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Um....atleast i had an article period....to back up my thoughts...yeah. AND btw, I recently graduate HS, AND i go to a college that is right next to a naval base and has the ROTC on campus.....And MANY of them came from upper-middle to well-off families.....NOT ALL no, Most likely not the majority.........however I only remember 1 poor kid going into the services that I went to HS with.....He was the only one looking to actually better his life......the other kids that I went to school with that were lower class barely graduated (if they did at all) and now they sit around in that small old town dealing and doing drugs....cooking meth, growing marijuana......MAYBE work at McDonalds or a convenient store (night shift)...............thats all they do, and they arent even qualified to do that......THAT ISNT TO SAY however that ALL poorer class kids are like that by any means, ONE SHOULD NOT stereotype in that manner. Yes some stereotypes do exist, but many of the kids i know in the services come from middle class and up families.............thank you Oh and Im sorry that you take it that I know everything.....beacause I dont, if I did I wouldnt have needed you all's support going through this whole banding thing, I would have just dealt with it on my own, because I would have automatically known the answers to every problem that existed.....So please stop thinking that, because all you are doing is stereotyping me into that catagory, and if I dont start getting a little recognition for anything that I might contribute rather than a smartass retort, I will just not deal with it anymore.......I am not putting up with this pettiness any longer..........You dont even try to see my side, all I do is offer different ideas, which you do also, but I try not to argue those ideas. I just accept them, add my own, and when mine is attacked, i attack back...........so SORRY, I will probably be leaving LBT soon anyways, I dont use it for anything but to argue and I cant handle that in my life right now.....I have more going on that sitting here arguing with a bunch of older people that discredit me for my age, however it does help pass my boredom, but so does MySpace........therefore I will probably resign my membership for a while in about a week or so AND THE HERITAGE FOUNDATION IS VERY REAL! LOOK IT UP ONLINE, GOTO WIKIPEDIA.....THEY ARE IN PARTNERSHIP WITH THE WALL STREET JOURNAL!

green this is an interesting article http://www.heritage.org/Research/NationalSecurity/cda06-09.cfm

See the problem is that I have been anorexic off and on since I was in sixth grade....and I still never lost weight quickly...I got down to 160lbs before the glory of Jr High came along with chicken strips and pizza and stuff like that.....then 8th through 9th I was anorexic again..I went for from about 210lbs to 150lbs then with the diet pills I could maintain my weight and stay up to study for college. I have an obsession with wieght, but trust me I have to eat, im not anorexic at all. Im short and actually have very small bones, I am meant to be pretty small.

See, my issue is, that I want to be thin thin, I want to weigh 115-120lbs or so. I want to be one of those flawless girls, and a chubby chaser doesnt want that....not too mention that I am obsessed with weight loss....period. Thats all I think about and worry about, one more lb one more lb, 2 more 2 more....so on and so forth.........I dont believe in "too skinny". There have only been two anorexic ppl in my entire life that I thot just looked HORRIBLE and that was on Oprah. Ive seen them in real life, and I didnt think they looked too thin..... As far as online dating.....eh.....seems so, illusive to me, in a way....I dont want to be talking to some guy and he not be who he says he is. I cant handle that in life....plus the awkardness of talking to someone online, then seeing them in person....its like what do you talk about???? What do you say at first? Just not my area really....I guess I will stick to the gay club for now, then just find me a straight guy one day to take care of me.....

I tell ppl randomly, when the topic of WLS surgery comes up...but I dont just tell anyone, not that its a secret but I dont introduce myself as hi, Im Jodie, I have weight loss surgery, wanna see my scar? lol!

No, no no, I didnt mean that you guess dont have political backgrounds. Most of you guys have lived longer than myself....You know from experience the history of more presidencies than I. I am not calling you old however, age is what you make it out to be....Therefore I mean you have more personal experience than myself. You have been voting longer and studying political patterns and such on your own. I am not discrediting your experience at all. A degree in it is no more than an examined study of what you have already lived through and such....therefore I meant nothing of disrespect to you....sorry about that....I just feel that I am discredited for being much younger, however I study politics every single day, SO I am trying to attempt to get to some of you all's knowledge, but can never compare to your experience.. Please dont take it incorrectly.

Im preparing for the LSAT, I have taken half my classes for my major....I study it all the time.....at least im in class tho, and not just running my head with absolutely no political background, whatsoever

thanks poodles, through all my threads, you really know the right thing to say....as far as the chubby chasers, well any of them I have met, have never been my type....well one, my ex (hes not really a chubby chasers, but likes all types of girls). They are usually not my ideal of my type. I like fit guys, and they usually dont like to date bigger girls, because face it, we really arent into working out a lot lol! Im thinking about starting working out, just for stress relief from my classes, I mean it could only have a positive result right? lol.......I am kicking myself in the arse because I was asked out by a guy one night in my home town. He wanted to go out for a couple of drinks, but I just acted rashly and got paranoid thinking that he may lead me off and take advantage of me (not really sex wise, but more so like murder and kidnapping lol, well maybe not in that order...) But I just dunno who I can trust. I dont trust online dating at all, Ive heard too many bad stories....I met a pretty interesting, cute guy, not my normal type, but I would still like to get to know him better. I only met him once, we hit it off well....He was flirting with me all night one night and we visited for hours, but I guess he decided it wasnt his thing because I havent seen him since. I really think my friends scared him away, face it we are family and we watch out for one another. They were like body guards all night lol! Which is flattering ofcourse, but I really kind of wanted to talk to him alone. I am so thankful for my friends here, but sometimes they are overprotective. Oh and one last thought about Chubby Chasers, I dont intend on being this size forever, and I dont want them to like me any less because I would be thin, it would be a total reversal.....then I would be back at point A.....geez that would suck!

Hi, I am looking for a good fill doctor in Corpus Christi, any suggestions and numbers??

where do you live? I might be able to help you find one, what state and area, i dont need to know ur specific location, that is quite private lol. However it is quite unlikely that you will win the case, especially if your insurance didnt pay for the surgery....It is hard to prove to be the surgeons fault and therefore the Insurance Company will see it as you got what you got. The Dr. and the Insurance company can mostly likely hire more high-powered expensive attorneys than you, and it is most likely a lost cause in reality. BTW im a Pre-Law student....Im learning I dont know too much since i deal in govt affairs more so than business practice, however this is the logical sequence.

I am not a Republican, I do not identify myself with any party in particular thank you......Politics is who I am, live for them! They are always happening.....I would rather be worrying about them and researching and dealing with trying to find a husband or decide on my future kids names (Which I dont want any NeWay). I AM however a moderate conservative, in which case I keep an open-mind, and I accept people no matter what, I just have different views on a lot of subjects than liberals (moderate and ultra) and ultra-conservatives do.

see, with mine they put how many people were polled, how they were polled, when they were polled and so on.....Yes those numbers need to be backed by two more sources in reality, but the fact is I need to read the whole US Constitution and UNDERSTAND it, write a paper about it. Read some journals, write about those, pick a national topic up for debate to do a presentation over, and go pay my rent, lol! I dont have time to do meaningless research that will get me no where on here, except make me look like a total complete know it all.....lol. I dont claim to know everything, I just insert my opinions, and what I know as fact, and let it be...... P.S. Not to mention its Friday night, I gotta get dressed to go PARTY!

Ok I have a proper source...68% of polled Americans do not agree with the War in Iraq, while 63% are unhappy with his presidency period. Taken straight from CBS News Poll. http://www.cbsnews.com/stories/2005/10/06/opinion/polls/printable924485.shtml

True, my poli sci classes focus on not having a bias. Especially one. We can only look at data and facts, not opinions or hold or own opinions to the calculations of the polls, and etc...Rather we just examine what is there in order to predict the future of politics. I have 5 poli sci classes this semester, so thats what I do on most days, play on various NewsPaper websites, government sites, attend lectures, read articles and poilitical journals. All that kind of stuff.

yes i know, i wasnt trying to attack you at all....I didnt have my source because it was on a powerpoint I saw in class during a lecture yesterday. I didnt mean to make you feel attacked at all Im sorry....

ummmm Carlene, help me here, I just woke up.....How is this relevant? Like Im not trying to be rude, or disrespectful to your research or anything, just confused.... Oh and the Associated Press (I know they are viable) however, is a not a good source. Its too general. Like, here, anything I turn in with AP on it, is automatically deducted for not having enough sources or something like that. They are great for reading, but not for quoting. You have to find a private study and research article, those are great for quoting, because they are unique and come directly from a person. And a fact is anything that can be proven right or wrong, remember that when you read figures, compare them to what other places are saying. Do they have a bias? Probably, and possibly a big one because it is politics afterall.

Ive been seeing a professional for 3 years...and shes wonderful, but I cant see her now because I moved away, plus all the money for that ran out. I used up all my dad's savings on medical bills. See I was a seriously depressed person growing up. As a kid as young as 1st or 2nd grade, I was wanting to commit suicide. I wanted to die, because of all the torment i went through as a child from my peers and from other adults, family members etc....Ive attempted suicide countless times, tried drowning twice, tried overdosing (which it is a wonder I am still here), poisoning, and crashing my own car on purpose. Also I was a cutter. I had cuts on my arms, hands, legs, thighs, abdoman, and if I ran out of places, even my private area, just to get the pain to focus somewhere else besides on the inside. I would take different chemicals and rub them into the wounds to make the worse too, so they would hurt more. So basically, Im doing a whole lot better. Im no longer on medication, i cant take pills any more because of the surgery (i dont care my Dr. said no pills for me). I dont know I just need to buck up and get over it I suppose. I remember my past though, and its hard to let go of something like that. Something that hurt so bad, something that messed you up so bad inside that you wanted to die. I was on meds for about 4 years (all through high school) but all I used them for was to get high or try to OD. Then I became responsible with them when I started seeing my therapist. In case you guys didnt know, when I started seeing the psychiatriast I had a few symptoms of MPD and a few symptoms of a little bit of Schizophrenia (not a lot or anything, just a little bit), plus I am a major OCD. Its funny how my friends dont know this, and hardly ever notice, especially my OCD. Im not saying I have the previous 2, Im saying I exhibited symptoms of those two, but now I rarely have an MPD moment, and no more Schizo for the most part. Its contained now, it could have gotten worse, but my parents finally looked under my jeans and long sleeved shirt i always wore, and found the marks. By that time I looked like a Blood Tiger or something. It was time to get some help. It scares me of what would have happened had I not gone to see my doctor.

Actually, just last night i had a professor comment on one of the girls in my classes weight. She had taken him in a previous semester. She walked in late and the worst thing in the world happened, he said "Hello Ms. Ramos, glad to see your holidays went well, I see you drank a lot of alcohol and ate plenty of holiday food." OMG I could have died because I weigh a good 60 lbs more than she does, so I automatically began to think, "What is he gonna say about me?" I need this class, there is no dropping it. Also, my college doesnt have too many big girls, and if they do, they are just that, big girls, not obese or MO or anything. A little overweight or just plain overweight, mostly all under 200lbs. You dont see many that are obese or MO, I think I have seen like 3 or 4 MO, and a little more than that obese all year. ITS very discriminatory in my classes, the way you look. I am blond hair green eyed, "fat" girl. you know God wasted his time on my looks because he put me in a horrible body! Im not ugly by far, I know that, not to sound cocky, but I wanted you guys to know that I dont think that. Ive always been told how it was a waste for me to be so pretty and be so big. I sit in my classes, I am the ONLY blond! PERIOD! The only one out of 30-50 people, ONE BLOND. That is this semester, there were a few more last semester. I get it for that. However if I was Blonde and Thin, think of all the attention I would get in that field. No I dont have to be the center of attention, mainly because I dont know what that feels like, so I guess not. Im not loud and overbearing whatsoever, remember, they apparently dont hear me speaking. I was asked to leave conversation A, because it did not have anything to do with me, a friend of mine was trying to talk to a boy she liked and vise versa, I had no place in that conversation, it was definately a 2 person relationship. The other one I had no business in because it was the guy's best friend and my friend, and they were discussing something private between those two....it was none of my business whatsoever.....just felt weird, although i had no place in either conversation. I miss all the attention i got from going to the club....I dont go any more because of some drama, and school started back. Im probably going tomorro night tho. I love the way the gay guys compliment me and pay attention to me! Give me stuff and be so nice to me. The girls there dont even hit on me, they know I am straight, and they arent all judgemental on my weight NeWay. I feel comfortable there, hell i practically work there lol! I just want to find that one special guy that can soften my heart. Put up with my crazy antics. Listen to what I say. But put me in my place when I am wrong. A real man will stand up to me, but not be mean or rude, just stand up for themselves. I dunno??? I cant afford counseling by the way, my psychiatrist lives about 8-9 hours away and shes the only one I could ever trust with my head....Not to mention we cant afford it anymore anyways. Guys Im not depressed, i have a good time, i am happy with life, i just wish i was happier with life.....

Actually its the Iraqi War that is not approved of by 68% of POLLED Americans (many of whom, probably didnt vote)....Not necessarily Bush. I like George W Bush, I just dont like the War in Iraq. His approval rating and that of the war are different, however related ofcourse, but can vary and differ

No, I have gotten to where I really dont contribute, unless I REALLY know what I am talking about, its important to state, and I feel strongly about the subject. I doubt they would care anyway. Ive had one professor give me the time of day, and thats only because I was the ONLY person who understood Oedipus Rex, the only one that had read it and could explain it at all....My Theatre class was full of people who didnt really care to be there, so I was the only one that knew ANYTHING about Theatre....In fact I knew so much I was told that I didnt have to come to class if I didnt want to at all. I still made a B. He forgot omit me from the quizzes, but it wouldnt be fair for me to make an A, so I didnt say anything. Others make me feel invisible, no matter what Im nothing but a little "who" in their ears. Every now and then a "Horton" comes along and listens to me. Someday I want to be a Somebody, I want to be heard, I want people to listen, and engage in conversation......I speak loudly and they just talk over me or just walk off, whatever. Tonight I was told by one of my friends to go "over there" (meaning away for a minute) while she and a guy she likes talked (which is fine by all means) but I walked over to my other friends and they told me to go back "over there" because they were speaking privately, so Im like a loner boner out there, standing between two conversations, equally distanced, so not to over hear either one. I dunno, atleast they acknowledged my prescense. I didnt mind, I understand private conversations, I would rather someone tell me to walk off for a minute, than them whisper right in front of me, because then I would get paranoid. I dunno, Im going to drown my recently renewed sense of depression (Ill probably be pretty much fine tomorrow, besides pissed about being invisible that sort of thing). Im not going to cry myself to sleep or anything, I dont cry anyway. I can probably count how many times Ive cried since I was a baby (and even then it wasnt often) on my hands. I really have no emotion left, and its due to society. My best friend here thinks my heart is black lol! Im not mean to anyone, if anything Im too nice, even to my enemies.....however I have no sympathy for others because I have gone through so much without any emotion or help from others, and I have made it out alive, and I am a strong person for the most part. I have never had anyone sit down and actually talk to me, except my ex-boyfriend. He still listens to me, we have real conversations still! He is the only person who cares. who has ever cared, in real life. I dunno what I would do without you guys, you at least acknowledge what I say, even if you disagree.....maybe if we were to engage in face-to-face conversation it may be different, but here I feel recognized........I just wish I could have a life like the skinny, pretty girls I went to HS with. They have everything!

I do, I carry myself well. Ive tried everything in the world. I feel like the "Who" in "Horton Hears a Who", No matter how much I yell, and scream, and clatter, and clash (figuratively speaking ofcourse) I dont get noticed. There is always someone better. See I have always held my head up high, especially since Ive gone to college. I dont care, there are 300,000 ppl in this city so wat if 10, or hell, 100 of them dont like me or even more! Its just the fact that Ive tried different things with different ppl. Ive tried snobby stuck up bitch mode (Which works for lots of girls), Ive tried really nice big girl, Ive tried being the comedian, Ive tried speaking out, Ive been outgoing.....But Im not just one of these things, I am in reality a combination of all of them, almost weighing equally....Yet none of them in moderation nor extreme gets me noticed. Professors dont even hear me, even when I speak loudly (im naturally loud) I am by no means in any way shy at all. I am always myself, no matter who I am around, although I respect them enough to not say things around them, or do things around them, or talk about certain things when I am with them. The gay guys always buy me drinks at bars and clubs and tell me how great my hair is, how pretty I am, how my boobs look good in that shirt, or if my ass looks good whatever......Its like I need to be a gay man to get anyone! lol! I grew up in a small town, probably everyone I am "friends" with now from there (I only see them every 2-3 months or so), talked badly about me behind my back and to my face growing up, but I have put the past behind me and I hang out with them when they call me. I didnt beg to be their friend, they came to me. No, they have never apologized, but I accept their hospitality. EVEN in my family I feel invisible, I am the first one to go to college, yet they could care less what I am doing with my life. I swear I could be homeless and the only people that would care would be my parents. They dont even come see me when I am in, I end up going and seeing them the day before I leave to go back to college.....If I talk about college, they just cover my voice with another conversation. People tend to ignore anything coming from my mouth, they just start another completely off-topic situation over the sound of my voice. I want to be looked at, I mean I look like (clothes and makeup, style-wise) and short chunky Paris Hilton most of the time. Designer shoes, handbag, make-up, nice clothes (I never ever wear t-shirts unless I have them dressed up with other shirts layered), I never wear sneakers, ever. I wear heels when Im not walking to class. My nails and toes are perfectly manicured and pedicured. I have long blond hair (natural) and its always in a updo, straightened, or curled with a curling Iron. Yet I still introduce myself to ppl around me, and Im not too nice, I never want to be seen as fake, after meeting someone. I just feel like I dont matter, whats the point in getting all dolled up, if no one cares. ps. I tried the whole dress down look, doesnt work either......Im just invisible

Exactly, that is why it is funny to us PoliSci majors, its an absolutely ridiculous idea when you think about it. I mean really the US is on a hopeless pointless mission there and we are only causing trouble. Our noses belong in Afghanistan, dealing with 9/11 terrorists, threats that we know for sure are after us, not "possible threats to democracy". Democracy can not be forced, but instead must come from within. I just sat through 4 classes today back to back, and all of them discussed the war in Iraq, Ive been talking about Bush and the war since about 2pm today and its almost 9pm and I just finished all my classes, and discussions about Bush lol! Popular subject...NeWayz the US needs to worry about its citizens, and its Democracy, and its safety instead of some other country that is a hopeless cause. You cant force any kind of government on any one, and even if you do, they mostly likely will resort back to their old way of government. Take a look at the situation in Venezuela right now, just for example.

lol BJean, your probably right, he is probably missing some of his crayons. And I dont think that he is necessarily heartless, just greedy. He is a politician, and he is concerned about his private agenda, and will get rid of anyone who gets in his way. Politicians have to be self-centered in reality, and they have to be over-confidant and many other qualities you wouldnt necessarily think of. It is suprising what Bush, and ONLY Bush knows compared to everyone else in the entire country. He lets people know what he wants them to know. Its an interesting discussion really. Well Im have class at 5:30 (Contemporary Political Analysis) Which is pretty much this thread all together lol! I am by far not a Bush supporter, but I wasnt a supporter of Kerry either. lol I just think that the past Presidential Election was lacking in the area of candidates.

Okay, so I wanted to write this on my myspace blog, but Im sure that all my friends on there are sick and tired of hearing me obesess about my weight. I have a few scattered thoughts, see if you can follow them, I want to type and discuss them randomly. First of all, I have a question......Why is it, that when you are the biggest person in the room, no one sees you or acknowledges you....Its just like being invisible, yet when you are thinner and have lost weight, everyone notices you. Suddenly you are noticed and seem to be glowing as opposed to being invisible. I am not understanding why you cant be treated like a normal person. Cant they not talk to you to your face and talk about your weight behind your back at the same time?? Hmmm something ponder... Second of all, Why am I such a slow loser. I want to cry when I see how great you guys are doing, getting to eat all this stuff I cant, and losing 3 times as much weight as me....I want to wake up thin......I eat all I can during the day, yet it still isnt much. Third, Things just dont seem to go my way often. I feel so unimportant most of the time, like my opinion and my thoughts do not matter. I get so pissed when I am discriminated against, I am not as much as I used to be, but I still deal with it evey now and then. Fourth, Why are gay guys in love with me, but straight guys wont hit on me unless ofcourse they are 20 years older than me and/or very creepy. Yet I have a friend that looks like a MAN! Im serious, I thought she was in gender transition when I met her! She is a big girl (and I know she lies about her weight to me btw) and she gets hit on ALLLLLLL the time, gets cute guys, boyfriends. She doesnt put out easily or anything, I just dont get it. Shes overall a BITCH (pardon my language) yet she still gets the guys in the end, and all I am left with are the gay guys, whom I love SOOOOO MUCH, but they cant offer me what a real relationship will. Also, I feel like I cant trust anyone, I am still a very paraniod person. I always think people are talking about me behind my back. Even people whomk I consider friends, because I was burned so bad growing up by people I never would have thought would talk about me like that. They dont realize what is hurtful to others I suppose. Another thing thats on my mind.....WHY DO BIG PEOPLE MAKE FUN OF OTHER BIG PEOPLE! We need to band together (no pun intended). I just dont understand how a very large person can judge someone else...... Also, I cant stand the F word (That is "fat" btw). I have been called that my entire life. I hate that word, I never use it to describe anyone or anything. I never have because it hurt me so bad growing up, but seems like lately people have been throwing it around like they dont care that I dont like it. There are certain words ppl I know do not like, therefore I do not use them around them, yet they do not have the courtesy towards me, I got a little upset about this the other night. If that word would have been used one more time, I would have left the party. Im sorry I will not put up with that word. period. I am way too obsessed with losing weight. I need to lose about 60-70 more pounds before I am the size I want to be. I am still the big girl in all the groups I hang with, and I dont like that. I want to be the girl that guys single out to flaunt over, I want my skinny friends to feel the way I do most of the time (they are all gaining the freshman 15 lol) Lastly, I need a fill doctor in Corpus Christi, my doctor is 7 hours away and refused to see me before I had to go back to school, therefore I am stranded with an empty band, and cravings. I dont eat a lot just really high calorie stuff, which I can control, but the band helps soooo much. I mean I paid $15,000 for this, I want to use it. I cant find any, I found one in San Antonio, but its $200 plus a tank of gas ($50) to go. If I go here it I want to pay about $100, which is what I was paying at Dr. Spiegels. I dunno, I still have some sort of strange feeling inside of me right now, but I dunno what it is, so I may come back and edit this and add whatever it is later.....I know that I just had a another random thought. Why is it that the people who are just born lucky and do all the wrong things, still get everything they could ever want or need? When I feel like I am pretty, but I am big, so therefore I apparently have bad luck, have to struggle for anything I want and/or need. If you are born pretty, thin, and into at least a middle class or really upper-middle class family you are able to be considered PERFECT, anything you want...................I dunno I am just having really jealous feelings towards thin girls lately, like I just want to claw their eyes out........Especially when I see them eating pizza, chocolate, chips, and candy, Dr. Peppers like crazy....AHHHHHH makes me want to SCREAM!

Lol I will trade ya! Im 19 going on 20, and all the guys that hit on me are early-mid thirties up to the forties! lol Ive been trying to find someone in their mid twenties forever.....THAT WASNT LOOKING FOR A HOOKUP lol