Lily66

Things to really think about. I'm pre-op, and doing a ton of research, thinking, and reflection on past attempts. I think I have a lot of anger around my weight. Mostly about that thin people seem to be able to eat whatever tf they want, but if I eat the same things, I gain. It's frustrating that I see to have gotten dealt the crap lot. I've lost 90 lbs a few times in my life, and always gain it back plus some. I'm at my highest weight ever now, and am at the point where I can't exercise to help get it off anymore (pain from fibromyalgia and a screwed up foot). I need the WLS just so I can exercise again. Now that I've hit the highest point (weight), I feel like I'm at the lowest point (mentally). Just writing that right now made me cry [emoji17]

Hi everyone!

Hope you had a good week and that this one will be amazing too!
This week, I am thankful to be on vacation for 4 days in one of my favorite places.


I’m thankful for the weight I have lost making it so I don’t get winded and have to stop repeatedly while carrying my luggage.
I’m thankful that I’ll be able to keep very close to on plan while on vacation thanks to careful preparation.
And I am so thankful to be out of the office and away from that stress until Friday.
How about you?

I'm thankful for family & friends but I'm super thankful for a very kind BF that provides me the space to be ABSOLUTELY ridiculous and still likes me 😂

For breakfast a Turkey+cheese+salad+kimchi wrap on a low carb tortilla
I ate about 60% then got bored (full) 🤣
 
Boring but tasty salad for lunch today

Went to our local farm today and picked some apples off the trees and I bought five spaghetti squash’s they freeze beautiful. I put them in one and two oz containers. And I toasted up some of the seeds for Snacks. I only cooked 2 squash so I have three left. Yum this is my favorite I mix it with everything. Best part there so fresh and they taste sooo much better then the ones you find in supermarkets.

Black bean quesadilla on Low carb tortilla with light sour cream

I do not and I’m very happy with my results. I’m attaching two photos - one from the night before my surgery in November 2016 where you can see from the drawn lines what was being removed, and one I took just a moment ago in regular daylight. You can see from the recent photo that the surgeon went all the way down to the elbow; he also went all the way up through my armpit almost to my bra band. Hope this helps!

Not only did I have "bat wings" I had the same thing on my forearm with a pocket of fat at the elbow. When he was marking me he showed me what would be left if he only went to the elbow...a lower arm smaller 'batwing." I told him I didn't care if he went to my wrist, I didn't want that left. So, I have an extended brachioplasty. The incision goes from my bra line, through my armpit all the way down past my elbow to midway to my wrist. I'll take a scar over hanging skin any day! I still have a lot of swelling (6 weeks post op tomorrow) but I love the shape of my arms!

Congratulations on 100 lbs. down!!! Woo-Hoo! Celebrate that every single moment! YOU ARE DOING AMAZING! I can understand your feelings, and it could be partly what you mention, hormones, stress, etc. BUT, it remains, you’ve worked very hard and are being VERY SUCCESSFUL!
You’re not alone in feeling down some days...add in Covid restrictions and concerns along with everything else and it feels normal that we have a bit of that. What isn’t okay, is that last week I was feeling down and ate 5 of hubby’s Hershey nuggets when not even hungry😳! Old behavior that reared it’s ugly head and I caved. I made a list of healthier options for those moments...brush my teeth to change the taste, walk around, wait at least 20 minutes to decide if it’s worth it, put on a fave TV program or music, reach out to a friend, log into Baripal, ANYTHING except cave. The key for us is to FOCUS ON OUR SUCCESS and not the down moments. WHERE THOUGHTS GO, ENERGY FLOWS.
I asked my surgeon why I have not lost more “visible” weight, as you describe. I sure don’t look like I’ve lost 55 lbs., some friends don’t even notice. He explained that we lose from the inside of our bodies out. So the weight you have lost is the most dangerous to your health—- the fat we have wrapped around our internal organs, the deep more lethal fat. In my case, it was the deep belly fat. This is exactly what we want to lose first, in getting to a healthier place. I am only now beginning to see the more surface changes. Keep on keepin’ on and don’t lose the faith. IT IS HAPPENING FOR YOU!!!
Again, CONGRATULATIONS!!🏆👑💖

Hugs and all best to you ahillig! It does sound so puzzling this far out. Good luck and please keep us posted.💖

Congratulations on 100 lbs. down!!! Woo-Hoo! Celebrate that every single moment! YOU ARE DOING AMAZING! I can understand your feelings, and it could be partly what you mention, hormones, stress, etc. BUT, it remains, you’ve worked very hard and are being VERY SUCCESSFUL!
You’re not alone in feeling down some days...add in Covid restrictions and concerns along with everything else and it feels normal that we have a bit of that. What isn’t okay, is that last week I was feeling down and ate 5 of hubby’s Hershey nuggets when not even hungry😳! Old behavior that reared it’s ugly head and I caved. I made a list of healthier options for those moments...brush my teeth to change the taste, walk around, wait at least 20 minutes to decide if it’s worth it, put on a fave TV program or music, reach out to a friend, log into Baripal, ANYTHING except cave. The key for us is to FOCUS ON OUR SUCCESS and not the down moments. WHERE THOUGHTS GO, ENERGY FLOWS.
I asked my surgeon why I have not lost more “visible” weight, as you describe. I sure don’t look like I’ve lost 55 lbs., some friends don’t even notice. He explained that we lose from the inside of our bodies out. So the weight you have lost is the most dangerous to your health—- the fat we have wrapped around our internal organs, the deep more lethal fat. In my case, it was the deep belly fat. This is exactly what we want to lose first, in getting to a healthier place. I am only now beginning to see the more surface changes. Keep on keepin’ on and don’t lose the faith. IT IS HAPPENING FOR YOU!!!
Again, CONGRATULATIONS!!🏆👑💖

i bought some sugar free candy to have for those cravings where they won't go away.
sometimes a Protein Shake will help -- or some zero sugar Vitamin water.. depending on my craving.

Greek yogurt! So many yummy flavors! Apple Pie, pumpkin Pie, strawberry Cheesecake, etc!

The Jello Sugar Free Chocolate and vanilla swirl Snacks have been a life safe saver for my sweet cravings.

Congratulations on 100 lbs. down!!! Woo-Hoo! Celebrate that every single moment! YOU ARE DOING AMAZING! I can understand your feelings, and it could be partly what you mention, hormones, stress, etc. BUT, it remains, you’ve worked very hard and are being VERY SUCCESSFUL!
You’re not alone in feeling down some days...add in Covid restrictions and concerns along with everything else and it feels normal that we have a bit of that. What isn’t okay, is that last week I was feeling down and ate 5 of hubby’s Hershey nuggets when not even hungry😳! Old behavior that reared it’s ugly head and I caved. I made a list of healthier options for those moments...brush my teeth to change the taste, walk around, wait at least 20 minutes to decide if it’s worth it, put on a fave TV program or music, reach out to a friend, log into Baripal, ANYTHING except cave. The key for us is to FOCUS ON OUR SUCCESS and not the down moments. WHERE THOUGHTS GO, ENERGY FLOWS.
I asked my surgeon why I have not lost more “visible” weight, as you describe. I sure don’t look like I’ve lost 55 lbs., some friends don’t even notice. He explained that we lose from the inside of our bodies out. So the weight you have lost is the most dangerous to your health—- the fat we have wrapped around our internal organs, the deep more lethal fat. In my case, it was the deep belly fat. This is exactly what we want to lose first, in getting to a healthier place. I am only now beginning to see the more surface changes. Keep on keepin’ on and don’t lose the faith. IT IS HAPPENING FOR YOU!!!
Again, CONGRATULATIONS!!🏆👑💖

Congratulations on 100 lbs. down!!! Woo-Hoo! Celebrate that every single moment! YOU ARE DOING AMAZING! I can understand your feelings, and it could be partly what you mention, hormones, stress, etc. BUT, it remains, you’ve worked very hard and are being VERY SUCCESSFUL!
You’re not alone in feeling down some days...add in Covid restrictions and concerns along with everything else and it feels normal that we have a bit of that. What isn’t okay, is that last week I was feeling down and ate 5 of hubby’s Hershey nuggets when not even hungry😳! Old behavior that reared it’s ugly head and I caved. I made a list of healthier options for those moments...brush my teeth to change the taste, walk around, wait at least 20 minutes to decide if it’s worth it, put on a fave TV program or music, reach out to a friend, log into Baripal, ANYTHING except cave. The key for us is to FOCUS ON OUR SUCCESS and not the down moments. WHERE THOUGHTS GO, ENERGY FLOWS.
I asked my surgeon why I have not lost more “visible” weight, as you describe. I sure don’t look like I’ve lost 55 lbs., some friends don’t even notice. He explained that we lose from the inside of our bodies out. So the weight you have lost is the most dangerous to your health—- the fat we have wrapped around our internal organs, the deep more lethal fat. In my case, it was the deep belly fat. This is exactly what we want to lose first, in getting to a healthier place. I am only now beginning to see the more surface changes. Keep on keepin’ on and don’t lose the faith. IT IS HAPPENING FOR YOU!!!
Again, CONGRATULATIONS!!🏆👑💖

I’ve been feeling a bit down lately. I’m almost 8 months post op and so close to 100 lbs down. This past week I gained 4 lbs and it’s really getting to me. Despite losing so much, I still have 100 to go, and I don’t really see where the 100 lbs has come from. I feel so much better physically, but I feel like I look so weird. I’ve gone down only 3 pant sizes and only lost 1 inch around my calves, which seems crazy for a 100 (almost) lb loss. And I have huge calves to start with. (24 inches!!) I don’t know if it’s hormones, stress from work, or if this is a typical feeling at this point in the journey. Any advice or suggestions?

I'm currently in the hospital because I believe I had some food stuck in my pouch. Yesterday at work I had leftovers from the previous nights dinner for lunch. Now, it went down just fine the night before. I ate about 4 small pieces of the grilled chicken, maybe 2 oz total, and from that point on I had nothing but excruciating pain and I would vomit every time I tried to drink so much as a sip of Water. I only ever vomited a handful of times in the entire year since surgery it was always a one and done deal, I tolerated everything very well and never had strictures or anything like that so this was a bit ridiculous.

I ended up leaving work (as an ER nurse) to go to the ER of the hospital I had my surgery done at and got a cocktail that relaxed things enough to let whatever was stuck pass. They admitted me because I was dehydrated and I still had residual pain in my upper belly. X-rays all showed that all pathways were clear so there isn't anything stuck anywhere else. I'm still here though because it hurts to drink more than 1-2tbsp at a time and I'm scared to try more because it hurts. Hopefully I can go home tomorrow, but while I'm here it's back to Clear Liquids. 😥
I have no clue what happened for things to get stuck but it felt awful. Never imagined I'd be here with these issues over a year out (August 2019 was my surgery).

😅I’m still at the baggy underwear stage, and love it! Lol. Ahhh, simple pleasures. Pre-op I would never, ever put panties in the dryer...now, I have to shrink them all I can and still baggy. Trying to get closer to goal before buying new ones. I inwardly smile and Celebrate my baggie panties!🤩💃

Thanks, @lynnlovesthebeach. You nailed it, my concern is members of the group would judge, whisper, gossip, undermine in not understanding that we, too, still very much have to work at it. Many have gone to my local one for years and have become a tight group. The social aspect is not my interest and intent-it’s the accountability and frankly, they do offer quite healthy plans when you leave out sugar, processed foods. I may look into it soon. Thanks again🌟.

@Lily66I didn't share at WW except with two friends that had the sleeve. I felt like I would be judged. There are people in my workshop that talk about their WLS. You would be surprised how many do both. Trust me, as long as you pay your money I don't think they really care what you are doing. WW is a tool, WLS is a tool. One can never have too many tools! Because I incorporate my WLS guidelines I find it easy to stick to WW. I did share about my plastics because that's a impossible to hide if you get good results. Plus, I told everyone that was my gift to myself for finally reaching goal!

I’ve been on and off WW over the decade...and thinking of joining back at some point. I’ve kept my WLS very, very private, only hubby, and 2 close friends know. Wondering if others share their WLS at WW or can we just maintain our confidentiality there as well? That’s one thing holding me back from WW...feeling guilty🙄 not revealing my new tool, but truly? It should not matter, right? During pre-op with surgeon, I showed him over $1,000 in WW receipts over the decade-told him I always feared I’d be in real trouble if I ever stopped, but yo yoed for certain. After all that, achieving and MAINTAINING Lifetime would be very helpful to stay accountable.

I’ve been on and off WW over the decade...and thinking of joining back at some point. I’ve kept my WLS very, very private, only hubby, and 2 close friends know. Wondering if others share their WLS at WW or can we just maintain our confidentiality there as well? That’s one thing holding me back from WW...feeling guilty🙄 not revealing my new tool, but truly? It should not matter, right? During pre-op with surgeon, I showed him over $1,000 in WW receipts over the decade-told him I always feared I’d be in real trouble if I ever stopped, but yo yoed for certain. After all that, achieving and MAINTAINING Lifetime would be very helpful to stay accountable.

Drop dead GORGEOUS! Our mysterious Bond girl strikes again. Soft and clingy... you wear it well. I adore you in red!

Chef salad before/after. Will eat the rest for lunch tomorrow!