I am 8 months out from surgery and I am binging on sugar and carbs. I lost 56 pounds but I can’t seem to go any further. I am finding it easier to eat the old foods and I’m terrified of this loss of control. I try every day to work on this problem. I journal, I read, I listen to podcasts. I start out saying no sugar today and before I know it, I am eating the wrong things. I want to go on a sugar detox but I’m so out of control I can’t even start. I literally hate my body and mind for being like this. I’m willing to try anything to overcome this. If anyone had this happen and found something helpful, please send your advice my way. I really feel like I’m about to lose it.

7 hours ago, lizonaplane said:

There is a lot here. I'm glad you're doing better. Exercise is really good for your mood! I'm glad it's working for you! And losing weight does make us feel ill at ease in our new bodies. I remember when I lost 100 lbs years ago I didn't feel like me anymore... I couldn't figure out how to dress myself, I didn't know how to sit anymore, or how to hold myself... everything was just wrong. I just heard a podcast about this. It's from Australia, but I can't remember the name of it. Anyway, you're so right that most of the work is emotional. Good for you that you're facing it head on!

I finally went shopping for clothing at a non plus size store. I ended up buying in the largest size but it was too big. I am still not recognizing my new body shape and I assume that I am bigger. I am continuing to meditate with music. As I was meditating today I realized that I feel a sense of panic when the sensation of fullness goes away. I have always needed to be full in order to sleep and relax in the past. Today I substituted a few rounds of deep breathing to calm myself down. It worked! I favorited the music station for easy access when I need a time out. I’m going to be okay if I just give myself the chance to adapt to my changes.