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Tracyks- glad you had a good night, you are a strong person and Cody needs strong...

Morning gals Tracy - it is actually CTCD.... so don't you forget it. LOL I slept like I was dead last night, I had to call my cousin last night, something I was avoiding because I knew this would be so real when I did. I started to cry my eyes out. Today seeing my aunt is going to be a huge reality check for me and it is not going to be pretty. My cousins wife said to me if there was anything she could do because she knew how close bunny *(my aunt) and I were I lost it. anyway, I have so much to do today and tomorrow is the funeral and then work at 1:30 ish. I'll check in later.

Night guys I'm just getting in from work,.. Kat - SUPER PURPLE HUGS TO YOU It is going to be a night, of what ever, we use to go to CT once a month for his drill for the Navy, we never took the kids, and since His accident and having to retire... there has been none of that i'll talk to you all in the am

I can't do carbonation or afraid to try. I was addicted to diet coke before lb, and my skin was a mess, i was a mess, so I just tell myself I can't so I won't. So that brings another question... who can do carbonation? Just curious... and trying to make a distraction to my/our very stressful week. Pam... I can't tell what is in the package... might change people's opinion of me.... LOL... I will tell I have some nice massage oil and some other lotions and such... no food, I want to go out, we never get to do that.

OH... no i will not tell what else is in the package...

OK Poll of the week... dbf and I are planning a night away, no kids - Just us. I am making a little package to take with us but... i want to put something to drink in there... wine...something good/pretty, not just bring a bottle of vodka which would just make me happy... what would you all personally drink as a nice adult night?

Pamela AMEN SISTER!!!!! I am there struggling right now and I hope that my children make out well in their future, but never forget where they came from. My sister seems to have forgotten how the real world lives... now that her husband has a ton of money and she no longer has to work. She is respectful, but just no idea what i deal with from day to day.

I agree with you kat. I am going to take some pics before I go. I am still in shock or denial but I'm sure once I'm there and it is real, I won't care so much how I look. I now have an empty closet after yesterday and piles of stuff all over my room. I should get up and clean it and get something productive done It is going to get up to 60 today so I want to get out... snow on Friday Denise, it took forever to get the full ultrasound pic up on my puter, HOW CUTE.! how exciting!

hey tracy..... CONGRATS...I was going to give you a bananna but that is Pam's job. LOL I have a really nice black blaizer, size 20. Anyone interested I can't put it in the green box, it is too nice. I almost had it altered but I will just get a new one if I need it for a job.

Judy what a beautiful ring. I have a really nice ring I have not worn in 10 years. I got it when I weighed 150 and stopped wearing it when i hit 200 and could not even think about it going up to 278, but I had it on yesterday and it looked ok. I was thrilled. my hands are a mess from work but i might wear it to the wake tomorrow night. I survived CTCD - I did have my bowl of ice cream, no sugar 90 cals, but I never drink milk - so that is ok and why I eat the Eddy's no sugar added. I did want some popcorn in the worst way... but didn't do it! dd started that and I begged her to find something else that I wouldn't want to eat or smell like popcorn. She is so good to me. We watched Practical Magic last night. I love that movie. Anyway, just getting up, drinking some coffee. Tracy - You are such a strong, kind person and I know that you can get things undercontrol with Cody, it may not be easy but you can do it. Terry - big hug to you girlfriend. Michelle - hope you got back to sleep. Hi Pam & Tracy & Haydee sorry if i forgot anyone, it has taken me 20 minutes to type in between sips of coffee and the news where did Ms. Jen go? and Amanda... I can't wait til May!

First of all, in my rant/tizzy this afternoon. . l realize I never said HI KAT>>> WE MISSED YOU - so glad everything went well and you are home Michelle. I always get how did you do it... some people I tell and others I just tell I watch everything I do and go to the gym a lot. Still feels good when they do notice. Hi gals, I had thoughts to all of you but I forgot... so HUGS to you all. I'm braindead today

Well, Unfortunately I needed to find some nice clothes to wear thurs & friday. My size 16 pants that were way too tight when I bought them a month ago fit and looked good with a tucked in shirt and my suit jackets that fit are now swimming on me. size 18 & 20 I was going to have them fixed but i don't think so. My size 18 dress that I had tailored to fit me 5 years ago does not really fit. from the front i look great and when I turned and looked, it was swimming on me. Yes I'm happy because I have a dress to wear to the Wake and pants for the Funeral which it is going to be snowing and only 38 here Friday. My last clothes that fit me. YIPEE. You would think that would be motivation to get my ass in gear and lose more right??? we will see I have not seen some of my family since surgery and some of them don't know I had surgery. As you know I'm not close with a lot of my family.

Terry HUGS back to you It sounds like we are all at a plateau ladies. I am stuck, and the thing that pisses me off the most is that it is exactally where my Dr said I should expect to be. He said I should expect to lose 50% of my excess weight, and I told him I would be happy with that. Well, guess what... now that I'm hear and I got here quicker than I ever could have imagined, I AM NOT HAPPY. I am depressed I can't get to Onderland, I am depressed about a job, about my dog, my aunt, money... everything. I have made it this far with all this stuff going on in my life... Why can't I lose more? I have been going to the gym like a compliant bandster, but I am so stressed and so tight I am not making the best choices, but trying to be better. i ate regular all weekend and today back to shakes and food. The problem... I am so tight this morning I had a hard time with drinking that. I have only lost 4lbs since my fill and that is not acceptable to me, and I have to go back to the dr on the 27th and I already feel like a failure. what can we do girls? how do we get ourselves motivated and out of our slumps? I personally know that I am so stinking cold all the time that I don't want to leave my house! did I tell you all I made a blanket last night, I'm so proud of myself. I never do stuff like that, and I was so cozy warm and slept great, the air in the house was brisk and I was not, so I could breathe, my nose was not all dry and was out of bed at 6:45. anyway, enough of that, i'm going to get ready to bring ds to the sitter so I can get some phone calls and paperwork done around here today

Diane, You look amazing! and that is 1 month right? I am in the beginning stages of looking but look just like you did.

Yup, that is the aunt, who bounced back and was doing great. Totally unexpected. I am just so glad I got to say good bye and tell her how much i love her. Still in shock

Morning gals Well -when it rains. Judy- I hope your knee is ok. I love the joke you shared, i was cracking up. Tracyks- Stay strong - you are so right, conistancy is so important Well - I got home l yesterday from bringing the dog to his new home and got a phone call that my aunt passed away. She was my absolute favorite and I think i'm numb. I just keep thinking that last year, I picked up my dog, and my uncle died and I brought him back yesterday and his wife died. It is just odd, it was an emotional day yesterday. I went to group and was just quiet, but was a good distraction. well i'm going to drink my coffee

hi haydee... welcome back Laura. My dd wears a size 10 shoes and she has narrow feet. I know she has a hard time finding cute shoes. Well, I brought the dog to his new home, so sad... and quiet here. I am cold all the time lately, so I made myself a new blanket today, just need to finish it up tonight after support group. I need to go there. Well I have to leave in 45 mins, I guess I should shower. Can't wait for the list....

Morning gals another day.... (sigh) I'm up drinking coffee, I found 2lbs, but also realized i have not gone to the bathroom in 4 days... sorry, TMI, but it really messes me up and I feel horribly bloated. Judy, how amazing, and you guys look FAB! Have fun today, I bet he can't wait to see you too Jane - I was thinking that too, that ship looks Massive Tracyk- Nice, at least it was there so hopefully tomorrow you can caim it!

night gals going to bed... have to bring the dog to his new home tomorrow am just keeps changing

Well - after my neighbor just put me in my place, telling me my mom should not be taking care of me and my kids (she is single, drinks, travels, a size 0 and has never nor will ever have kids) but either way, she had no right to say a word to me. She doesn't know what or how I survive or how much I hate, hate working nights but since it is money it is what I have to do right now. I called my mom and she just went off about what a selfish bitch she is and she has no idea what happens here and I need to let it go, I ended up in tears, when all I really wanted was a phone hug from my mom and to hear it will be ok, but instead she just went off. This is why I don't tell her things and don't talk to her about y feelings, she just makes me feel horrible. I always put a smile on and hold a strong front when I walk out my door, when I am really struggling and crying inside. Then mom just starts in that I need to see my shrink ...she has done this my entire life, which is why i am so to myself. MY VIOLETS ARE MY OUTLET. You guys know moe about m than anyone, and when I try to let someone in my here life in, I just end up shutting down even more. So, as all this was going on, my dream hit me, everyting is/was crumbling, but I am getting away and it is all going to be ok. Maybe that was it, I am getting out of the mess and moving to safer ground. thanks for listening. Judy - 3# that is not bad, I gain that on a bad day. I'm so glad you had a good time

Tracy what a mess... I guess I can see why dss would want to be with you guys, and you are such a wonderful person that if anyone can help turn his life around you can. HUGS

morning gals Judy..so glad you are back I am up, had the strangest dream this mroning that woke me up. First, my step sister was at my house painting my bathroom a peach/pink color, when I told herI hated that color and wanted it toast, then I was in my car with ds, and was going to scope out a bathroom remodel job by dbf's ex wifes house, and her wacked out kid had her grandson on a crane swinging him way up in the air, next thing I knew I was in the city in my car and there was an earthquake, ds climbed into the front seat with me just as a building was falling, I backed up and drove inbetween zig zag wacky electricl currents from the power lines that fell and I woke up. It freaked me out. I wish I had my dream book, but I let someone borrow it. Anyway, up drinking coffee. stayed under 1000 cals yesterday, and going to do about that today and tomorrow and go back to shakes on Tuesday for the rest of the week. I will be at my mini goal by thanksgiving, if not onderland. (ok i'm dreaming if I think I can lose 8lbs in 2 weeks. LOL

hi guys... it is quiet today.. hope you are all having a great day! off to get ready for work

hi all just wanted to say good night... I am beat, every ounce of my body hurts tonight, but i'm getting up an goin to the gym in the morning. Tomorrow is my oven night, so I'll get 2 workouts. it looks like Thursday is going to be my oven night too... I guess I'll get good workouts. night

CONGRATS PAM!!! Claim it ... every ounce. I am in a slow spot myself. Well I'm off to shower and then go grocery shopping and hit the gym on my way to work. not enough time on a friday........ stay strong everyone!!!