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i am not sure where to post this, so if this isnt right, i apologize now. that being said.... last weekend i was really stressed out because my dh is a complete idiot. anyways, i couldnt eat a thing, nothign solid. so for prolly 4 days i didnt. mind you, i tried a bite or two each day but wound up pb'ing or just out and out vomitting. i was throwing up so bad! i really didnt think it was possible any more, and it was different then before band vomitting, very noisy and just nasty. i was throwing up yellow foam--stomach acid. it was horrible. ok, back on track...so now my stomach really hurts around the port. it is super tender...even my jeans being done up can make it ache. i figure i probably just pulled it from the retching, right? if i caused a slip or something like that, it would be a different pain? the port is stitched in and all the heaving and stuff prolly just pulled it and its tender? i dont know... maybe i should call the doctor. only its saturday and they arent open.... hmmm, this sucks.

we are going to vegas april 3-5. i want to have lost 15 more lbs by then. i know i am really going to have to buckle down and work this! wish me luck.

so i have that other post of boobies. that is just the start of my body image issues right now. i am having a really hard time. especially here lately. first, my girls are about gone...great. but here is the thing. i know i have slimmed down all over. i now have collar bones...kinda cute i must say. weird to see, but cute. my arms are slimming down, my legs are too! while i know i have lost weight in my stomach area, its driving me nuts! this is where i carry my weight. but i have lost this much and barely dropped a pant size because of my stupid freakin gut rolls! and now, its just starting to hang worse and nastier then before! yes, i have some serious issues, i know.... i am getting frustated. everyone talks about buying new clothes, my dh says go buy some new pants, your butt is very saggy in those...yes well, i have no ass, and yes, my pants are very loose in the butt and the legs...but....i have these nasty rolls up front. i dont even know what the point of this post is... mainly to vent about my stupid body shape i suppose. i am at a point right now, that even knowing that i will eventually get it all fixed thanks to the expensive man w/ a knife, its not helping me rgiht now! i know i really need to keep being positive. its just so hard when i know how much i have lost and i go try on new pants, and nope, nothing, natta, zip, zilch. still cant get into a smaller size. and nobody understands! well, nobody here with me anyways!

I am skeptical of any machine that boasts to grow your boobs. If it was that easy, why would people get implants? Much like, if the diet pills worked, why would someone have a weight loss surgery? --it didnt claim to grow your boobs, just focus the exercise on the muscles under/around the area to "perk" up and tone them? anywhoo, you are absolutely right, if thats all it took, why would i be searching all these pic's of lucky lady's new boobies! another year, another year, another year.... i really think i look funny! but that is another post...

dont beat yourself up over the difference in scales! time of day, what you were wearing, the scales themselves. all that can make a difference. try to look positively at it....you are DOWN 23 (16) pounds! better then up that amount, right? keep up the good owrk.

or more like, lack of boobies! so i knew when i started this journey that my body would be changing, DUH! i KNEW and expected to lose SOME in my chest. ummm, NOT THE WHOLE DAMN THING! seriously, my boobs are pretty much non-exsistant. and i am so not exagerrating and i cant spell today either dammit! my dh has been making comments for weeks now about how small they are getting. he sings these little songs about it..."my baby used to be a D cup, now she is an A cup..." isnt he just a funny man. so, i dont think they are really an A cup, but probably a B. no kidding! i still have 30lbs to go! i am gonna be left w/ nipples at this rate! i saw this infomercial type thing for this thing that is suppose to target your breast muscles, to lift and enhance your breasts. think it works? anyone seen it? for the life of me now i cant remember what it was called. dang it anyhow! i have always planned on getting a breast lift and augmentation. now there is no question that i will be in desperate need of it. especially after last night...my dh informed me that they are still getting smaller! why cant that be happening at this rate to the rolls of fat just south of the girls! stupid stupid stupid! ok, so that was my vent for now. sorry and thanks!

mine went down just fine last weekend, just had to split the shot into two swallows. and boy, did i feel it a lot faster!

and i dont mean dallas! wyoming girl here, born, raised, dont plan on leavin! lessofme--we are perty close! i go to slc for my fills!

i have lost 29 lbs. i need to lose 3.5 to be half way to goal. that has taken me almost 4 months, so i am giving myself another 4 months to be at goal. i need to lose a little over 8 lbs each month. i am gonna work this ass off!!! good job to everyone on their losses!

great job! i bet that feels great. i am proud of you, keep up the great work!

ahh, i have to admit i was surprised to see my name mentioned in the original post! thanks a bunch, gave me a big smile! i was kind of mia. i was feeling discouraged with myself and just all out bla about it all. but i am starting to feel better. i am back on track, eating properly, i have started exercising somewhat. each day seems to be getting better. i had been stuck at the same weight for what seemed like forever to me, and finally have broke through that. and that makes me so happy :tongue:. plus, i am becoming more accepting of what my restriction is. i am super tight in the am. i can drink coffee/liquids ok, although, some mornings that is out too. i can eat very soft things/soup in the early afternoon (that's my lunch time). like today, right now, it has taken me like probably a little over 1/2 an hour to eat maybe 1/4 cup Soup. some nights i seem to have no restriction and other nights i am tight, but not as bad as during the day. my discouragement comes from the fact that although i was/am not eating much, i wasnt losing. well, duh me....i was drinkin high calorie drinks--lemonade, ice tea, fruit punch. and not my crystal light either! stupid stupid. i have now restocked my desk w/ crystal light packets and a 24 pack of Water bottles sits under my desk. glad to be back!

i am 5'7". i have set my goal weight to be 150. right in the middle of the "healthy weight" according to bmi. i picked this weight because of it being in the middle, and because i am going to have a tummy tuck after i have been at goal for 1 year. i figure that will remove weight so i will be somewhere in the 140 range. but none of this is set for me. now, as i type this, i think to myself, maybe i should set my goal for 145, then it will be less w/ the tummy tuck, but as i am also having a breast lift w/ augmentation, maybe that will add a few pounds back? anyone know how much implants weigh? i know it will just depend on what size i get. as fair as pant size...i dont know! i have a weird body shape right now. i am at 186 and a size 16/18. before when i was at this weight i was in a 13/14. i have had 2 kids since then a few different surgerys so things hang weird..lol..hence the tummy tuck! i dont know what size to even hope for...a 10, an 8, i just dont know. i just want to look good and be happy again!

trish- sorry, been off for awhile. i have 3 registered quarter horses. they are great. one is 20, one is 6, one is 9. i have a registered paint, he is 9. and we have a quarter/mustang mix. she is the baby and is turning 4 this year. omg, does she have attitude. only female we own, only one we ever will. something to be said for geldings! love the big guys!

wheetsin-i knew you were one of the people who had responded to the post i had been reading! thank you. also, when i reread my orginial post, at the end when i asked what people eat that is good, i meant good, like good on plan/track/healthy, but good, as in tastes good works too!

i have tried searching for this, but am not finding it. i am sure there are other posts about this, so i am sorry for the repeat. any direction to previous posts would be greatly appreciated, as well as new responses! banded 10/4/07, first fill 11/13/07, second fill 12/27/07. i am super tight in the morning and loosen up as the day goes by. why is that? i know i have read about it, but, like i said above, now i cant find it. i am frustrated with myself. i am having a hard time with most food, things get stuck very easily. so i find myself eating bad things that i know will go down, just because i am hungry. i am losing since my last fill, but i know i would be losing faster if i was making better choices. last night i bought stuff to make Protein smoothies, which should go down alright. and be better for me then the crap i have been able to get down! so for those who are having the same issues but are making the right choices, what are you eating that goes down ok but is good?

i remember hearing something like you can have false negatives but no false positive results?? i dont know for sure. i would go to the doctor and get a blood test. better to know for sure then just wonder. do you have any other symptoms? breast tenderness? morning sickness? fatigue? good luck!

i had gained about 5lbs between my fills too. i waited too long and can only blame myself. but now i have lost that 5 again and am gonna keep going! at least that is what i am telling myself. maybe your fill will take a couple days to "take". i know mine did. after i got mine i was like, dang, nothing...but then a few days later, oh boy do i have restriction! dont hate yourself. i was doing that, but realized i wasnt getting anywhere. we will have ups and downs, its better to just forgive yourself and move one. focus more on what you can do now instead of what you did then. i know, i know, so much easier said then done. i am just amazed that i am actually doing it, so i know you can too!

things are definately looking up. i have pretty good restriction since my second fill. i am really tight in the am and dont even dare try to eat anything until afternoon besides coffee and Water. its not even worth it! i have decided to start tracking what i eat as i havent really lost much from this fill. but i know that is because i have been making bad food choices...picking what would go down easily, instead of finding the right healthy one that will work. but today i just feel everything is gonna start workin for me (meaning i am gonna get my butt in gear! and back on the wagon!!!). reading some of the posts it seems like people go the idea that i was blaming the band for my whole failing rant. i wasnt. i was blaming myself. i KNOW this band is only a tool, not a magic cure. i KNOW it will work when i decide to work it. that said, it was good to get the kick in the butt that came along with those other comments. so thanks. and i hope everyone is doing better.

if only people who made those stupid "cheating" comments new just how freakin hard this is! this is the farthest thing from the easy way out i have ever known. god lord, people piss me off! i guess you could tell your friend to just remember that he knows how much work he is putting into his choice and he knows he isnt cheating, so everyone thats says that can jump off a cliff! and prolly sending him here like everyone said would be a great idea too! tell him to keep his head up, screw those downers!

i didnt read all the other posts, so some of this may be repeated. we did a sort-of-potluck reception. we paid for the meat/cheese trays and rolls. then we had our aunts/uncles/cousins bring salads, Cookies, etc... but only if they had offered. and we made some ourselves too. my friends mom did our cake. i made the cute little mints...got the molds from a friend who made them for her wedding. its a simple recipe and makes the best mints ever! (pm me if you want it.) i made those ahead of time and froze them. made some veggie trays we had my mom take our pictures and then made frames and set those around. for center pieces we took those small fish bowls you can get at walmart, put some irridisent (sp wrong, sorry) rocks in, then a little candle. we put those on top of mirrors and then sprinkled wedding confetti (also bought at walmart). if i can think of anything else, i will let ya know. good luck

great job! i bet that feels great. keep up the good work!

pippin- house is my fav show right now. i dvr it every week and then rewatch them when nothing else is on, so pretty much all the time. hugh laurie is just so sexy, yummy yummy. i am also a huge fan of law and order. ci is my fav i think, but i love svu too. and the regular. they are all good. ahh, i also get engrossed in the surgical types shows, and the trauma ones, life in the er, big medicine. makes me wish i would stayed in the nursing program...ah, but life takes different paths sometimes....

crystal--while i listen to pretty much everything i have to say country is my favorite--george strait is my god! lol.... drives my hubby crazy how i can from george to akon to... pippin--love to read too! patricia cornwell--have you read anything by her? great books about kay scarpetta--a medical examiner! i have read them all, over and over. great series. i just finished reading stephanie meyer's twilight, new moon and eclipse. i must say i couldnt put them down and finished all three in a week. the last one in a day! boy does my house need work! oh well, the mess will always be there! a good book cant wait. i am also big on forensic's and love those type of shows. i like the autopsy ones that used to be on hbo. dr g medical examiner (on tlc?) is good too most times.

so we have the thread that introduces us. i though maybe we could expand on that and post about the things we like to do and such, maybe find some common ground with fellow 20 something bandsters. i love the outdoors. we go camping throught the summer and fall as much as we can. every sept we go on a week long trip and take the horses. its great to get away. i love my horses. we have 5 of the beautiful things. i cant wait to get rid of more of this weight so i am comfortable riding again! i also like hunting. we hunt deer and elk. i didnt hunt this year because of having surgery and then recovery. i probably could have, but didnt want to push it. my dh was not a happy man about that. oh well though. we also like going out on the 4-wheelers, they are a blast. we bought a yamaha rhino last year so i can strap the babies car seat in and go. it works great and i am not left at home! lets see, what else? hmm..... i am sure i will think of more as this gets going.

i am 27...gonna be 28 next week...live in the uninhabited (according to derik :eek:) state of wyoming. i have been married for 2 1/2 years. i have one stepson, one bio son and one bio daughter. they boys 10 months apart is all, so its a lot like having twins. and our sweet baby girl will be turning 1 next month. seems like i just had her. anyways.... i have been banded for 3 months now. still working on gettin some of this figured out, the biggest part being the head hunger. it really messes with me. plus the stress and emotional eating. oh well, all in good time. a new step each new day, right?