What mind games do you play???

[Krestel 329]

We all do it...admit it. We all play these mind games with ourselves, and when trying to deal with our weight, we probably do it more than the average person.

Mine are:

- Still not wanting to go out to buy clothes even though i've lost 65 lbs but surfing around incessantly on clothes websites.

- The classic of not really "seeing" any weight loss even though I'm already half-way to my goal.

So what mind games do you play???

Edited July 24, 2019 by Krestel

[Missouri-Lee's Summit 1,256]

I've mentioned my body dysphoria several times and it's been over a year. I still find myself lurking in the 3x-4x plus size section even though I can easily fit into an XL (sometimes an L). I can't seem to stop searching for my next "fat uniform". I've never been a tight, form-fitting kind of gal, but the "tent look" is definitely hard to give up.

I have a difficult time accepting flattery and continue to doubt those who say, "You look great." I just don't see it. It's not my batwings or lose skin as one might suppose, it's just my overall self-outlook.

I'm not stupid. I know I'm different. I know I probably look different, too, but I just don't know how to deal with the new me without wondering if maybe it's just a dream and I'll eventually wake up 300lbs again.

I haven't thrown away any of my fat uniforms (or given any of them away either; I don't believe in discarding perfectly good clothing that can be resold at a thrift shop to benefit some cause.) My dietitian offered to make a dog bed blanket out of my "favorite" fat uniform, but I never dropped it off for her to repurpose.

[Krestel 329]

4 hours ago, Missouri-Lee's Summit said:

I haven't thrown away any of my fat uniforms (or given any of them away either; I don't believe in discarding perfectly good clothing that can be resold at a thrift shop to benefit some cause.) My dietitian offered to make a dog bed blanket out of my "favorite" fat uniform, but I never dropped it off for her to repurpose.

i havent thrown away my old clothes either thinking that I "could" go back up to that weight and then have to walk around naked.

[catwoman7 10,856]

2 hours ago, Krestel said:

i havent thrown away my old clothes either thinking that I "could" go back up to that weight and then have to walk around naked.

I only kept those that were one size larger. Everything else - out!! Figured it'd be an incentive to stay where I was weight-wise.

I did have a 12 lb bounce back after hitting my lowest weight (and keep in mind a 10-20 lb regain is pretty common). Also, having a few things in the larger size helped after plastic surgery because I was too swollen to fit into some of my things (esp pants). But I had no need for size 4x and 5x things anymore...

Edited July 24, 2019 by catwoman7

[jasmineinmymind 204]

I have been purging all of my fat clothes the minute they become too big. I have already given away at least 10 garbage bags full of clothes. When I am within 1-15 pounds of my goal weight I'll hang on to those clothes.

I didnt "see" my weight loss for the first 50 pounds but now I see it. I feel like I look different finally.

I guess you'd call this a mind game but I am tortured by my crepey neck and my wrinkly arms. I am trying to focus on the positive but it sucks so much that plastic surgery costs a fortune. I want to get my neck done SO bad. It looks terrible and there is no way to hide it because the ugly part is right up under my chin.