I am fairly diligent when it comes to checking most of the forums. And whenever I go to pre surgery I either forget I already had it out I think to myself, boy I remember how that felt! It is so crazy. I need to wrap my head around what I have loss and not focus so hard on what I have to lose. I get stressed when I am feeling sick and can't go to the gym. My resolve was to go every day but it seems like something stops me every couple of days. Either I had a bad food intake day and felt sick the entire day which made me exhausted or the exercise on the treadmill made me hurt around my big insison. I feel like I am making excuses even though they are real reasons. I don't want to sabotage myself. I truly believe this is the best thing I have ever done to help myself become healthy.

I find myself also in a moment where I have to remind myself I already had my surgery. I had all of these goals and I have to realize even though I don't go to the gym (not a member) like I said I would do, I still don't sit on the couch, drink soda, eat fries, and do nothing to lose weight. And I have bad food intake days and days when I am really proud of myself because old me would not have said no endless Pasta bowls at olive garden lol and venti Starbucks... Don't forget to high 5 yourself for all the good choices you do too.

Surgery 7/25/12