IndioGirl55

nothing it's free :0) - do you have a webcam - you have to have a webcam to do video sounds good I'm hungry - just had 7 chips (24 = 140 cal)

Ok Karla & Phyl have Skypes !!! Candice we know what you look like when you wake up so put it on your computer... Thanks Denise - since I copied it off my other thread - it's not super clear so you can't see the wrinkles 80) so I like it too :0)- Hope you are feeling better Prayer for DH surgery tomorrow - is he a typical man when he's down/sick Candice - You have been busy... I read this morning but didn't have time to type - am flaking on the gym tonite - go tomorrow and will go Saturday a.m. so I am not a total flake 3 days a week is good - do you hear me trying to convince myself Phyl What did you do today - Know you are enjoying the weather :0) Karla - how was the day - Prayer for no rain...

. Karla I have skype - but everyone thinks they have to look cute (well candice was the one - hell I don't care - most of you have seen me with out makeup any way... I love skyping w/Brooke & Kaitlin - gotta watch Brooke blow out her candles on her actual bday.. My food sucked - cuz I really haven't eaten - not cuz I over ate - bf - don't think I had any - oh I take that back 1/2 bg of pt chips that were left from thrusday and about 5 pastahico - lunch a small salad I mean small and 2 bites of chicken - a pt bar cuz I had gym and needed the energy but it was a small one 160 cal.. Phyl - I do cook my fish 350 for 20 min - but if your oven is hotter than mine or fish thinner - then tell him I said 12... lol You were a busy girl today... Oh girls - Phyl showed me her jewelry - it's beatifull Love the new piece.. Denise - How's your battle going... Candice - how' your mom doing - what did you do today.. Well gang I an going to go veg CBL

Good Morning Gang.. Thank about the pic - it's from my FL get together a pic Apples took - thought it was good so changed :0)... Yesterday got my Target Shopping done - Marshall's (got a new outfit) came home - watched t.v. napped - bbq ck and salad for dinner - took a sleeping pill around 8 so that I could go to sleep before midnite - hell I still woke up twice.. Didn't drink enough water - so had tmi issues this a.m. then spilled oj on me as I was leaving... Come to work a million email - desk full of file - I HATE MY JOB - F (i wrote the word but deleted it) THEM AND THE HORSE THEY RODE IN ON - HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO HAND 80 MORE FILE - WORK LESS HOURS - F IT - I DON'T CARE - I AM ONLY ONE PERSON NOT 1.5... Ok done venting - Thrusday is my baby's 19th bday - As of yesterday these are the plans - Wed he's going out - Thursday having lunch w/Mom and taking him shopping - Thursday nite - dinner & cake at home - Friday nite we are going out to dinner celebrate bday... Karla - sound like things are moving on - hugs on the truck issues - I hate car issues.. Phyl - Yep extra day light nice - but it's going to take a week for our bodies to adjust - Call the doc when you get home about the back.. Karri - have fun in Philly - you deserve the break.... Candice - tell your Aunt to jump in a lake.. :0) I know you can't but think it :0) Well I really gotta go - too much work - CBL

Good Morning Gang Up at 6:22 (really 5:22) stupid cat - but got up so that I can go to sleep tonite.. Candice - How was your evening?? Phyl - Did you survive the wind - Not suppose to have any today hopefully Karla - How was your new mattress Karri - Did you go running Denise - How's things going..

Well I see pic didnt load - so here it is again and pic's from Brooke's bday and the rainbow Not doing much tonite Going to veg in front of the t.v. Went and got a frap w/2 xtra shots :0), bank - Stater Bros - Winco - home - put all the food up, straighten the pantry ate a quesidilla and watch 1/2 movie - took a little nap (maybe 1 hr) Andrew left for work - watch the other half of the movie and fed the dogs.. Drinking a cup of tea Karla - can't believe you never had corn beef - well I guess it's cuz we are irish (my Great Grandma was from Ireland) we always had it on St Paddy Day... Karri - Still not sleeping - get some sleeping pills so that you can get back into routine - heck changing the clocks tonite is going to suck - I hate springing back - I like the light in the evening - but losing an hour is hard on a working girl.. My body says it 8:30 when the clock says it's 9:30 - it's not ready for bed .. Candice have fun tonite... Well back to the couch - just a quick ck in - will most likely ck back when I can't find anything to watch :0)

LOL Candice - you are talking to the girl who doesn't have a diplomatic bone in her body Well dressed ready to head out - need some caffine think I'll hit starbuck 1st !!! triple shot :0) 138 was before the cabbage - it was yesterday morning - I'm not getting on the scale again till next thrusday :0)... I added a pic of my outfit last night well I just got online to ck my bank balance to see how much I can spend - :wink2: xoxoxo J

Good Morning Gang !!! Yep had a great time w/Phyl & Earl yesterday.... The corn beef and cabbage was to die for... I was worried about Phyl's back but she did EXCELLENT- We walked more this time than the last time we were there in Nov... Yep got another purse $298 for $70 -couldn't pass it up... Then got a cute outfit the the Smokie concert last night - and another top and tank - all on sale... Love the kitchen store we went to got Earl some Obama Hot Sauce (for you fb pple you know how much he dislikes Obama - so I just had to get it for him lol) Let me tell you Smokie Robinson is FANTASTIC he can still sing and he's 70 yrs old - his voice and range is just as good if not better than when he was in his prime... Got up hit the gym this a.m.. - Karri sweetie if you are reading this Mommy is back to 138 !!! :wink2: Candice - when does your Mom get to go home !!! Peter is so sweet to drive all over the country to see your lbt sister :0) Well it's 9:30 I need to get busy

Karla - I think this is why they say journeling helps !!! It makes you realize stuff.. You realize that you are using food in an attempt to avoid often overwhelming emotions. You need to began to trust in herself. learned new coping skills that give you alternatives to your old way of bingeing/purging and restricting. The less you engaged in eating disorder behaviors, the clearer your mind became allowing you to make new decisions that supported your desire to heal from your eating disorder. You need began to refuse to judge yourself in unrealistic ways and instead began to appreciate yourself more. Of course this was hard at first because your identity is so caught up in your addiction disorder. You really don't know who you are without it. And then there is your relationship with others and your desire to please others. You need to make the commitment to yourself that you want more out of her your life. After all, you probably have been doing it for a long time. There is also a physical/psychological addictive feature that can make it difficult to give up eating disorder behaviors and attitudes. You start the process of healing but at other times it just seemed too overwhelming.You are naturally reluctant to give up something that youe both identified with and believe you need. You will learned that by giving up your food you will actually more in control of her life. You will realized that you are living a “small” life often too afraid to interact or engage with other people. Your eating disorder actually helpe you avoid your life. Often people are afraid that by changing their behavior and thinking that they are somehow giving up control. Quite the opposite. When you first started controlling your body by r binging you were trying to gain control in your life. What has happened is that the addiction part has taken over. There is power in writing and telling your story because it helps you discover and begin healing your inner child. This can then lead to healing yourself. What are you going to choose, victim consciousness or hero/heroine? Make Your Own Coping Bank We take the money we earn and put it in the bank for when we need it. We take the monetary gifts we get from others and sock it away in our piggy banks or bank accounts for a rainy day or for times of need. A Coping Bank is the same -- we take what we learn about coping alternatives and put them away, in the backs of our minds, for when we needs them. But during recovery that can be difficult, and during times of crisis it's often hard to think of what we should do. Make your own Coping Bank and you can go and make a withdrawal when you are feeling stressed, overwhelmed, confused (etc.) and in need of healthy ways to handle it. How to do it: 1. Use a shoebox, an old piggy bank, a tupperware container, a juice bottle -- it should be something you can cut a slit in to make your deposits, but that is easily opened so you can make withdrawals when you have to. Decorate the item you chose with magic markers, crayons, paper, buttons, ribbon, photos of loved-ones, affirmations, fabric, cartoon characters, anything you like! Cut a small slit somewhere in the top or side of your item -- this is where you will make deposits. Write a whole bunch of healthy coping alternatives on small sheets of colored paper (like construction paper, stationary, old greeting cards, index cards). Here are some examples... Write in your Journal Listen to your favorite music Write at least 5 affirmations Color in a coloring book Play your favorite instrument Tell one person how you feel Pop or stomp on bubble-wrap Have a water balloon fight Paint a picture Take a long hot bath Go berry picking Take a long drive Take a leisurely walk Rent your favorite movie Take a trip to the toy store Fingerpaint, Doodle Build with blocks. Build a tower and knock it down Build with Legos Spend time with your pet more ways to cope... Come up with your own too! Take all these little sheets of paper and deposit them into your bank. You can always add more as time goes on, you can make deposits whenever the mood strikes you! You should initially try to get at least ten to fifteen ideas in your bank. Place you Coping Bank on your dresser, next to your bed, in your china cabinet -- someplace easily accessible and where you'll know where it is. Make a mental commitment to yourself to go to your Coping Bank when you need to! Next time you are feeling sad, angry, overwhelmed, confused, or stressed-out, and need to find healthy ways to cope, go to your Coping Bank and make a withdrawal. Pull out one of those sheets of paper and do what it says! (remember to put it back in your bank after you've read it, so it's there for the future). Remind yourself... "I am taking care of ME!" Hugs I am so glad you are doing a tad better - glad new class is at least fun to teach and Yea Vacation !!! Glad you stopped by - (it was mommy guilt - I guilted her on FB ;0) - Mom's are great for that lol !!! Hugs - Hows the fill... Well up early - don't think I am heading to the gym - I was up for about 1.5 hrs during the middle of the night - couldn't go back to sleep - so am drinking my coffee and going to figure out what to wear - clean out the car so Phyl has somewhere to sit :0) see we are alike :0)

Omw haven't we been chatty today - It's 7:45 and I am just posting - went and had nails done after work (I have had them off for about 3 weeks) - then had to come home clean the ktichen - and I didn't take anything out to eat for dinner this morning - Fast Food for the most part isn't band freindly and since Earl is making Corn beef - I guess I will have to watch what I eat - He's a pain in the tush at times -but he is a great Host !!! and Phyl's a great hostess too- Phyl don't sweat the couch - I can scoot the stuff over and find a seat and hopefully tomorrow will be nice and we can sit outside... My house is a little messy right now too.. but heck - it will get done eventually.. Denise - I would be like Phyl DS - I couldn't be a teacher or work in the school system - Hugs - Glad you are taking DS to counsler - maybe it will help.. Karla - see things are working out - Hugs to your family again - Candice - Ya I'm seeing you in July - but everyone else will be too plus this trip ;0( ... lol = I totally understand.. Ok gang I gotta go eat - going to the gym in the a.m. before I pick up phyl ... Hugs Cbl

Good Morning Gang Drive by post I got tons to do 85 new file to deal with - Penny out - and today is my friday... Here for you Karla Good news scales 139 this a.m - that's down 1/2 lbs from last week.. But had to change clothes this a.m - zipper on a pair of pants stuck - I hate that... Phyl - Hows the back this a.m. - Be careful... Steph Hugs on Michael - you will survive. Candice - I will try and get you addresses today - I don't know if I have them here at work I guess I am going to have to hunt down Karri... ;0) xoxoxo cbl

Ya I get you about not being able to call pple till 9 and then forgetting about it and never making appts - I need to see the skin doc - eye doc and the plastic surgeon (lol).. Let me know if you want to postpone Friday - go read the "i'm here to help thread" I am off to go eat - bp 112/70 and it's been 24 hrs since pill so I;m good - drank 2 bottles of water today - need 1 more :0)

Hey Gang.... Karla - why do they have to get in your closet for roof repairs?? Home is fine - Andrew's been walking Ryder so he's a little calmer - It was work and lack of Water.. I don't have any idea - UPS is the only thing I can think of.. Well, I have never been gone 5 weeks - but I could do it - I would love to travel like that.. Candice - Gotta say I am feeling very left out :thumbup: lol - Karri lives in Oregon not Washington - I will email you the xmas card list - you didn't keep it ;0).. But I understand - maybe your next road trip - I live the furthest away... Phyl - Hugs on the back issues - we have desert orthopedic but I agree - you want to do everything you can before surgery - those back streachers are good - debbie uses it too.. It depends on how long it takes to see a doc here since you are only here for a few more weeks.. But heck it's worth a call..

Good Morning Gang... Watched Idol - love Crystal (dread girl) then went to bed - took a xanax - drank some oj - gave me refulx - just the oj came up but was rushing to the bathroom.. Karla you are up early.... I have been on antentol for years now I think since 08 - maybe I need a switch or higher dose bp 120/80 this morning - sb lower but had already had coffee and dealing w 3 dogs.. Poor Ryder (puppy) he's just that a puppy and has a lot more energy than my other 2 - he's a smart dog - can't say I love him - but he's ok.. Andrew worked a double shift yesterday - I guess they are opening another dollar store here in Indio - he's going to see if he can work there too - pretty good - I told him to ask - 2 part time jobs.. Like that he wants to work.. But he does need to figure out what kind of trade school he wants to go to - Dollar Tree isn't a career - but again he's only 19 (well almost next week) Food wasn't bad last night - even with the hungeries - made popcorn but never ate it all - found some sf licorice 7 pieces 90 cal had 3... Well it's 5;40 time to jump in the shower - ttyl

Candice I would be pissed at those aunts too - hell they don't go visit your mom... Just do what I do - think - go jump in a lake.. Debbie apoligized today for flaking on me the other night - it pissed me off - here I am trying to be nice and she didn't show but I thinks she's a little jealous cuz I am going to see smokie robinson with someone else - but the ticket was expensive and I didn't ask her cuz I didn't think she could afford it... Phyl - it's down to 125/73 - today was stressfull and I didn't drink - I think the combination did it - but I will keep an eye on it- I guess it's a good thing I didn't go to the gym :0) So you are leaving 4/5... got 45 min to Idol - I really want to go to bed - but not sleepy - but want to eat and my stomach is full but I am mentally tired - food trigger.. today they had these little lemon cakes in the lunch room - they are from costco - 1 is 130 - i took a bite and threw the rest away - hell it would have been 3 bites to eat it all - omw it was good - I want sugar - but don't have any so I'm cool this is why I don't have junk in the house cuz if i did - i would be eating it riight now.. well going to watch the boob tube..

Good Evening Gang I didn't exercise - came home with a MAJOR headache - still have a tad - works a bitch - Penny's out - I am getting all the calls plus my stuff - plus Paul ... I may be dehydrated - only had 1/2 cup coffee - then a pt shake for bf and then soup for lunch really just at the chicken & veggies out of it- it feels like a blood pressure headach and I just ck'd it144/95 - that's high - I am sure I took my meds last night.. Well I guess I better take one now.. ok took it and drinking my 1st bottle of water for the day.. Karla - Hope your neighbor gives you a deal.. You need a break... Phyl - Yep when I left work - car said 66 it's cold - I am ready for 75-80 degrees - I hope it stops by our date day on friday... 3 hrs for one earring - omg - that's a long time.. Candice - 2.4 a week is a big goal girl don't let - really you should have goal of 1 to 1.5 per week - I don't want you to get discouraged if you don't make 2.4 in a week.. Well, I am going to hit the couch and drink this bottle of water and hope my headache gets better... Will cbl - Hugs

Good Morning Gang Karla - Love Phyl's idea of a roofing party !!! Come on girl you gotta think postitive - I know it's hard when you have all these road blocks - but try.... We are sending posititive thought your way... I pray all this house stuff goes thru so that you can move forward - this has to be so frustrating... Steph - Glad you stopped by - how's things w/Michael Phyl - it windy here (i hate the wind) so I know you are really getting it - well maybe not sometimes when it's windy here it can be calm in dhs.. Candice - Gym today :0) ok I am late in getting in the shower - no use to work on hair wind is going to mess it up.. xoxoxo

Hi Michelle Hugs for your struggles.... Heck you have been banded longer than us lol.. Peaches advice is good with the Beck Solution.. We are addicts and this is a daily battle - If you are succuming to ice cream then don't buy the crap. Today clean out the pantry - fridge etc of all the crap - sit down and plan a menu full of good healthy foods - again I hate the word diet - I have not been dieting I just eat heathly As to where keeping on track - for me it's been not thinking I have been on a diet - Understanding that how I ate pre-banding is why I was fat.. Besides the portions - I ate very high fat and high sugar - I didn't think about what I ate - I just ate what tasted good and living alone (well you know what I me - Andrew doesn't pay attention to my eating) I could eat like I wanted to when I wanted to.. And I move the least possible amount that I could. Like I have said a million times - I think the light bulb went off in my head - I can't eat like I use to and have the body I have today - I am finally the person who I always imagined myself to be - I love hearing - oh you are tiny.. Exercise - I am very fortunate that I am able to do it and that my body responds to it - I don't hate it like I use to - There are days that I have to force myself to go - but I feel so good about me on those days - hell to be able to leg press 400 lbs at 55 is pretty damn empowering.. Being able to do inner thight machine at 130 - 120 lbs makes me feel good.. I feel strong Losing the weight was liberating - caterpillar into a butterfly Like someone said - there's still a fat chick inside of me who wants to take control of my life again - (like a split personality) but I just don't let her - I have my treats but I don't over do it - Like I said I have a 5 lbs limit and when I go over that - it's back to the basics. You all keep me honest - I am not sitting here preaching and not walking the walk - I am no diff than any of you - if I can do this I know you all can do it. I want everyone to feel as good as I do -

Candice Glad you had a nice visit w/your Mom ;0) - Ya 8 days for wrist seems a little long.. When are you going back to the gym :0) Those pina colada's have tons of calories - but they are good and I like the Miami Vice's too... I like foo foo drinks :0) not too sweet but a little - hell and I love shots :0) Well not much to report since this a.m. - Had greek yogurt 130 cal 16 grms pt nf - w/granola - lunch was mexican shrimp cocktail - and dinner will be Soup I guess left over from yesterday. gotta leave for the gym in 5 minutes.. Karla how did the house thing go - do you need a whole new roof or Patches... cbl Phyl where are you today - Denise what's up w/you today - good day at school - Steph - did you find a bb for DS

Good Morning Gang Denise lima Beans in brown gravy - Never hare of it - but sounds good I like lima beans. Hugs on DS issues - Kids - I am glad for the most part Andrew hasn't been too much of a pain - he's a pain at time but nothing like my DS at that age... Hell Joseph became a dad at 19 - andrew will be 19 next week - thank God no great grandkids from him.. Hugs on Mimmie ... Karla - Continued good wishes on the house - I colored my hair yesterday - it's a little darker than I would like - but my hair fades so it will be ok.. Phyl - got fog :0) - had light fog while driving to work - this friday suppose to be good weather - which will be great for our outing.. Candice- I bet your babies were happy to see you - you got snow?? Well need to get to work - well I am at work - but need to do their work - :biggrin: TTYL

Karla - Hugs & prayer on the house... Candice - Sounds like you had a great time Phyl - WTG Karri - WTG on your 10 lbs :0) Drive by post - I am making ck soup - it's raining - and I am pooped been up since 6... cbl Hugs

Totally agree gf - that had to be the worse and so very inconsiderate of her.. My sis and I were talking about the same thing - I don't know if it's our fault - but our grown kids are still that kids - at their age we were all out on our own doing our own thing - Kids now a days (well for the most part) rely on the parents too much - they need to grow up and take responsiblity.. You are up early for a Saturday - but I know you have a busy day w/inspection and everything ... Keep us posted on that -

Sweetie we totally understand !!!! you are a basket case right now and that's to be expected and you sure in the hell didn't need this additional stress from DD#4.. Your inspection will go fine and you may just have to tell DD#4 that she has to follow your rules while she's living under your roof.

Karla Hugs gf - Kids - I bet you were out of your mind with worry Now every bf isn't going to be mommy worthy - were yours :0) that's kind funny... I had a lot of bf who I wouldn't take home to mom lol - it's called fun not marriage ... But I know you don't think that's funny right now Yes she lives at home she owes you a call - to skip class and work - that's not cool either - you wanta have your fun - have it but you gotta be responsible - You really didn't need this stress today - nor never really but right now with the loss of your Dad - your emotions are even running higher than usual.. Ok which DD goes out of town to see bf - #4 or #5 must be #5 - but I thought it was the dd who lives w/you and that's #4 right?? Hugs - well you can't eat - so I guess you can look at that as being a good thimg :0)

Hey Gang - Home in pj's and chillin !!! TGIF Food today - BF - Strawberries - 6 slices Deli Ham w/1 slice 2% cheese Lunch - Salmon Dinner - Steak & Veggie & Pasta maybe Snacks - popcorn - fudgesicle - but I am craving sugar - I almost stopped and go a candy bar but didn't wtg Janet... Gotta get up in the a.m. and hit the gym - went last tuesday (a week ago) so I most go in the morning ... Well that's about it for me - I am going to have a busy week next week as the lady I work with dh is having surgery and she will be gone all week -but at least next week is a 4 day week for me and I will be chillin w/Phyl on Friday !!!