Frustr8

And I am Just a Fragment Older, 73 heading towards 74, will be 11 months in 8 or 9 days, depending on the time you read this, I'm in US Eastern Time Zone. A little closer to goal, have passed my CNP and surgeon's goal if just under 200 pounds num PCP is whiny, stomping his feet like an enraged skunk, He Didn't expect me. to lose down This Quickly, wanted me to lose 70% of my Excess Body Weight, I'm at 68.3 % now, that's a VSG type weight loss, he knows Dang Well I was an RNY Bypass , WE LOSE 75- 85% as a rule. And this is the Very Same Dude who stomped around the Exam Room chanting " YOU ARE GOING TO DIE OBESE Before YOU. can make it towards 75!", now I have fought for My Life, made it within 29-25 pounds of My Goal and He Wants to Cloud up☁and Rain ☔on my Personal Parade? Tain't right , it Just Isn't! Smile and be Happy for Me, if that stethoscope is choking YOU, just take it OFF and be My Friend! Slowed down a little at times but never really " Stalled", just chug- a- chugged along toward Victory like the Jalopy?I always have been, No Ferrari but I was built for endurance not Speed- in the Late 40s we were built out of Solid Strong American Steel-- not Plastic or Fiberglass- We were Your" Forever Car", not to be Traded In for something in a prettier shade or newer conformation or just because You were Tired of US! So stop trying to Block My Road, if. you don't want to Travel Along, go park on the Berm, Frustr8 is Driving On Through! BEEP BEEP- frickin' BEEP!?

Hey Babe,You Learn As You Go, we all, in each of our Own Ways, did! And like the Loving Bariatric Aunts and Uncles we Are, you're Fine and can do No Wrong in Our Eyes! We'll ❤YOU-- no Matter What Ever Happens- You not only have friends , YOU ARE part of OYR FAMILY NOW!

And WE WILL BE RIGHT here cheering YOU and all the others Along! It's a Brand New World but betting YOU'LL LIKE IT here???

And sad to say, they do so Many in A Year, they may not even recall your face! So all my preceding sisters are correct, the tummy and only the tummy is Their Goal!???

Yeah it is exciting to think of, and oh the changes You'll See as You Go along and Through it ALL. It may be bumpy for a while but what You Gain makes up for Anything You Felt you LOST! So Good Luck, Godspeed and keep us updated, OKAY?

Well , my goal all along has been size 15 Junior/175 pounds. The junior because for a Once very obese ? and now lost feathers, claws and spurs, and probably my break and comb next, joke I already look like a Plucked Pullet in neighborhood of 190, scrawny neck, what seems like sunken- in cheeks, the whole sad train- wreck I think I LOOK like , although most people say I DON'T. I maybe chose 175 because it was a little over one- half the High Weight I once had 2 years ago, and after having Medical personnel say " OMG, You're at least 175 pounds overweight; that number, like a Bad Scar, I just can't escape it showing.Will 175 give me that cherished hope of a Size 15? Not certain, at this point I am either a 18 or 19, depending on which style pallets I'm dabbling in. I do miss Me, some of the old look I used to have, even the last time I was this size, Maybe summer of 1967, I still looked quite different. Although many say I do Not LOOK MY Age, I fear I look closer to the years I really have lived. Will they know ME when I walk into the Bariatric Clinic on August 14th? If they don't, IT IS THEIR OWN STUPID FAULT, not MY CHOICE not to be seen for 4 almost 5 months. Either it is Benign Neglect or I am NOT as interesting as once I was. Nurse Practitioner Valerie has decided to "grandfather" me into Good Health, does not want to do an additional EGJ even though I feel my ulcers are back again, the gnawing sensation eating , drinking milk, or even abstaining from food, nothing seems to relieve it. Yes I faithfully take my PPI once a day, have taken Carafate every 6 hours around the clock since October 12 2018, missed very few doses, probably could count them on my fingers and HAVE a digit or 2 left. But Valerie has made up in her little mind I am all BETTER, a miracle healing, Maybe she Moonlights as an TV Evangelist? Oh it is ONLY MY BODY after all, how dare I believe I might not be PERFECT by now? Oh,I have kept my faith with my surgeon, the Great White Kahuna of it All, I promised on July 17th 2018 if HE would permit and perform my Surgery he would never hear a Whine , Complaint or me saying I regretted Anything about my Road TO and Through RNY and I have kept My Promise! I, on the other hand made No Such Promise to Ms VALERIE Moore, Certified Nurse- Practioner along with her other titles , like Masters in Nursing, Advanced Practice Validation/ Certification and GOD himself knows What Else. I am basically placid, sweet- tempered, put up up with enough BS to fertilize A Very Large Garden Plot, but at 73 just how much do I Endure before fighting back at least verbally? I have submitted, rolled over until I can't launder the soil out of my clothes, I would cry at the injustice but turning the " Other Cheek" gains one 2 bruised cheeks and permanently Red Eyes and Ragweed season is nearly over, can't pass this off as Allergies as I once did. So better off or worse? I am thinner, look better, almost have a figure that Appears like a More Average Woman. But to gain this, I had MAJOR surgery, elected to make myself an Gastrointestinal Cripple. Yeah, in theory since I was an RNY, I could be reconnected since I did not lose my stomach, just had it divided into 2 sections, but what Guarantee do I have that ability to. take more than 6 ounces of anything in food, renewed enervation, natural peristalsis and all the things I once could take for granted WOULD work once again ? And Although I know my surgeon has more than adequate skills to effect this, would he be willing to? Would Medicare/ Medicaid fund another and MOST IMPORTANT-- Could I actually survive another? Yeah Alex Brecher did, but He's a Whole Lot Younger and his was to Save His Life, not to. merelyfeel better. Sorry folks, but tonight The.Big Brave Cowgirl has rode this pony until we are both ? Tired, stable one or both of us until Sunrise.??&?

And I just went out to the Freezer and got out a 100 calorie Creamsicle, the Orange on the Outside is just a little tart, balances out the creamy middle nicely.

Going to try the Toned Arms list, can't do Push Ups, if I get down on the floor, it takes an Act of Congress to get me back up, but the rest? Hey, even an Old Chick like me can do That! I wonder if a Standing up PushUp would work , using a Wall , to and then Push Away? Otherwise, can't hurt and might just work, all I got to spend is my Time. Yeah, the Price is Right and believe I'm ending the month better than I Started, so I count it Successful.

Before I got my apnea diagnosis I had the snoring, restlessness but I also had one nobody else mentioned, nightmares where I woke up in a cold sweat. Don't have them anymore, and I have a theory for that, like one of other posters I also had high frequency of episodes 70- 75 an hour, I think my body was starving for quality air intake, I would bebwoke by those! Tonight both my Tomkitten, my son, and I will have Sleep Studies, his 1st and my re- evale, because I am down 175 pounds from Highest Weight, which was almost 2 years ago, 120+ since my RNY on September 5th 2018, a chance it will be D'Cd but betting not, Tomkitten will be the 3rd generation with Medical certification so it's either intrinsic, which I suspect, or the result of a bad dietary heredity. But We Shall. See what we Shall see! Think Good Thoughts for us both! Lying here with Uncle Snuffely on, I tend to " Name" things so my C-Pap has His Own, we have become Good Friends by Now. And a little FYI for some of you guys, yeah I took my Uncle S. with me when I had my RNY at Ohio State, but I accidently left on of the pieces home, took all new tubing, really THOUGHT I had it ALL but I didn't. And my machine was a different model from the ones Respiratory had "in- house". What happened? I was on O2 the whole time I was there, under House Arrest in my Room, never met anyone else recovering, SHOOT I didn't even get to walk in the Hall. So Yeah, do take your C-Pap, but make sure before you leave home the pieces are ALL THERE, it's dang lonely looking at 3 walls and a window, yeah You Can Watch TV but my one at home is Bigger, Nicer and has Netflix on it as well as Spectrum Cable. WORD!

But Truly MANY of them will not appeal to You! I have tried a small amount of some of mine, and I DON'T KNOW what I ever Saw on them, they just leave me COLD! More than a fair chance you also will be like THAT.

Well Thanks for your post Krimson, one of my friends tried telling me I should give,up all Lemonade, hey I went to the 15 calorie variety, give a girl a little LOVE here! I may be in the Midwest but I used to LOVE SWEET TEA, never was THAT MUCH of a Soda Freak, but Sweet Tea in a Chilled Glass, used to keep drinking glasses in the Freezer, Now THAT was LIVING! Maybe I should make,Decaf with Stevia?, yeah maybe BUT I MISS THE HARD STUFF, ya know?

My diagnosis: a control thing- by sabatoging you she wins- and it's "Poor Rosemary", to all her friends, " I warned her" We Sicilian aren't built for THOSE POOR DIETS- THAT RADICAL A SURGERY- We were meant by GOD to eat healthy home- cooked FOOD!" Nonna wins , YOU lose, and in her ❤, all is WELL. Meanwhile there you are , nauseous on the sidelines, wondering why your own mother acts this way? And I believe you're trying your best, for yourself and trying to be a good example for your Daughter, but her fine Italian thumb is right on top of you again! How do I know this? A long life and although I'm as American as Hot Dogs and Apple Pie, on my street were Italian neighbor Mamas, 2 streets over were the Greeks , and between pasta and moussaka, and Paczi from the Polish Mamas the other direction, I became a Dietary Delinquent at an Early Age and now at 73 I'm still shedding the weight! Finally, You know how you now feel about Banana Bread? I'm 10 going on 11 months out, someone made me what they called an Healthy Smoothie, put a Banana in it, same General Body Reaction, Maybe the Yellow fruit and I will never be Friends Again! Sad, before my surgery they had much A-Peel for Me, just couldn't resist a Pun There! Much Love, Much Sympathy because I have been" food- repulsed" also ?✋?

It isn't just us with such a frustrating problem- the actress Cybill Shepherd was quoted as saying after her twin pregnancy she had a time when she folded up her post- pregnancy skin and tucked it into her bottom clothing, Maybe They were styles from Rodeo Drive, but even the famous. have it too!

Mine was Go just before you're transported to OR; unless I run into something unplanned- You'll be catheter- free! Needless to say--I Did Follow the Plan! Tube Free for ME!???

One of the worst things for ME, and YES I Am a Spectrum Sister, the abiding sense I was a square Peg living in a Round Peg World, I was just enough diverse. to feel homeless and alone. Please get your MRI, I believe it will give you answers and more Peace of Mind to know a little more of the answers.

As a former PICC,line princess, I finally have something in in common with Alex although I didn't have IV antibiotics to give myself. You'll get through all this just fine and pretty soon will be all the way back,to your Former Alex-hood and this will be another Final Victory for You!

Row-ll Row-ll, I just bet you are a Fine Feline specimen now!

Hi from an American Cousin! Things a little different but I do share in your Hopes and Dreams. I was an RNY at 72 years, turned 73 last Boxing Day, count on the Commonwealth to hold My Day special, no one here does! I am now a 18 and going Down, but I started out a w8- 30 Womens, wearing a lot of Mens Sweats because THAT was what I could find to FIT. It is my belief your VSG sleeve will go just fine and you will say like Me THE REST OF MY LIFE WILL BE THE BEST OF MY LIFE and never ever would I go back to my BEFORE! Lost nearly 10 of your stone since last September, a new and wonderful rebirth for ME, Now I am starting to look on the Outside the Wonderful Me I was Within and I can only Wish You the Same! Best Always from ME!

And I am out of gray- black- brown forever! Bought into that Dark Shades are Slimming HooHah! Have you EVER heard anyone tell a Charcoal Briquet they are looking Especially Slim Today? Nope, me neither! So Frustr8's Sartorial Rebirth? Colors, prints, Maybe polka dots? Leggings, always envied others wearing them, Now I do in 17-19 JUNIORS,my original goal was a 15 Junior, so Achievable? Oh Yeah!.And a NSV - type Victory? Saw my profile as I passed something Reflective, I am still a Larger- than- Life person, this regenerated Tomboy will NEVER BE PETITE, but no booty protruding in the back, little if any Pooch in the front, I actually look like somebody You might want to meet and greet on the street instead of a Train Wreck of Flesh, And I Think I actually look Taller now! And you'll please Excuse my ? of Joy because although it too also happened for OTHERS it never did before for ME! Although the Bariatric Clinic has gone out of their way to ignore and frustrate ME, Thank You Again Dr Needleman ! Between your skill and my perseverance ---A Miracle has been Wrought! Frustr8 is Absolutely, Positively Fantabulous!????

And if you cannot handle shots, pills and things of That Ilk for prevention/ Treatment , you have a Once Yearly INFUSION like ME. That's my PCP's Personal Plan for ME and he seems to feel it's the Best One.????

And now Nancy, it is Surgery Eve for You! May yours be Smooth, Successful and may you have Years of Renewed Health! ?God Bless and keep You safe in h8s Arms!

And on the Obverse of That Coin- we have Me- who refused to Die Obese and had RNY surgery at 72 years, 8 months and 10 days last 5th September. When we come to the point, When We fear Surgery less than continuing as we Are, the Time is Right÷ No matter what our Current Age Is!

And what do YOU Want to Wager, on the reverse of that linguist Coin, the whole Former British Commonwealth finds American simplification STUPID? The old joke is WE STAND DIVIDED BY OUR COMMON LANGUAGE. Isn't LIFE just a Funny Funny Thing!

OMG I do hope SATAN has a nice cubicle and ENDLESS?? TORMENT in HIS FUTURE!

Stop it Just Stop it, Missouri .Lee Summit, now I've got protein shake in my ?, you And I did lose. ours and like You I donated b. milk b while i llved in Columbus, Now Time has moved on and I fear our Mammaries are on permanent hiatis, oh well we Are ALiVE, incredibly blessed with a tinier body and Able to face a Future we never had supposition of, WE STILL WON THIS weight WAR , Just Lost the Booby Battle!