I failed myself yet again...

[JerseyJules 862]

I am ashamed of myself..After sitting in the hospital for hours with an IV in me ready for my Gastric sleeve, I backed out of the surgery..Sitting there waiting for someone to remove part of me forever got me thinking that I did not really think this whole procedure through.. I realized Im simply not mentally ready for it. Perhaps if they rolled me right in and took me to the OR I would have done it, but sitting there for 4 hours left me way too much time to think stuff over..

Perhaps I will regret my decision perhaps I will revisit the surgery, but I want to explore a few more options as of right now. Yeah Im overweight, but Im healthy for now and just couldnt bring myself to pull the trigger..I have been crying all morning and afternoon and am ashamed of myself cause once again I quit myself. But it just didnt FEEL right...

[joatsaint 2,814]

Don't beat yourself up too much. I backed out when I started to make my 1st dr. appointment. It took another month before I realized my life was only going to get worse if I didn't go through with WLS and I just made up my mind to do whatever I had to do to get through WLS.

When making a big decision like this, I ask myself:

1) Do I want to be in this same situation or worse a year from now?

2) Is the pain of staying in this situation worse than the pain of the change I need to make?

So far, answering those 2 questions have given me the clarity I needed to make any major decision.

[LipstickLady 25,682]

If you didn't feel right about it, you did the right thing. For sure.

[Babbs 14,681]

Don't feel like you failed! This is YOUR decision and YOURS alone! If you feel this wasn't the right thing for you at this time, then who is anyone to tell you any different? You do what you feel is right. I wish you all the best!

[ProjectMe 909]

My friend backed out...she thought she was ready, went through the process, then at the last minute couldn't bring herself to do it. She has since rescheduled and they were fine with it.

Just because our surgeons/insurance are ready, doesn't mean we're mentally ready at that same time and it's okay.

[alisha_anne867 4]

If it didn't feel right then you did the right thing. Take your time, it's a major life decision. It's better to wait until you're ready than have it done before you're ready for it. It's hard enough when you're not mentally prepared. Best of luck to you in whatever decision you make! ♡

[LivingFree! 478]

You did not fail yourself. You were TRUE to yourself by acknowledging that you are not ready. Be proud of that! There may be a time in the future when you ARE ready, or there MAY NOT BE. Either choice is just fine. Meanwhile, there's tons of support here, as you know. Talk about your concerns until you can truly know what is best FOR YOU.

[downsizingdiva 460]

We're still here for you!

[alwaysvegas 702]

You made the right choice for you, absolutely!

I think everyone should be mentally prepared for this surgery and for the lifestyle changes. But that is so much easier said than done. Better to have changed your mind now than after surgery.

Hang in there, keep posting, and schedule the surgery if/when you're ready!

Edited January 13, 2015 by AlwaysVegas

[Kammy28 9]

You are doing what is right for you. I was scheduled in December but did not go thru.

[time for june 195]

I am ashamed of myself..After sitting in the hospital for hours with an IV in me ready for my Gastric sleeve, I backed out of the surgery..Sitting there waiting for someone to remove part of me forever got me thinking that I did not really think this whole procedure through.. I realized Im simply not mentally ready for it. Perhaps if they rolled me right in and took me to the OR I would have done it, but sitting there for 4 hours left me way too much time to think stuff over..

Perhaps I will regret my decision perhaps I will revisit the surgery, but I want to explore a few more options as of right now. Yeah Im overweight, but Im healthy for now and just couldnt bring myself to pull the trigger..I have been crying all morning and afternoon and am ashamed of myself cause once again I quit myself. But it just didnt FEEL right...

[CheleLynn45 615]

You have to be ready mentally to do this. Backing out if you weren't ready is not a bad thing. Don't be so hard on yourself.

I went to a seminar about 5 years ago to see what this surgery was all about. We started listening and I kept looking around the room and I got so scared. It sounded so bad and I kept telling myself I don't need this I am just fat there is nothng else wrong with me. Most of the people in this seminar were on oxygen and in wheelchairs or walkers. I told myself I could do this on my own. Well years later and probably 50 more pounds I realized I could not. Learning all about what was involved with having this procedure and having to go thru the 6 month supervised diet I found myself ready to do this.

You will know once you are ready!!

[CheleLynn45 615]

You have to be ready mentally to do this. Backing out if you weren't ready is not a bad thing. Don't be so hard on yourself.

I went to a seminar about 5 years ago to see what this surgery was all about. We started listening and I kept looking around the room and I got so scared. It sounded so bad and I kept telling myself I don't need this I am just fat there is nothng else wrong with me. Most of the people in this seminar were on oxygen and in wheelchairs or walkers. I told myself I could do this on my own. Well years later and probably 50 more pounds I realized I could not. Learning all about what was involved with having this procedure and having to go thru the 6 month supervised diet I found myself ready to do this.

You will know once you are ready!!

[JerseyJules 862]

I could not say I 100% wanted to do this, and with just the slightest amount of doubt in my mind I could not see it being long term successful for me. I still cant get over the fact that they are removing a part of my body that god created that way for a reason..Perhaps I will revisit WLS with the Lapband..I really only want to lose 40 lbs...

[JerseyJules 862]

Waking up today, I cant believe I backed out and am back to trying to lose weight on my own again..I feel insane cause the definition of insanity is repeating the same process over and over again and expecting different results... Like I said, I failed myself again..Im having non buyers remorse now..