Waah, I want my fill back!!

babsyintx · November 7, 2004

Hi Everyone,

Gosh, I have been getting hungrier and hungrier over the last month or so. The weight loss is slowing down and I want my fill back that was taken out in September. My doc wanted to wait until December, but screw it. I am getting some this week! Its been a struggle. I am still losing a little, but less than a pound a week. The weight just keeps going up and down the same three pounds for the last month. i know it has a lot to do with me. i have not been as compliant as I should be. But I know I am tenured enough to handle more. I am at 2.4 and would like to go back to 2.5. They had me at 2.6 and this was a little too much for me to handle. But I had 2.5 for nine months and did not have any problems. I feel like my doc is penalizing me for filling me too tightly. I have less now than I had a year ago. Right now, I would kill for a Peanut Butter and jelly sandwich!!!! I have been consistently hungry and obsessing about food again, so I know I am ready. I could still lose another 50 lbs and not be too thin. But I want to be realistic about this. I REALLY would like to see 169. THats another 23 pounds. If I got there and nothing more happened, I could live with this. So I want the other 13% off within the next 6 months. I just want it to be like before where I wasnt thinking about food all day. Is that to much to ask. I am running out of will power....

OK, I will stop ranting and whining now. There are others that have far bigger problems than me!

Babs in TX

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leatha_g · November 7, 2004

You'll do it, Barbara. You've been working so hard. You'll finally get there. I just know it!

As for me, it's a crap shoot! lol. I go for another fill on Tuesday and I'm praying it will finally be enough to stop me, but more than that, I have to get the bad carbs back out of my mind. I'm really struggling with junk and I have to find a way to keep it to a minimum. I boiled up a bunch of eggs today so that I'll have something to grab when I go hunting and there is no more junk in the house. Now if I can just keep it that way. Progress, not perfection, right? I've been battling the same 5-6lbs since Labor Day and that's way too long. It's time to get serious about this last 40-50lbs for me.

I've been working on my apartment all day today instead of just sitting here at this machine and I've done much better about grazing. It's a start..

Good luck, I know you'll get there!

La_madam · November 8, 2004

Hey Babs I know the feeling about obsessing about food lately and I have a fill of 2cc's but the past 3 weeks I find myself obsessing too.. Im still losing 1-3 lbs a week but I think I might need a little tweak of .1 or .2 to get me through the Holidays. I have a fill scheduled for Nov 15th so we will see. Im still debating it since I'm losing steadily. I really believe that the food obsessions we are all experiencing right now is the change in seasons, the cold weather , the holidays approaching. I know for me that when the weather changes I want to eat more warm hearty foods like potatoes, stews, pot roasts etc..My salds and fruits are at a bare minimum these days. You can get through this rough time. Just keep telling yourself that. You have donean awesome job. I hope I am as successful as you have been. You should be proud of yourself. You know what it takes its just a matter of getting your head back into it. Now ..I'm going to go take my own advice and get my head back into it too

Rebeccalee · November 8, 2004

I wonder if we are all getting ready to hibernate. I have been hungry more and not losing for a couple weeks and am thinking about having a fill.

Babs, don't you think about food less when you are filled just right? Sometimes I think we revert too easily to our old way of thinking that if we would just try harder it would be all right. I'm going to test that out with a fill later this month.

claraluz · November 8, 2004

Babs, I understand what you are going through. I think we all do. I did very poorly with my diet for months. Recently I have gotten back on track. The band helps, but I feel I may always be struggling with my relationship with food. But Babs, if you never lose another pound, you are a tremendous success! You've lost more than the average percentage of excess weight for the LapBand. Don't forget that.

Nancy

babsyintx · November 8, 2004

Hi Again,

You guys might be onto something. THe weather change does seem to make me want some nice warm comfort foods. And having my friend Julie here hasnt helped much either. Tomorrow is a new day. I have a feeling it might be a good idea to wait a week or two on the fill anyway. I have some kind of allergy/throat thing going on and I am gurgling all day. When I eat, I have been getting a little golf ballish and once it passes, I am able to eat quite comfortably. But I think my throat is a little raw and it would be hard to gauge where I really am on the restriction if I got a fill this week. Also, I am going to try to stick to the program this week and see where I can go. It seems like even one food indiscretion sets me back days now, so I need to be ever so diligent about what i eat. The thing that bothers me the most is the fact that I keep obsessing about food. When I was tighter, I hardly thought about food at all and sometimes had to force myself to eat. So clearly a fill will help me, but the timing needs to be right. So I will wait a little longer and try not to gain anything. Thanks for the support.

Babs in TX

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shellyj · November 8, 2004

hey babs! i had to get an unfill for ebing to tight...i am bitching, moaning and whining right there with you. i now have less than before my fill! i only have to wait 1 month till my fill though.

let me know how it goes!

michelle