Lea Anne

I had to read through these before gaining enough courage to post my own confessions! But, I LOVE this topic so here goes.
I confess that not only drink regular coffee, but I use regular cream in it and drink sometimes more than 1 cup a day.
I confess that I started smoking again and I'm really ashamed about it but I couldn't give up food and cigarettes without going crazy. I literally cried every day. So, cigarettes won - again.
I confess that my weight loss is higher than expected (146 lbs in 8.5 months) so I sometimes feel invincible and eat more than I should or something not healthy.
I confess that I stole a piece of chocolate out of a child's stocking and didn't feel too guilty.
I confess that I miss my bigger boobs (even if they were mostly fat).
I confess that I don't drink enough Water anymore.
I confess that I miss Taco Bell so much that when I drive past one I make my passengers have a moment of silence.
I confess that I'm not perfect but I'm not doing my best. I did my best months ago and I need to find that willpower again. I have a strong woman inside me somewhere and she and I need to be reunited - hopefully at the gym.
I confess that writing all of these confessions made me frown and smile and I feel a little lighter - if only emotionally.

I had to read through these before gaining enough courage to post my own confessions! But, I LOVE this topic so here goes.
I confess that not only drink regular coffee, but I use regular cream in it and drink sometimes more than 1 cup a day.
I confess that I started smoking again and I'm really ashamed about it but I couldn't give up food and cigarettes without going crazy. I literally cried every day. So, cigarettes won - again.
I confess that my weight loss is higher than expected (146 lbs in 8.5 months) so I sometimes feel invincible and eat more than I should or something not healthy.
I confess that I stole a piece of chocolate out of a child's stocking and didn't feel too guilty.
I confess that I miss my bigger boobs (even if they were mostly fat).
I confess that I don't drink enough Water anymore.
I confess that I miss Taco Bell so much that when I drive past one I make my passengers have a moment of silence.
I confess that I'm not perfect but I'm not doing my best. I did my best months ago and I need to find that willpower again. I have a strong woman inside me somewhere and she and I need to be reunited - hopefully at the gym.
I confess that writing all of these confessions made me frown and smile and I feel a little lighter - if only emotionally.

I had to read through these before gaining enough courage to post my own confessions! But, I LOVE this topic so here goes.
I confess that not only drink regular coffee, but I use regular cream in it and drink sometimes more than 1 cup a day.
I confess that I started smoking again and I'm really ashamed about it but I couldn't give up food and cigarettes without going crazy. I literally cried every day. So, cigarettes won - again.
I confess that my weight loss is higher than expected (146 lbs in 8.5 months) so I sometimes feel invincible and eat more than I should or something not healthy.
I confess that I stole a piece of chocolate out of a child's stocking and didn't feel too guilty.
I confess that I miss my bigger boobs (even if they were mostly fat).
I confess that I don't drink enough Water anymore.
I confess that I miss Taco Bell so much that when I drive past one I make my passengers have a moment of silence.
I confess that I'm not perfect but I'm not doing my best. I did my best months ago and I need to find that willpower again. I have a strong woman inside me somewhere and she and I need to be reunited - hopefully at the gym.
I confess that writing all of these confessions made me frown and smile and I feel a little lighter - if only emotionally.

CALL YOUR SURGEON NOW. Symptoms could be fever (mine told me over 101), abdominal pain, tachycardia (elevated heart beat), intolerance to liquids and other. Varies by person.
A leak is nothing to mess with and can lead to serious complications including death.

Ok I wasn't gonna do it for fear of being judged but WTH here goes...
1) I have had some wine
2) I have had some chocolate.
3) I have started smoking again
4) I would kill for a Big Mac with extra sauce
5) I have had anxiety attacks post surgery.
I know, I know. All I can say is this is so much more than I anticipated. I am adjusting but this is a HUGE change. I didn't underestimate the commitment but I didn't fully realize the entire impact. I know I will succeed but obviously not without testing some limits.

1. I confess that I think about food way more than I should.
2. I confess that I drink caffeinated coffee on occasion
3. I confess that I have sucked on a tiny peice of chocolate and let it melt in my mouth because I'm on soft foods
4. I confes that I have cried until I can't cry anymore about how much I miss my old eating habits
5. I confess that I secretly am angry when my husband eats a big plate of carbs and fat....

Day two. First day, I went home after surgery (outpatient for VSG.) All was well. Slept in my own sweet bed without all of the interuptions. Day two was not full of pain, I actually had none but it was full of "OMG this is real. I can't drink, I can't eat, being strong is not enough." I was so weak and tired which is unlike me. So, day two was reality check.
Hugs, I hope you are on the road to recovery quickly. Sip often and walk as much as you can force yourself to in between naps.

WOW! That's incredible! You're surely an inspiration to us all!

@twic41
i believe that there isn't a "normal" and that everyone's body is different. that said, maybe you can go back to Protein shakes for a couple days to kind of kick-start the loss again. i'd definately schedule an appointment with the surgeon (not just the assistant) to discuss your options and make sure everything is okay.

That's awesome! Kinda kinky and weird, but awesome.

Well I'm out 137 days and down 140lbs... Best decision I have ever made and I'm not taking anymore medication besides my Vitamins and B12 injection. I'm 36 yrs old married with 2 wonderful sons and I am feeling amazing!

I was just able to lick my toe!!!!!! Haven't done that in forever! Gross I know but yet awesome!!!

I think it's great that you ate a donut the size of a quarter, if that isn't moderation I don't know what is. I don't think this procedure is about nevers, ie you can never eat this or that. It truly is about moderation, be proud that you ate that little donut, I know pre surgery I would have ate the whole donut and would have wanted to go back for seconds. I feel moderation is very healthy, and apparently moderation is something that most of us have to work on. Your doing great, don't feel bad because you have no reason to.

I really liked this above post about overweight people having "all or nothing" mentalities. In other words, they can be, surprisingly, frustrated perfectionists! If we're not operating at 100%, if we ate 1/4 of a doughnut, we might as well be sitting in front of the television with a pint of ice cream, bag of chips, what-have-you.
Perspective is everything. I can only encourage you to relax and be proud of how far you've come, while always being aware of what/how much you're eating and getting in your activity.
You've done a great job "self-adjusting" with your Protein shake, so I think you should be very happy with yourself. That's working it!

Remember this isn't an all or nothing thing. You are talking about being upset over two meal out of 21 for the week. You did great 95% of the time!! That is awesome. Sure we should all shoot for 100% and most weeks we can hit that, but slipping up a couple of meals over the course of a week is not a big deal.
The shrink I had to see preop said that most overweight people are all or nothing people, which is why we have trouble losing weight. We do good for a while, but then we slip up, and instead of rebounding and getting back on track, we get upset and just throw it all out the window and keep eating poorly. That sounds like what you are dealing with. I used to do the same thing before when I tried to lose weight. You have to forgive yourself and just rebound to making better decisions. Don't beat your self up, or punish yourself. Reward yourself by eating healthy foods that will make you feel better and look better.
Nobody is perfect, and I think you are doing a great job, hang in there!!

I did that for a while, then ran out of steam. I nearly OD'd on soda and beer! But the foods you love... you aren't saying goodbye to them forever, just temporarily. Keep that in mind. And that you'll have to lose every pound you gain now!

I've noticed recently that I've begun to think unhealthy thoughts about eating. I had a Protein Shake tonight for dinner because I feel like since I've hit stage 4 and began to eat regular food, the speed of my weight loss has decreased. Then I remembered that I had a piece of donut (the size of a quarter) because I was craving chocolate and now I feel guilty. I felt guilty after a party this weekend, too, even though I really didn't eat that poorly.
There were many times before the surgery that I wished I felt guilty for eating and wished that I had anorexia instead of the urge to binge. Now that I'm eating healthy and doing really well on this journey, I feel like I don't want some sort of psychological intruder messing with my mind. I've spent years working on my self esteem and to suddenly doubt myself just isn't me.
Has anyone else had these feelings of guilt or wanting to "punish" yourself for not eating right? Just typing this brings tears to my eyes like I'm actually being punished by someone.

You'll be fine. I started my period the morning of my surgery and the pre-op nurse just told me I couldn't use a tampon and she gave me these super sexy disposable panties and a huge pad. Lol! Good luck!

Judging by some of the things you've said about your feelings about your boyfriend, the relationship should have been over a long time ago. If you want my advice, it's time for a clean break and brand new start pertaining to your life without him and you life with your sleeve.
That's just my two cents though. I can only go by what I've read. You need to do some searching in your heart and do what feels right for you.

Ive done the same thing with a jar of salsa. The chicken gets so moist and flavorful. Ive even shredded the chicken breasts and made tacos or burritos.Romaine lettuce worked as a sub for real taco shells. Or you could just make a taco salad.< /p>

I had that taste too so i sucked on sugar free Werthers hard candy and sugar free mints.

Ok so question, I know people r going to laugh at me but ima just say it. Since we can't use straws, is oral out of the question? Lmao! Or should we just be patient?

chocolate pure Protein or muscle milk. i get them from Walmart.< /p>

yes, it surely does suck and i hate being hungry. but down 5 pounds is great! congrats and just keep doing the liquids. they suck but they work!!

people and their opinions and know-it-all attitudes never cease to amaze me. you did what's right for YOU and not anyone else.