Jennifur

Morning gals just a quick check in. got a couple of surprise visitors.... TOM came first last night... Lucky me, but hopefully that last 2 lbs will be gone. and my friend Annete from ME popped in last night and is coming over for coffee in a few. We were going to visit her in August, she was here over the summer and we went to Six Flags with us, and she wanted us to go see her so badly but was having a big problem with her girlfriend and it was a big mess, well we didn't hear from her because she went back home after the summer trip, broke up with the girlfriend, moved out and then ended up moving back in because her name is on the mtg and she couldn't get one already carrying the 1 mortgage. Poor thing, she is the nicest person I know. (that is the very short version. LOL) So she is working on getting the house out of her name and when she does really wants us to come visit. She is mile off the ocean... cold water but still nice. Anyway... a happy ending story. LOL Well, I'm going to have a cup of coffee before annette gets here so i am normal. Hope you all have a good morning

Hi guys just checking in... so very tired, I am just mentally exhausted... my crazy garage door opener is now not working.... what else... next week is it! So a friend works at an airline and she is going to put in a good word for me, if they hire me i will have 2 weeks of intense training... guess where ladies... Huston TX..... and you all know I won't fly so I'll have a car... keep your fingers crossed

Hi guys just checking in... so very tired, I am just mentally exhausted... my crazy garage door opener is now not working.... what else... next week is it! So a friend works at an airline and she is going to put in a good word for me, if they hire me i will have 2 weeks of intense training... guess where ladies... Huston TX..... and you all know I won't fly so I'll have a car... keep your fingers crossed

Go Laura! I am happy, i was holding 210 again today, 3lbs left to my lowest - at least it is still going down and not up so I'll get there this week. so stressed I can't eat much anyway. I am going on a little adventure to get a couple of things done and put gas in my car... have a good day all

Morning gals. Wow, I figuured it would be quiet yesterday... and 2 full pages. Sounds like everyone had a nice day, some a little dysfunctional but what family doesn't have a little dysfunction??? LOL Gina - girlfriend... stay on with us. This wonderful group of people have helped me through the same thing the last month including my dr refusing to give me a fill. Well, dd got her computer, desk and chair, ds got a toy laptop he loves, portable dvd player some games, lots of Lightning McQueen stuff including a Mater remote control thing he loves and won't put down. He woke me up this morning when he was jumping all over the house chasing it with mom. they were cracking me up. Me... well, I got a new shower curtin rod and curtin for my bathtub (I don't have one there because I took the shower out and put in a deeper tub w/jets a couple years ago) a pillow speaker for my mp3, a twisting stair stepper, $100 to JC penny and $25 movie gift card - and 2 $25 wallyworld cards. And because i was so sad about my cat, and then cried my eyes out seeing my gram in the nursing home. I got sooooooooooo drunk... but ... hey at least instead of high sugar/cal juice I mixed my grape vodka with rasp ice crystal light... MMMMMMMMMM tasted like grape koolade. I'm going to shower - do a little running - and come put together the computer desk and computer for dd. they are going to my sisters to make gingerbread houses that they have tried to do several times now

happy christmas eve ladies. just checking in... had a nice drink, going to have another. wrapped away... batch 1 of presents I could do while the kids were up. batch 2, including dd's new computer and some stuff for ds frorm us. have 2 more rounds. dd's computer desk and chair, so I can't do that right now... and ds's santa presents and stocking stuffers... maybe I won't be up until midnight I hope you are all having a good night too.

I'm back down from 217 to 210 today. 3 more lbs and i'm back to my lowest here. That is a good thing not being able to eat

Laura -thank you... I forgot... you have your cats too. they are very special. We are going on a mission next week. Fluffy was a black longhair. Maybe we will find a white longhair this time. or 1 of each. Jane, if you find out that santa does clean... please send him my way

Judy I knew I was forgetting someone in my list. Thank you for all your prayers and being such an inspiration... how would we have all survived without WWJD??? Merry Christmas...

ughhhhhh... Terry I had a huge post and lost it too You guys are so very sweet and your thoughts and prayers mean so much to me. Tracyk - In a way I said I'm done... but I don't want to be. 10 years is a long run and my cat previous I had for 15 and had to put her down, but it was almost easier putting her down than just having my boy just vanish for a week then finding him like that. DD wants another one so new year day we are going to start looking. That was when we got fluffy. michelle - careful with the coal... I tramatized dd 4 years ago, she didn't think it was so funny. LOL Terry, Tracyks, Pamela, Kat, Laura, Denise, Haydee, Cindy, Jane, Ms Jen, Gina, Lunesa, Of course Tracyk and Michelle Have a very merry christmas love you all

thank you girls... I need it... i need a good 2008~

just stopping in everyone. another horrible day. We found my 10 year old cat. actually my neighbors dog found him, he was dead under my porch. Poor bella would not come out and just kept trying to wake up fluffy, and put her head on my cat and just sat there with him. it is just the most horrible, saddest thing ever. We got him 10 years ago new years. I have just cried all day. I'm going to have a drink

hi gals i'm off to work, shopping is done, now just have to wrap for the kids.... and since i don't get in until midnight or later, i don't know when i'll find the time. have a great night all

I hear you that is why I went and tried to explain. I did call dr's office yesterday and made an official complaint and they were going to address the situation and they put a note on my file that I do not want to see PA and they are going to address what happened. so instead i'm just going to be more mental because I'm confused too LOL

Morning gals I am feeling a little better, only 3 lbs away from my ticker weight. Last night when I was talking to mom - she didn't hear me when I was hyperventelating and crying that I never saw my dr, she was so ticked, she didn't realize that. She is an oncology nurse and has been with several dr's and she just left her job because of how dr treated people. Anyway - i know it is not great but the message that I was sent was do whatever it takes to lose weight, so, back on mushies. Not easy when you can eat, and TERRY, I am so stressed that I am all about the junk and sugar. I can eat chicken tenders and wings like no tomorrow. So egg beaters and tuna and black bean soup. I forgot how much protein tuna has in it 20g in my 3oz pkg, and then put 7 more from the 2% cheese and I mix with sour cream so it is really moist. PAM - I am so very glad you liked it. I hope the jamies fit. Good or bad thing... they shrink just a little bit when put in the dryer. Not much but if they are big they will shrink and if they just fit - they will stretch back into shape when dried. (I had to get myself a pr too) And of course not only did I get the lavender because of the color, but lavender is calming and relaxing and being with children every day.... well do I need to say more? LOL I'm just so happy you like them. I am going shopping to finish my shopping with mom in about 20 mins. We went grocery shopping at Wallyworld last night, mom was totally amazed how much we got for $175. We had 2 carts full! You couldn't do that at the locala grocery store. Love you guys - and thank you for helping me just survive through all this. I so can't wait until May

lol i do have one.... meds make him hungry so he is eating 1/2 pot of mac n cheese and snowflake shaped chicken tenders ... and since he is "starving to death" he is quiet right now. I'm glad he is growing out of this. Mom's problem at 3 heheheh

Kat - I dont know, I always read your stories and think... there is someone else out there who has a crazy life LOL Terry - so glad you are off, it will be nice to semi relax, you deserve it off to give ds more drugs and some food, he is jumping off the furniture looking at me saying "WHAT".... should I knock him out know or let mom do it tonight afer he has 2 more doses?

Judy I don't know who they are to judge me, but after thinking about it all night, they were residents and a new pa who know nothing about me, so if my dr I've been seeing for over a year came in and talked to me knowing me, it might have been different, I felt like they were teaming up on me. I don't want to see the PA and I will make sure I never have an appt with her again.

its been a week since i sent out my secret santa... i'm so upset that it seems not to have made it yet

Thank you for all your good thoughts all Tracyk - I understand that being the point. I had that happen to me once, and i was in a great financial place, but was so ticked. going to try to make it through today, ds woke up having a croup attack last night - he is fine, actually not as bad as they use to be but still scary. Mom was going to take him today so I could get some sleep and she is afraid to take him, which I understand, she knows he has it but has never had to deal with it so she was freaking out. This way I can pump him full of drugs and then leave him with her while I work tonight. HEHEHEHE... she has never really experienced him full force full of steroids either. she will have to tie him to a chair by tonight. well another day... going to take a deep breath and try to survive it sorry for the offensive language last night.. I just needed to vent but didn't want to offend anyone

hi gals. just checking in, mentally exhausted. So here is the rest of the story. nancy, dr's pa, who I loved and saw for over a year, she left, and my visti started with a new pa who knows nothing about me... nothing! then attending came in - who also knew nothing about me and what i've overcome and told me to see a shrink and blah blah blah... do it on my own and I never even got to see my DR. So basically people who know nothing about my struggles, my accomplishments, and was even questioning why I take a water pill... WTF This is the first time I went to his office where I was treated like a number... yeah so what... I'm right where I should be... so now in my mental state... i'm going to do a liquid diet and probably not eat right (because this is what I do) to try to get rid of the last 30 lbs... yup... sure sounds so much better than a little fill doesn't it. I felt like they wouldn't even let me see my dr and... when I was telling them of some of the stresses over the last year of paying for ins, surgery, loosing my job... his response was "We don't care how you paid for it..." Hello ASSHOLE... not the point.... so I'm stressed from a death in the family... I do think I'm going to tell him how I felt like a number on the chop block and part of the reason I went with him was because I felt like I was treated like a person... NOT TODAY... what fuckin' (sorry) resident tells someone he just met and knows nothing about to talk to someone...right, wrong, it doesn't matter, he doesn't know me enough... enough of that... i'm going to bed... had to vent... I have a ton of cards I got over the last couple days, have not opened them yet, just got my mail today and I didn't have the strength or energy to look at my mail,...it depresses me

i'm back, just checking in real quick. no fill, after telling me how great i've done overall who cares that I've gained, go to the gym, keep it up, go to therapy to work through my issues and come back in 2-4 weeks and we will discuss a fill then. They don't think that is the answer to my problem right now... so ... cried in there... all the way home... fight with my mom which ended up me telling her how I feel like a failure every minute of my life and like I've let her down and still crying. I'll catch up reading later, i just wanted to update you all

I'm up to 220 today, gained 5lbs last night. but it was my first night back to work and I'm so swollen, retaining. that is why Idon't make my appts on any day except for Tuesday, After a day off because it is gone. I'm stressed about the hard time he is going to give me. breathe... help me be strong to get my fill

Can you stand it? I have been putting cash in my change jar from my deliveries. So i was able to round up enough money to pay my bill. I played the lottery and pick 4 last night... keep your fingers crossed. LOL Yup... I am struggling... but... trying to pull it all together so i can end this year on a decent note and start the new year on a better one.

Morning gals up after 5 hrs sleep.. TracyK- good luck being around all that food, and your bonus. I had to pay 269 today to keep my cable/phone on and well I don't have it. I only have $160 left of my pay so where am I going to come up with $100? actually dd gave me $20 towards mom/grams present I bought and I made $12 in tips on my 2 deliveries I took out last night. I am going to break out the change bucket - I think I have $30 in tip money i put in there so I just need $30 in change. pray for me girls, I can't afford a bounced check so anyway the point to that all was I have stress restriction.. but it is almost funny, it is not the same as being filled or maybe it is a mental thing, but I can eat bad stuff. I need a fill so I can't eat anything...I'm going to have a good protein shake for breakfast and then it is back to clear liquids for 10 days (I HAVE TO TELL MYSELF THAT) so i can get to onderland. well... off to shower so I can leave when ds is done with speech at 9 to make it to the dr on time. it snowed again last night. it is actually pretty uot there oh... did i mention my 10 year old cat is missing. he vanished last thursday, during our first storm, i think he must be locked in somewhere... maybe someone opened a garage or basement to get out the winter stuff and he got in. He did this before and came home xmas - was gone for over 3 weeks last time, but breaks my heart... i just keep waiting for him to show up