So sorry you are feeling a bit down and out, but there is also lots of positives in your blog! Especially your children and looking forward to getting out this summer and making plans. I believe everything contributes to our being despondent, and number one I believe is the winter doldrums. Next, in my humble opinion, is despite our weight loss, we still have issues with our bodies, our hair, our age, our health, our life in general, the same as we had when we were overweight. I would like to say one thing to you that touches my heart. It seems like yesterday my children were small. I had 2 unhappy marriages, was basically self-supporting when I divorced. I had no choice but to put my job and paycheck first. Rejoice and play, plan summer picnics with your children in a park on a blanket. I cannot go back and undo my life, but I can tell you to count your sweet blessings and hope I inspire you. I have worn wigs and will again if need be. I still have my precious daughter, she is 48 and my darling friend of fun now. I kayak with her, I laugh and have fun with her. You get ready for summer fun and get back on course. A lot depends on it. Hugs, Linda