I have the same feelings you do. I am still in pre-op stages and I have an epic struggle each day to try and stay on my diet. And the closer I get to actually getting a surgery date, the slower time seems to move. I feel like I am losing my mind waiting. I am thankful I have work 'cause that keeps my mind off it for a time. I just keep checking in here and reading all I can about the process. I've also been reading www.theworldaccordingtoeggface.com. (I know--weird name) She has a blog about what she eats post-op and I'm learning a lot about food from it. Hang in there--we can get through this together!