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Have you seen a therapist? I wish I had before surgery. As ready as I was for the change, I didn't have the skills to cope with it. Being a few weeks out, I've been grieving for the way things were and worrying about the things to come. The surgery doesn't fix what's going on in your head, it fixes your capacity and can fix your hunger. The single psych visit was not enough for me. With my insurance, it required a 6 month supervised diet. I thought that was a waste of time. I wish they'd had 6 months of required therapy to make sure you were ready.

I'm so glad you're feeling better!

It's hard to be patient when all you want to do is be better. I'm really grateful that I'm not the only one. I've had to sort of limit my perusal of these forums because it's full of people who are just so over the moon and I'm just not there right now.

Thanks for the encouragement, it's so appreciated.

Thanks, I know ultimately it was the right decision but its hard knowing you can't go back. I'm not far enough forward to know how that feels. Just going to give it time.

I've got the unjury chicken for dinner since all the 'sweet' from the chocolate shakes during the day gets rather nauseating. I've been bulking up on the water, every time I get a hunger pang or my head wants something tasty, I just drink a bunch of water.

Hey my surgery date is the 5th too! I'm on my liquid diet which has me all over the place. One minute I'm totally committed and the next I'm plotting how to get out of it w/o losing self respect. And then I think about having the leftovers from the last dinner I had. On this side I'm just not sure how I'm going to be able to do 8 weeks of liquids. I'm already sick of them and it's day 3 on liquids, I have another 63 to go.

Good luck

how long were you on liquids for?

my doc wants 2 weeks of clears and weeks 3-8 full liquids. I balked a little at this.....surgery is on the 5th

I totally understand, my preop liquid diet starts in a couple weeks and instead of staying on the diet I told myself I was, I've basically been having dessert every other night or so. I'm feeling very out of control at the moment. If there was cake here, I'd be eating it as well. I'm right there w/ you, good luck!

happy to help

I'm actually quite happy most days, but like you some days....just suck. I get it

This is a post I could have written. I know right now things are hard for you. Sounds like your whole month sucked. I often feel quite alone and wonder how so many women on these boards ended up with husbands seeing as I currently can't even manage a boyfriend. I've built the walls between myself and others. Granted I've never been a social butterfly but there are times when I feel like I've got nothing compared to everyone else and their fabulously developed support systems. I'm working on it though and so are you.

I suspect this next month you're going to get your second opinion and be happier for it. Sounds like you have a plan for your diet and exercise and I hope those go well for you. You're not alone here and I can guarantee you're on someone's mind. pm if you like, i've got quiet nights in spades usually.

Thanks! I really always thought it was going to be horrendously difficult but I think it was a mindset issue. I think it's just one choice that changes and it may be why I could do it. It's made me wonder why I can't seem to be as successful w/ better food choices. With food, it's not just one choice it's a choice each time I put something in my mouth or think about what to make for each meal or just when I'm hungry. I have problems mostly with quantity and sometimes with food choices. I think the surgery will help with the quantity but I think i'm on my own for what I actually stick into my mouth.

I can imagine how obvious other peoples eating habits become when you're sitting there trying to curb your own. You did great! It'll get easier. At New Year's you'll look fantastic and it'll be the start of a fantastic year for you!

Nope, don't have a date, my 6th visit was on the 15th and my letter of necessity is supposed to be in the mail. I'm hoping for a December date but more likely will be in January. Mildly disappointed w/ that since i've got limited pto.

Staying w/in my calorie allowance is so hard, it's one of the primary reasons I'm getting this done. Even when i'm eating healthy, i have real problems w/ quantity.

do you have a date yet?

i'm preop...no i seriously would not have done this post op. I've either been very good or very bad, just wholely inconsistent w/ my diet, it's frustrating. I've been screwing around w/ the same 5lbs for 3 months. i have a really bad week, like 2500+ calories then 3 weeks of coming off that and trying to be good.

Some days i'm just so tired of being good and then i have a little bit and a little bit more and a little bit more and then the pan was gone. it was a single batch of betty crocker fudgy brownies. like 3/4 of a cup of oil in those suckers...wtf was i thinking.

As i wrote it, I was coming to the decision that tax season wasn't going to happen for me. I'm looking at other avenues now. AARP offers free tax returns for low income and retirees. I volunteered there before and really enjoyed it. I might do that again since it really doesn't require anything like the effort of a part time job. I'm feeling better about my choices. I'm going to be fine. It's funny how after these appointments I go a little to pieces every time, just to have to remind myself that I'm fine and I need to move on.

Yes they have a monthly thing going at the hospital, I've just got to get myself there is all. Thanks for well wishes

What New_Hope said is right, the calories aren't the issue for the first couple months. First thing my nut said was no drinking while eating, half hour before or hour after. Drink 64oz a day, and also make sure you're getting your protein in first. The biggest issue going forward is going to be what you choose to put in your mouth.

Today it may be that you need a lot of it to feel satisfied or full but the important part is to start choosing healthy foods. The surgery will help a ton w/ quantity, it won't necessarily force you to make better choices about what you eat. This I'm sure is an issue for all of us who use the forum. Good luck

I have sinus issues as well. I tried this neti pot, it doesn't work for me. i tip in the water and it just sits there...it doesn't drain out the other side. Then I get this sloshy feeling in the front of my face. I guess my problem is more congestion that a runniness(?). Hope you have better luck.

Love your blog

thanks for the encouragement. I was back on form today. i'm feeling better and working out and drinking my water. I can't always control myself w/ food. I figure this is how i got into this in the first place, but I'm getting through.

Parental stuff can suck. I think it's great that you're learning how his choice doesn't have to be your choice. I know how hard it is to do something that goes against what your parents want. This is all just a part of the process, a lot of this process sucks but in the end there's nothing better than getting stronger in who you are on the other side.

I felt the same way. I totally crashed when I got to the doctors office though. I know I need to write stuff down and ask questions but when he came in i swear to God whatever was going on upstairs, just leaked out of my ear and I think I just stared stupidly at him for 10 minutes.... sigh.

Grats on getting closer to the goal!