j_war06

I was 17 when I got the band, Im 19 now....Im still just a baby! Its kinda tuff when your young and have it, but its also a good thing, especially when ur in college

its great! I love my classes which helps a lot in attendance. I only have evening and night classes so that helps too....everything is going well as far as school is concerned

lol, Im proud of my stripper....I LOVE MUSCULAR GUYS! Its just someone I never thought I could get, ya kno? He's coming over tonight too

well...I have to go out atleast on the weekends because I partially work at the club I go out to.......its not necessarily the feeling of booty call that bothers me at all, I dont want a real relationship right now...Ive figured that out so far...after being in one so serious for so long, I just dont want to put that much effort into another human being....the stripper doesnt make me feel like one anyways, hes had his eye on me since September! In fact he was a little nervous to talk to me again, he got my friend to do it for him at first...I need that male attention to feel pretty. I feel good because Im attractive enough to get that attention from guys...I really just like to feel attractive....Ithink my hormones are wacked from BC pills...in fact Im sure of it. Im getting them switched Monday so I should be feeling better. I dont feel degraded by guys unless they are talking about how fat I am, or ugly or something like that....I really like the attention. Trust me it felt good fall asleep in a man's arms, and wake up in them too....to be held with such passion that he didnt want me to get out of the bed. He's called me all day anyway, he's actually got a heart.

Hey guys! I had a friend stay over last night.....well I can mark dream #2 off my list......HE'S A STRIPPER! But he's actually very passionate! I was so SHOCKED!!! He actually spent the whole night....He left at almost noon...He would have probably stayed all day, but I had to go to work. He's freaking HOT btw! Im proud of myself, if anything its one for the trophy case lol! Happy DANCE! Ok,

so....Ive got another man.......lol......a stripper! ahhh.....heaven

Ok, so Im feeling down in the dumps again for some reason, and now Im pissed at wal*mart too! I am in a depressed mood, so I decide Im gonna go shopping and the only thing open is Wal*Mart, I get probably $100 worth the stuff, and I decide to chek out, I watched them close 2 or 3 registers right in front of me...so Then I have to stand in a long long long line because they decide to only have two checkers, Im behind about 15 ppl, no joke.......so I just got pissed off, yelled at the lady closing the lines, and left..................... I dont know why I feel like this, I had one bad day in the past 2 weeks....maybe because Im feeling sick. I went out last night even though I felt bad....met a hot guy that was being very forward with me, and I couldnt even do anything because Im sick !! I guess I miss the days when life was much more simple, yet it seemed so complicated ????? Now I would have that back, but only for ONE day! I have school work to do, and I dont even want to do it....I start work next Saturday....I just have an issue this time of year....I miss my grandfather more than anything......and quite frankly I feel like a whore because I condone casual sex without being in a relationship with that person........I LOVE all the attention ofcourse......but I really miss that connection that my ex and I had......although Im happier without him...I guess I need to leave the boys alone??? I feel like crap because I just decided to become a booty call, and trust me my ego is right at the top for a few days, then it just plummets down really low........maybe Im an attention whore, I need it all the time to be happy...because when Im in a large crowd of ppl, and getting compliments and getting hit on Im SOO happy, but when I go home, I just feel like crap.........hmmm....I guess I use this as blogging more than anything

' Lol! Well I had a little romp with my guys several times, and he never even noticed my scars, much less my port, which tends to protrude...so dont worry about it....I had to explain to him what it was, he's a smart boy, he got it pretty quick...he never feels it at all (hehe even when hes on top of me lol!)<-----TMI I know

lol! I danced with the ex-stripper cop....turns out he happens to know a male stripper friend of mine (whom ive made out with!)! I found him at the club Friday night and I almost melted....ofcourse boytoy got a little jealous lol!High-maintanence aint no thing lol! Im high maintanence myself.....the exstripper was there with a chick and, not to sound too conceited, but she wasnt as pretty as me, shes not that much thinner than me either! Woo hoo! lol! NeWayz, Im gonna call the boytoy and see if he wants to come over tonight, he gets off work in an hour, so Im hopin he will! Im very subtle with the exstripper because I dont worship the ground he walks on, I dont like to do that with guys....thats what makes him flirt back with me a little....but boytoy does worship the ground I walk on lol! And i like that!

Lol! I do have to live within my means! This guy Im with for now, my little fun thing, its pretty cute himself, plus free drinks at the club! Im sitting here debating on if I want him to come over tonight or not....hmmmm....hard decision?????

yeah, Im not looking for perfection in any sense....but Im having fun with this bad boy...But im not a Britney Spears, Im not even going to attempt to change him....let it be fun while it lasts....I already know he will be a little posessive, but I can deal with that.....as long as its not ridiculously obsessive.....He's older than me (by like maximum of 6 years) so, I understand that he can do more than me, and I dont care....as long as he comes around by 3 am, Im happy lol! Im really not wanting him to call tonight, because frankly and TMI, Im sore, and hes a freak in the sheets.....I dont even care if he doesnt really like my body, something about it turns him on, and as long as he lies (if he is lying) I will be happy lol! Because it makes me feel great

I really dont know what to call it.....its open because I will flirt with other guys.....and I dont care if he does with other girls....I really prefer him not to have sex with them for fear of disease and that sort of thing.....but we are not technically dating.....more like consistently hooking up....which is fine, I dont need the stress of a real bf right now.....plus he's too much of a bad boy to try to tame lol! It more or less works in his favor of course lol, because Im not up to it all the time, and I like my alone time right now, so its no big.....however he has taken me to other worlds I never knew existed.....lol.....its a fun thing, its not a permenant thing.....Im sure that eventually my ex will probably step into my life again, and I will likely end up with him...

Good News Ladies and Gentlemen! I have a guy in my life...we are in an open relationship, which is best for both of our lifestyles at the moment....No I dont see this going too far into the future, but Im liking it right now! Hes been chasing me for months now, and I finally gave in......and dude its pretty sweet!

Im going into the law field, where as women are automaticlly judged for choosing that path...although many are successful...Most of the time they are going to take someone who is more put together, prettier, thin (shows that if they can take care of themselves, they can take care of their job). BTW As of Sunday, Im in an open relationship with someone I would have never put myself with....Its just a little fun romp, or whatever....Its a confidence booster fo sho, and hes really cute.....he came over last night, and lemme tell you, I had the time of my life! I couldnt see myself like with him as a real boyfriend but the benefits are great from the relationship................lol! Im actually happy....he's been chasing me for months and I finally realized that I wasnt just a piece, that he really is attracted to me...trust me, its almost a problem, I cant within inches of him without him feeling a little warm lol! Feels great......good relationship status for my life situation right now..... Only problem.........he has the same name as my Ex, and trust me, thats a little freaky.......Just have flashbacks....lol

I have no idea who Karen Carpenter is??? Sorri.....Ive heard of her, but that is it.....Ive never in my life been thin, and Ive cant remember (although I have been) being less than 160lbs in my entire life! I want to be at 120lbs so bad! Face it, I will never be successful in my chosen career until I lose weight, because it is male-dominated....and Women in that field have to use their "powers" to get anywhere (no that doesnt mean you have to sleep with them)

Im pretty sure that we dont have a counselor on campus, and if we did, we would have to pay for it....and right now Im unemployed because Im too concerned about partying right now....atleast its the truth???? I would honestly rather go out drinking and dancing than sit at home and stuff my face at night....that way I get exercise and lower calories.....alcohol has cals, but not as much as everything I would put in my mouth if I was at home....I admit that I do believe that I have body dysmorphia issues....however, MK isnt on her death bed, and I really dont see the issue with this.....my friends are all thin, so they will say she's too thin to be healthy or whatever, but my mind perceives this 50/50 because half I think that they really think that, and the other half I think they are jealous because they are not that thin.....I know Im messed up......I need a fill, Ive been stuffing my face lately and Im gaining weight , and its depressing me..........but when Im not filled I want to eat, I get hungry, genuinely hungry! But when Im filled I get hungry once maybe twice a day, usually only once tho, then I will have a small snack before bed or something???? I begged them not to take my fill out, and they did it anyway, and Im very upset about it.....

I personally, didnt like Kerry very much.....his politics seemed a little fishy, and as for his wife, he hardly let her out of the house (as I can remember) I dont remember her making any statements or helping promote her husband other than paying for his campaign with ketchup money that is.....Kerry just seemed to want to play too dirty and sneaky, I dont like that, perfection is the first sign that something is wrong.....when someone looks like a savior to his followers, something has to be wrong

oooooooooooohhhhh just thot I would let you guys know, that Im in love..........he just doesnt know it yet lol! Hot cop, yes a cop (ex-stripper) NOTICE "EX"......I am working on seeing if he wants to go out this weekend to the club or something.....JESUS, Ive never known a man as hot as he is lol...

No I dont see that Mary-Kate is too skinny...She is just naturally thin....She looks fine to me???? Is that wrong?????? Im not just saying that either, I really dont think there is anything wrong with her. Also, I am 5'2'', Im pretty short, I have small hands and feet (I buy from the kids side most of the time)....and also my wrists are so small I can wrap my small fingers around them....I know I am meant to be pretty skinny.....My hip will never allow me to be anything smaller than a 6, but thats ok, atleast I can shop with my friends. Right now I need to lose 60-70 more lbs.....Im 19 years old, I will be 20 in October. I just want to be like all my peers...... PS....If I can get the weight off,,,OOOOHH I have the biggest crush on this guy here at school....ooooohhhh my GOD he is freakin hot! If you want to see what he looks like, for real, go to my MySpace at myspace.com/jodiewarner06, he is the last person on my top list, and he left me a sexy comment at like 2 am this morning...............Im going to go work out now, because he works out, and he's hot, so If I work out and get Hot, maybe he will wanna hook up lol! Oh, Im so bad! I WANT HIM! lol

PLEASE tell me this is bunk! Judy I havent heard anyone else use that word that wasnt from my town! And yes, that sounds rather bunk to me also, my doctor has had patients well over 350lbs.

Im sorry, since it was written word it was hard to get its intension....if you know what I mean? Btw Im not trying to convert anyone, I debate all the time, sometimes I have to defend the side I hate, that makes one see the other side of the subject........

This seems rather offensive, although I dont know that you mean it that way.....

I dont think that you do, however I have been discredited here for my age before, many times...I feel like you guys think that because I am younger, I have no incite on politics....I get that vibe.....My age was brought up in very previous posts btw....Yes, I state that I am a student of PoliSci. I do that as to credit my knowledge of politics as my age is relevant to political experience. I cite my sources as best I can because I dont want people to think I make up information randomly, and that I have a credited source.....I didnt find that article to be so right wing, at all.....I guess I am right-winged???? P.S. I was in a PISSED TF offed mood yesterday, and highly emotional.....It just drives me nuts when I give information and people tell me its not good enough, or that I am wrong for doing that, when in reality I probably think that they are wrong

all articles have some sort of a bias

i FEEL like crap today.......btw......