Jennifur

Welcome Suziecat I have seen you out there too, it is so nice of you to join us! Your story sounds very similar to mine. I started in Feb of 06 and was going to have surgery by time I did all kinds of crazy stuff in October and then dbf was in a horrible accident and I had the first of many nervous breakdowns - so I become an official Shriking Violet! Anyway, you know our stories so welcome... and check out our trip in May- Morning gals - i'm up for a crazy friday, running like a mad woman - going to the gym, shopping, shower, and work. I'm tird already

Hi gals well, glad you all had such a good CTCD. I on the other hand pushed it. I wanted a couple of wings, they are baked and I usually eat them all the time. Well after 3 days of protein shakes and a small salad with chicken salad on top. I choked on 3 small wings... ok, choke is an understatement... SLIME, throw up... couldn't breathe... so ... here is the lesson..DON'T CHEAT ON CTCD!!!! Amanda - so glad you are back safe and sound! well, off to bed... it is going to be a rough road... but... at least it looks like I'll be off Monday and Tuesday next week, what a great feeling 2 days off together. I really need a day job.

Hi gals well, glad you all had such a good CTCD. I on the other hand pushed it. I wanted a couple of wings, they are baked and I usually eat them all the time. Well after 3 days of protein shakes and a small salad with chicken salad on top. I choked on 3 small wings... ok, choke is an understatement... SLIME, throw up... couldn't breathe... so ... here is the lesson..DON'T CHEAT ON CTCD!!!! Amanda

Pam - i can't wait to meet you. You crack me up. you remind me so much of one of my very close friends. she nuts, in a great way, too. I'm off on my adventure. no crap today!!!! I'm back down to 208 so I'll keep plugging along.

Tracy good for you girlfriend! I like to post my lbs, only because if I post it then I work extra hard to keep it off. I know everyone bounces a couple lbs, but either way I too am proud that it is staying off, but I'm mental I have this jacket I bought last year for riding. I wanted something warm but didn't want to spend a fortune knowing I was going to be banded. I have been wearing that jacket that fit me and was almost snug, I feel like a little kid, dylan (ds) could fit in there with me, looking down when it is zipped I can see my feet and I know that I couldn't get those jeans over my hips 4 months ago and now they are getting big, but I still see myself at 280lbs. I am too hard on myself. well, another busy day today -lots of running, grocery shopping and work at 3:30. It looks like I might be working 6 nights for the next week or so, but then I'll be off on Monday & Tuesday, 2 days together, that will be great for me. Mom was saying the universe has a bigger plan for me, but what, I've been saying that for a few months. Maybe it is to help step mom while she is going through a hard time with her employees. It just kills me - they need a general contractor... I keep saying give me a chance... they just wont cave to a woman doing it... This could be the break I need to get my name out there, with the city and doing a business! Keep good thoughts for me gals, that they will give me the responsibility of dealing with the crap, it might be the other reason I'm there!

Ok, so at least it looks like we all agree. I'm so excited. I am 100% in!

Terry I'm in for Tuesday and Thursday!!! no crap tomorrow I agree, Tracy has been so quiet, she should be jumping up and down and demanding those bananna's I'm off to bed. I am really tired and have a headache - might actually throw up it is so bad but had to check in with my gals

I was there and voted. I'm so ready, my bags are packed. Or not... nothing is going to fit me in May. LOL I am heading out to the gym then off to work. It is so very cold out side.

I'm so stinking excited!!!!! I say #2 would be nice to have a pool and workout room, unless we are all too hung over to workout LOL #1 would be good too... still has a hot tub... and fun stuff #3 Ritz - i agree - too big and too expensive.. and if anyone backs out for emergency or whatever, it might be too much for my budget. Once we decide, would you like me to send some money for deposit, and a firm commitment? I would be happy to do that. I am off to the gym...

I was thinking the same thing.... What are you doing Tracy??? There was once a day we were within a lb or 2 of each other... now I need 20 to catch up... I am sooooooooo jealous... 20lbs... I would be so stinking happy.

Hey Michelle... how is the planning going?

Morning gals I was thinking about amanda last night too. I hope she is ok Pam- I didn't sleep well last night either, i was FREEZING and had finally got up at 3 and turned on my fireplace. Let me tell you... that CARS cake was better than it looked. The moistest yellow cake with vanilla pudding in the middle... I had 1 pc and then gave it away, an there is 2 small pcs left, which how perfect ... I have 2 small kids. LOL dd has to get 6 baby teeth pulled at 11... that is not going to be fun. I hope to be down this am, i'll weigh in when I shower - but I'm frustrated as heck. and I want to get to Onderland more than anything, I want those bananna's for me. Trackks - hope ds is feeling better Hi Kat, miss you!

What a busy day. Haydee, I'm so sorry I won't be able to see you... Tracyks - poor ds... poor you... take care of yourself - I would have taken the tickets. LOL I'm so sorry you had to give them away Hi Terry! Hi Michelle! Hi Laura, Jane, Angie... TracyK- thank you auntie violet LOL I had other thoughs but they are gone now. LOL have a good night all - they crack me up... can't you tell we are all related?

Tracy - when pizza sticks and major slime... you don't eat it. LOL I have been bad which is why i'm back up to 213 today, but it will be gone by the end of the week. anyhoo... off to chuckecheese... have a good day everyone

Laura I'm with you sister... I would last a minute on the elliptical. 20 on the treadmill maybe 30 but I want to die, and get bored and I know I can quit so i do, that is why I like walking outside. I can't just stop and move on, I have to get home Congrats on the 270... I am a mess today back up to 213... good thing i'm doing shakes again. LOL I'm gonna do what I have to do. dbf just left, I had on old lady jeans but he told me I needed new ones, they were too big and I needed new ones. I told him when I lose 10 more lbs I was going to get a couple new pr. He told me when I lose 10 more he will buy me new jeans.... what??? who are you and what did you do with my bf??? well, going to go to chuck e cheese in a few...then off to work. so glad the site is up and running today, i hate when it is down

Morning gals I am so glad the site is working, I could not get on this morning. today is ds's official bday, we are going to chuck e cheese today then off to work. I'll post a pic later. Michelle and Denise - I too have been having issues and was thinking about slippage. I have been having sharp pains in my lower stomach which scares me and I feel like I'm full a little lower than I was. I can eat tons... and have been on complete self destruct myself. Today back to protein shakes and a salad for dinner & tuna for dinner. I am determined to be in Onderland for Thanksgiving, so I better get on the ball! I did just get back from the gym, which felt great. Terry - you are 5lbs away from my goal. I'm jealous... LOL Congrats, you deserve those dancing bananna's. Tracy, I'm sorry ds is sick. I am jealous about Garth... You stay home... I'll be right there

hi vi's Tracy - I'm cracking up but you are right... if they don't want it then you do take that personally. shit I just want things as a friendship... and develop if that is what it is going to be. Today, I cried 90% of it, went to work hyperventelating. I was a mess. Like these guys think that should be a compliment, and maybe one day it was... well now it is an insult, that they would want to be with me just F me... How is that a compliment????? And then I miss my kids, I miss being home for dinner and spending time with my dd when my ds has gone to bed... I miss having money to be self sufficient. I can't even get my kids presents. Why can't I get a day job. I know I'm going to get screwed on the day hours. I am in total meltdown mode. Which in turn is not helping me with my eating choices. Not gaining but not loosing either. Pamela, I've heard that CD, a friend has it and brought it to work - I downloaded a couple songs... It is a good one well, i'm off to bed, I am mentally exhausted and tomorrow is cheerleading competition with dd ........round 2 Terry - I'm so sorry, I had a friends' dd die in a fire last year and i didn't let my kids out of my sight forever. It was horrible so i know what you had to go through today Kat - thinking about you! HUGS

Denise you are so right... LOL that is why I waited 2 weeks to go to the dr last month when I had strep... I waited for it to go away on its own anyway... I am down in the dumps as it seems to be my normal pattern. I think besides eing bumming... It is cold and cloudy here and I am not use to being chilled to the bone... so that is not helping oh well... tomorrow is anoter day... to try to start over again. at least I'm not gaining... that is a plus

oh... alka seltzer has gel tabs too, works just as quick but without the taste. Thera Flu is great too, knocks me out but works great

Pamela yes...go to primary... you need antibiotics... do you take allergy meds? If you need them take them too, you need to dry up but it does sound like an infection. This is horrible time of year for me allergy, leaves are my worst, as they fall the mold, mositure, leaves in general... I can't live without my clariden D well, i'm going to get dressed and go to the gym

Morning gals Kat - what a day you had yesterday, in the middle of your own stress and getting yourself together - a sad lunch. Sometimes, I think to myself, it is bad but it could always be worse. Terry - 14 -16... that is great... i want to get there... I'm in a Med - Large top...and 16-18 bottoms... ok, 18's are way big now. you gals are up early Judy - have fun.. you are the cruisin' queen...

Wow, it is quiet here today. i'm just gtting in from work, long late night but working with an old friend who did things the way we use to and we worked together, not against each other, and it was a good, fun night. I have emailed the lady about returning my dog several times this week and she is not answering me. WTF? I was suppose to meet her tomorrow to bring him to a foster home. I need to get my life in order and until he is gone, I really can't.... but Hello????? anyone seen Ellen's situation on the news with the foster dog??? I have the same deal here. Well, I'm going to go climb into bed... I am tired and I am going to get up and go to the gym. I am going to do shakes for the next few days, I have to, I'm out of control

I am sure you do... Remember our party a few years back... I choke on crust and most toppings... (i've tried) so I just eat the cheese and sauce when i want some. I'm around but major pms so I've been anti social here is dylan on Halloween, yelling at me to hurry up. that was at 10am!

Hey Cousin...... How are you feeling... I don't like to call and wake you up. Thinking about you Aren't you glad you found LBT? I am sure you are going to be much better, that was a crazy place for a port! Love your pics. you always take such good ones... I guess when i got genes they skipped me. love you!!!

Laura - I feel the same way, so tired... could sleep all the time. How frustrating... I guess I could get that job with no experience. LOL well, I don't give it to them... but for some reason they all think I will... I don't get it... I don't give the impression I will but I'm so tired of them all. Jane, if i find a twin... I'll send 1 your way... oh wait.... I can't find 1 let alone 2 >LOL So after that mess with dbf yesterday, he is aparently not talking to me today and keeps saying that I have replaced him... I am very insecure, that is not a secret... but either he has found someone to replace me or might actually be seeing me in a new light... that someone else might want to be with me? who knows... it is complete bs... I don't have time to breathe and he usually consumes any free time during the day i might have, let alone working 5-6 nights a week, I sleep on my night off... are you kidding? I just don't know why I let everyone make me think about my faults and nothing positive about myself, and these useless other guys who just want sex may think it is a compliment, but I don't think so... it just tells me I'm not good enough to be with as a person