So, in preparation for this surgery, I have finally downloaded My Fitness Pal and actually tracked my food for several days. I missed one day with my family, but I have tracked a total 6 out of 7 days.

I hate tracking. I'm sure I'm not the only one. I hate having to be accountable and most if all, I hate having to be so damn honest with myself about what I am eating.

I have done tracking before on my "Weight Watchers" app which was pretty cool with the extensive database of good food , but seeing the WW logo always annoyed me. I like My Fitness Pal. It has some nice articles too. Still, I struggle. I am not yet making the best choices. I do okay, then make a poor choice. Today I got coffee from Dunkin Donuts on my way home and got a stupid pumpkin muffin and ate it in the car while driving. I wanted SO BAD to just leave it off the log (then I wanted to delete it)...but it stayed. For me, THIS is a small success...being honest with myself. I can pretend to eat well in front of people, but I'm only fooling myself, and what good is that. I need to get serious about shrinking my liver and I know some of my recent food choices are not supporting this goal. I have a little over 2 months before surgery. I am worried that I'm not going to do well with long-term post-op because tracking can be such a b**ch. I'm not too worried with initial compliance, but long term compliance. I don't want to gain it all back once things get comfortable. I know the sleeve is "just a tool", but I want to make the best of it. Just curious...was anyone a little scared to be thin? (That might be another whole thread)

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My psychologist keeps bringing this scared to be thin issue up to me lol....maybe..I'm not sure.

I know, like you, I don't like tracking either however I wish to hold myself accountable and make the right decisions bc I b d9nt v want to go thru surgery for nothing. I'm a type a personality and I hate to fail I'm very competitive with myself so I n think this v will help me overcome the hatred for tracking and denial lol.

I know when I track it helps me stick to what I should be doing better.. I'm not scared 1 tiny bit.. But then I'm doing this because thanks to Lyme I've gained more weight and am unable to be very active.. And I want my life to feel back, I want to be able to do things with both my sons and my new dil.. I may have to have surgery on my hips in the future and sure can't at this weight.. Also found out (from pre surgery testing) I may have to have a heart valve repaired in the future

Munky

My psychologist keeps bringing this scared to be thin issue up to me lol....maybe..I'm not sure.

I know, like you, I don't like tracking either however I wish to hold myself accountable and make the right decisions bc I b d9nt v want to go thru surgery for nothing. I'm a type a personality and I hate to fail I'm very competitive with myself so I n think this v will help me overcome the hatred for tracking and denial lol.

In regards to being scared and/or emotionally ready:

In a way, I kinda feel that without the surgery, I would probably just hover around 260#...I tend to maintain for months at a time, give or take. I feel that, in a way, the much more rapid weight loss with the aid of VSG will lead me into an arena that I haven't been in emotionally in quite some time, if ever. I feel that losing some of the weight is a bit like an accelerated cocoon. Without the surgery though, I've never really had the success needed to even GET to the cocoon stage. Who knows? Maybe I will enjoy being a thinner adult...I feel like once I have the opportunity of knowing how it feels to be thinner, that it will encourage me to maintain any weight that I am fortunate enough to lose.

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My psychologist keeps bringing this scared to be thin issue up to me lol....maybe..I'm not sure.

I know, like you, I don't like tracking either however I wish to hold myself accountable and make the right decisions bc I b d9nt v want to go thru surgery for nothing. I'm a type a personality and I hate to fail I'm very competitive with myself so I n think this v will help me overcome the hatred for tracking and denial lol.

In regards to being scared and/or emotionally ready:

In a way, I kinda feel that without the surgery, I would probably just hover around 260#...I tend to maintain for months at a time, give or take. I feel that, in a way, the much more rapid weight loss with the aid of VSG will lead me into an arena that I haven't been in emotionally in quite some time, if ever. I feel that losing some of the weight is a bit like an accelerated cocoon. Without the surgery though, I've never really had the success needed to even GET to the cocoon stage. Who knows? Maybe I will enjoy being a thinner adult...I feel like once I have the opportunity of knowing how it feels to be thinner, that it will encourage me to maintain any weight that I am fortunate enough to lose.

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Yes I agree with u too...see I was abused and si my therapist is coming from the idea of hiding my self in my fat si going to be skinny is emotionally scary...

I overall feel the benefits outweigh the risk

My psychologist keeps bringing this scared to be thin issue up to me lol....maybe..I'm not sure.

I know, like you, I don't like tracking either however I wish to hold myself accountable and make the right decisions bc I b d9nt v want to go thru surgery for nothing. I'm a type a personality and I hate to fail I'm very competitive with myself so I n think this v will help me overcome the hatred for tracking and denial lol.

In regards to being scared and/or emotionally ready:

In a way, I kinda feel that without the surgery, I would probably just hover around 260#...I tend to maintain for months at a time, give or take. I feel that, in a way, the much more rapid weight loss with the aid of VSG will lead me into an arena that I haven't been in emotionally in quite some time, if ever. I feel that losing some of the weight is a bit like an accelerated cocoon. Without the surgery though, I've never really had the success needed to even GET to the cocoon stage. Who knows? Maybe I will enjoy being a thinner adult...I feel like once I have the opportunity of knowing how it feels to be thinner, that it will encourage me to maintain any weight that I am fortunate enough to lose.

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Yes I agree with u too...see I was abused and si my therapist is coming from the idea of hiding my self in my fat si going to be skinny is emotionally scary...

I overall feel the benefits outweigh the risk

I agree. As you go through the process, you can address these issues as they come up. But as far as being "emotionally ready"? We've been "emotionally ready" dealing with issues of being fat. Based on logic and what I've read, our issues and problems don't go away, but we will most likely need to find other ways to soothe ourselves than with food. I'm glad I already have a therapist to help me through these feelings. Best of luck on your journey! I think this group will also be quite helpful and supportive as we navigate these unknown waters of weight loss.

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