I'm aware it was my choice to have the surgery and I reviewed the different types for 3 years before committing. Unfortunately, nothing could have prepared me for what would occur post op. (Sleeved on the 22nd). I'm down 27lbs and I honestly could care less. I truly miss food...when I'm hungry I want to eat not sip. I feel like if I see another broth/ soup I will off myself. Seriously, I do not see this getting any better. Plus, I fear the puree stage will look like baby vomit. Everyday I wake up praying I'm normal but come to the realization that I'm not and never will be. I just wish I was completely happy again BC I'm miserable.

Are you still angry today??

If so take some deep breaths..... And remember why you did this.

I essentially did this to take away my "free will"

For awhile because I cannot control my food intake and I cannot be trusted! And yes it worked! I too has times where I was pissed because I just wanted to stuff my face but I couldn't. But really that behavior is what got us to this point of morbid obesity!

You are in the toughest part of this process right now. It will get easier in a few weeks.

Oh and puréed food? I said no way in hell would I purée chicken! Well when I could finally do it?

I did it with glee and loved it!

Chicken/ gravy/ watery instant mashed potatoes.

Or turkey chili

Also meatloaf (or balls) gravy.

Look weird but is warm filling and tastes the same.

Haha Laura your new picture makes me crack up every time I see it now. Did you change it so threads won't turn into arguments?

Are you still angry today??

If so take some deep breaths..... And remember why you did this.

I essentially did this to take away my "free will"

For awhile because I cannot control my food intake and I cannot be trusted! And yes it worked! I too has times where I was pissed because I just wanted to stuff my face but I couldn't. But really that behavior is what got us to this point of morbid obesity!

You are in the toughest part of this process right now. It will get easier in a few weeks.

Oh and puréed food? I said no way in hell would I purée chicken! Well when I could finally do it?

I did it with glee and loved it!

Chicken/ gravy/ watery instant mashed potatoes.

Or turkey chili

Also meatloaf (or balls) gravy.

Look weird but is warm filling and tastes the same.

Omg Laura that pic is hilarious!

Haha Laura your new picture makes me crack up every time I see it now. Did you change it so threads won't turn into arguments?

Yes as a matter of fact I did! It was suggested to me in a pm that if I had a "nicer" picture that perhaps people would find me a kinder more relatable person?

so here I am a nicer Laura-ven

I was sleeved on the 22nd as well but only down 17lbs. I guess the food part isn't bothering me as much as losing the weight. Ive been at a stall for 4 days now. Not sure why but I don't want to do anything to mess this up' date=' including going back to bad habits. I have however had numerous dreams about eating then woke up to reality! That sucked![/quote']

Hi, I just wanted to say that if your relationship to food was unhealthy like mine, you would welcome anything that allowed you to move beyond that. I hated my compulsion to eat to combat boredom and anger. I hated feeling obliged to eat in those times that I wasn't hungry, but just be a team player in the family. I hated the absolute dependence that I had developed to high sugar and high fat foods. But most of all I hated what it did to my body. How my shape became distorted, and my how my husband and children would take my arm to help me to walk when my legs were too heavy. I hated that I allowed myself to physically morph into my grandmother when I should be in the most vibrant period of my life. So when I think of all the things I can't eat, I finally feel free. Seize the moment to make something much more interesting your focus and love all the possibilities that life has to offer now. You'll be alright.

I had my sleeve on the 30th. I have not felt any different than before. I had the two week liquid diet before. Now I have 3 more days of clear liquids. I keep looking forward. I have not even let it cross my mind as some kind mistake. Our mind can be our worst enemy. I keep looking forward. Yes I do have cravings... Not hunger! I would kill for a ribeye! I will have that ribeye. But it will be around week 7. I don't care if I have to purée it!! Too many people look at this as a mistake. What is done is done! We have to stay positive and keep that sabotaging mind of ours at bay!!! We got this!! We can do it!! And be a whole lot healthier in the process!!!

One of the most difficult aspects of this whole deal is dealing with our heads. I often wish I could have brain surgery along with the VSg - to remove the portion of my brain that is addicted to food Take a deep breath and keep on going - eat for nutrition, less for enjoyment, and learn to find enjoyment through other things - it is key to succeeding at this, and no it is not easy.

I can understand even though I don't feel the same. It's tough. I will keep you and all are struggling in my prayers. Today it's dark and cloudy, but tomorrow the sun will shine bright.

It will get better! I was sleeved on 4/22 and I can eat anything now. Just not as much, but u will get full faster so u save money. I only threw up 1 time on a omelet. Hang in there

Yes as a matter of fact I did! It was suggested to me in a pm that if I had a "nicer" picture that perhaps people would find me a kinder more relatable person?

so here I am a nicer Laura-ven

Are you serious??

Are you serious??

Girl do I look serious???

Wait.. I guess I don't look to serious with a ridiculous unicorn outfit on, do I??

You've got me wondering if there's a bug-eyed, pink koala pic lying around the place that I can use to sweeten up.

I'm aware it was my choice to have the surgery and I reviewed the different types for 3 years before committing. Unfortunately' date=' nothing could have prepared me for what would occur post op. (Sleeved on the 22nd). I'm down 27lbs and I honestly could care less. I truly miss food...when I'm hungry I want to eat not sip. I feel like if I see another broth/ Soup I will off myself. Seriously, I do not see this getting any better. Plus, I fear the puree stage will look like baby vomit. Everyday I wake up praying I'm normal but come to the realization that I'm not and never will be. I just wish I was completely happy again BC I'm miserable.[/quote']

Honestly u will b ok really I was like omg them hungry days r erking mines lasted now even almost a month out I do just find some things to do nd I neva ate puree food at all at that stage I drunk Protein drink and sugar free everything I guess I did find I lost 37 plds my first month u will b ok just find diff alternatives u will really b ok

I love food, cooking it, going to restaurants...especially eating it. Love ethnic foods of all types...and that's ok. I take it as a challenge to find things that aren't merely tolerable, but are enjoyable. At first it can be a real challenge due to the restrictions in what and how much we can eat (that's kind of the point). The psychatrist that did my eval suggested a cookbook to me. It has many excellent recipes that can be enjoyed at various stages. There's also the food and nutrition forums here that has good ideas. Hang in there. It does really get better.

Shel - Olathe, KS

I'm aware it was my choice to have the surgery and I reviewed the different types for 3 years before committing. Unfortunately' date=' nothing could have prepared me for what would occur post op. (Sleeved on the 22nd). I'm down 27lbs and I honestly could care less. I truly miss food...when I'm hungry I want to eat not sip. I feel like if I see another broth/ Soup I will off myself. Seriously, I do not see this getting any better. Plus, I fear the puree stage will look like baby vomit. Everyday I wake up praying I'm normal but come to the realization that I'm not and never will be. I just wish I was completely happy again BC I'm miserable.[/quote']

I was sleeved april 3rd. Not hungry but my stomach growls sometimes like I am & I have head hunger while cooking 4 my fam or some1 eating something that's good that I can't eat I do regret this sleeve from time 2 time specially when I am missing my best friend (food) or thinking about the long term effect of having this surgery or what I'm gonna do when I get old and picky or just sometimes downing all these Vitamins I even cry at times but I sit back and close my eyes and say 2 myself I did this 4 a reason I wanna b happy & live longer 4 my fam plus my self esteem was gonna ruin my marriage if I didn't do something bout it yes I had a pretty face but a big body yes I was only 215pounds but 5foot 4 so 2 me I looked about 300pounds it is a struggle & my doc & nut made it seem so easy but its not all we can do is think positive and stay strong cause what's done is done & its no going back good luck & it do get better