lapbandbarb

Even though this thread is so old, I am so glad I found it and hope that we can renew it again. I had that thought all day today, " I don't think I can do this anymore" I am not even a month post-op and I feel like I am already a failure and back to my old ways of eating. Why can't this be easier? It was the first three weeks and all of a sudden the last few days, I feel so out of control and I am eating to the point that my lower stomach is stretched and hurts so much! I feel miserable! I am not doing the right things-taking my time ,taking small bites, chewing enough and it is just slipping right through the band, making me so full and horrible like I always used to. I feel like I gained back the 30 lbs I lost. I know this isn't true but my mind is so confused and I DON"T KNOW HOW TO LISTEN TO MY BODY!!!! I never did before, so why did I think this would be the magic to cure a behavior I have carried with me for 30 years? The difference is now I am in so much pain from overeating and I risk complications of all sorts because now I have to worry about hurting the band, too!!!! I feel helpless. I know I will probably wake up with my period tomorrow and that has to do with it but right now I can't take this feeling!!!!! I feel like I am suffocating. Can anyone relate? Give me some advise? I know tomorrow is another day, the minute I get this in writing, I can think of it as a cleansing and the next minute is a new one! I know I can pull myself together, but why does it have to be so F****ing Hard!:thumbup::wub::w00t::thumbs_down::w00t::thumbs_down::thumbs_down::thumbs_down:Thanks for letting me vent here.

Westchester County is about 1hr north of New York City below Dutchess County when your on The Taconic State Parkway. I actually started a new thread and got some replies for Drs there. Hope everything goes well for you!

Thanks for the info. I will definitely check him out and see if he takes my insurance! It sounds really good. When they fill you, do they use any other way of finding your port site other than just poking toy?(X-ray, etc) Where do you live? That is great that you and your daughter are doing this together! Have a good day!

I'm glad that we have each other for support! I was mortified when I read your post. I feel so bad and I am so glad that that jerk is no longer going to be allowed to mistreat people! I am a bit nervous about my first fill coming up because I asked and they don't use anything to help locate the port, either. They assure me that the DR knows where the port is. I hope so! I'm glad you were able to get it off your chest. Just remember that it is way behind you now. Best wishes to you!:thumbup:

I have magnacare. Is Fielding dropping GHI, too? It is $100 for a fill. I asked. Good luck with your first fill! Please let me know how it goes. What were your feelings about Fielding? I did not see him before or after my surgery and I heard he did 18 lapbands the day he did mine. I hope he did the important part of mine at least. My stitch job is not good, I can tell. He has a great reputation, I know and that is why I went to him. I would love to hear about your experience. Do you have restriction? I have like none since my surgery(12 days ago). I lost weight on the liquids but nothing this past week. By the way, do you know how to change the weight on the ticker without completely making another one. I can't figure it out:scared2: so frustrating! Best of luck with your fill. Congrads on your weight loss!

Hi, I am looking for a good Dr in Westchester, NY. Can anyone help me out? Really appreciate any names at all. My Dr in the City will no longer be accepting my insurance and I want to stay local.

Hi! I was banded on 7/7/08 by Dr Fielding at NYU and have found out that he is dropping my insurance! I live in Westchester, NY and wondering if anyone has gone to Westchester Medical Center, or anywhere else in Westchester. I need to find a good Dr closer than the city because I will be starting a new job and will only have time to stay local. I appreciate any responses or suggestions for Dr in Westchester! Thanks! PM me or list it here. I'll look in both places. Barbara :seeya:

SanDiegoSusan, I was banded on July 7th. Doing pretty well. I just want to say THANK YOU for all your effort and the time you spent listing The July Butterflies! I for one, have felt it has been a lot of support for me to know that I belong to this group. Thanks for getting us together!:biggrin2: Hope you are doing well! Barb

Glad to hear you are doing well! Keep us posted. Have a great day! Barb

Good-Luck to all my fellow July Butterflies. I'm 10 days post-op and doing OK. My best wishes are with everyone! :biggrin2: ote=eyespy;922486]Off to surgery shortly. I'm scheduled for 10:30 and have to be there at 7:00am. Feeling a little nervous, but trying not to think of it. Hope to have good news tomorrow! Good luck to everyone else going today! Alysa

Thank goodness! My prayers and best wishes are with Joan!

Thank for this info! I need to call my Dr tomorrow and question what size band he used. I have no restriction right now and it stinks!

Good Luck, Sades!

Thank you for your positive outlook. I have put it into perspective and feel better. You are right, tomorrow is a new day and I am looking forward to it! I never heard of thedailyplate.com but will definitely check it out. I will remember what you said about being kind to myself. Thanks.

I am so glad to have found this forum! Someothers can relate to how I feel! I was banded 7/7 and lost 30 lbs during the three weeks I was on liquids. Now that I got the OK to move to solids, I think I am hungry all the time! I know this is "head hunger" and I fear that I am already reverting back to old ways of picking throughout the day. This stinks. I had a bad day today, even ate regular food (not mussies) and I'm afraid that I will make the band slip or something else bad will happen. I feel so upset and worried! When the band slips, does anyone know if you feel it happen? I can't believe I have to wait another four weeks for my first fill. My bandage over the port site has not even fallen off yet and I am freaking out already. I woke up feeling great today and stated off with a 40gr. protein shake. At about three, I went crazy with "emotional hunger" and even ate a few perdue backed chicken nuggets that I made my kids for dinner. UGH!! Luckly, it has not come up and I think it digested? I can only look towards tomorrow and hope I do better! Keep myself more busy-away from food. Anyone have any good advise? I'll take any. Thanks for letting me vent!

I had severe pain from arthritis in my knees and losing 30 lbs has made such a difference already!!! I was banded on 7/7 and am really emotional but at least my knee pain is gone. Miracle!

I was also banded on 7/7/08 at NYU. I noticed you are in Conn. I live in upper Westchester. This week has been an emotional rollercoaster for me,too. I am also having a hard time with the "idea" that I can't eat even though I haven't had anything solid for three weeks. ( Especially when my husband cooks blueberry pancakes for the kids this morning.) I think, for me the emotions are coming from the fact that food has always been there for me and it just is not now. No matter what, it is not:confused2: so those feelings are there and I have to deal with them some other way. I am still too sore to go shopping and really can't afford to anyway. I feel like what we are going through is normal and others have found a way, so we will,too. You said that you expected to feel depressed. I ahve a history with depression, too. Losing the weight and finding a healthier way to live is my hope. My prozc and possitive thoughts and affirmations help,too. Feel free to PM me. I know just what you are going through! It will get better. Have faith. Barb

CONGRADULATIONS!!!!!! How exciting! My kids are 11 and 8 and I wish I could have another! I had gained and lost 90lbs over and over between pregnancies, until skyrocketting to 130lbs overweight . I just got banded on 7/7 and feel pretty good. You lost 160lbs? WOW!! How long did it take you? Is this your first baby? Pregnancy can be tough on the body, be good to yourself!:party:

Hi all! I was banded Monday and still feel bloated and have lots of gas.. I was really dehydrated and was given 12 bags of intravenious saline! My blood presure was really low and my one of my stiches popped and had to be stiched by hand. I have had a slow recovery didn't even get to get up until Tues. Today I am finally back able to sit up and communicate with my fellow lap-banders. I still can't bend but the pain is bearable so I stopped the pain-killers. I am starting to think that I am HUNGRY and that is scary. What are you guys having as a post-op diet? I can still only have liquids for two weeks.

Thanks Kccat- I had my sugery Monday. I am home but have alot of pain now. Will keep you posted as I feel better. Good Luck to you! Your Yorktown neighbor, Barb PS> Do you have any children? Where do you live? Are you on the Mohansic or Crompond School side? Or are you in Lakeland School District? My 11 yr old son goes to MESMS and my daughter will start Brookside next year.

It does stink to have to do the liquids this weekend! Hang in there and good luck!

Congradulations to everyone banded the 1st and the 2nd!!!!! Five days to go for me. It's great to be part of the July Stars!

I figured we could start communicating on the on the public forums. It is easier than private. How are you? I've been thinking about you and came across your post on this forum. It is a very emotional time for us, esp w/ the med situation. Know that I am here if you need me(public or private) I'd love to hear from others on this forum, too. I knew we had lots of issues in common, like the meds and such, but I didn't know our husbands were so much alike, too. I have done everything alone, too. If I was not (happily, but it is alot of work) married for 12 years now with two kids and so much "stuff" my husband and I have been through, I would feel exactly the way you do. I have just learned that that is the way he is, he works hard and cares alot about his family but I knew I'd be doing this alone until the day of my surgery. That is why I reach out to this website and to you. I would not even mention to my husband that I resent always being alone on these appts. I know that he is worried that something could happen to me, just as I am sure that is on your husband's mind. That could be why he doesn't want to talk or be involved with it(he could be really scared) How have you been with you on the pre-op diet? I was doing good during the first week, even cooking for everyone. Now I am hiding in my bedroom or leaving whenever it is their meal time. I ran to the market and got enough micro-dinners for the three of them to last until my surgery on July 7th. I feel guilty about that because the food is not very healthy and they are used to me cooking and sitting with them. My husband works 10 hour days as a UPS man and I have to feed them before he gets home. I am so weak and nervous now that I don't even think I will care this week if my 11 yr old son sits at the computer and my 8 yr old daughter plants herself infront of the TV all week. Isn't that awful? And on Tues, I have to drag them an hour to the city to go with me to my pre-surgery testing because I have nobody this week to stay with them. Oh well, everyone keeps telling me that it is not such a big deal, they'll survive and I am doing the right thing. Maybe it will get easier again this week. Another full week of liquids UGU!!! I know your surgey is the 2nd. Hope to hear from you before then. GOOD LUCK and don't worry about anything!

Sorry, MissWilde, I saw the info you posted before so no need to explain. Thanks!

Thanks, Miss, Wilde! I went back and read all about EVERYTHING from when you explained it before. No need to repeat. Sorry for the confussion. KEEP ON WAXING!!