Update/stupid decisions/ what should I do?

[Elode 8,093]

@@WLSResources/ClothingExch lol! I didn't even notice that!! Fixed it! Sometimes I type too fast, I'm trying to get it all down before it erases!

[magtart 603]

I quit smoking in 2000 because I was going to have spinal surgery with fusion and a cadaver bone transplant. The neurosurgeon said the transplant might not take if I continued to smoke. I was happily being a nonsmoker when my husband suddenly passed away in 2001. Our son was 8 at the time and it was a very stressful time. I started smoking again for a few months.

Fast forward to now and I haven't smoked in 14 years. I still think about it every few days and think no one would notice if I sat out on the deck to smoke.

[FocusOnMeNow 599]

I can't wait till the day that I can have my zero carb margarita mix, anejo tequila, grand marnier, and some lime juice again. If you want to have fun go ahead and go the "harm reduction" route if you can do so without the slippery slope. If you feel the need to smoke try vaping the lowest concentration of nicotine you can find instead and just keep it to once a week max. If you can't set limits then abstinence is best. But you've accomplished so much, you should be proud and give yourself a break. I personally never want surgery again, but you should do what you need to do. But as a nurse you should definitely know that if you ask a surgeon if you need surgery the answer is going to be YES about 99% of the time. So please take that into consideration as well as any "self-referrals." But if it's what you want and what you determine will be best, then go for it!

[Elode 8,093]

@@magtart Hang in there. It's not easy. I quite two years ago on the 4th of July. Cold turkey. This was a slip up but I haven't had any since and won't. Even after 2 years I get moments where out of the blue I think, humm I wish I had a smoke. It taste HORRIBLE!!! Just remember that!

[Elode 8,093]

I'm trilled to report I actually lost a lb the day after thanksgiving! First time that's ever happened. I throw away the pies in the morning. I didn't need anything tempting me. The holiday is over.

[padremama 101]

I have been doing the same thing. And I live alone so I have no one to answer to but myself. I have heard when you have surgery some people trade one addiction for another. I really have had too many addictions and don't need them back.