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Today I am feeling a little better. I do have a constant pain but maybe a 3-4 level and not a 6-7 level like it has been. So the packing today went good too. There is still a little bit of pus but not as much there is more blood instead. This is good because it shows that there are new cells there. I cant wait to get this heal and so I can find a new band Dr. and get going on my new band and my new life. I will then put all this past me and move on to losing weight! I cant wait for that day. I take showers still but I cover the area really really good, it doent even get wet at all. So now I smell good and keeping my wound safe. I know everything is going to work out. But sometimes it is so hard to see that light. I just think it will be forever and I am already so sick of have to lay there and get my wound packed. I was even doing it 2 times a day there for a while. Lets see if my band Dr. now or the nurse calls me this week to see how I am doing. I doubt they will. Anyway thats all I really have to say today.

Today I am feeling a little better. I do have a constant pain but maybe a 3-4 level and not a 6-7 level like it has been. So the packing today went good too. There is still a little bit of pus but not as much there is more blood instead. This is good because it shows that there are new cells there. I cant wait to get this heal and so I can find a new band Dr. and get going on my new band and my new life. I will then put all this past me and move on to losing weight! I cant wait for that day. I take showers still but I cover the area really really good, it doent even get wet at all. So now I smell good and keeping my wound safe. I know everything is going to work out. But sometimes it is so hard to see that light. I just think it will be forever and I am already so sick of have to lay there and get my wound packed. I was even doing it 2 times a day there for a while. Lets see if my band Dr. now or the nurse calls me this week to see how I am doing. I doubt they will. Anyway thats all I really have to say today.

Just my band was removed. I am suppose to go May 25th to get a new band. I still have the band in now with no port. But I think with the healing process I will have to wait much long then May 25th to get a new band. Plus I want to find another Dr. Thank you for reading my story. I know It was long :biggrin:

The continued story... May 2, 2006 ~ I went in to see my Primary Dr. He felt so bad with what has happened to me. I told him the story and as I started to cry I told him " Dr. Allen, please, I dont want to see that Dr. again I am so scared" He told me that I didnt have to. That he just wants to get my wound all healed up and HE will find me another band Dr. WOW I felt so good about all that. He also wanted me to see a wound specialist once a week until everything heals up. I really didnt want to but he was really conserned so I agreed. He also gave me more pain meds to help me deal with this pain. May 4, 2006 ~ I went to see Dr. Driscoll a wound specialist. He was really nice, and I had to go through the whole story with him too. He looked at my wound and said that it looks like it is healing nicely but he wanted me in there once a week. So I made an appointment to see his partner next Thursday. ***Thats My Story*** Today, Me and my Hubby went to my moms house to vist. As I was sitting on the chair I would get these bad sharp pains where my wound is, like my muscles were spasaming it was very pain full. But when John (my husband) was packing my wound today I noticed a lot more blood then pus. This excites me because that is a good sign of healing... nice new cells building up in there. I guess I have to take each day one at a time Its hard but I know I can do it. I still cant wait to get a new band. Boy can I eat! last week I was so depressed I ate 2 bags of candy in 2 days :kiss I should NOT have done that. I need to start really watching what I am eating. I dont want to gain the 50 pounds I already lost. One more thing before I go..... NOT one time this whole week did my Band Dr. call or the nurse just to see how I was doing... Nothing! how mean!!!! well fine then because I am NOT going back there again! Time for me to enjoy a nice weekend with John! :clap2:

The continued story... May 2, 2006 ~ I went in to see my Primary Dr. He felt so bad with what has happened to me. I told him the story and as I started to cry I told him " Dr. Allen, please, I dont want to see that Dr. again I am so scared" He told me that I didnt have to. That he just wants to get my wound all healed up and HE will find me another band Dr. WOW I felt so good about all that. He also wanted me to see a wound specialist once a week until everything heals up. I really didnt want to but he was really conserned so I agreed. He also gave me more pain meds to help me deal with this pain. May 4, 2006 ~ I went to see Dr. Driscoll a wound specialist. He was really nice, and I had to go through the whole story with him too. He looked at my wound and said that it looks like it is healing nicely but he wanted me in there once a week. So I made an appointment to see his partner next Thursday. ***Thats My Story*** Today, Me and my Hubby went to my moms house to vist. As I was sitting on the chair I would get these bad sharp pains where my wound is, like my muscles were spasaming it was very pain full. But when John (my husband) was packing my wound today I noticed a lot more blood then pus. This excites me because that is a good sign of healing... nice new cells building up in there. I guess I have to take each day one at a time Its hard but I know I can do it. I still cant wait to get a new band. Boy can I eat! last week I was so depressed I ate 2 bags of candy in 2 days :kiss I should NOT have done that. I need to start really watching what I am eating. I dont want to gain the 50 pounds I already lost. One more thing before I go..... NOT one time this whole week did my Band Dr. call or the nurse just to see how I was doing... Nothing! how mean!!!! well fine then because I am NOT going back there again! Time for me to enjoy a nice weekend with John! :clap2:

Congrats on your weightloss. Looks like you have done really good. Its nice to see the new YOU! and do everything you dreamed of doing. I am happy with you!!!

How cute!!!!!! Happy Cinco de Mayo!!! No Margaritas for me just hand me the bottle of Tequllia, maybe some salt and lime to go with it.

OMG its summer... I am so going to miss out. No swimming for me. My birthday is in June... maybe my wound hole will be healed by then. Right now thats would be the best birthday gift.. That and a NEW band! hehe Have a Happy Summer!!!!!

The continued story.... March 10, 2006 ~ 3 months later from my port replacement, I went back to my Dr. for a fill (6th fill). He was very excited to tell me that they use something to numb the area now. Dang that needle hurt worse then the fill needle. Well he added saline (I dont know how much) I felt it, I drank water and poof it was gone. Again he added more saline, I felt it, I drank water and poof gone. He unscrewed the needle applicator and added more saline. Filled me up all the way I felt it really tight, I drank water and poof gone!... He put his head down. Boy I have seen this look before, as tears started forming in my eyes I heard what no bandster wants to hear. He said I have a leak in my band. OMG!!!! :confused: I just had the dang port replaced because of a leak. Okay so I get a new band, that can't be to hard can it? I wanted to have surgery on April 27, 2006 one day before my 1 year. My neice was getting married the 29th so that was not going to happen, so I changed it to May 25, 2006. After this last fill that area got really red and puffy, and it bruised. I wasnt to worried about it, but it got worse. After a week it formed a scab. after 2 weeks the scab came off and it was yellowish pus looking. 3 weeks it was only getting more red. I finally went to my Primary Dr. (thanks to my LBT family that pushed me into going) He put me on Antibiotics oral and cream. After 8 days there was no change. My port was pretty sore and I was getting sharp burning pains. So I made an appointment. April 21, 2006 ~ I went in at 12:30pm and my Band Dr. looked at the infection. And in one week he would stitch it back up. My port came out in his office at 5:00pm He numbed the area really good, I didn't feel a thing. He packed my wound. I started having bad chest pain, right were my band is it was hurting so bad, the nurse ran out to catch my Dr. before he walked out the door. He just told me that he might have tugged on the tubing a bit and shifted the band but I am fine. Then I COULDNT BREATHE! omg I was so scared I was gasping crying hitting my husband on the shoulder looking at him in desperation... I was scared I started seeing stars and gasping as much as I can. The nurse ran out to catch the Dr. again, he came back layed me down and I cried (no sound) and kicking still gasping for air. He said they might have let some air in to my diaphram and that would make me feel that way. finally I calmed down and was able to breathe with a little bit of pain still. I was shocked! I just wanted to go home. Instead we were stuck in a hotel, until the next day. April 22, 2006 ~ I went in that Saturday morning for my Dr. to pack my wound for the first time. My husband watch carefully. :cry I was not put on Antibiotics, I was told that I would heal better without them. Packing it has been a challenge and lots of pain. My husbands mom owns a hospice and sent one of her nurses over to help with the packing and supplied us with tons of packing material. What a blessing. April 27, 2006 ~ My Dr. told me I could take a shower with the wound unpacked and let the water run inside even soap running inside would be ok. I did this and it burned very bad. but I smelled really good LOL. by the evening I was not feeling well so I went to take a nap, I woke up shivering as though it was below freezing. (hmmm i wonder what this ment ha) I sat in a bath with hot hot water ( the water was not touching my bandages) I took my temp and it was 101.4 :sick thats scarey. I got out dried off and my husband did my packing. As he pulled out the packing it was yellow slimy and just plain gross. It was full of pus. I was scared I tried calling the hospital where my band Dr. is and they would not page him for me. But lucky me he had gave me his pager number. So I called to page him myself. I heard *beep, this pager is out of order* Oh cute. I was ready to pack and head out to CO (remember he was going to stitch me up that next day anyway so I already had an appointment) I had to lay down for a bit first I couldnt hold my eyes open. My mom called and I told her what was going on, she cried asking me to just go to ER, I told her I was fine and we will be leaving to CO soon. next thing I knew my sister called begging me to go to ER so okay I went. Emergency Room ~ 6 hours Ugh what a night. I got on IV drip of antibiotics and took oral antibiotics too. my fever came down and he gave me antibiotics to take for 10 days. I told him that my band Dr. wanted to stitch me up that friday. He said that werid you cant stitch up a hole of that size. And he was also in shock that I wasnt already on antibiotics. Hmmmmm Well we were there until 3:00am April 28, 2006 ~ My 1 year Band Anniversary. I should be happy right... well I couldnt be more sad. I called to my band Dr. office and the nurse was not in yet so I left her a message, that I was in ER and I wont be going to see my Dr. today. I waited for her to call me back but she never did I finally called her back. she said "I hear you were in the ER last night what happened?" I told her I got a bad infection. She said "Yeah thats why we took out your port, because of an infection" NO!!!!! I her told I was sickand had a temp of 101.4 and that there was so much pus. I started to cry. She said "oh okay did you want to resedule your appointment?" What is she joking??? Not a how are you doing now? is everything okay? UGH!!!! I told her sure 3 weeks! put me down. Well glad that was all over. I still have more. So until next time!

The continued story.... March 10, 2006 ~ 3 months later from my port replacement, I went back to my Dr. for a fill (6th fill). He was very excited to tell me that they use something to numb the area now. Dang that needle hurt worse then the fill needle. Well he added saline (I dont know how much) I felt it, I drank water and poof it was gone. Again he added more saline, I felt it, I drank water and poof gone. He unscrewed the needle applicator and added more saline. Filled me up all the way I felt it really tight, I drank water and poof gone!... He put his head down. Boy I have seen this look before, as tears started forming in my eyes I heard what no bandster wants to hear. He said I have a leak in my band. OMG!!!! :Banane59: I just had the dang port replaced because of a leak. Okay so I get a new band, that can't be to hard can it? I wanted to have surgery on April 27, 2006 one day before my 1 year. My neice was getting married the 29th so that was not going to happen, so I changed it to May 25, 2006. After this last fill that area got really red and puffy, and it bruised. I wasnt to worried about it, but it got worse. After a week it formed a scab. after 2 weeks the scab came off and it was yellowish pus looking. 3 weeks it was only getting more red. I finally went to my Primary Dr. (thanks to my LBT family that pushed me into going) He put me on Antibiotics oral and cream. After 8 days there was no change. My port was pretty sore and I was getting sharp burning pains. So I made an appointment. April 21, 2006 ~ I went in at 12:30pm and my Band Dr. looked at the infection. And in one week he would stitch it back up. My port came out in his office at 5:00pm He numbed the area really good, I didn't feel a thing. He packed my wound. I started having bad chest pain, right were my band is it was hurting so bad, the nurse ran out to catch my Dr. before he walked out the door. He just told me that he might have tugged on the tubing a bit and shifted the band but I am fine. Then I COULDNT BREATHE! omg I was so scared I was gasping crying hitting my husband on the shoulder looking at him in desperation... I was scared I started seeing stars and gasping as much as I can. The nurse ran out to catch the Dr. again, he came back layed me down and I cried (no sound) and kicking still gasping for air. He said they might have let some air in to my diaphram and that would make me feel that way. finally I calmed down and was able to breathe with a little bit of pain still. I was shocked! I just wanted to go home. Instead we were stuck in a hotel, until the next day. April 22, 2006 ~ I went in that Saturday morning for my Dr. to pack my wound for the first time. My husband watch carefully. :cry I was not put on Antibiotics, I was told that I would heal better without them. Packing it has been a challenge and lots of pain. My husbands mom owns a hospice and sent one of her nurses over to help with the packing and supplied us with tons of packing material. What a blessing. April 27, 2006 ~ My Dr. told me I could take a shower with the wound unpacked and let the water run inside even soap running inside would be ok. I did this and it burned very bad. but I smelled really good LOL. by the evening I was not feeling well so I went to take a nap, I woke up shivering as though it was below freezing. (hmmm i wonder what this ment ha) I sat in a bath with hot hot water ( the water was not touching my bandages) I took my temp and it was 101.4 :sick thats scarey. I got out dried off and my husband did my packing. As he pulled out the packing it was yellow slimy and just plain gross. It was full of pus. I was scared I tried calling the hospital where my band Dr. is and they would not page him for me. But lucky me he had gave me his pager number. So I called to page him myself. I heard *beep, this pager is out of order* Oh cute. I was ready to pack and head out to CO (remember he was going to stitch me up that next day anyway so I already had an appointment) I had to lay down for a bit first I couldnt hold my eyes open. My mom called and I told her what was going on, she cried asking me to just go to ER, I told her I was fine and we will be leaving to CO soon. next thing I knew my sister called begging me to go to ER so okay I went. Emergency Room ~ 6 hours Ugh what a night. I got on IV drip of antibiotics and took oral antibiotics too. my fever came down and he gave me antibiotics to take for 10 days. I told him that my band Dr. wanted to stitch me up that friday. He said that werid you cant stitch up a hole of that size. And he was also in shock that I wasnt already on antibiotics. Hmmmmm Well we were there until 3:00am April 28, 2006 ~ My 1 year Band Anniversary. I should be happy right... well I couldnt be more sad. I called to my band Dr. office and the nurse was not in yet so I left her a message, that I was in ER and I wont be going to see my Dr. today. I waited for her to call me back but she never did I finally called her back. she said "I hear you were in the ER last night what happened?" I told her I got a bad infection. She said "Yeah thats why we took out your port, because of an infection" NO!!!!! I her told I was sickand had a temp of 101.4 and that there was so much pus. I started to cry. She said "oh okay did you want to resedule your appointment?" What is she joking??? Not a how are you doing now? is everything okay? UGH!!!! I told her sure 3 weeks! put me down. Well glad that was all over. I still have more. So until next time!

Kellie, He should not have been so rude with you. It hard enough trying to eat right and follow all the rules. Im sorry you went thourgh that. But maybe you do need a unfill, just for a while. Then you can go back and get a fill once your heart burn is better. But to loose the Band now thats crazy!!!! You can cry on my shoulder anytime... I will even cry with you :eek: Hang in there girl... you have done such a wonderful job so far... and You will continue to do a wonderful job! Maybe your Dr. was constipated that day! LOL

Wow you have been one busy chica. We did miss ya here though! Sorry to hear about your mom. And I hope your arm gets better... Infections suck man!!!!! I know!! lol Girl hang in there... rest your body, and mind! You need it. Your in my thoughts (((((((((((hugs)))))))))

:clap2: :clap2: :clap2: Way To Go:clap2: :clap2: :clap2: Congratulations!!!!!!!!!

The continued story.... Well after I got home from surgery I followed my bandster rules to a "T". But in June I was starting to eat everything! It was time for a fill. :hungry: June 23, 2005 ~ I went into Colorado to get a fill (1st fill). As I was I could feel it getting tighter. So I was happy that I would have restriction. We spent the weekend in Colorado site seeing, we also took my mom for a small vaction. We had lots of fun. I was being very careful the whole weekend not to over eat. So I really just under ate so I wouldnt get sick. By the time I got back home and back into my normal life I was able to eat everything again. I had no restriction what so ever. :cry August 5, 2005 ~ I went back to Colorado for another fill (2nd fill). This time taking my neice for a little vaction. Again I felt the fill that day he put it in. But after the weekend of having fun, by Sunday (when we are about to leave back home) I know I need a fill. The on call Dr. at the hospital paged my Dr. and he called me back saying he will met me at his office to have another fill.I thought that was very nice of him. (3rd fill) As he was working with the fill he would push in and out really fast trying and making sure he was talking out all of the air bubbles out. I thought this worked. And it probably did for a few days, but after that nothing. November 18, 2005 ~ Again I went back for another fill (4th fill) This fill was very painful for me, while my Dr. was putting the needle in he was unable to find my port and he was pushing really hard. I could hear the grinding of the needle against my port, its like it echoed in my won body. I get the chills now just thinking about it. My Dr. notice that what ever he was putting in that same amount was NOT coming back out. Also at this time I could not feel the adjustment at all. My Dr. put his head down almost is shame. He said I had a leak in my port and I would have to have surgery again. they put me down for surgery on Dec. 22. I also reminded him of the numb area (where he cut the nerve) That I was in a lot of pain there so if he could look at it while I was under. December 22, 2006 ~ I went in for surgery to have my port replaced. I ask my Dr. if he could also move my port down about 2inches. It was originally placed right under my rib and I was in a lot of pain driving or sitting down to long. Again I reminded him of the sharp pains I was feeling where it was numb on the surface of the skin, but painful inside. He marked an X where he would look. I came out of surgery groggy like normal. I was told there was a massive scar tissue around the tubing and he cut it away. He also put in 2cc's of saline while I was under (5th fill) I went home that same day to be with my family for Christmas. It was a hard and painful Christmas for me. To be Continued.......

The continued story.... Well after I got home from surgery I followed my bandster rules to a "T". But in June I was starting to eat everything! It was time for a fill. :hungry: June 23, 2005 ~ I went into Colorado to get a fill (1st fill). As I was I could feel it getting tighter. So I was happy that I would have restriction. We spent the weekend in Colorado site seeing, we also took my mom for a small vaction. We had lots of fun. I was being very careful the whole weekend not to over eat. So I really just under ate so I wouldnt get sick. By the time I got back home and back into my normal life I was able to eat everything again. I had no restriction what so ever. :cry August 5, 2005 ~ I went back to Colorado for another fill (2nd fill). This time taking my neice for a little vaction. Again I felt the fill that day he put it in. But after the weekend of having fun, by Sunday (when we are about to leave back home) I know I need a fill. The on call Dr. at the hospital paged my Dr. and he called me back saying he will met me at his office to have another fill.I thought that was very nice of him. (3rd fill) As he was working with the fill he would push in and out really fast trying and making sure he was talking out all of the air bubbles out. I thought this worked. And it probably did for a few days, but after that nothing. November 18, 2005 ~ Again I went back for another fill (4th fill) This fill was very painful for me, while my Dr. was putting the needle in he was unable to find my port and he was pushing really hard. I could hear the grinding of the needle against my port, its like it echoed in my won body. I get the chills now just thinking about it. My Dr. notice that what ever he was putting in that same amount was NOT coming back out. Also at this time I could not feel the adjustment at all. My Dr. put his head down almost is shame. He said I had a leak in my port and I would have to have surgery again. they put me down for surgery on Dec. 22. I also reminded him of the numb area (where he cut the nerve) That I was in a lot of pain there so if he could look at it while I was under. December 22, 2006 ~ I went in for surgery to have my port replaced. I ask my Dr. if he could also move my port down about 2inches. It was originally placed right under my rib and I was in a lot of pain driving or sitting down to long. Again I reminded him of the sharp pains I was feeling where it was numb on the surface of the skin, but painful inside. He marked an X where he would look. I came out of surgery groggy like normal. I was told there was a massive scar tissue around the tubing and he cut it away. He also put in 2cc's of saline while I was under (5th fill) I went home that same day to be with my family for Christmas. It was a hard and painful Christmas for me. To be Continued.......

I never had problems with cereal and I am too a cereal binge eater, I will sit down and eat almost all of the box. So what I do is DONT buy it! I just cant I eat the whole dang thing....

I dont think I will ever go to the ins. or any lawyer or anything. I dont want to do that to him. all I want is to be fix and not in pain any more. I want my band too. I dont think I ever got a chance to work with it. and I want that chance I think I would be a great bandster! Thanks for the info though... but I am not getting this Dr. in trouble

Yeah I saw this movie almost a year ago... and I didnt eat fast food for almost 3months but heck I went back into it.... It was a pretty good intresting movie though makes you REALLY think what your eating

Paula I just knew you would drop your mouth on this one... Heck right now my dear... Im making a list!!!! *wink*

To cute!!! You look really good. Looks Like fun!

Sorry for bring up my problems again. But I just remebered something that really urks me. You know how your port is stitched into place with the muscle. Well I had my stitched 4 times. Normally I would think one would cut the stitch and pull it out that way. Not with me, my Dr. cut round the stitch and took the meat with the stitches..... so a small piece of meat was hanging off the stitch he took off... 4 times!!!!! ugh This bothers me. Okay thanks for letting me vent..... again......

To bring my journal up to date I need to start at the beganing, I need to go back to January 4, 2005....... Jan. 4, 2005 ~ I went in to Dr. Smith's office for a consult about the Lap Band. I was very excited and couldnt wait to get it. Dr. Smith explained the Band to me, I weighed in and that was all. I did not have to do any test no X-rays, no blood work, no EKG. I did though have to go thourgh a Psych. Evaluation and talk to a Dietician. I found someone in Alb. to do my Psych Evaluation, she didn't know anything about the band so I told her everything I knew of it and I guess I passed . The Dietician was in CO so she called me over the phone and we talked for about 30mins to 45mins. And I was all done. They origanlly put me down for March 13, 2005 to get the band. But money and time did not permit. So I waited until April 28, 2005. I went on a 10 day liquid diet pre-op and that was very hard for me. I think I lost 15 pounds. The morning of April 28, 2005 It was snowing in CO and I was in shorts Brrrrrr. I went in got my paper work done waited for the blood thiners to kick in... and that was it. I was under. I woke up and the first thing out of my mouth was "Am I Skinny Yet?" hahaha I spent the night in the hospital that night and then went to a hotel room until that following Monday. I went in to see my Dr. That Monday I was complaining of numbness on the out side of my tummy. My Dr. said "Oh I might have cut a neve Sorry!" Oh is that all... :confused: I went home and healed up. I dont want this post to be so long its hard to read..... So...:bored To Be Continued.......

To bring my journal up to date I need to start at the beganing, I need to go back to January 4, 2005....... Jan. 4, 2005 ~ I went in to Dr. Smith's office for a consult about the Lap Band. I was very excited and couldnt wait to get it. Dr. Smith explained the Band to me, I weighed in and that was all. I did not have to do any test no X-rays, no blood work, no EKG. I did though have to go thourgh a Psych. Evaluation and talk to a Dietician. I found someone in Alb. to do my Psych Evaluation, she didn't know anything about the band so I told her everything I knew of it and I guess I passed . The Dietician was in CO so she called me over the phone and we talked for about 30mins to 45mins. And I was all done. They origanlly put me down for March 13, 2005 to get the band. But money and time did not permit. So I waited until April 28, 2005. I went on a 10 day liquid diet pre-op and that was very hard for me. I think I lost 15 pounds. The morning of April 28, 2005 It was snowing in CO and I was in shorts Brrrrrr. I went in got my paper work done waited for the blood thiners to kick in... and that was it. I was under. I woke up and the first thing out of my mouth was "Am I Skinny Yet?" hahaha I spent the night in the hospital that night and then went to a hotel room until that following Monday. I went in to see my Dr. That Monday I was complaining of numbness on the out side of my tummy. My Dr. said "Oh I might have cut a neve Sorry!" Oh is that all... :Banane59: I went home and healed up. I dont want this post to be so long its hard to read..... So...:bored To Be Continued.......

Well it is 4 days after my 1 year Band Anniversay. This should be a day that I can rejoice in and be happy, but all I am is sad! :think April 28, 2005 I got my band I was so excited to start my life over. I wasnt wrong in that my life did start over just in the other way. It wasn't like that at first but everything just kept adding up. Now 1 year later.... I am broken down ripped into and tossed like a piece of meat. I am hopeing that having this journal will allow me to express my thoughts. Anyone can read them maybe even learn from them.

Well it is 4 days after my 1 year Band Anniversay. This should be a day that I can rejoice in and be happy, but all I am is sad! :think April 28, 2005 I got my band I was so excited to start my life over. I wasnt wrong in that my life did start over just in the other way. It wasn't like that at first but everything just kept adding up. Now 1 year later.... I am broken down ripped into and tossed like a piece of meat. I am hopeing that having this journal will allow me to express my thoughts. Anyone can read them maybe even learn from them.