel hungry all the time and i crave for the bad stuff, mainly chocolate, i was supposed to hear news from another insurance company last week and they never called so i have to wait another 3 days cause we had to re-submit it, i hope i can get it so i can finally get the fills going and so i can go to the docs when i need to. the dentist will probably take a chunk of money this week..eek since my teeth been bothering me. i wish i could have done better, i think i would have been past two goals by now =/ oatmeal is just a food that doesnt agree with my stomach in the morning but i can eat eggs with no problem, it seems like i can never find anything and im not sure if i should have Protein shakes in the morning since it usually makes me sick the habbits, i try my best, i give myself 20-30 mins to eat, i need to start eating on a smaller plate again and i want to get smaller forks and spoons like someone else said before. the one thing that went off wack is not drinking with meals...i do drink with meals again and thats what i have to STOP doing i know. i agree, it makes things fun and youre not alone so you have someone to talk to and stuff

i also want to say that when i get all excited about working out and everything, the next minute i feel discouraged like "you'll never get there, so you should just forget it!" i hate this, ever since i got my last birthcontrol shot, everything seems to come out so negative, i hate it!! no matter what i think about it all turns out negative like for school "you're going to fail so you better not get your hopes up" i dont know why my mind is acting up like this, is it like a side affect from the bc shot? ive been on it since feb 2008 and i revieved my last shot on feb 1st 2010(not gettin it anymore) its driving me insane, makes everyday seem like a struggle...a part of me seems to say that its cause im still fat, single, and lonely is why i feel this way but still...i have no idea why it would be doing this to me, maybe i had enough? heh hope it some how goes away soon!!

my surgeon set a goal of 145 for me but i want to secretly be down to 120-125 because 145 is still in the overweight range on the BMI scale for my height (i am very short btw, 5'1")

i feel confused but im most likely not. i think im more confused on what to eat in the morning since i'm not in the mood for anything so i just go with toast with butter,cinnamon and sugar on it, yeahhhh i know its not healthy but for one thing, i believe it keeps me full for 5-7 hours and i believe it keeps me from getting nauseous. i only really need help with Breakfast foods and everytime i want eggs i get this feeling in my stomach like eww when i try to go make it and i feel that i dont like oatmeal or cream of wheat anymore. but hey i have some good news, like i said before i started working out, last week i worked out 4 days and yesturday i played some bad mitten and frisbee. i weighed myself yesturday and it said i lost 2 pounds (: mon and tues i workedout with biggest loser wii game, friday i worked out using the jillian michaels 30 day shred with my bros gf, and then we went for a 2 mile walk, saturday i walked from my house to the park with a friend to play tennis which is a 2.5 mile walk and then we decided to walk to downtown which i believe is 6 miles altogether, i walked in flip flops so i couldnt walk back, my ankles killed I STILL DONT HAVE ANY FILLS my bros gf and i have a plan to workout M.T.W.TH.F but i guess i have to do mons and wednesdays by myself cause she has class till 3(college) also, my friend and i are planning on walking from my house to downtown everyweek (pretty sure its 6 miles) so heres my workout plan, i feel like its not enough, if you think of anything to add please tell me M: Biggest Loser cardio max 30 mins and walk to the store and back or half way down irish settlement road T: Jillian Michaels 30 day shred and BL cardio max/2 mile walk/same as mon W: BL cardio max 30 mins and walk to store and back/ same as monday TH: Jillian Michaels 30 day shred and BL cardio max/2 mile walk/same as mon F: walk from my house to downtown(pretty sure its 6 miles) only if its nice and if not do BL cardio not sure what else to do with that, if not nice this day, walk to DT tomorrow SAT: jillian michaels 30 day shred and BL cardio/2 mile walk or same as monday. Sun: walk 3 miles (walk to the park 2.5 miles, walk back home 2.5 miles) it really does help when you have someone doing this with you, it makes things so much better and so much more motivating!

congrats! cant wait till i get to my goal. i agree with others, get some pictures!

youre welcome, i didnt get the insurance so pooo ): but im going to be exercising after this. what i seriously need to do is, get my eating habbits under control, thats my biggest prob i think. yeah this is my worst last year of high school, im doing extremely well and all but i missed a lot at the begining due to the nausea that i recieved from the surgery, it lasted for 2 and a half months, it got so bad where i couldnt stand or sit up but second semester they reset the absent dates so im only at 3 or 4 days missed this semester so far and you could only miss 15, anything over that you automatically fail, you dont get to graduate. so thats what im stressing about the most, i get everything in on time, ill freak out if i miss something and probably have a melt down. well im glad it helped you :thumbup:

so tomorrow (monday), my mom has an appointment with the insurance company that i want to get at 9am, wish i can go but i have school so they will be able to tell her if i am getting it at the appointment, and shell text me. so i hope i do get it so i can finally get my first fill! and so i can go to the dentist cause my teeth have been bothering me badly lately. im really excited but i shouldnt get my hopes up. anywho, i need to admit that i havent been doing well with many things. 1. havent been controling myself of what i eat and i feel like ive been eating too much yet i havent gained or lost anything. 2. i started working out, did 3 days last week, im hoping i can do it 5 days this week or more, how many days do you guys do it? 3. school has been very stressfull with this budget project we just did ugh. theres been a lot of things going through my head i hate it!! it feels like my mind is stopping me from doing anything my mind feels so messed up it hurts! >.< argh, i hope i get this insurance (:

heyy, awesome!! :tt1: and dont be scared, youll do fine

sorry, idk just a lil paranoid? newho, was wondering if i do the biggest loser cardio max and the biggest loser power sculpt twice a day and walk 1-2 times a day, 5 days a week, what do i do when 6 im done with 6 weeks because its a 6 week thing, might buy the boot camp but what i do after that anybody doing the shayloss weightloss challenge? sorry i cant think of what i want to write now

i also think that hannging a pair of jeans i thought were going to fit but actually didnt when i got home would motivate me. i have them in 18s and im wearing a size 18 in the same brand is why i thought theyd fit. like how would i hang it? anyhow, BobbieND- thanks (: ... i get hungry quicker cause i never had a fill since i got the band but even so, i havent gained more than 5 pounds, but sometimes i lose 5 and gain it back like its yo-yoing. clothes are a great motivator and i bought some goal clothes in 08 but i think im going to do it like size 18, 15, 12/13, etc i just feel like i need a lil more support i think, thats why i posted this

because i can't get myself motivated to lose weight for nothing! i cant motivate myself to write out my cals and Protein like i did before surgery, i cant even motivate myself to exercise. i want to do all this, what is stopping me?! its so frustrating. it makes it hard when nobody helps you either, my mom wants to start eating healthier again but she says its hard when nobody eats the healthy stuff but she also said that shes going to do it and if they dont like it, then go without. which sounds good to me, why hasnt it happened yet? she said when she buys healthy food for us and them other food, they eat our healthy food! which makes her angry and i think thats kind of why it hasn't happened yet. i push myself i really do but i also feel like im pushing myself not to. i feel like a failure. i set up a challenge for myself and i havent even started it yet! :smile2: [the challenge is in my blog] when i see someone bigger than me i always say "i dont wanna get like that" to motivate me or "i need to get this weightloss going so i can fit into my cuter clothes/but cuter clothes" and i always say im going to exercise but i dont and it makes me so frustrated, what is holding me back?! can you guys help me or something??

ok hey, sorry for bringing this thread back up but i didnt wanna get hell for posting a new thread but i thought about it today and i think i came to the conclusion as to why im having these bad thought. the top reason is the depo birth control shot. the next top one and i think its the main one: STRESS! for one, i think im getting stressed that we're going to be playing volley ball for a month in gym which i always seem to ave bad experiences with it. for two and the most is that i am seriously worried about failing(eventhough i have good grades). it is second semester now. we get two social and english classes but theyre both half credits because first semester i had government for social and syfy/fantasy for english. now it being second semester i have economics and history of mystery for english and by the end of the year it counts as one credit but the only class im seriously worried about is economics. second semester started not too long ago (im pretty sure it started on february 1st, cant remember) we had two tests so far and the one we had today, i failed by 4 points, i even studied 3 times. what worries me the most is that we NEED this class to graduate. if you fail it, you do not graduate. another thing that scares me to death is that if you miss more than 15 days this semester you also dont graduate. im at 3 days so far and i had to be out those days cause i had a UTI, nausea and in slight pain, i was uncomfortable. and im scared that im going to fail :smile2::w00t::sad: what makes it harder is that my resource teacher (special ed/services teacher) she helps me understand things way better than anybody else and she not going to be back til next year because she had her baby with C-section (im not sure if shes coming back before graduation or not) i need her! also like i said before, it could be because i got my heart broken 2nd (or 3rd time) time. and it can be because my friend lost her baby. i know its all of that that's doing this to my mind! but yeah i think im getting these thoughts because im so stressed about school. i hope they go away though. and about depo, im planning on not getting it anymore eventhough i said i was going to get the last dose that i have, but im not, if i dont need it then im not going to keep taking it, ya know? im gonna stay off of birth control for awhile, it would make more sense to be on it if i had a boyfriend, ya know? but yup ugh, the littles that can do things to your mind.

thanks (: i hope you get approved, you should let me know when you do. this will be all worth it in the end, you will be starting your new life

should i take Biotin or b-12? do i need to tell anyone? anyways, my nutritionist told me to EAT my Protein and not to drink it. and i can never drink protein shakes again, they always make me sick but atkins are ok and slim fast but idk reason why i ask about the hair part is because i am lightening(bleaching) my hair to dye it a purple color and im worried itll fall out all the way for some reason and i need to start getting that protein in before spring break, i plan on dying it at the end of spring break ahh and reason why i asked about calories is b/c i set up a chellenge for myself to lose 45-58 pounds by june 12th or june 26 and im worried it wont happen cause 1. i have no fill and i wont be getting one soon, 2. i feel like i cant motivate myself enough, 3. i want to workout but when i do my mind says "i dont feel like it" anymore i know i need to push myself better but i cannnnnttt

so i'm not sure exactly when senior banquet is, but i heard it was june 12th. and graduation is june 26th. so i want to challenge myself to lose between 45-58 pounds by senior banquet, and if i get almost there by senior banquet, hope to get there by graduation. is it doable to lose 45-58 pounds by then? how many cals should i be having a day since i have no fills because i dont have insurance right now and it doesnt look like i will be getting one anytime soon everytime i want to workout, i end up "not feeling like it anymore" and i know i have to push myself to do it, but it dont work. so i dont know how this is going to work out. can someone motivate me everyday or something? i want to hang up a goal outfit but its not going to happen cause i have no room on my walls and on a hanger doesnt look as motivating. and one more thing, you can also join me if you want (: