Frustr8

Erinshay are you in West Virginia? If you are, Mousecat is also, if not I just wanted to say hi from Central Ohio!

I think @ Danny Paul is either a member or has attended there a lot. Said they have helped him.

Do you have a flavor in life you really like? Make an INFUSION with that, have someone who likes cucumbers, she puts slices in her drinking water, another likes lemon, so lemon or citrus slices, another ( shudder) ❤ loves watermelon, pureed some up and made watermelon-ade, see I think All Melon is yucky and makes me puke! Told Anvie, don't breathe on me or I shall hurl and you're not going to like THAT!

Try your nearest State university hospital, they probably still do them. I know there a bunch-and- 3/4s hospitals in Your Area, but the first one that comes into my mind is Tufts, but I bet Brigham and Women's is also good. You're lucky to have so many, I have to travel 50 miles to Columbus Ohio to get a decent Bariatric Hospital.Mind you, I am not sorry, these people are wonderful, they do stilllap-band although that was not my surgery of choice.

A little fear, a little disquieted, that's cool, Just don't let Fear tuck you into his hind picket and keep you there. You were not made to be Fearful but Victorious, remember that and you will make IT so!

Well I put in an order for a Terrific Tuesday, but let's see what I can do to insure that! This is an every- other-day week for me. Yesterday was Urology. My former urologist Dr Clemens decided to confine his practice to Franklin County and Columbus so I now belong to his partner, Dr Jed Henry. Seems very nice, a little older(42) than Dr Clemens but still young enough to be my kid. That happens a lot when you're 73. Going to call me back on Wednesday with a proper antibiotic instead of prescribing an antibiotic willy- Billy. Said I don't like the color and consistency of your urine, well Duh, I don't either, and that's why I came in. We had a good laugh at the expense of my PCP who told me last Thursday he would give me a 5 day script for Microbid and never faxed it over to Wal-Mart, my usual pharmacy. If I knew he was gonna forget, I should have asked for a hand-written script, He's only 50 or so, young for senility, maybe a transient stupid attack? Wednesday I also go over to my local hospital, Knox Community aka the "Band-Aid Station" dubbed this by the Columbus hospitals. They have a habit of treating what they want and sending the rest by land or helicopter transport to Columbus. Hence the sarcasm. When I was getting ready for my endoscopy on April 12th, the anesthesia doctor had a low-grade hissy because she heard a Frank heart murmer. Had my PCP. talked with me about it? Well he MIGHT have mentioned it but I thought it was mild, functional and probably part of aging. She still was a less' than- happy - camper, would not let her resident do my sedation, did it herself, and must have sent a little note to PCP because I got more cardiac testing tomorrow at 1 pm. Oh Happy Happy Joy ? Joy! Then on Friday I see my ENT, Dr Suzie Helming, she is a really sweet person. I have had a noticable huskiness coming over my voice, usually a high alto/low soprano quality. Now I think I sound like Lauren Bacall & why is this? Is it the culmative effect of all those years of Gerd, is my recently found thyroid nodule pressing on a vocal cord, could it have some sort of heredity basis, my late Mama was also husky- sounding the last few years of her life( died 16 years ago at 87, I was 57 then) or could it be something else? Saw her hubby Dr Jarrett, the orthopaedic surgeon, he did my 1st knee in 2014. Asked why I was sitting outside the office building on a bench, told him about going to visit his wife on Friday, we joked about that I didn't have to go to such lengths to see here, he had pictures on his wallet of her and the kids. Their daughter Charleigh is petite like her, but poor child, she otherwise looks just like her daddy. Maybe she'll outgrow it? Must going to be 3 in June, and their son Dylan, gosh I do not see a resemblance to either of them. The last picture I saw of him, he looked like Suzie had gone somewhere for Donor IVF, maybe he resembles Suzie's Dad or Jarrett's Mama? Funny how genes work! One of the cousins, Brandee, on late hubby side, spitting image of their Aunt Lois, but her grandma Aunt Woneta and Aunt Lois looked nothing alike. My hubby was the son of the oldest sister Faye, then came Aunt Ruth ,Aunt Lois and lastly Aunt Woneta. If you saw them on the street, didn't know them, you would never suspect they were sisters. So we Will see how this week pans out. And next week on the 30th I go to Columbus to be seen at the Bariatric Clinic , my paperwork says I see Dr Noria, my surgeons partner, but one of the nurses I spoke to the other day said No I merely see Valerie the head Nurse- Practitioner. Well no big thing either way! In the meantime celebrating being down to 228 from alk- time high of 365+, I say + because I got to the point I would not get on a scale unless you jabbed me with a sharpened stick. Knew all scales carried a grudge and wouldn't say anything nice about me! Suffice it to say my BMI was in the 50s and now it's mid 30s and lowering by the day! Yippee Skipee Yahoo!?????

Well let us know how things are going now that you are de-ballooned, did your hubby have his removed and how is he doing?

#23I- tried texting Ellie 123, I think she must be doing so good she has gone inactive. Good for her but I miss her on here! ?

You're moving right along, let's hope everything else goes smoothly so your surgery can happen!???

And no matter how early or late in the Day it is for your Surgery, He's already up, on the job and watching over YOU!❤ And you will not die of malnutrition, your doctor's will intervene before that happens. I was at risk, had 3 months of TPN being fed through an arm vein 12 hours daily, came out fine, sassy as ever, lost 30 pounds in a month, might not duplicate that but I am still losing but in a healthier way. There is nothing to fear, had multiple operations but this was by far the easiest. And although my recovery has not been classic it still isn't THAT BAD, could never have lost what I have on diet alone. Precious Pouch is a cruel taskmistress at times, but she and I will be a duo until my death, and I don't plan that for anytime soon. You are going to do fine , if I can do it at 72 it should be easy- peasy for you. Stop looking for calamity, just cross your bridges, nobody asked you to build overpasses, side ramps and round-abouts. And if you need to talk I'm almost always here!

How many times have I heard " Well, everything LOOKS fine" and I tell them not everything feels fine or works fine, 80% of the time I am the one correct! Pretty good gambling odds, if you don't feel in your gut things aren't RIGHT, trust it, often your mind can be fooled but you have an inate wisdom about YOURSELF.

I got scared about 50 pounds sooner but I felt the same things. And now I am down to 228. a dream I find I don't want to end, I will see this through until I am thinner and a winner! Ooh I do like that rhyming mantra!

And guys maybe I will be joining you in Hashimoto Land. Still testing, still no official confirmation, no announcement, no Frustr8 you definitely have______, but it will come, this I believe. Remember if Doctors got everything right, then it would no longer be called " practice", would it? I have urologist this afternoon, heart scans, fun and games Wednesday, see the ENT doctor Friday and next Tuesday see my Bariatric surgeon, unless he sends Valerie, his chief Nurse- Practitioner as proxy. And thus ends April for me!

Some days you feel like the mythical Sissyphus, pushing that heavy rock up that hill. Nothing easy when you are in this fight, wagering your future life that this can be done. There are trade-offs to,lose everything in life, what are yours? Less weight for me, the lowering of arthritic pain, not getting stuck in seats, not having to ask others to pull me out, smaller cuter clothes, in my former size the were black, liver, mustard and nausea green large prints. Not being the literal butt of everyone's jokes, being able to stand looking in mirrors, even finding one that got all of me in was a problem too. But most of all, being proud of ME and what I have accomplished, keeps making me want to continue. And now I am more than 2/3rds of the way toward my goals, I just might make it, if not I at least know I tried!

If a gallstone migrated into the pancreatic duct, oh yeah! Blockage is blockage ,baby, to channel Austin Powers! And it is a pain of pains, other poster was blessed herrs was diagnosed with bloody stool. Mine started with vomiting, after going i,to dry heaves that didn't stop, I was curled into a fetal ball, trying to guard my abdomen, I hurt so bad I was praying for the release of death where the pain would be gone, didn't matter at that point that my eartly existance would be over, just wanted to be with God and beyond all this. Believed if God really loved me, He Would Release my Spirit so I Could be With Him. Luckily I still had my wheelchair because I don't think I could have walked. My color must have been pretty bad because they took me right in, none of the " See the triage nurse and then go sit in the lobby until we page you" s*** I have heard in the past! Did an abdominal ultrasound/CT, said "yes you do have a very swollen pancreas but we're seeing something else, you might have a tumor!" Luckily by now they had started an IV , which I hadn't complained about, some of my veins are" rollers", so usually have use aeroplane needles, the ones with a stabilizing flat plate. Must have been some sort of Happy Juice going in, maybe Morphine or a cousin? Had enough presence of mind to ask " Exactly where would that be?" Left side- Okay that's the top of Kidney #3, since it wasn't on my records perhaps you were not aware of it! Whew, escaped an exploratory there! But my Lipase and Amylase values were all elevated, I was NPO unless several hours before I went home, greasy floating feces, called steatorrhea- that's the right medical term for it. Comes from not being able to digest fats in your intestines and they are smelly too. But my 2 clearest memories are the pain, oh the pain! And the idiot general surgeon that stopped by. Asked me first how long I had been an alcoholic? Excuse me, I don't even drink! Then he said "Well then we better remove your gallbladder" about 31 years for that,looked at me with a woebegone expression and said " But THAT'S what causes THIS" Well Bozo you better look down another avenue because I'm neither of those! If I had anything hard in my reach, I would have chucked something at his head- a pillow wouldn't suffice- wondered who filled out his exams for him- definitely got nothing from the lecture on gastroenterology. This started an uneasy relationship, his parti,g words to,me were that I never would lose weight because fat, lazy and unmotivated. I should receive an RnY as torture and punishment. Wish I had taped him, bet the the hospital board would enjoyed that! As is it is,, would be my word against his and who would they believe? Yeah,that's probably about right, my voice does go up a couple decibels when I'm angry, maybe only dogs can hear me. Anyway. a little over 3 years later I did receive,my RnY, nothing torturous about it, perhaps my excellent surgeon is not a sadist, like Dr. Bozo Ding- Dong. And I will never be sorry or apologetic for the surgery I received at OSU. Once in a great while I do see him,off in the distance, maybe,i will show up when,i get closer to goal, show,him what a good surgeon's work looks likeband point out I was never lazy, unmotivated and far from a loser in life. And fat no more, no thanks to him!

A lot of you on Monday April 22nd, isn't there? Its like " Easter Monday- hmmmm believe I'll do a few weight l i as surgeries while I'm feeling fine and froggy!" Best wishes to each and every one of you. May every little thing go smooth and may your pain be manageable and ,most of all , may you each have a beautiful future!! Update us, let us know how things are going for you!❤???

Fear and worry are like buying a rocking chair. It does give you something to do but it sure doesn't get you anywhere!

,They should realize this is very important to you, be proud you have raised such a responsible individual, that's something many parents hope to do. There will be moments when you can cheer how adult they are, others when the fearful son or daughter will emerge again. This is a rite of passage, as many others are, the main difference major surgery is involved. But listen to their fears, reassure them you will be there emotionally as you always have been, and love, lots of love, even if it's stroking their hair. Everybody on Gods Green Earth deserves to be loved and ? in return. And that is the fundamental message in this all!

Betcha there are more slow losers than you think. You just don't hear of us among the I came home from the hospital, Un -water- logged, and losing 10 pounds a day!" They get all the press, not the pokey losers the rest of us are! And just because they do this well, it doesn't mean everything else is going perfect. Just keep on trying and know it is for your betterment you are doing this!

Walk around, sometimes the motion will free it up a little. And like prior poster, warm liquids and things help.???

Because so many believe we need the jolt caffeine gives. Look at the those caffeine shot thingies they have at most every store and shop! Just a sign of ther times. Invest in some sugar-free syrups like Torani if you must, have you tried Mio?

Oh darlin' it makes all the sense in the world. One of my heros, Well properly a heroine, reminded me when I admired things about her smoother weight journey , She has feet of clay just cause she's human too. Some of the things you can rectify, some you can't. But be glad you recognised some of the things you can fix. Why am I awake at 1:31AM? Because I woke up and made a snack for my son " Tomkitten" so named because I have Gmail that alluded to cats. I made bean soup with Turkey Ham in it earlier today. He announced it was edible but not HIS thing. Made me feel guilty so I went on strike for a few hours, then finally the guilt got to me. Made him small portion hash browns, sausage and eggs. See I still am not to the point we eat the same diet, the mashed up beans and soup broth satisfied me enough. Last time I tried eggs, even lightly scrambled, they came back up. Potatoes except for in thinner potato soup, don't do those anymore. So sometimes I growl I'm running a short order low- grade coffee Shoppe around here. It isn't that you didn't know,better, just got complacent and slid back into bad ways. Surgeons can give us our surgeries, we have to make them work. And like any addict, And that is what we all were, Food Addicts, it is so so easy to go back to where we once were. So decide to now do better this night or day, depending on whichever it is for you. Can you fix it all? Gee that remains to be seen, doesn't it? All you can is your own personal best yours may differ from mine, but you know what I mean. And remember we're still here for you, no matter what!, most of us have walked that path, one way or another. So buck up, buckaroo, do all you can to rectify your mess you are yourself into, sadder but wiser now. Once 2;30 comes I can take my bedtime meds as well as making sure Tomkitten has his. Some you can't take for an hour after eating, and maybe I'll take my liquid calcium, hard to space between vitamins and iron, mostly everything I take in except water has some vitamin content.. But I make it through, so will,you too. Ta Ta#

And now it will always be a special. day for Coleslaw as well as YOU!

You are inspiring me to not give up just yet. P4onanly won't get down to a 2, bone structure wouldn't allow it, but it l9oks very good on you.vL3ts see what Frustr8 can do, Okay?

I'm now at a 2X down from 4 & 5X