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dear stop and shop, i would like to thank you for putting invidilal sized suvering oh red velvet cake in the main illil of the store and putting red velevet wooopie next to it. This used to be an issue for me as i would eat them and maybe by a seond or 3 for my ride home . But now i love my self more than i love red veltet. This took alot of work for me to be able to say it. So thank you for giving me this opertutiey to be able to say that. I also like to tell you that the water bottle is mighter then the cake. As I always make sure that i bring that with me and i know cake and water do not mix sinceerly Laura

i have a freind who has watched my success and she has desised to have a band. But a band is not an easy way out the way she thinks it is. It is hard work. She is refuseing to give up soada she said i hate protine shakes and will not drink them. Why would any body get this done like that, She said becuse you were so successful yes i have been but i work hard at it i watch what i eat i work out like crazy. This is not a quick fix I do uses protine shakes I also do not drink soda. This is sugery i mean real sugery why on earth would you do this to fool your band I did this to be heathy and recalm my life. If that means no soda so be it I live find othre things you like to drink deit snapple crysltal light tthere are other things. Please do not put your self though sugery if your not ready to change you life. As this is a LIFESTYLE CHANGE not and easy way out

So what dose a ralph laren Cable knit swetter have to do with anything. Last year at a size 24 all i wanted was a Ralph Laren cable knit swetter. I tryed it on it was to tight. I cryed thinking i just a fat slob i never fit into anything like this. So i hit my dr goal and I was told to celbratte victororys. Well to me this is a virctory how to celbrate. I already had my zumba party I done my mani pedi ( note to self i need another my toes are a mess) So I knew when i saw it Ralph Laren Cable kint sweeter it was ment for me. I proud to say i did not need the EX Large eather. I love my new swetter. I love my new life I love my new closet full of cloths.. I love the fact that I can do things i never dreamed i could.

So i been watching that show extrema makeover weightloss addison and I have a few thoughts. Dear weight loss Fairy. I would like a trainer to follow me around at all times. I would like you to take my couch in retrun please leave me a treadmill, an arc trainer and a stair climber and a zumba floor so i can partice my dance moves. I promice they will get great uses in my house and i will enjoy them more then my couch I would like my exsess skin on my back lower stumic and under arms removed and i also like you to make the TATAs perky again as now they are saggy and lost there pep. Thank you please great my wishes Laura

When i walked into BIDMC i was told that i would probley land at 190. At 249 lbs that seemed like a dreem. Well i am happy to report that i have hit that goal. I emailed Kate my nurstionist the picuter of the scale this morning ( note to self get cute pedicure you earned it) But it more than the scale it about life being active doing things i only dreemed of in april. I have a masterbed room on the 3rd floor of my house. we have the most amazing view we over look a pond and it is stunning form the 3 floor master bedroom. I was never able to uses it Now not only do i use it but i run those stairs and sometimes during comershials just for fun. I was not able to do zumba i never made it past 10 mins with out losing my breath. Today I teach zumba and it has change my life. I love it not a day goes by where my love to dance dose not come back and i think about how lucky i am In april i had a dog walker because i could not walk my dog the full walk she wanted. Now i walk her my self at least 2 miles every day. Yes my favorite coffee shop is on the way to the dog park and i do get my coffee with skim milk and spends that i enjoy at the dog park. I love to walk. and i love walking in pretty places In april my kids used to always say mama will you play with us and i would get out of breath very easy. Land up stooping now my kids and i play every day. They have a game were i am dragon and i chance them and they have safe places on the playequemnit in are back yard. Evey day I hear form my kids how much they love the new me. In April i had size 24 jeans a few 22 that were way tight today i were a 14/12 I can shop any were i want i have a list of new stores i only deemed of walking into and now i have things form them i love my new cute outfits everything is so great.to have cloths in normal size when ever i feel sad i look at all my cute stuff and feel happy again. I love white house black market banana republic, the loft anne Taylor and more. Such a change from Lane Bryant , In April i only dreamed of horse back riding now i take lesson every week with my four year old and we all love it I could have never done that before I was past the weight limit. I fell very lucky. I was given a great gift and i have a great team. I love the new me. Thank you all my friends and family and most of all the team at BIDMC and Dr Jones your the best i could never done it with out you

Yes It here finaly the date all my freinds and family and support pepole are comming both of the trainers i worked with and all my freinds from the gym. I got my cute outfit in hot pink ready to dance in and my new zumba shoes given to me as a gift from penny who is hosting my party. All my freinds have told me that i going to love all my new cloths they got me. I can't wait It finaly a day to cellbrate me that i am front and center and all i done since lap band. It my day. So meny times in life we put other frist. I always do but now it time for me to cellbrate being a onester. I getting ready to shake I have my music picked out the dance ready to go It all about me and me being the star and doing somthing i used to not do but now love. One of the gifts given to me was a rainbow collored barclet. This was the card were this and rember to uses all these things in one day you have a succful day Black - Activty Red- Love ( tell my family i love them) Yellow - Happness (doing things that make me happy)\ Green- Apprate nautre - ( i do this when i walk my dog or just by having flower in my house) blue- Iner Peace ( not to beat my self up over everything) Puple - self decovery Learning something new Black - Nurtrion

Well I did it I saw my brother the frist time in a year. Not sure i want to be freinds with him or even like him as a person but I did eat dinner with him. Frist thing is he did not say anything on how i looked. Part of the reson i wanted a band is i was tired of pepole making the fat jokes. Well no fat jokes tonight. He gained the 50lb i lost. He looked awful he had a ripped teashirt on and ripped jeans and looked like he not showed in a week. He smelled funny too. He ate all his dinner then he looked at my left overs about 1/2 of the small plate and said are you going to eat that. I said no i am very full with what i ate. He then ate my plate pluse he got desert and Becuse then my husband order a desert for both of us that i ate one bit and he ate about half then my brother fisehed that and my moms. My mom was telling him about my zumba stuff and all i do now. I in the end said Roger I had weight loss sugery I was not going to tell you but my Dr. Dr jones is amazing with what he can do I think you need his number. He said yea we see who gets the last laugh lets see you keep this up

congrats don't forget to cellbrate I had zumba party I invited every one and invite i put my new sizes for gifts we had a blast.

Frist fill he just add one cc- no flor needed Second was and Unfill by my sugerons Fellow on Juily 4 after a prolapce she tryed and could not get the port and i put and end to it as I was done letting her dig. Then she got it under floro and she removed all the fuild Third time was my surgon he took out what was left that was .5 cc and then he add 2cc so far i think i need another fill i feelling nothing but i been told it takes time

The other day I sent Kate my nurtioist a whiney email about gaining 2 lbs I then followed up that email with a vist to her and she said you look great then sent me this. The number on the scale will not tell you * what a great person you are * how much your freinds and faimily love you * That you are Kind, smart, Funny & Amazing in ways numbers cannot define * that you have the power to choose happness * Your own self worth So just relex take a breath it just a number your doing great

One of the things i am working on is setting goals that make sence for me. Thinking about things diffently So i put down my goals and I was told to think of it like this what can i do today what can i do in two week what can i do in a mouth So for example I want to be a size 10 yes 10 I am a 14. 1. write down everythin i eat and drink 2. try and adovid head hunger cravings 3. reach for support make sure i go to all my OA meeting and Weight watchers no matter what. Goal 2 was to become a zumba instruter 1. Get cerferfied - I did this today 2. Work on getting my club to let me sub 3. Woek on my zumba danceing rutines so i can do them no matter what Goal 3 Get skinny jeans 1. Look for skinny jeans in size 14 with out makeing my self feel bad about how i look 2. watch what i eat better by writing it all down 3. make sure i go to the gym to all my work out with out skipping Goal 4 work on Abs 1. Go to abs class 2. Get new trainer who will help me with goal 3. Not stopping just becuse i am being lazy and feeling my abs Goal 5 sround my self with pepole who are supportive 1. Goal one get rid of old trainer who will not change and was never supportive of me undergoing WLS to one who will work with me and understand how my body is changing and will be supportive of this and not say i should have tryed anything else. - ( I think i done this as I have found someone I love and told the old one it time to leave just have to get paper work done to switch over) 2. Make sure that pepole who know are not jellous of my succcess and relizese how hard i worked to get were i am and How hard i must work to stay were i am 3, Weed out pepole who call me a cheet or other names ( be more fussy who i tell) So thats my goal setting for today

Well it been 3 weeks since my unfill so it time to get my fuild back. While i not gained i not relly lost i gone up and down about 2 lbs. I also talked to my nurtionist kate. When ever i am not feeling great nurtionly she the one to go to. we talked alot about diffent types of hunger and what to do for them. I talked about how i get dizzy when i do not eat enough and work out hard she said thats real hunger thats your body telling you need more. She said think of it like this when you eat if you were to place a plate of brorcklie in front of you would you eat that if the answer is yes then thats hungery nunger you body sending you the message. If the answer is no then thats head hunger. We also talked about things to do for head hunger such as keep busy keep hands busy and mind busy. My Dr Fellow who saved the band Dr Odokey she I look great. She said it nice to she you move and be happy and prerky. We talked alot about trying to keep kidney infections away so this dose not happen again. I talked to another Dr about it that day too so everyone on the same page as far as my kidney go. I get another fill in september. So far i not relly felt anything with this fill he put two cc in my band I thinking it could take some more time. The best part was he found my port on the frist shot no Flor need for him to find my port. His fellow and I laughed. He also hides the nedale so i have no idea how huge it is I told her thats makes it easyer on me. I saw her in the elvator going to the pre-op meeting and she said Hay did Dr jones ask you to speak you should. I said no I going to support group she like yea come down after and tell your story. I feel it too soon to do that pluse i don't want to scar everyone with my story.

There nothing worst the getting unfilled on Juily 4 So i thought. Nothing worst then have my dr fellow stick me four times with a neadle and then say i just did not place this port and can't feel the edges so it very hard. I thought have an florcepy to be unbanded was band then haveing endocpepy to be fixed was alsp bad. But now I am stuck in hunger land. I am back of Lquids for the next week and half but who counting. The worst part of the huger is not the hunger i feel. It the head hunger the hunger to eat something in my head. It became a thought of mine at all times I see food ad on TV and then i want that. I drive by a place and can smell the food and want that. I made a list of all the food i going to eat once i am better enough to not be on lquids. I know it all in my head and this is the worst part. It like when i did pre opt deit all i would dream about food roast chicken I just wish i had an easyer time. I guess it good that I was able to save my band but God i would kill for an egg roll just one bit. I find that i can't do normal stuff becuse i am just too tempted right now to do the worng thing.

I have one and was told i would probely never need it but i do uses it quite a bitt when i start to get fussy and want only 1/2 of something want to share ect and do not want to pay the full charge it been a god sent in some of the small family owned places

for every body who ever been over 200 lbs you know what it feels like when you brake the mark and for the fritst time see the big 1 on the scale. Well it happend to me when i was so sick i did not even care. But now that i am feeling alot better i want to do something to cellbrate as this is huge!!!!!!! I gone from a 24 to a 14 I goe form a 44 dobble d to a 40 d or a 38 depending on the bar. , So i was told to cellbrate millsotones along the way. At 20 lbs i got a pair of shoes at 30 lbs i got some cloths becuse mine were falling off at 35 i did a mani pettti and now were ready for the big one 45 the oneseter land. I want to thow a party but how dose some one party with out food. Well after talking it over today with my Zumba teacher we came up with the Idea a zumba party yes no food but plenty of zumba and just a good time. I don't have a date yet as I have to wrok it out but I think this is a great way to cellbrate onester land.

Being form boston area i am huge base ball fan and i love the red sox even when they stink like this year. But in 2004 when the redsox were down they pulled them self toghter and they landed up not only winning the play off agaist the Yankees but the worlld sezies. Huge as they had not won in over 50 years, So what dose this have to do with my Lapband. Well more then you think. You see my lap band is the red soxs some times you get down and you need to work with your team to pull you back up. It knowing you can trust that team when things look bad is what matters So who is my team Well I am the Leader of the team - Jason Vertic of the red sox ( he was the team caption) Then there are my support members My surgon - Dr Jones and his fellow who is my new favorit dr Dr Odsky - they call the shots there there like the pitcher thow thow the balls ect in this case fill and unfill the port) Nurtionisht - Michelle and Kate - they are like Big pappi the teach us how to eat so we can hit the home run My Traine Dave r and My exsizese teachers Roberta, Michelle, and Evelynn - they like the out feilder they porovie do the feilding and make me move My family and Freinds- There my fan the root for me for thick and thin Now why am i scard to uses my team like meany of you I was scard to email nurtion with my long winnyey email about lquids for 3 weeks becuse i was embrassed that i was unfilled and did not succed but then i rember something michelle she my nurtionist Laura win lose or draw we be here for you all you need to do is email we can't help if we do not know whats going on. So i will be writeing that long winney email as i know they will be there for me beucse there part of my team and when i uses the team i can win the world sezies just like the 2004 boston red sox

So i going to start off with i am sorry about my spelling i can not help it i have dylsixia and i would love to spell better for years when pepole would say things about it i woulld slove it by eating large amountsto make my self feel better abouut it beat my self up call my self names and since i said i was trying to tun over a new leaf about life and i not going to do any of the above any more knowing that it took me to being bigger make poor chocies and feel badly about my self and eat more. So that being said I am going to try just telling the turth about it. So with that being said I last left off with dr Stupid. Then that night i went to the ER at the er they were going to give me a percrpiton and let me go but we had trubble finding it and since they called around too they could not find it they did IV antibotics and since they were doig IV antibotics and then 500 cc of fuild and some anti nauness medication and some pain meds. This go me though the next day but they also said don;t come back call your PCP if you can not keep anything down. The next day it was 90 out but i was shivering wereing long sleaves and swetter winter socks and winter shoes.and called the DR they said go back to the hospital that told me not to come back I said no it did not work like that I did not want to just go and be relsed and they did not want me to come back. So i made an apppointment to go there office . After two hours and two diffent floors they saw me. I had a fever of 101.9 and i wight 199 I would have cryed if i was not so dizzy and naunses and felling like i wanted to die. the dr takes one look at me and said you need to be in a hospital I said i would not go back to were i went last night She said were did you have your band done. I said the Great dr jones did it at Beth Israeral in boston, She said well i think you need to go back there. I said okay I had asked my mother for a ride and she gave me a long lecture about how we would wait for ever and ever and i made a mistake and how she was so mad at me. I said look All i want is a ride don't even park or come in I relly don't need you, She said Laurea I am your mother I will wait one hour then i going to leave I said Fine just leave I don't want you. With in 15 min i was taken back with in 15 mins. The frist thing the dr said to me if i can get you feeling better do you want to go home.I said thats what happend yesterday the dr said good point i don't want you to come back tommorow worst I am admitting you. Iv fuild started they gave me a breathing treatment becuse i was weezing and then pain meds and nusness meds and with in a few hours i was taken up to Farr 2. were the dr comes and and said You got quite an infection going were growing it out but we going to give you big gun aantibotics and hope we kill it and tweek it as we need to. The next day I tell her i am haveing stucknenss in my chest hard to explan stuck to a skinny dr who has no idea about lap band. I we talk about my other symotoms thowing up nunesouss The day was full of test x-ray of my tummy and ekg times two and tons of blood and just feeling bad lots and lots of iv fuilds. That night my 3-11 nurse was named Kate she comes in around 7 with pepicd for me to chew and some water. We get talking about my band. And why i did it. I explaned i have walking up stairs i was out of breath i had high blood presser and was taken 4 diffent meds for acid reflex was one point away from being debitic had sleep apena. I said it took alot of planing. We talked how it had changed my life and 43 lbs . I tryed to take my pecid and i thow it up. Kate said Laura i want to see somthing she just take a sip of water for me. I said okay I did and up it came. She had been watching me vomit up white stuff all day. She looked at my vomit bucket that had become my best freinnd. She said Do you have anything in that band. I said yes i said stupid dr only gave me one CC i can get what ever i want thought this thing till i got sick. She said Laura I think you band is too tight . No way I don't want to lose my fill. She said talk to your dr about it The next morning my Dr comes in and I tell her what Kate said and the Dr said I know nothing about lap band. I said of course you don't skinny pepole don't need lap bands. She smiled and said Hay five pound on me is worth then it is you. and she said I hate to brake it to you but you don't look too fat your self. I said I was a tub 43 lbs ago. She then said I going to concelt with the GI i team. with in 30 mins i get a Knock on my door. We start talking about my symotoms. I said you know how when you eat bread and it back up and you get stuck or you eat too much i said it like that but all the time I said i can't evne get water though. This is Juily frist. He the frist one to get what stuck feels like. I said I loved the band we talked about all the things I could get though he lauged and i said but some things there just no way and I said those are the things I know cause pain and I hate that and avoid like the pleag he said hay now this is not see how much you can stuff though this thing. i said it was about expermenting and finding what was going to work for you. In walks Dr Odesky My new hero and one of the best dr and fellow every were. She said I am dr Jones fellow I said Great get out. She said what wrong I said Dr Jones last fellow sucked he yelled at me and He hated me and I was not found of him and now i not going to be found of you, She said aww Laura Dr jones tell us about you. I make you a promice i will not yell at you and If you do not like me then you can kick me out okay. I said okay. We start talking about what i was felling she knew my story all the date and every thing. Then she examns me, She then calls dr Jones this is the 4th of Juily. I said I can't belive you called him on the 4th of Juily he going to yell at me and You. She said Na if he get mad I promice you it will be just at me not you. No one going to yell at you we all just going to help you. We talk about what to do I we going to try to unfill my port right there in my room. She said she was having trubble feeling my prort edges so was nevous about the whole thing. In walks my nurse with this bord thing and said the bed needs to be harder to unfill your port. she tryed to get my port 4 times. I start screaming at the fouth time the other fellow is makeing me laugh he looks at him and said Stop makeing her laugh when i am sticking large neadles in her. So we gave up she said look I could get it under florocepy no problem but it the fouth i not sure there do it. We could just wait for dr jones tommrow. I said yea She said well i need an xray any ways so i talk to them . I down to xray and I get a chest x-ray everything looks okay but hard to tell if there prolaps but it looks okay. so then I see her in this x-ray apron thing she said Okay were going to unfill that port this time. I said you promice me you can do it. I never done one under floro before but yes i done loss of port it not a problem. Not as meny as dr jones he dose 100 's a week but yes I done more than one you be fine I promice you I know just what to do we get it done trust me okay. I said Okay. we then do Floro that is complated by i can not lay flat on my back due to kidney pain and she gets it from the side and get out all the fuild I sit up and the frist thing i notice is i can sollow my own sliva again and that all what was sitting on top of my band gone then. She said lets give it about 2 hours and then you can have water again she said just get used to being able to sollow your own stuff again. 2 hours latter she comes up to my room lets go for stage one she said how do you feel i said it like my presser is gone completly thank you and i not thown up my anything in two hours I have no problem with stage one expect i not a big water fan I like it flavored. Next morning they said Okay lets go for stage two problem is my reflex is back it start buruping up stuff. They said stop stage two and lets go back to one just long enough so we get a sollow study. A few hours latter i get my sollow study the radigigist said nothing to me and said your hear soon. I thought it was funny since before they just said looks good. With in a half hour dr Odskey comes not walking but running into my room i drinking my water that she said I had to stop right then. i was like no you said i can have stage one I am okay. She said No not any more your back on 0. Just make sure your on fuild and we need to make up your mind about something i going to give you 10 mins to make up your mnd okay . You have prolaps thats when the stumic moves up into the band she like we already emptey your band so thats good but I need to know how you want to preceed so i can make the argements right now. Option 1 do an endpepocey and try and save the band and we try and get it to move out. Opoin two lose the band I call the dr on call about loseing it and we can get you into an or tonight but till then Nothing more by mouth nothing not even water. . We talk about it we desied endoscpey was the way to go.. The nurse comes in and ups my fuilds too 150 an hour from 75 since i am now NPO. we start talking At this time it kate it 3- pm and it is again I told her i was nevous about eveything and that my ephoousss was so sore. She said Yea she under stood everything would be fine in a few hours eveything would be done i be back to stage 2 before i knew All day my roommate was nuts too she was an old rushin lady who they had this alrm on every time she get up and it happend all day but she became better as the day went on but my god it was annying. She truned out to be like a little grandma. With in 2 hours i was taken down to endopopey and sadated and prolaps fixed. Dr Odesky held my hand the whole way up to the floor she also made sure that i was postioned on my left side she said rember side becuse she rembered that i had back pain. She also waited till i was less doped up by my bed side she said i fixed it nothing by mouth till latter then stage 1 for a few hours then 2 again till morning okay. I guess my roomate was worried she said she going to be okay. She like yes she had sugery she needs to rest you need to be quite okay so she can rest. with in a few hours i was ready to go up and walking drinking till i got lose bowl movents from hell spent most of the night in pain and cramping but dr odseky came up and made sure i be okay By the next day Dr jones came back to cheek one me he said Laura I alway love you play by all the rules and you still buck the systum. He said how much have you lost now i said about 43 lbs. He said well your on lquid for the next 3 week i expect to see 20 more off he said you be skinny by then. I laughed and said and tryed to play lets make a deal for 1 and 1/2 weeks He said no 3 weeks I said i give you two her said I give you 3. I said your mean he said look your ephougous is very sollown and enfalmed it going to take some time for the pain to go away anyways as well as the swelling and i want to make sure you relly need that fill and were going slowly He like you have no idea how lucky you are. I said by the way Dr odeskey she a much better felllow then the last guy. He laughed and said yea she pretty found of you too now get back to being better will you He like your going to have to tell Dr odseky about the thing you do body what ever that you keep trying to drag me to, I said Body pump and your just scard i kick your butt at it and I can lift more then you can. He laughed he said you can also tell her how at two weeks you con me into letting you do it again I said yea by 3 weeks i was at abs class i just did not tell you I figered since you gave me the okay for body pump why not. He like i see you in 3 full weeks be good stay out of trobble and get better for god sake no more kidney infections and vomiting so hard. my nutty room mate truned out to be a sweet old lady once they got her meds readjusted. She keeped trying to feed me and i had to say no alot. I had my nurse tell her i can't eat and showed her my protine drink and said this is her food. I so wanted the french frises she was eating too. It was funny i said to her CNA i want food so baddy I would kill to be able to chew. She said how long are you going to go with out eating I said i am on a full lquid deit for 3 weeks then i can go get a fill have 2 more days of lquid 3 days of Mushy and then real food. So lquid it is I just have to live with it and be thankful that all my vomiting did not to more damage then it did. Things i am thankful for my family my the great nurse and fellow my own bed good antibotics and the fact i can sollow my own spit and good pain meds. So 3 weeks of the lquid deit is is. then i can be refilled lucky i still have my band and i am very sore in my kidneys and my ephougous but plan to be better so

Dr Dr Stupid i am glad you have never had anyone with a lap band before come into your office. I know i have a UTI i glad that you could not even do a stupid dip stuck test to show that i have a UTI. I am dizzy and vomiting That would mean that i am probley dehiraded. I am glad you think it funny to precribe medison i can not take with my band. I do not were a med alret bracelt that said no NIsads for no reson so telling me to take advill was stupid, Teling me to wait for monday to talk to my PCP is even more stupid. I glad you do not belive in the lap band thanks for telling me that over and over but I wonder were you got you MD if you can not even rightly treat a simple UTI right. Next time i save my self the money and just wait till monday since thats what i will have to do anyways Singed a person who belives in her band becuse she lost 40 lbs by useing it and yes it was worth it. What was not worth it was seeing you becuse your an stupid person who can't even treat a simple UTI/ Kideny infection right

welll it was bound to happen soner or latter. I seem to have hit the Palto i been 209 for now over 2 weeks I was 208.6 then gained and am back to 209. I am eating well expect fot my ice coffiee thing that i need to have with my skim milk and 4 spenda i think coffeee is a fuild or should be count tords it. I guess i going to have to suck it up and make the call asking for another fil. I am hungery at all time it like i can't get enough food. I can eat well over 2 cups and eat snacks though out the day. I am trying to make them heathy snacks. The big thing for me will be this comming weekend and Juily 4th. The twins brithday. We are having a party for them at a spray park / petting farm they are both so excited about it. I have order the cake and every knows i have a weekness and a foundness for cake once i get one bit before i know it i have eaten the whole cake this is why we can't have it in are house. We are having are anunal Juily 4th BBQ for familty. This dose not worry me as much as the cake thing again I have order a second cake this one going to be a real show stopper so i not sure i going to want to cut into it. along with cake come ice cream i have bought my self some ice cream that it low fat lactose free suger free it okay not the same. good new i have found i can fit into banna repblic i love there stuff never went in there now that i fit i can get stuff there. I also gone form a 44 DD to a 40 D that four inches off my back wow.

I tell pepole start noticeing the way i was acting was diffent and i lost alot of weight so i told most 99% of pepole thinki great for you about 5% want to know my surgron so they can do it too. The one person i have not told is my brother as he always calls me names so i have not spoken to him in almost one year but when i do tell him i be close to goal weight and give him my suergons name and number becuse he goten very fat him self

Veggie no noddle lazana i got this one last night 2 large summer squase 2 large zucccci 2 cups of spinsh 2 cup of roctia fat free cheese 1 egg 1 tsp of itanin sesoning Cheese saus 3 cups of fat free milk 1 cup of fat free cheeder 1 /4 cup of promice 2 cloves of garlic minced 2 tbs of flour 1. Mix raccctia and egg and itian seaning toghter make sure they are well mixed in a 9X14 dish - spary dish with cooking sprary 1. cut summer squash in thin round slices - put in dish 2. add racccita mixteure then add spinsh and zuccceni 3. repeat untill filled the pan 4. bake at 350 for 45 min - in pre heated overn Chesse sauses - made on stove top 1. add promice and let melt 2. mix in garlic sauta for about 30 second 4. add flower to butter and garlic mix well should form a paste 5. slowly add milk keep wisking so you do not burn bottome of pan 1 cup is about 5 mins 6. add cheese and black pepper let cheese melt and top the veggie lazanina Make alot bandster size is one cup

my dr will not do my second fill till septmeber that 3 mouths away he only did one cc and i got no resrction what so ever

I had my frist fill an i am in what they call bandester hell. I can eat what everi want i never vomit any more and i can get it all down i have no resrtion with my 1 CC fill to make it worst i can't get another fill untill september. So i am going to do something about it. I could wine and complan that i have nothing i went though a sugery for nothing i am hurgery and can eat what ever i want. I guess i just did that Or i could say Okay it time to do something about it you lost 30lb and maybe you can do something with nothing. So i did something drastic i joined weight watchers again. yes I did same again I done weight watchers meny times before i quit each and every time. But this time I need to do it or i be back were i started sugery or no sugery. If the band can only help me a little and at this point nothing then maybe i can do it with extra help

OMG i never been this hungry . I had my frist fill one cc in my 10 cc band he said see you in September do 3 days of lquids 3 days of mushies yesterday i did notice that i could not drink my whole protine shake but then by this afternoon i was so hurgy. I thought my pre opt diet was bad the only way i can stop my self is by brushing my teeth but i am starving everything going down the same as before only thing is i am back on the liquid diet. Will this get better i fell like there is nothing in my band well there is only one cc I think i may have to start the mushies a day early as i just can't live like this, I have a head acke and it not dehydration as i have had all my fuilds no problem i had 3 litters of fuild it something else like lack of food I think i need more fill would it be too soon for me to say that this fill is not enough this can't be what the green feels like.

down 30 lbs since surgery The dr asked me what i could eat I told him i could eat what ever i wanted but was eating about a 1/2 a cup 5 or 6 times a day and was hungry. He said he wanted to start off with a small fill 1 cc in my 10 cc band He gave me some water after he was done and told me to drink it fast, I thought this was funny since in the hospital he was telling me to drink slow since i puked right up on him as soon as i got to protine shake, I laughed and said to him your telling me to drink fast last time you know what happened he laughed and said good point i be on the other side of the room, I drank it nothing happend, I had my nurtion vist who taught us how to live the rest of our lives. She said saying your never going to eat bad food again is silly you just need to be prepared for the times it dose happen. She said no more protine shakes I said I relly liked them in the morning they fast easy tast good and filling and i add stuff to mine, She said okay. I have to go back to lquids for 3 days then mushies for 3 days then it onto the rest of my life, Next fill wil be september I had some problem when i drink too much protine shake i vomit up alot i thinking this may just take some time i can drink water fine and i had some apple saus as a snack no problem It just the huge protine shakes i make so i need to learn my limit