Fear is getting the best of me.

[greensleeve 457]

I'm a sleever. I have lost 72 pounds since the month before surgery.

I think I might have worried about every aspect of surgery I possibly could.

I can't speak for band, but my sleeve is wonderful.

Honestly there have only been two times when I was triggered and felt like my old habits wanted to come back. The last was at a social situation, and I felt like I wanted to eat a ton just to fight social anxiety and have something to do.

But instead I put healthy food on my plate, ate my cup of food and got up and did something else. Because I physically couldn't eat more or I would be in intense pain.

I also realized it wasn't worth sabotaging my progress.

I looked at some desert and it looked good but it also looked like failing. So I had a tiny bite of something and that was it.

Sugary rich food makes me feel sick now. So I don't even crave it.

The same thing with greasy and fried food. I have had one French fry or two cheetos here and there. I just want a taste of it and then I'm done.

Every time I get on the scale and see another pound gone I'm amazed that this is happening. And then I'm sad that I wasted a lot of years.

You can do this!

[Tear Bear 1]

Thanks everyone, You where all sooooo good with information and support, If I have my surgery in Mexico would you suggest going to a nutritionist or just bariatric pal for info, I live out in the country, two hours to anywhere. So hard to make it to a doctor once a week, I don't have alot of friends or support people, I'm a cook at our school and this worries me as well. P.S Ya team!

[Tear Bear 1]

Your awesome cowgirl!! LOL!!!

Tearbear- trust me...the tool does work! When your stomache says your full " you will know - an be satisfied. Some ppl say I eat like a bird. But I get full on smaller portion and don't have the desire to eat more. They are used to me eating massive unhealthy amounts. Not any more. I've lost 85# now and my desire to be a couch potato has now turned to being outdoor and enjoying life!! I like jacks saying, your not giving up food , you just eat less and have the same satisfaction as if you ate the other way. However, it took me 3-4 months for my eyes to trick my plate it was smaller.