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my journey to gorgeous 160lbs again!

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4/5/06 SUPPORT GROUP

:girl_hug: I LOOKED DAMN GOOD!WILLO, DIANE LOSITO, DEE DIGUARDIA, & SHERWINTER & MY MARIA ALL TOLD ME & SO DID ROBIN! WHO IS JEALOUS IS LUCY! SHE WAS SARCASTIC ABOUT MY SPEAKING TO EVERYONE...SHE SAW ME TALKING TO GEISS AS WE WENT UPSTAIRS ... GEISS STARTED SPEAKING TO ME... WE WERE TALKING ABOUT OBESITY IN INDIA, & WORLD WIDE & THE DISCRIMINATION THE OBESE FACE...OFCOURSE IT PISSED HER OFF AS DID THE FACT THAT WILLO GAVE ME THE PAPERS TO GIVE OUT WHEN SHE SAT AT THE END. BOTH DIANE & DEE COULDN'T BELIEVE HOW GOOD I LOOKED. THEN TODAY LUCY MENTIONED HOW MEL DIDN'T LIKE THE OTHER GIRL TALKING....NOW I'M GOING TO CUT HER LOOSE...NO MORE EATING W HER @ THE DINER AFTER SUPPORT GROUP...I'M GOING TO EAT BEFORE & THAT IS IT . SHE IS NOT SERIOUS ABOUT HER OWN WEIGHT LOSS & IS JEALOUS OF MINE...EVEN HOW SHE SPEAKS TO HER DAUGHTER IS BITCHY ...SHE IS VERY ANGRY @ HERSELF & IS NOT DONE MAKING EXCUSES! SHE LOOKS TO BLAME THE DOCTORS OR MAKE EXCUSES FOR NOT LOSING WT...SOMEONE LIKE THAT IS GOING TO PULL ME DOWN TOO! SHE WAS BOTHERED THAT I HAD A FILL ON FRIDAY! I'M GLAD I DIDN'T TELL HER ABOUT WILLO ALTHOUGH SHE PROBABLY SAW US TALKING & SAW WILLO GIVE ME HER CARD...I BET THAT BURNT HER UP TOO.... THAT'S IT!I BET THAT IS WHAT BOTHERED HER MY LOOKING TO BETTER MYSELF! NO MORE. I'LL CUT THE BITCH LOSE & GIVE THE CLOTHES TO GOODWILL...END OF STORY!

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NEVER GIVE UP!

When you get into a tight place and everything goes against you, till it seems as though you could not hold on a minute longer, never give up then, for that is just the place and time that the tide will turn. ~Harriet Beecher Stowe

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NSV!

MY NEW (UNUSED W TAGS) 36D VICTORIA SECRET BRA FITS! I WORE IT TO-DAY WOOHOOO!:girl_hug: LOVIN IT! TRIED ON MY BLACK RHINESTONE CAPRIS SIZE 12...THEY WILL FIT IN A MONTH!:clap2: GOING HOME TO WALK! B COTTAGE CHEESE 90 L SOUP 200 + HOMMUS & 2 MINI TOAST 100 =390 SNACK LEMON CAKE 80 =470 D SOUP 200 = 670   WALK 50 MINS 300 CALS!   WATER 20 OZ TEA, + 24OZ TEA= 45 + 6 OZ TEA, = 51 OZ I NEED 2 MORE LARGE GLASSES OF WATER

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DON'T QUIT

Don't Quit   When you've eaten too much and you can't write it down,   And you feel like the biggest failure in town.   When you want to give up just because you gave in,   and forget all about being healthy and thin.   So What! You went over your points a bit,   It's your next move that counts...So don't you quit!   It's a moment of truth, it's an attitude change.   It's learning the skills to get back in your range.   It's telling yourself, "You've done great up till now.   You can take on this challenge and beat it somehow."   It's part of your journey toward reaching your goal.   You're still gonna make it, just stay in control.   To stumble and fall is not a disgrace,   if you summon the will to get back in the race.   But, often the struggler's, when loosing their grip,   Just throw in the towel and continue to slip.   And learn too late when the damage is done,   that the race wasn't over...they still could have won.   Lifestyle change can be awkward and slow,   but facing each challenge will help you grow.   Success is failure turned inside out,   the silver tint in a cloud of doubt.   When you're pushing to the brink, just refuse to submit,   If you bite it, you write it....But don't you quit! - Author Unknown

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MY GOALS! 4/5 226LBS

4/4 : weight: lbs lost: goal 225 4/11: weight: lbs lost: goal 222.5 4/18: weight: lbs lost: goal 220 4/25: weight: lbs lost: goal 217.5

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7/1 1C RICE = 650 CALS!

:kiss2::kiss2::kiss2:GET A LIFE IN WHICH YOU ARE NOT ALONE FIND PEOPLE YOU LOVE AND WHO LOVE YOU:kiss2::kiss2: AND REMEMBER LOVE IS NOT LEISURE, IT IS WORK ANNA QUINDLEN:kiss2:

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2/16/07 size 6 petite 173.1 lbs

I fit into Lee riders size 6 petites pants that I couldn't zip up last week! Now I'm 173 lbs....I'm so excited about that.:clap2: 8lbs away from mini goal of 165

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1/21/06

:mad: Ok here we go again...245 in am.GOAL 235LBS BY 2/1/06 walked 20 mins in am ...was sooo tired last night went to bed @ 8pm no walk & woke up @ 6.30am had a cup of tea, 2 crackers 30 cals 1 1/2 slice of ff cheese 30 = 60cals, 1egg = 70 total = 160 snack cheese & crackers 100 cals= 260 lunch 4 links,200 cals 1/4 c pot100 cals, toast 100 cals, egg whites 50cals total 450 + 260= 710. will walk in p.m. dinner:4 egg white omlette = 60 I MUST WEIGH 235LBS BY FEB 1 06

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You Know Your a Bandster When....

You Know Your a Bandster When....   *I have a date" does not mean your going out. *You have baby food in the house and no baby. * "I'm a loser" is a good thing. * All of your silverware says Gerber. * "Welcome to the other side" doesn't include death. * New clothes fall off in a month. * You get excited about hand me downs. * The scale at Wal-Mart no longer says "one at a time please". * getting wrinkles is a good thing. * "Just water for me please". * Hitting the "Century Mark" is actually a good thing. * You can be touched by an angel and still not be considered crazy. * When your rear end no longer looks like a mudslide. * When the word lap has nothing to do with a strip club. * Other women are calling you "bitch" behind your back. * When you are glared at in the plus size department because you don't belong there". * When you really don't have a thing to wear. * You have to prove you are the person on the drivers license. * You start being in the pictures not behind the camera. * You want to hug everyone fat and hand them your surgeons card. * You are never parted from a bottle of water * When you order a doggy bag at the same time as your meal. * Being too small for your britches. * When the only way your nipples are where they belong is to roll them up, position them with your bra and secure with a ponytail holder. * When you go pick up your child at school and all the other kids say "WOW, your mom is hot!" * When you got to the mall a take the first available space instead of circling 20 minutes for one closer to the door. * You truly are a "cheap date". * When one drink makes you flipping floozy! * When you run to the door and don't hear a flapping sound. * You flip your shirt to show complete strangers your scar. * Vitamins feel like a meal. * You go from a 56DDDD to 32AAA in a year and didn't have a breast reduction. * You've just lost 100 lbs and run into a high school friend who asks "did you change your hair?" * You can cross your legs... both of them * Instead of a Wonder Bra you need a Wonder Where They Went Bra * When your obsession from food turns to your scale. * They no longer call 911 for the Jaws of life to extricate you from a turnstile. * No more velcro shoes * "Checking for leaks" no longer includes your panties * When your stairmaster is no longer used for drying your fine washables * Your mother says "You don't eat enough" * When your doctor looks you in the eye and says "I know you will have sucess with this." * Having sex your husband complains that your hip bones are poking him. * You can wear corderoy pants without igniting a fire * When you wave and your upper arms wave back * You safety pin your underwear * Someone phones and thinks your husband is sneaking around with some skinny mistress * Cannot blame the cat for shedding * The kids wonder what happened to the cake and cookie god..did he die???     Things I want to accomplish on this journey Cross my legs without having to tilt to oneside wrap a normal size towel around myself Have more energy-Check Work out in a gym Look at myself in the mirror and not crinch-Check Buy a Purple Harley Stop putting off tomorrow what I can do today Tuck my shirt in Wear a belt- Shop at MACY'S for my "You've Finally Made It Outfit"

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2/16

He was abrupt & rude to-day when I called.... then I remembered that's how he behaves when I'm upset Later I stopped into p/u checks....him & her were argueing.... he had his arms folded across his chest...(defensive) she didn't look too happy to see me ...what no sweetie pie smile? I BET SHE'S PISSED ABOUT 5% & HE PROBABLY GAVE IT TO HER ABOUT CANCELLING MY APT & SHIT STIRRING....I HAD TOLD HIM SHE ONLY TOLD HIM A 1/2 TRUTH ON SAT... YESTERDAY I MENTIONED IT AGAIN" My darling " I said quietly he got it.HIS LOOK SAID "I LOVE YOU"..then rubbed his face like he does when he's caught in a lie....she was bullying him BUSTED!

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MESSAGE BOARDS

BTW = By the way CUL8R = See you later CYA ( cya ) = See Ya CYA = Cover Your Arse (In addition to "See Ya Later") DB = Darling Brother, Dear Brother or whatever “D” word depending on mood DD = Darling Daughter, Dear Daugher or whatever “D” word depending on mood DH = Darling Husband, Dear Husband or whatever “D” word depending on mood DS = Darling Son, Dear Son or Darling Sister, Dear Sister or whatever “D” word depending on mood DS = Duodenal Switch DW = Darling Wife, Dear Wife or whatever “D” word depending on mood FAQ = Frequently asked questions. FWIW = For What It's Worth FYI = For your information. HTH = Hope this helps. or Hope that helps. IMHO ( imho ) = In My Honest Opinion, In My Humble Opinion IMO ( imo ) = In My Opinion IT = Information Technology. KISS = Keep It Simple Stupid. LAP = Laparoscopic Procedure L8TR ( l8tr ) = Later ( Like see ya later ) LMAO = Laughing My A$$ Off LOL ( lol ) = Laugh Out Loud MB = Message Board. NEWBEE ( newbee, newbie ) = New user of Internet and or computer. NICK ( nick ) = Name used by people ( Individual ) on the Internet. NSV = non scale victory (a change other than the scale…something suddenly fits, others notice your weight loss, etc.) OMG = Oh My God, Oh My Gosh OP = Original Poster OT = Off Topic, used on message boards when the post is not on the threads subject.. PB = Productive Burp (quick vomit without the stomach acid since it is just the food in your pouch) PIC ( pic ) = Picture PPL ( ppl ) = People PS = Plastic Surgery RTFP = read the fine print RNY = Roux En Y (Gastric Bypass Surgery) ROFL ( rofl ) = Rolling On Floor Laughing ROFLMAO = Rolling on floor laughing my a** off SLIME- an overproduction of saliva that occurs in an attempt to force an obstructed piece of food down SNAFU = situation normal, all fouled up SV = scale victory (when the numbers on the scale actually show a change) SWEET SPOT= when you're losing 1-2 lbs/week on average over time and your sensible meals are making you full, so you don’t get physically hungry again for a good 3 to 4 hours TT = Tummy Tuck TTFN = Ta Ta For Now TTYL = Talk to you later TYFS = Thank you for sharing URL ( url ) = Uniform Resource Locater, Internet address of a web page ( http://sitename ) YMMV = Your Mileage May Vary WTF ( wtf ) = What the Freak or your other favorite explicative WLS = Weight Loss Surgery ZZZZZZ ( zzzzz ) = Sleeping or Bored

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YODA

"Try not. Do, or do not. There is no try." ~Yoda

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new goal

"Unwritten"   I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned   Staring at the blank page before you Open up the dirty window Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find   Reaching for something in the distance So close you can almost taste it Release your inhibitions Feel the rain on your skin No one else can feel it for you Only you can let it in No one else, no one else Can speak the words on your lips Drench yourself in words unspoken Live your life with arms wide open Today is where your book begins The rest is still unwritten   I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way   Feel the rain on your skin No one else can feel it for you Only you can let it in No one else, no one else Can speak the words on your lips Drench yourself in words unspoken Live your life with arms wide open Today is where your book begins The rest is still unwritten   Staring at the blank page before you Open up the dirty window Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find Reaching for something in the distance So close you can almost taste it Release your INHIBITIONS   Feel the rain on your skin No one else can feel it for you Only you can let it in No one else, no one else Can speak the words on your lips treat yourself in words unspoken Live your life with arms wide open Today is where your book begins   Staring at the blank page before you Open up the dirty window Let the sun illuminate the words That you could not find   Reaching for something in the distance So close you can almost taste it Release your INHIBITIONS   Feel the rain on your skin No one else can feel it for you Only you can let it in No one else, no one else Can speak the words on your lips treat yourself in words unspoken Live your life with arms wide open Today is where your book begins   Feel the rain on your skin No one else can feel it for you Only you can let it in No one else, no one else Can speak the words on your lips treat yourself in words unspoken Live your life with arms wide open Today is where your book begins The rest is still unwritten The rest is still unwritten

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INSECURITY

Insecurity It sounds like he is very insecure.. I have been with my husband for 13 years and Married for 12 of those years.. it got ugly between him and I when I was fatter. I felt that he lost respect for me, Since my surgery I am down a lil over 60 lbs .. (girl you have done awesome with your band!) but my husband has been so clingy lately. This surgery has made my relationship with my husband way better. Hang in there and maybe seek some counseling? I don't know but I wish you the best.. honestly I know being married ain't easy... It sounds like you are the one that is changing and not him. You mentioned that he never gives you compliments and I wonder if he did that before? I would guess not and if he didn't you really can't expect him to do things differently now. I think we are not supposed to make any life changing decisions too soon after a major event in our lives (a death, a birth, a financial windfall etc)and I think WLS is one of those things so if I were you I would put out some feelers to him about conseling or at least just try talking to him about how you feel and find out how he feels. Give it all you've got cause good men are hard to find. Your advice is right on - I would also add this. It it impossible to change someone else - the only thing we have power over is our own actions. I have learned to be more tolerant and understanding over time. I hope that Laura's husband will adapt and regain his self-confidence so that they can grow old together. This is going to sound ridiculous, but he is acting this way because he loves you. He probably was secure in you being a bigger girl because, well society puts us last, you have accomplished such a huge loss in a short time, it's a shock for everyone. You are probably primping and glowing all over the place, and that gets his attention, don't kid yourself, but he doesn't want it to get anyone else's attention. Just do your best to make him feel secure, and if it is something that won't blow up... ask him what he thinks. I know it is hard to seperate when someone is working things out with themself or a personal attack. Remember, whatever negative comes out of his mouth is HIS emotion that needs work. Just love him, but because this is such a drastic change, you guys are going to have to kick up the communication. You're a doll! Great Job!!!   To me, it sounds like he married the fat girl, and was comfortable with that. It made him feel confident in the relationship because he was "Good Enough" for you. Now that you are losing weight, he is worried that he is no longer "Good Enough", and that you will find a better replacement. I think that a pretty common feeling in couples when someone makes self improvements, or one is obviously better looking that the other. Like with me, I have been overweight my whole life, and am self-conscious about it. Well my wife is a former model, and weighs about 115 lbs.. I have to admit that every time she goes out without me, there is a small voice in the back of my head saying "She's going to find a hot guy, and replace me". My logical mind knows that this is not true - we have the perfect marraige, but it's just something that you can't turn off. I just keep it completely to myself, and would never say anything to her about it. The quickest way to push her away would be to try to bottle her up. It sounds like to me that you need to confirm to him that you ONLY want to be with him, and no matter how much weight you lose, HE is the one you want to be with. If I were in the situation, words like that would go a LONG way towards easing my insecurities. Another trick may be the next time you go out with your girls, get home and tell him that you were thinking about him all night, and then jump his bones   t's great that we feel prettier and more sexy...it's a good thing but maybe you need to show hubby you still have it for him. Telling him would help but with men, sex usually works best!! Maybe you could show him! Well I can tell you that I think he is really just insecure... You are a hottie!   Maybe you need to have a heart to heart with him. Sit him down and tell him how you feel. Let him know that you are proud of yourself for doing so well on your band and you share your pictures here because we can offer you the support you need because we all understand the struggle weight loss can be. Let him know that you haven't changed ~ you're just healthier now. That just means you can live a longer, more fulfilling life with him. Tell him that you married him for better or for worse, and remind him that he loved you at your "worst" healthwise and now you want him to love you now that you're better. If he is hard to talk to, write him a letter. I do this often with my husband because then he can concentrate on my words an not my, um... attitude. It seems to sink in better for him that way.   To be very honest here, I do detect a bit of an attitude with your weight loss, your husband feels he has lost the old you who he loved fat, now that you are thinner he wants you back... His feelings are real for him, don't make him wrong for feeling the way he feels, I think you need to just keep reminding him you love him and would never hurt him...Did you go out with your girlfriends before you lost the weight or is this a new thing??? If it's something new, I don't blame your husband at all for feeling that way...Good luck and hopefully it will work out...   I don't think you have serious issues. I have noticed how insecure my husband is, regardless of how I look. I met him when I was 19 and 'only' 142 lbs. Way back when he thought I was fat. We didn't talk for a few years and then we met again I weight 180 lbs and then I gained and gained and he married me at 230. My highest recorded weight was 286 within the last year or so. Anyway I was insecure for years about how I looked. I've 'only' lost 50 lbs and truly have about 100 lbs before I am at goal...but I wear lower cut shirts, I feel better about myself. I am going to counseling and letting my needs be known. HOWEVER, he never compliments me unless I fish for it. If I say my pants are too big he says thats a great problem to have. Or if I say I weigh xxx now he says 'way to go'. But I never get a 'wow you look great' without fishing for it.   I think it is wrong for others to point out your CONFIDENCE and say you shouldn't have it. There is nothing wrong and it is absolutely necessary that we change with this journey. So what if you think you are a sexi mamma etc... YOU ARE!!! And if you go out with friends its because you aren't embarrassed to be in public anymore. You are entitled to your life and friends and getting away. HOWEVER if you are ever unhappy goto counseling before you do anything. And if after counseling it doesn't work you've done your best.   If anything goto counseling to deal with your emotions on this, you can't fix him but you can fix you!   You look great and be proud! He sounds pretty insecure to me. I'd make sure you let him know how much he means to you, and no matter how much you change on the OUTSIDE, you are the same person INSIDE, and your love for him won't change. BUT I would address his insecurities and jealousy with him, let him know how it makes you feel and see if he offers up WHY he feels that way. Worse can scenario...maybe some marital counseling would do you both some good. It always helps to have a neutral 3rd party listening in to the he said/she said thing. It definately sounds like insecurity on your husband's part. Men are so funny, just last week I told my DH that I was going to a Christmas party and he got so upset but didn't really show it so I was like, OK. The next day I got a long voice mail on my cellphone (very unexpected) that took me by suprise. When I confronted him about it, he told me straight out that he was the jealous type and wasn't use to me getting all this attention. Who would have thunk it, after 10 yrs of not knowing this?!?!   I appreciated him for telling me that because my DH has always displayed confidence and never a jealous bone in his body (at least I thought). Anyway, I have started to judge my words with him a little better than before, I didn't mind telling him about someone hitting on me or making comments about my figure because of the person he is but now I don't do that. My DH is great, he has been my #1 cheerleader before and after WLS and I am greatful for his support. I wouldn't want to do anything to make my hubby feel insecure. Seeking counsel is the best advice anyone could give you. My WL has definately changed my DH but for the better, he was already the greatest and now he loves the confidence WL has given me. Hi Laura! I have experience everything that you have experienced and have been married 21 years. I was skinny when he married me and just continued to gain weight over the years. We hardley ever had sex but once every month in a half or hugged or got affectionate. I missed those things so very much. My husband would still want to have sex but it was more me because I didnt want to because I felt fat and thought I looked horrible. I still do have a problem with wanting to have sex just becuase I still feel fat and ugly. Dont get me wrong I love to have sex and we have it more often then we did before and it seems the more sex we have the more comfortable he feels about me going out. Its kinda funny how things are sometimes, but give it a chance and they will work out. Men sometimes need more reassurance then we do. When I had my surgery in Feb. 06 he continued to tell me that I would leave him and I continued to tell him that I love him and would always love him unless he just became more of an a**hole. Well he became more of an a**hole and we had to do some serious talking to save our marriage. I did begin to go out with my friends once a month as well and would feel like I just needed a break from the kiddos and everything eles. Everytime I step out the door to go out he gets upset and jealous and I have to reassure him that I love him and its just something he will have to get use to. We now go out together but I still make time for my friends as well. I go to Therapy once a month and my hubby will be going with me soon because I feel like its more his issues then mine. My husband sometimes will catch himself with the jealously stuff but I tell him that we have come to far in this marraige and that he just needs to trust me and that he shouldbe happy that I have more confidence and that I feel healthy. Sorry to keep carrying on but I know that things will work out for me so I believe they will work out. Keep your head up and try communicating more I've lived this from both sides. My husband has had the same weight issues all his adult life that I've had. Up and down, up and down. We met each other about four years ago when we were both in the going down phase (although I now weigh about 60 lbs less than when we met!). He was at the perfect weight for him when we met.   When we moved in together, and eventually married- we both started putting the weight back on. Mine leveled out at about 10 lbs more than when we met, but his continued to climb. He decided to join a gym and start dieting and it FREAKED ME OUT. I was so worried that he'd get thin and would not want to be with his fat wife anymore. That's when I started looking into lapband. I knew that if I didn't do something about my weight- my insecurities would kill our marriage, even though he never made ONE.SINGLE.COMMENT about my weight.   Then the tables turned. He was sure I'd leave him when *I* got thin- or possibly nag him about his weight. Neither happened- because I love him no matter what weight he is. Not only is he a handsome devil, he's the kindest, most wonderful man I've ever met.   My point is, insecurity does funny things to us. Change makes insecure people even more insecure.   I hope that this is just a phase for your husband, as it was for my husband. Eventually, my husband learned that I wasn't going anywhere and he's back to his ol' secure self. I honestly don't know how I would have acted, if the tables were turned, because of my HORRIBLE insecurities.   I hope that the two sides of the story helps!

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MY WILL

"My will shall shape the future. Whether I fail or succeed shall be no man's doing but my own. I am the force. I can clear any obstacle before me or I can be lost in the maze. My choice, my responsibility. Win or lose, only I hold the key to my destiny." ~ Elaine Maxwell

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10/12 SIZE 10 LOSE 196.6

He melted, I gazed @ his mouth & the passion returned! His eyes are so beautiful & soft until the passion blazes in them when I look @his mouth. Kind of hard when he sees me in C21 sweater I knew he would melt when I looked @ him lovingly.Lately, I'm told on a daily basis that I'm pretty. Men love to stare & women love to glare!

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"I believe"

"I believe"   I believe - That we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.   I believe - That no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.   I believe - That true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.   I believe - That you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.   I believe - That it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.   I believe - That you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.   I believe - That you can keep going long after you think you can't.   I believe - That we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.   I believe - That either you control your attitude or it controls you.   I believe - That regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place.   I believe - That heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.   I believe - That money is a lousy way of keeping score.   I believe - That my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.   I believe - That sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down, will be the ones to help you get back up.   I believe - That sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.   I believe - That just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.   I believe - That maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.   I believe - That it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.   I believe - That no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.   I believe - That our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.   I believe - That just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other. And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.   I believe - That you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.   I believe - That two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.   I believe - That your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.   I believe - That even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you - you will find the strength to help.   I believe - That credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.   I believe - That the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon.

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1/23/06

WALK IN PM ONLY TO-DAY BFAST: 1 EGG SCRAMBLED75, 2 CRACKERS20 1 FF CHEESE 25= 120CALS SNACK:CRACKERS & CHEESE 100 CALS + 120 = 220 LUNCH: SPICY CHICKN FILET 260 + JR CHEESE 45 =305CALS + 220 = 525 CALS SNACK: CRACKERS & CHEESE 100 = 625 CALS DINNER: 1 ITALIAN SAUSSAGE 160 W 1 EGG SCRAMBLED 75 =860CALS

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7/5

I can feel my hip bones on my sides! It's great to catch myself in the mirror and see a thinner me constantly & know that I'm finally liberated from morbid obesity...what a lovely feeling it is to be able to give away my size 16 clothes & to now put on bras that once did'nt fit...now they are loose. It's great to have the problem of what great outfit am I going to wear to-day! The band works if you work w it! And if you don't you will see your reflection in the toilet bowl! now that's a given!

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HELLO SIZE 8!

Met Pete Spataro last night...he was hitting on me! Couldn't believe how good I looked. This morning I put on my grey & silver pinstriped pants SIZE 8.... they fit but theyr'e short. I DO LOOK HOT...MY GREY LEATHER VEST & BLACK STRETCH SHIRT FITS ME BEAUTIFULLY. My knee hurt last night & this a.m.... Geiss Said NO MOTRIN OR ANY ANTI INLFAMITORY. IT'S BAD FOR THE POUCH...IF I HAVE TO, TO TAKE MAALOX FIRST...I DECIDED I DONT WANT TO RISK HURTING MY POUCH...I'LL TAKE TYLENOL & GRIN & BEAR IT!

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1/24/06 244LBS GREAT RESTRICTION!

WALK IN A.M.21 MINS & 115 CALS WALKED LAST NIGHT I LIKE WALKING. B.FAST CRACKERS, CHEESE & 1 EGG...105 CALS HAD 1 C TEA LUNCH CHICKN BR- GRILLED, W 2 SLICE CHEESE, = 280 + 105= 385 DINNER: CHILLI = 220 +385 =605 + 6 CRACKERS & SALSA= 70 = 675 THE DAYS ARE GETTING LONGER DIDN'T GET DARK TIL 5.15 P.M.   I HAVE G-R-E-A-T RESTRICTION TO-DAY!!!YIPEE NO HUNGER PANGS WORE MY SIZE 20 STYLE & CO. PANTS FROM MACYS W NO PROBLEM...ZIPPED RIGHT UP!

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luvlif

 

11/15 191lbs 2lbs to go into 180s

went & saw powers yesterday....he pulled out all the saline in my band...2.1cc NOT 3.4!...so he put in another .05cc... so now I have 2.6cc! I have to stay on liquids for 48 hrs & then mushies for 48hrs And then go to solids

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