Struggling with food

[deairae 4]

I am a rebel by nature and too smart for my own good. I've released 60 lbs since my surgery (12-2-15) and just over 100 lbs overall. I've been stalled at 235 now for 2 months and I am not at a loss for why. While I'm diligent about getting my Protein, I eat whatever I want, usually too quickly and therefore too much.

Last night, throughout the night, I devoured a container of Cookies. It's the first time since my first week on solids the I vomited. I couldn't stop myself.

I just need to come clean, find a way to get onto my surgeon's recommended food plan, and to stay on it.

Thanks for being here.

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[Valentina 2,642]

I'm here and I'm listening, but I'm NOT hearing anything about a "plan B".

Whatcha got????

[WantToBe 77]

Good for you for realizing that you really would prefer to change and are making the move to implement the change. Kudos to you! Good luck.

[butterfly23 423]

@@deairae thanks for posting. Being accountable with ourselves is so important, and posting here can help. At the same time, please be kind to yourself as this is hard work. I agree that having a plan/goals/action steps has been helpful to me, especially when I struggle. May you find your path!

[Dub 9,955]

When you stop and think about it.......really think about it.........the only thing we truly have control over in our lives is what we put in our mouths.

[gina171 626]

Therapy could be a real help. But if you're "too smart for your own good" still, you might not want to admit you need help.

Still, I think last night is a really clear sign that it might be time to consider learning more from a professional. I hope you do. There's just something in the tone of your post that makes me think you are someone who is actually really hard on yourself. I'm picking up a lot of angry self-talk between the lines.

Reach out for help, try to understand the why and not just the what, in terms of your behavior.

You can't beat yourself up to a better life.

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[WhtWdUGive620 58]

I was 5 weeks out and got carried away, even though my indulgence was allowable Proteins, I still went too far and paid the price. I remind myself how horrible that felt and have reeled in the temptation. Perfect? By no means, I do carry that Water with me at all times and take a good, slow swig when I feel the urge coming on, I have also stashed Protein Drinks in my truck, purse, office and even friend's offices, just in case. It's helping, you just have to find what works for you. Good luck!

[deairae 4]

Thank you all! It's comforting to know you are here and you hear me.

I don't have a plan B yet. I'm torn between moving into maintenance, as I have reached my original goal weight, and taking the opportunity of still being in my first year to lose as much as I can.

I have been working with a therapist, however I only see her once a month, and it isn't enough right now. I have known for a while that it isn't enough.

I guess that is my plan B. I will call her first thing in the morning and set up weekly sessions.

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