Am I weird?

[duckhnt 0]

I know there is a lot of women on this forum, I am not one...but none the less am experiencing some heavy anxiety.

I started going through the obstacles of insurance authorization fully 9 months ago. My insurance company originally said no, then I went to the parent company of my insurance company for approval, bla, bla...Here is the deal, I just got my authorization letter Monday from the parent insurance company. The authorization was quick and unexpected frankly. I have been going on doctor visit and nutritionist visits, and psyc evals for what seems like eternity, I never thought I would actually get approved and move forward really. Now the fear and realization has set in and I am having second thoughts. I am rationalizing things like

1) The parent company authorized it, but the insurance provider will deny it and I will get stuck with the whole bill, dont do it.

2) You're not really that fat (6-1 & 275) you dont really need it, just get some exercise equipment and give it 6 mos.

3) You're going to have to eat crappy for the rest of your life, what are you thinking, you are not that big

4)No Diet Coke anymore....are you CRAZY??

5) you really want to change everything so radically?

Am I weird or what...I am closer to chickening out at this point then going through with it!

Edited March 25, 2009 by duckhnt

[lanashegog 0]

Hey! No you aren't weird or crazy. I think you are perfectly normal. One thing you have to remember, you can still eat what you want with the lapband. Your lapband will tell you what you can eat. For instance, I can eat bread but can't eat breadsticks. I used to love them. Also, I was a pepsi addict! I drank it full strength with the sugar...don't care for diet pop...lol Also, with your approval from the parent company the insurance will pay...either way, you won't be responsible for the bill. Also, you are right, you aren't very big. Diet Coke is very good to alot of people and it is a life change. But think of it this way, Are you happy with yourself? Are you comfortable with you?? If you are then this is a no brainer, don't do it. But if you have health issues and have issues with your body and the way you look, then do something about it. Take a little control. God will take care of the rest believe me. I know how you feel. I was supposed to have the bypass. I went through all of the things I had to do. One week before my papers were to be sent for approval I got sick and was hospitalized. I was told that I need colon resection surgery. I got three opinions from three different surgeons and all said the same thing. The surgery had to happen. I was approved for the bypass one week after submittal then waited a month for the colon surgery do to the second and third opinions and the colonoscopy. The surgery went haywire and I was opened up. No laprascopic surgery for me! lol..It took two months for me to heal because a few weeks after the procedure I got MRSA. After I got through all of that, my surgeon told me he didn't feel comfortable with me having the bypass because of my colon surgery. One month later I was banded. It was very easy for me to get discouraged and scared not to mention my husband and family didn't want me to do it anyway. I am banded and very happy. Everything went well Praise God! I said all that to say this, its your life. You only have one, don't let it be governed by fear. Its your responsibility to live your life to the fullest. If you are happy...there is no point to having the surgery..if you aren't and want to be, there is going to be some sacrifices..including Diet Coke... Much love! Keep us posted!