j_war06

IDK why, but I fit in with the gay community better than anywhere else....LOL Im the first VIP at the gay club in Corpus Christi who is a straight REAL girl! lol! I love you guys, you embrace and welcome all (well as long as their outfits matches, *kidding*)<joke with one of my friends> anyways, glad to meet you all

Ya know, I tried that when I first went to college....lets see, one guy owes me $1000 or more really. My old neighbor owes me $40 plus a lot more. My other neighbors turned against me over the $40 issue. Then it was all good. Then I met a horrible guy who I felt sorry for, so I let him live in MY apartment, ride around in MY car, and use MY gas and apparantly he got a hold of my credit card! Yeah I used empathy, I put myself in all of these people's positions and was like, well I would want someone to help me....I never reaped any benefits other than all of them walking out on me whenever I had nothing left to give. I was actually HOMELESS because I helped too many people! The world is nothing but a bunch of users that apparantly want to take everything I have! Im sick of it! Im still paying bills, and will be paying them for a long time because of these people! You REALLY think that I havent learned my lesson after losing tons of money, and being forced to move back to my hometown (which I HATE!!) from a place that I loved, because I was too empathetic. Im tired of being used. People have used me all my life, and I've put a stop to it....amazing how little friends I have left....

First of all NO ONE owns a word...my friends are not ignorant, they know everything there is to know about the word, therefore they can not be ignorant. I dont see why you would let one little word control your life. Your no better than Al or Jesse, really. They are idiots, I hated it when they were here. They made all of us look like idiot rednecks, thank God for the documentary my class made to correct their wrongs to the state of Texas atleast. For someone to get their feelings hurt over one little slur is absolutely ridiculous, its being overly sensitive and out of the bounds of reasonableness. What your saying is that my whole town is ignorant just because WE ALL GET ALONG (well for the most part), mostly the younger generations. We dont see color when we look at a person or go somewhere, just the goal. I go to the black parts of town all the time. Ive never had anyone get mad at me in my hometown for using the word. Now in Corpus Christi its different, I knew it would be, and I didnt use it as much. Plus most of the people there use it negatively anyway when they do use it. ALLOW PEOPLE TO EXERCISE THEIR FREEDOM OF SPEECH! Stop censoring them! If you get your feelings hurt, you need to learn not to. Black people werent the only people who were enslaved in America! They arent the only ones in history that have ever been enslaved! The evil white people didnt just go to Africa and pick up some black people, their tribes sold them out...what happened, happened, it was wrong, but its real, it was there, and some of us white people lost family in the fight for the freedom. It wasnt good times at all. Get over the past, learn from it and live in the PRESENT, to make a BETTER future! Okay as far as seeing someone new, I have been seeing them (not dating, not anything serious). We've had a thing for a long time, its just we are both single now. It wont go anywhere because I dont want it to, and I cant trust him to seriously date him, but its fun while it lasts right?

I havent sought counseling because I just really dont like to verbally think about it. I wont tell my mom because Ive already messed up SO many times this year, allowing myself to be raped doesnt need to be added to her plate. Plus I KNOW she will want to go to law enforcement about it (statute of limitations last for 5 years on rape, although if its not reported immediately usually nothing happens). I really need to go talk to my therapist, but Ive got to work 3 whole days to have that much money until I start my new job. Had the rape happened in CC, I would have reported it immediately. But I knew the guy (most of my life) and he's family with the guy that Im seeing right now, and I dont want that to get out of control. THE IDIOT invited me to his birthday party tonight! I was like, "are you serious?" I would NEVER celebrate your life! The poor guy that Im seeing doesnt know ANYTHING, he just thinks Im being mean....but I think his brother has an idea that something bad happened because he kind of saved me that night. I bit the guy that raped me and put up such a fight, he threw my keys to my car out somewhere and then dumped me out at my guy's house. My guy's brother (my best friend's boyfriend) helped me find them. I still play it over and over in my head and question if it was rape, but everytime I come up with yes, I said "no" I cried and said it and I screamed it....even if I hadnt been drinking at all it would have happened. Im just so embarassed I dont want to tell anyone I know in real life... LOL! Wow we all prob need to go to bed, we are WAY off-topic! lol

OMG!!! I FOUND MY PEOPLE!!! LOL! Im not gay, Im very straight actually, however I seem to be attracted to the gay scene and I loves it! lol! Im so excited I found you guys, but if you dont want me in here because it is kind of secluded its cool lol! Im just excited that yall are here!

lol! let me tell you my stupid story.... So I was using True.com to meet someone, well...I DID! A great guy, good-looking, tall, sweet. But After 2 dates I ran off and started dating my ex-fiance!! I wonder what life would have been like had I stayed with the other guy. He was so nice it scared me, especially since I met him on the internet. Im really paranoid about all that. I cant believe I let that hinder me! I mean, I left a great guy for a visible a-hole!

Im a smoker too Im 20 and wish I had never started. I was SOOOOOOOOOOOO classic, always said that I could quit whenever I wanted lol! HOW FOOLISH? Now Im pregnant, trying to stop, but its SOOOOO FREAKIN HARD! I definately have cut down A LOT! But Im still working on actually quitting, and once I do, thats it, Im not picking it up again. I didnt report my rape, because I knew that I could never be kept safe from gang activity if I did, I knew that one way or the other I would wind up dead, and Im not ready to die. I figured it was better to keep it a secret, and I have for months. Im dying to tell my mother, but I just cant...Im really ashamed of it. Not to mention I didnt want it to hit the small town news and my name be plastered EVERYWHERE as a rape victim. I think its just better to keep it all hush hush for now. Maybe in the future I can tell my family.

lol and Im with you guys on the gay issue. I have a lot of gay friends (I mean A LOT)! And they are all SOOOO different. There are some no one would ever know was gay, some that people know but know not to mess with, and some Im just waiting to spontaneously combust because they are so stereotypically gay lol! All I know is that straight guys could take a few lessons from the gays, especially in fighting...I know that Im not going to mess with ANY man that can wear stilettos and DANCE in them! lol that is one BAD mofo!

I understand, and Im sorry that I lumped them together like that, but I have lived in a town and a city, and nothing seems to change. I have a couple of friends that are GOOD COPS. But most of what I have experienced has been completely unhelpful. I mean, one cop left me stranded in downtown Corpus Christi with a visibly messed up man who had just broken the door on my car and put dents in top of it, as well as jacked up a friend of his for no reason. I TOLD the cop what was going on, BEGGED him to help me get gas and get it to my car and help me out with HIM, but he just dismissed me and drove off. I guess he thought I was crazy or drunk or something! IDK? But I was finally rescued by a friend of mine. And ofcourse HE had to come with, and almost killed us trying to light a cig in a car with gas fumes in it!

Awesome! I cant wait! Ill try to get there monday!

YAY! Im so excited that I got your approval because going on the internet and getting advice instead of consulting a doctor as well is always a better and cheaper idea! Now I have to find someone to do the fills. How do they get it in there? Im afraid of needles! Im still unsure thought...my friend got her band from a fancy doctor that her insurance paid for and she cant even eat burgers! Or frenchfries! or fried chicken? And she only eats 2 times a day and hasnt had a little debbie in months! IDK if I can handle that, I thought it was suppose to make you skinny no matter what? And you drop like 100lbs in a month!

Im sorry I was short with that answer because I wanted to finish typing, but I had to run out of the room... What I meant was the case against my ex is going to lead to the case with the police (which I may or may not bring about due to time, money, and I wasnt seriously injured. But Im still considering it, its the future lawyer in me lol) Im filing as many torts against my ex as humanly possible along with the child support hearing ofcourse. So far Ive got a pile! Im just want to send him back to jail (he will never pay, all those warrants will put you in jail) so that I know where to find him. And I want to teach him a lesson, that Im not the push-over he thought I was.

Civil, its going with the torts Im pressing against my ex

Well thats how useful the law enforcement is here. Trust me, in my crazy days I was right there with them. Ive seen them leave a party and get in the cop car and go right back on duty. I just think they pick and choose who they are going to help and it has to do with these 2 questions 1.) do I HAVE to? and 2.)How easy is the paperwork?

Oh its all coming up in court. Ive been working on the cases since September. And you bet that the A&M police will be royally screwed if ANYTHING happens to any of my friends that my ex knows that live on campus, because I called and reported that he was living there illegally (against my best judgment, as far as finding him again goes) and what had happened to me...they called me a jealous ex-girlfriend and dismissed me!! I swear if anything happens to any of my friends they will have EVERYTHING thrown at them! Not to mention that I was in trouble for letting someone that didnt live on campus just keep their stuff in my room, they never lived there with me, and almost lost my housing...but he and she get to live there all happily ever-after? I called the CC police with a tip on a possible burglary of a business that he had disclosed that he took part in, and they treated me the same way. They are going to be in BIG BIG trouble once all of this plays out.

LOL Im not going to be that kind of lawyer. Im going to work in government and politics. Its cut-throat. I like it. The law has never done anything positive (or negative) for me besides not giving me an MIP at a party (because I was pregnant and passed a pen test) and many have passed me up for speeding tickets, or busted a party I was at and just told us to keep it down or the classic "no one leaves". Other than that, when I really needed them, they have done nothing! All they want to do is drive around in their shiny new Chargers and look cool, and make smart-elic remarks. Besides cheating on their wives, abandoning their children, and using/selling the illegal drugs they confinscate.

LOL this is crazy?? BTW: is it better to get the band in Mexico or the states? My insurance won't cover the band, and theres this great surgeon that NO ONE has heard of in Mexico that says he will do it for $100 dollars! Is it a good idea?

And how well did law enforcement do with O.J. Simpson? And how well did law enforcement do when the cops finally got called on my ex? And how well were they doing everytime they saw him on the sidewalk outside of a bar visibly intoxicated and possibly drugged up, but left him there? How well did the law enforcement do when he attempted a break in at the club I used to work at? How well would the law have done to prevent a gang from hurting me had I filed my rape? How well did they do the night I ran out of gas and BEGGED them for assistance, and they did nothing? What about the time a lady ran over me at the gas pumps of wal*mart and a police officer drove by at the exact moment it happened? I dont put much faith in them.

So you wanted me to leave my own apartment? Because he sure wasnt. And whens the last time you woke up with a full grown man choking the life out of you. You wouldnt want to risk calling the police either. I couldnt just leave...where would I have gone? I should have done something sooner than I did, but regardless my self-confidence is normal. Coming from a small town, everyone judges everyone else, its entertainment when there is none.

Oh but there is according to the definition a few pages back. Im not talking about what was legal then, Im talking about what is legal NOW. You said those things "Can't" happen. When they can, whether it is or isnt legal actually. Those things can happen.

I was making a point that it IS possible to be abused, harassed, raped, etc at an internship or at a job....that it CAN happen. And you just gave the simplified definition of false imprisonment. I DONT WANT to do my internship for free, I want to get paid. LIKE I SAID, Im not saying that an internship=slavery, Im giving a mental picture according to the previous description of slavery given. Weren't any of you on the debate team, ever been to a debate, watched a debate, participated in a debate, or anything of that matter?

Im not cruel, at all. Im quite peachy upon meeting anyone for the first time...but if I dont like you, then I wont pretend that I do. What difference in life does it make if some stranger gets their feelings hurt because they are overly-sensitive and havent learned to adapt to the jungle that our society is. I wish it were more primitive in that, the weak get the oust to some island for the non-survivors of society. If your going to go around getting your feelings hurt by the people in society that are going to FEED off your pain, and give them what you want, then you gotta go. Im not insecure about anything. I tell people how it is. If I was insecure I would care that you disagree with me, I would care about the people who still call me fat, I would care about the people who want to judge me for my current predictament. I dont care, whatever they think, they can think, I have my own opinions about them as well. Not everyone is going to like you, so why not give them a reason not to? Im just trying to get across the point that I dont care about other people that I dont even know...

NEVER judge what CANT happen...rather what is unlikely or illegal. I never meant to say that internship=slavery....I was providing a picture to the definition of slavery given in a previous post, thats all.

Last time I checked an intern has no rights in the company but to learn. Im making a comparison for today's America. And if the pencil issue isnt racism, then why on earth is the history of a word?

I do go to therapy. It made me stop thinking so much about other people, and start focusing on me and what's best for me. Why should I care if some stranger gets their feelings hurt? How will it negatively affect my child emotionally? Because I dont run up and randomly hug strangers or people I barely know and I dont censor myself to people I dont even care about. Strangers dont care about me, why should I care about them? Why care about people you dont even know exist? Why not focus on bettering yourself and becoming who YOU want to be, and not what others want you to be. I tried for years to be who everyone WANTED me to be, since I started focusing on myself my grades are up, I have a passion for life, and I take chances. Before I wouldnt make a move if I thought that anyone would dissapprove. Im a better person now that I dont care about other people. I guess you just gotta have the self-confidence not to let other people bother you or hinder you. My life has been 100x more fulfilled than before I started focusing on me.