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#MagicWithinme

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About #MagicWithinme

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    Bariatric Evangelist
  • Birthday 09/13/1962

About Me

  • Biography
    Still working on myself, everyday is a new challenge isn't it?
  • Gender
    Female
  • Interests
    magic, crystals, tarot , life and love
  • Occupation
    they pay me
  • City
    Porterville
  • State
    CA
  • Zip Code
    93257

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  1. well shoot, I guess pickle juice can work as a slider food. (making chicken salad. 

  2. NSV: Trying on underwear you used to wear before surgery now fit's over your tummy instead of under. HA

  3. Went to pizza buffet today, I didn't worry too much about temptation as they are notorious known not to have the pizza ready (11-2) my lunch is 11-12. Well wouldn't you know today the pizza was ready, 15 hot steaming pizza tenderly sliced, ready for consumption. I got my salad, ate that first. I ended up getting two pieces, although I did walk through and smell them. Ate one, took the toppings off the second one.

    ##Temptatiaonsdontgoaway

  4. Went to pizza buffet today, I didn't worry too much about temptation as they are notorious known not to have the pizza ready (11-2) my lunch is 11-12. Well wouldn't you know today the pizza was ready, 15 hot steaming pizza tenderly sliced, ready for consumption. I got my salad, ate that first. I ended up getting two pieces, although I did walk through and smell them. Ate one, took the toppings off the second one.

    ##Temptatiaonsdontgoaway

    1. Mattymatt

      Mattymatt

      You know it's kind of funny but I absolutely hate pizza now. I laugh because prior to surgery, I absolutely loved it. Now, it tastes nasty, has a gross mouth feel, and lays like a rock in my stomach. I just won't eat it anymore. I also used to love wraps and I hate them now. Come to think of it, I really hate most foods that I liked before surgery.

  5. Last night went to dinner with family.  My sister texted me later, hey sis your make up looked really good tonight. I said Wow , thanks I'm not wearing any.

    #goodhealthshows

    1. Orchids&Dragons

      Orchids&Dragons

      That really is a compliment! You must be glowing with health!

    2. #MagicWithinme

      #MagicWithinme

      It sure is !!!

  6. From Combo to ala carte, my how meals have changed. Hubby and I would both get combo meals, and be able to finish them and that's after finishing off a basket of chips and salsa! These days we get ala carte or even share a combo. And I'm trying to be more conscious of the small bites. And trying to eat a little something in between. That is harder as I have always tried not to snack in between meals, but lately by the time it was time to eat, I'm not taking the time to chew and then it all goes down hill from there.  Still working on it and feeling the body changing YES!

  7. NSV: yesterday a business man came into to see one of the bosses. He gave me a candy bar first and then the paperwork. I said I would be sure to give to supervisor. he says no candy is for you. I said its ok, he was , NO ITS FOR YOU. I said thank you , that I had had weight surgery so I tend to stay away from candy. He looked at me up and down and said you don't need surgery (probably didn't understand what I had said).  It's nice knowing that I look fit enough to where I would not need one, lol. Working out 25 out of 31 days definitely helps!

  8. NSV: yesterday a business man came into to see one of the bosses. He gave me a candy bar first and then the paperwork. I said I would be sure to give to supervisor. he says no candy is for you. I said its ok, he was , NO ITS FOR YOU. I said thank you , that I had had weight surgery so I tend to stay away from candy. He looked at me up and down and said you don't need surgery (probably didn't understand what I had said).  It's nice knowing that I look fit enough to where I would not need one, lol. Working out 25 out of 31 days definitely helps!

  9. #MagicWithinme

    Victim of Office Politics

    Ignore this bizzy. Too many times, we have been accommodating everyone else. This is your time, for your health. She can just wait on her vacation. Tell the Doctor to write a letter for date of surgery so they can make no noise about it. You went through the process, not fair to delay it just because somebody a whiner! Good Luck
  10. #MagicWithinme

    Hot for Hubby?

    Yesterday I had an appointment for a fill. The last one I had 1/2 cc was 8 weeks ago after a 2 year hiatus. At this time, I have 3.6, I had been told that 2 ccs were already in band when I started . Twice, twice, I got it up to 3ccs and had to take everything out and start all over. Yesterday hubby came with me, and Dr. would ask me questions and talk to me but all the whole while looking at my hubby. He felt that my band was restricting and that I just had to change my diet habits to accommodate. Talking about diets, and showing him the diagrams of the stomach. I even said at one point,touched my husband's arm and said I like how you are looking at him, since he is the cook. he kind of chuckled but still kept looking at husband. I had gone alone before and it was fine, but it was soo weird. I'm hispanic hubby anglo, My cousin thought maybe I looked like the little submissive wife or something. So no more fills for me for awhile and hubby has a new admirer?
  11. #MagicWithinme

    Digging Deep

    Oh Universe, you were digging in the deep corners of my mind. A person that I had not talked to literally for over 25 years, out of blue contacted me. When we go through verbal trauma, inner child issues, all the wrongs done in the world all the crap, feels personal, feels like its directed at our heart. At the time , this person took my beloved spot at work while I was traded for hers in a clinic 20 miles away. She lived 3 houses away but was having marital issues. (roll of eyes here). I was told it would be temporary and 6 months later when I asked again, was told it was permanent and at that time I said, then I'm going to be looking for something closer. She told my nurses that she is running the clinic her way and that she was going to change everything. Whenever I would cover for her, she would leave a list of things she wanted me to do , but I would do other things like dictation that needed to be done, she called me to say you didn't do what I left for you and I told her I did the dictation. She wanted to talk to the supervisor. I never heard more. It took me two years (the clinic closed year after I left) to find a job in town which I loved, now I tolerate, I still see and visit and call the nurses, we still get together for lunch or dinner, remembering funny moments over and over . Once I was at my new job this person just disappeared from my view. Many years, later, so much later I found out that this person divorced her husband, then remarried him twice. Ended up being fired, but not before she tried to sue the nurses for treating her"badly" She brought a lot of stuff on herself. I was the sole clerical person for a staff of 3 health inspectors and 8 nurses and it ran like clockwork. She gets there and right away she couldn't do it all and got two assistants. I told one of the nurses about that particular incident and she said that the girl had been fuming because the supervisor had told her that if I felt there was something more urgent to do she was good with that. (She hated filing, she'd have piles of it) Now in all that time, I did finally see where had I not have been moved, I would have been "stuck" in that same place for years. I would not have met the people I did, learned the lessons I needed to, to get to the place I am now. To have been able to discover the magic within me, I'm still in awe of what powers a person can hold, what is possible. Make new friends, that believe in the same things you do, that makes your heart soar with happiness, with joy and laughter. To know that once this life is over, there are many more waiting to be lived. And that was it... I thought for a split second that maybe I should tell her the resentment I had carried against her. how she had changed my world, but in hindsight that would only make me look so petty. She would take enjoyment in that. I thought that maybe I should thank her for making me move, and again she would take pleasure in that. In the end our conversation was short and simple. her: Hey how are you doing? me: This is a surprise, I'm good how are you. her: Oh I'm doing great I live in "Podunk" me: That's a big town, are you working? her: yes and I have a job where I'm making 3xs the money I made before. me: Good for you, I've been with the city 20 years. And that was the end of that.
  12. Oh Universe how you slay me 

  13. #MagicWithinme

    Back in The Ink Saddle

    I have always loved to write, before I knew it was told my therapists that it was therapeutic that it would cleanse my soul. My journals held my pains my sorrows, my deep internal griefs and tears. I have reread journals and don't find many writing of happy good times. Perhaps I wanted to keep those my secrets. So now that I am paying much attention to my self, my journal has appeared again. I have actually gained some weight back but I don't think because of eating habits, I go to the gym 4-6 days a week and I might have built up a little muscle. The need to write again has been strong, and in searching for blogs I couldn't find anything that I felt comfortable with but here. so ...... My regular doctor retired and there is this really young cute dr. taking his place, you want me to lift my shirt? "Oh doctor", batting eyelashes, yeah right. I had not gone in for a year and a half and doctor was a bit surprised as to why I was there. I said I need to get back in check. I have never had more than 3ccs. and my body gets crazy, tight, gagging, you know the whole drill. So he gave me 1/2 a cc 2 months ago. I have an appointment next week maybe for another 1/2 cc. In looking back , I don't think it really was my body reacting. I truly feel it was my brain, fighting the restriction. When I got that 1/2 cc I took it slowly I went back to rookie status, the soft foods. I do find that I often let the day go without eating as frequently as I should so when I do eat, I'm scarfing food down and it tends to get stuck. which I end up throwing up. (sigh) I need to work on that. We shall see how that next 1/2 cc goes.
  14. Damaged people are the most dangerous, we know how to survive.....

  15. I'm still here, just trying to enjoy life !:)

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