Jadeite

YAY!!!!! Way to work it beautiful!!! You are doing sooooooo great!

Vixen,

You got this girl. What you desire will be yours. Bowchicawowow. I can feel it. Stars are aligning up for you to have this chance at life full of health, self love and a baller wardrobe.. holla. Go GGX Jewels!!

Beth you are doing so great! Your such a go getter.. Love it! Keep up the good work. I love that you love Jazzercise.. Its awesome <3! to u..

Beth,

You are the best! and I Love our Doctor! I cant believe the difference already. Lot a lost of inches but still need to amp it up and slim it down. Once school is over its game on time. Hope you are doing well. How is Jazzercise?

Every thing your describing seems pretty normal. I'm on my third fill now and am feeling the type of restriction we had after surgery. Just stay strong and keep the focus. The exercise will help and enjoy eating somewhat normal sized meals until you tighten the blessed band up. lol

So This third fill i believe did the job. In fact i think I might be a little to tight. This fill has severly limited how much i consume. I have had a couple days where everything i ate i threw up. I am getting better but not eating much at all. I think it might be time to start reving up the supplements and getting those soup recipes out again. I find that warm well cooked food goes down the best. Trying to focus on the protein but it is not going to come from chicken fish and turkey. i just cant eat that much. I was so hungry last night and wanted comfort food so i made mashed potatoes. By the time they were done and i put a normal small serving on my plate, I was only able to have about 4 tablespoons, if that. And Maybe three bits of fish.

Is this the sweet spot??? Not sure but i think i must be pretty close. So far I have lost 20 pounds since 2-12-2010. Hoping the next twenty comes off even faster. I have seriously been considering signing up and saving for a yoga teacher certification class starting in August. So my goal is to train for my training and make enough money with my business to afford it. Here to achieving all or goals!!

I am excited to finish my finals, move to my new place and get a new routine going again. Yeah long everlasting summer time:biggrin::confused:

Alrighty Good Morning Lovelies,

Just a little update here. I went in for my third fill on 4-20 and boy am I feeling a difference. Since my last fill I haven't lost really anything on the scale and was kinda bumming about that. Doc asked if i wanted him to be conservative and i explained to him what my eating habits were like. ie.

Normally in the mornings i can't eat much, really nothing. Even the shakes are to thick for me in the am . But by 4:00 i can eat a normal sized meal. Honestly i haven't had to mention this procedure to anyone just because i am eating dinner with them. I just eat slower and chew well.

And I also mentioned to him that i hadn't lost muh since the last fill. He said he noticed that and it sounds like i just needed a little fine tuning. So he gave me another 1cc in the band. Quick and Painless.. Love my Doc!! The after he was done he said that my band was lose and even though i didn't lose lbs that i lost fat around the organs to in turn make the feeling of restriction less.

I am happy to report that my weigh in on Tuesday was 212.8 and I am now at 209.

School is almost out annd i am getting excited to increase the physical activity via mountain bike, hiking, rafting, elliptical, yoga and dance! Feeling the Power Risin and the pounds Fallin.

Gonna be LOOKIN GOOD Rrrrrreal soon!!! :confused::biggrin::biggrin:

Awesome Keep up the good work. I need some 5K action myself lol... Did you get the routine online or from something else.. Id love to know you schedule... Keep up the good work :w00t:

Good Morning Lovelies!!!

I have noticed a decline in posts from many of my friends :biggrin: I can only assume it is because it is finally nice outside and no one wants to be inside on a stupid computer lol ...

little up date on my status.. I am going in for my 3rd fill on 4-20. I don't feel like i have los much weight. but my clothes are looser but not falling off by any means. I was down to 209 but that didn't last long as i had a mararita binge last week that brought me up to 214 :thumbup: yikes.. So no more tequillas for me.. I did go to a yoga class last week and spent a little time on the eliptical. But i know it is not enough to see the results i really want.

As a side note... I am moving again.. super stressfull.. hoping for the right place to come along.. Durango has a serious houseing crisis, And you would be shocked at the prices they want for toaster boxes of a house...

Well ladies and men.. more later.. but for now im off to get me a protein shake and get things movin again

Beth!!!

That is so fantastic.. Sounds like the next two months will be great! Dr. Smith will be up here on the 20th of April. I got the last of two appointments for that day. yay... So far my summer is looking crazy as well. Im hoping that this next fill will be a good one. Good luck and safe travels on all your fun trips.

Then sweetie stop subjecting your self to the wrath of their obsessive negativity. If you are already aware of their pre-dispostion to always believe or think the worst about something then ... for me anyways.. I dont bother to ask or need their opinion. I know its tough.. i feel like our dads are so similar..

Keeo this goodness for yourself like a present you found meant only for you. Nurture it and keep it close to your heart. Follow your own path. The same people who said you couldn't or shouldn't will soon eat their words. and you will have gained the strength inside for it. Remember to avoid naysayers for they are obstacles on your path to victory!

Edith Piaf is a goddess.. Focus on what you have and give thanks for your strength and ability to love your self. Your man will come as you honor yourself by taking care of your needs first.

I have done the master cleanser and it is awesome. Read Stanley Burroughs books. He developed the recipies in Hawaii some years ago. First thing Its a cleanse. weight loss will happen if you do the cleanse. Second get good himalayan salt and good B grade maple syurp. The salt water "baths" are suppost to be the same consistancy as your body. If you make it too salty to will throw it up. Mild saltyness in warm water. I made a shot of it in the morning. STAY close to home for at least three days especially in the morning. Dont cheat! and Stick with it for the full 10 days. It is also important to come off the cleanse SLOWLY. with veggie juice and broth. I experienced such a burst of energy doing this cleanse , as well as a clear mind. It is truly amazing! Good Luck . I might hace to kick start another one here soon!

Take Care!

Hey Good luck with everything!! It is great that you are getting back on track. This is the time you can really focus on you. You are strong and have the ability to make this band work for you. Stop buying Icecream... For me if its not in the house i am not likely to eat it. A good friend told me once, if you know your biggest weakness, you can overcome all odds. By knowing your self and your triggers, you are better able to recognized your patterns and activly change them by bring atttention to them. Way to make the first big step towards loving yourself again!

Beth you are doing so great!! Thanks for your comments on my blog. And way to keep the positivity going!!!! Tonight im celebrating the pink moon, also known as the planters moon. We are like little seeds growing to big willow trees. You are inspiring me to kick up my exercise! thanks again. Way to rock it Beth!

Ahhh... Full Moon in Libra.

Wow im really feelin this one. Deep sleep and waking up well rested. I planted some seed starters in those peat pot greenhouse things you get a home depot. I decided to start with flowers and some herbs to put in window pot outside the house. I am itching for spring and the warmth and energy of sprouting. I need green. (Funny i worn a totally green outfit today lol) I am Tired of the snow and cold wind. Grateful for the white blankets of renewal but now i am ready for riding Rivers, Full Trees in bloom. ohh the smell of Lilacs and bright colors of tulips.

I know you can't rush a good thing. Growth takes time and patience as nature intended. The seeds i planted wont sprout overnight. And much like the lap band this new lifestyle pattern im creating is a work in progress and not something that is accomplished overnight..

With this second fill i have noticed some better restriction. I have had a couple of close calls with obstruction but nothing that lasted too long. It happens when i eat to quickly. Mostly i feel an uncomfortable sensation in my upper stomach (not fun) Normally it goes away and i can continue eating. Sometimes my mouth waters like when you have to throw up. Its kinda weird but i think your body produces the saliva to coax whatever it is... out. I guess this is what they call the Band working. This is the negative response to over eating or eating too fast... ahahah i feel like Pavlov's Dog.. Funny.. Alrighty then. So this is good. I still think I could be tighter. But this is a good amount of restriction for now. I will be ready for the third next time doc rolls into town. I am still very glad i did this procedure. I know it was the right decision for me to make:biggrin:

Thank you all so much. I just love this blog. We are all so very powerful and give our strength to each other in different ways. Thank you for being apart of this process. May we continue to inspire and encourage each other along the way!

I have been on a Curry kick lately. Soo good

Thai kitchen red Curry you can get this at City Market or where ever. You can use the paste and add some lite coconut mile or there is one in a bottle all ready to g. Add habeneros for spice, What ever meat or tofu, veggies that are easy to go down, peas, sweet potato, onion, celery all boiled soft but not too soft. Experiment. Also i made pork loins kabobs last night Way yummy using a rosemary marinade. Hope this gives you some ideas.. Good luck with everything

Jade

Good to see you back! keep on rockin with ya bad self. Yo i just gota say you are f'n awesome. Keep your vision close to you and it will be fully yours and even better than you imagined!

Just a couple things came to mind when reading this post.

First. You are making the right decision by taking charge of your life. Unfortunetly sometimes we have to go through some mundane procedures to get where we want to be.. ie. insurance. Glide over these obstacles with grace and forthrightness and you'll be out of surgery before you know it.

Second.

Weight is different for all of us. But i would say the common denominator is weight carries emotion, just as much as muscles do. There is a memory associated with them. For many of us amazing righteous women, extra weight is a form of protection. Protecting us from whatever we need protection from. Deep emotional psychological shit. But again this isn't the time to get caught up in that either. We've already been swimming in it for the past 10-20+ years.

Insert Badu..(Bag Lady, you gon hurt yourself you can't hurry up cause you got to much stuff.)

At this time We are simple done. We no longer care to have or want the burden, pain, suffering to carry around. At one point in time we did need the weight to hold on to. Now we don't and we get to let go. Not only release the burden from your physical body but the mental and emotional as well. its a package deal folks.

Third

I just have to say this.. Chemical and psychological warfare has been perpetrated against us for decades. It is truly unbelievable what is manufactured as additives or natural flavors in (yes you said it girl) Cheap Food. I know I'm radical when I day this but Corporations are slowy kiiling raping and controlling us Via food chain and they know it.

Switching to eating healthy can be expensive especially if you are still buying the boxed stuff. Check out the bulk bins.. great deals. Why is it that REAL FOOD is more expensive that the bs made in a lab? Where is the LIFE FORCE of our food? They have stripped nature away from us in damn near every way possible. They raw vital energy and love food gives us can not be replaced by corn sizzurp.

This process is just that a process about LOVING YOURSELF.

A new concept for most of us... wonder why? Cause we are so damn awesome. I mean really super queens...

Alrighty, time to get this thing movin. I haven't felt any restriction from my first fill so I am hoping with this next one I will start seeing some better results. So far i waver around the 10lb loss marker from my surgery just a little over a month ago. Today I have a long day drive to Abq and back so i am going to jump on my elliptical and go to a chiropratic appointment this morning. My neck has been killing me Needing to amp up the yoga too.

Something to Share

So I have been reading this book called Awakening and Healing the Rainbow Body. One morning i opened the book to the section titled INTENTION.

Intentions are conscious and subconscious. We are mostly aware of the conscious intentions ie getting the lapband or calling in a new lover to your life... However there are even Stronger intentions we put out there everyday through our subconscious. These types of intentions can bring us harsh lessons filled with much tribulation and pain. The reason for this IS our own personal feelings of unworthness and lack of self love!!! I almost cried... For me, these words hit home like a falling boulder. I see this truth played out for me over and over in my relationships, which have always left me shattered. I thought to myself, How/why do i hate my self this much. I really do love myself and believe that i am an amazing person.

Even this realization of subconscious intention is baby steps towards changing the ingrained thought patterns of self abuse. I mentioned earlier how much I LOVE yoga and how it makes me feel So good after i go to a class. Knowing how much i benifit from going to yoga class doesn't mean i go everyday or every week. I am really having to take a long hard look at my self and ask why and i not going. Is this just part of the ingrained pattern of self abuse and lack of self love?

So i am making a commitment to myself to consciously be aware of my subconscious and correct myself if i hear myself thinking negatively. Also being grateful to know that i am positively affected by going to yoga class and will make the effort to go more often for the sake of self love and repatterning my intentions.

Just to put it out there in the universe.

May i be given the strength to follow though this knowledge with action.

thank you so much for your kind words and warm wishes. does mean alot!

love it love it love it

Today was very surreal for me. At first I was excited about spring and getting seed starters going for the flower and vegetable garden this summer. And then reality stuck me with one phone call. My grandmother, is simply divine in every way. Her eyes penetrate with a deep ocean blue hue of love and wisdom smiling forth from her golden heart. After 93 years of earthy living, her body is no longer functioning well enough to make life her life livable and she is ready to go home. She and my mother are the smartest and most loving people I know. The world will not be the same without her. Sending out prayers for her journey and for the grace of my family during this emotional transition... All others are welcome thankyou....peace

You will do great.. Just keep posting.. there is a lot of support on here.. keep up the good work!!!

Awesome way to go Beth!!! so glad for you.. Im not losing much either but at least I'm not gaining. I got so excited when i saw the scale go down to 211. But then the crimson wave came and those numbers are history. I too am trying to be patient and kick up the exercise.. I know we can do it. Hopeful fill #2 will offer some restriction. PS love to hear about those recipies take care!!

jade**