dirttrackdiva

QUIT MY TOTALLY SHITTY JOB YESTERDAY FOR A CAREER CHOICE!!! :party: Life is good. Man I hated that place. I was to the point that when I left at 3:30, if that place went up on flames at 3:31, I totally wouldn't care. It's hard to work for people that don't care about you. However, I do have another job lined up. Thankfully, in this ecomony no one can afford to be without employment. I'll be working at the regional office for American Family Insurance. Their regional office happens to be in the town where I live so that's great. Wroking in the fraud department. Starting out filing, but the great part is that I'm actually going to school to study insurance fraud. So hopefully I will have a place to stay after I graduate. So, as the title implys, I'm off to bigger and better things my bandster family. I can't wait. Start the new job on the 9th. So I have a week of decompression before I have to go back to work. It was amazing to wake up today knowing I didn't have to go to a job I hated. So back to bed I went and slept till noon. Felt good thought I gotta say. Well, that's all I have for now. Talk to you all later and hope this finds you all doing well.

I also have issues. But, just to let you know, you're not alone.

I'm finally able to start working out now that the physical therapist and my back doctor have released me to be able to work out. This is a good thing. I took my "first steps" as a bander yesterday. Hubby asked me where I went and when I told him he said it was about a mile and half. And it actually felt good. Really really good. :smile2: Please excuse me whilst I toot my own horn and pat myself on the back. :crying: Moving on from that. I went to the doctor about my voice since it still seems to be on vacation and the doc told me that I have severe allergies. :cryin: What? I've actually never had allergies in my life. I was raised in Wyoming where it's actually too cold for allergies to flair up. This is even in the summer. Now I live in Missouri, and holy crap. I seriously thought I was actually coming down with some real affliction. Guess not. On the upside, weighed in at the doctors office at 212! Yay me! I go get another fill on September 21st and I'm hoping to be in Onederland by that time. Hence my first steps yesterday. Well bandsters, it's time for me to go now. Need to get started on some homework for the day. At least try to do something productive with my day. Hope this finds you all well.

I'm finally able to start working out now that the physical therapist and my back doctor have released me to be able to work out. This is a good thing. I took my "first steps" as a bander yesterday. Hubby asked me where I went and when I told him he said it was about a mile and half. And it actually felt good. Really really good. :blushing: Please excuse me whilst I toot my own horn and pat myself on the back. :biggrin: Moving on from that. I went to the doctor about my voice since it still seems to be on vacation and the doc told me that I have severe allergies. :thumbup: What? I've actually never had allergies in my life. I was raised in Wyoming where it's actually too cold for allergies to flair up. This is even in the summer. Now I live in Missouri, and holy crap. I seriously thought I was actually coming down with some real affliction. Guess not. On the upside, weighed in at the doctors office at 212! Yay me! I go get another fill on September 21st and I'm hoping to be in Onederland by that time. Hence my first steps yesterday. Well bandsters, it's time for me to go now. Need to get started on some homework for the day. At least try to do something productive with my day. Hope this finds you all well.

It's been quite some time since I've posted. The last time I went to the doctor to get a checkup and a fill I found out I'd gained a pound. :sneaky: WHAT?!? How could this have happened? Well, after I'd bemoaned all day hubby comes to me and says "When are you supposed to start your period?" I said in a couple of days and asked him why. :biggrin: Realization...........:hurray:halleuja! Never been so happy to start my period in my life. Everything else is pretty much the same. Right now I have no voice. Woke up this way Sunday morning. Now I sound like Minnie Mouse on crack. Nice. :thumbup: Not a good thing when you talk on the phone for a living. So now my net loss is down to 29 pounds. As many of you know, I'm a scale whore. I weigh every single day. In the last few days there have been days where I've gained 5 pounds, lost 6 and the next gained it all back. :sad: What the holy hell is going on?! I supposed that's all I have for right now. Hope this post finds you all keeping on keeping on. Talk with you all soon. Hugs to you all. My bandster family.

It's been quite some time since I've posted. The last time I went to the doctor to get a checkup and a fill I found out I'd gained a pound. :confused: WHAT?!? How could this have happened? Well, after I'd bemoaned all day hubby comes to me and says "When are you supposed to start your period?" I said in a couple of days and asked him why. :biggrin: Realization...........:hurray:halleuja! Never been so happy to start my period in my life. Everything else is pretty much the same. Right now I have no voice. Woke up this way Sunday morning. Now I sound like Minnie Mouse on crack. Nice. :laugh: Not a good thing when you talk on the phone for a living. So now my net loss is down to 29 pounds. As many of you know, I'm a scale whore. I weigh every single day. In the last few days there have been days where I've gained 5 pounds, lost 6 and the next gained it all back. :laugh: What the holy hell is going on?! I supposed that's all I have for right now. Hope this post finds you all keeping on keeping on. Talk with you all soon. Hugs to you all. My bandster family.

Hi, I'm dirttrackdiva and I'm a scale whore. (everyone in unison.....hi dirttrackdiva) I'm an unequivocal scale whore. I way at least once a day. However, I just took voice's suggestion and went and wrote my weight on the bathroom mirror with a dry erase pen. I also wrote my starting weight and my net pounds lost.

YOU GO ON IN YOUR RED HIGH HEELS! Do it Kelly Pickler Style Girlfriend! I agree with bashful, your spirit is amazing. Very uplifting.

Went out to dinner with hubby last night and we went to one of our favorite local places here in town. I ordered chips and salsa to start with and chicken fingers for dinner. Hubby ordered the onion rings to start. There we were munching on our chips/salsa and onion rings when they bring out our food. There were six LARGE chicken strips, fries and broccoli on my plate. I got three meals out of all that food. Before being banded I would have eaten all of that chips and salsa, half of hubby's onion rings and then my dinner. And still have eaten later on that night. Wow, no wonder I just kept gaining weight. I had given up and I knew it. It's also interesting to see what other people around you are eating. The other day at work I noticed someone eating a box of ritz crackers with easy cheese for lunch. What the hell? Is that even real food? People wonder why we're such an unhealthy society and why people are so interested in a quick fix and instant gratification. When one resorts to fast food and crackers and easy cheese for lunch there is something going on here. I've noticed one of the neater things of losing this weight.....I can buy matching bras and panties now, in sets that actually match! This is something entirely new to me. Since I was very large before I had my breast reduction there was no way I was able to do that before. Unless I had it specially made. However now I can go to Target and get a matching set right off the rack and it fits! One of the much cooler things from being banded. What do you all think? Give me some opinions on this instant gratification thing and how we all used to be. The kind of changes you've made and how you've come to your realizations after being banded.

Went out to dinner with hubby last night and we went to one of our favorite local places here in town. I ordered chips and salsa to start with and chicken fingers for dinner. Hubby ordered the onion rings to start. There we were munching on our chips/salsa and onion rings when they bring out our food. There were six LARGE chicken strips, fries and broccoli on my plate. I got three meals out of all that food. Before being banded I would have eaten all of that chips and salsa, half of hubby's onion rings and then my dinner. And still have eaten later on that night. Wow, no wonder I just kept gaining weight. I had given up and I knew it. It's also interesting to see what other people around you are eating. The other day at work I noticed someone eating a box of ritz crackers with easy cheese for lunch. What the hell? Is that even real food? People wonder why we're such an unhealthy society and why people are so interested in a quick fix and instant gratification. When one resorts to fast food and crackers and easy cheese for lunch there is something going on here. I've noticed one of the neater things of losing this weight.....I can buy matching bras and panties now, in sets that actually match! This is something entirely new to me. Since I was very large before I had my breast reduction there was no way I was able to do that before. Unless I had it specially made. However now I can go to Target and get a matching set right off the rack and it fits! One of the much cooler things from being banded. What do you all think? Give me some opinions on this instant gratification thing and how we all used to be. The kind of changes you've made and how you've come to your realizations after being banded.

It gets easier. I know I still have days that are good food days and bad food days. It comes with time and starting to fell better. Good luck to you.

Best of luck to you. You will run into people that don't support you. In the very beginning my own husband didn't, he gave me the "taking the easy way out" attitude. I did it anyway. I was banded on June 16th and I've lost 30 pounds. The best thing to remember is to stop eating when you're satisfied. Not when you're full or after the food is all gone. Stop when you're satisfied. I have about 100 pounds to lose as well and I'm well on my way. As far as the people with the negative attitudes, piss on them is what I say. The only person in your life you have to answer to is yourself. As long as you're doing this for the right reasons everyone else will eventually follow suit. My husband supports this now. Now that he's seen how much better I look and feel about myself he's come around a lot. He likes having a hotter wife. :thumbup: You're husband will too. Good luck to you and keep us posted.

Best of luck to you tomorrow. Make sure you get plenty of sleep tonight. I know that sounds ridiculous but you need to be well rested. I was banded on June 16th and I've lot 30 pounds already. The band is a great tool and this website is as well. Keep us all posted on how you're feeling. Tomorrow is your new Birthday. Happy Band Birthday to you!

Got my second fill yesterday (1.5 CC's, 4CC's for the first fill two weeks ago, in an 11CC band). So far I'm down 30 pounds from when I started my liquid diet June 1st. Doc says I'm doing great. Sticking with the 1-2 pounds a week average. I didn't think I had lost any weight. My scale kept saying the same thing every morning for a while. Still havn't started working out yet. Was going to start that today, but it's been POURING RAIN and it's hard to go out for a run when it's raining. Don't want to catch pneumonia. Already had that once this year. Let's not make it twice shall we? lol My mom has reached onederland. Dance party for momma. :sneaky: I was so happy for her. I have not yet reached onederland, but I've got 16 more pounds to go. Wish me luck. Talk to you all soon.

Got my second fill yesterday (1.5 CC's, 4CC's for the first fill two weeks ago, in an 11CC band). So far I'm down 30 pounds from when I started my liquid diet June 1st. Doc says I'm doing great. Sticking with the 1-2 pounds a week average. I didn't think I had lost any weight. My scale kept saying the same thing every morning for a while. Still havn't started working out yet. Was going to start that today, but it's been POURING RAIN and it's hard to go out for a run when it's raining. Don't want to catch pneumonia. Already had that once this year. Let's not make it twice shall we? lol My mom has reached onederland. Dance party for momma. :cursing: I was so happy for her. I have not yet reached onederland, but I've got 16 more pounds to go. Wish me luck. Talk to you all soon.

Here are a few things I've noticed that I can do. 1. I can cross my legs 2. I'm more confident about myself 3. I also believe my hubby when he tells me I look good 4. Buying new clothes to fit my new body 5. The sex is great!! :laugh: 6. My wedding ring that used to be waaaay too small is now almost too big Those are just a few. Good luck to all playing the "weighting game".

Good evening bandster family. Hope you're all doing well and progressing on your journey. Today I wore a pair of jeans that were TIGHT :eek2::eek2::eek2:(I was looking for a smilie that couldn't breathe due to wearing clothes so tight, but couldn't find one) when I bought them. The only reason I bought them when I did actually was because my boss was having a holy fit :incazzato:cuz I was wearing yoga type pants all the time. Well I'm fat, what does she expect? lol Today I put these beautiful jeans on fresh from the dryer (still warm fresh from the dryer) and they almost fell off. :tt1: After ya'll leave the party at BG's house, come on over to mine cuz I'm wearing my heavy jeans today. :thumbup: Meaning they are so big and falling off me so much they feel heavy. Literally feel heavy. They aren't even tight when I sit down. This is an absolute miracle! Last time I weighed I was down 28 pounds from when I first started my liquid diet on the 1st of June. This is so cool. Well all, as I said, party at my house. Wear your heavy jeans. Hubby's making homemade salisbury steak. All of us together I'm sure could eat what I would have before. Night all. Talk to you soon.

Good evening bandster family. Hope you're all doing well and progressing on your journey. Today I wore a pair of jeans that were TIGHT :eek2::yikes::eek2::yikes::eek2:(I was looking for a smilie that couldn't breathe due to wearing clothes so tight, but couldn't find one) when I bought them. The only reason I bought them when I did actually was because my boss was having a holy fit :incazzato:cuz I was wearing yoga type pants all the time. Well I'm fat, what does she expect? lol Today I put these beautiful jeans on fresh from the dryer (still warm fresh from the dryer) and they almost fell off. :party: After ya'll leave the party at BG's house, come on over to mine cuz I'm wearing my heavy jeans today. :smilielol5: Meaning they are so big and falling off me so much they feel heavy. Literally feel heavy. They aren't even tight when I sit down. :hurray: This is an absolute miracle! Last time I weighed I was down 28 pounds from when I first started my liquid diet on the 1st of June. This is so cool. Well all, as I said, party at my house. Wear your heavy jeans. Hubby's making homemade salisbury steak. All of us together I'm sure could eat what I would have before. Night all. Talk to you soon.

I'm frustrated today. I can't seem to shake the feeling that I'm eating too much. Which severly depresses me. I guess this is bandster hell. I've had my first fill. That was Monday and my doc asked me to come back in two weeks for another one. In hopes to get me to my sweet spot faster. I'm still eating around my plate the right way. And usually I have solid protein for lunch. Tuna or a turkey burger something like that. The worst I do is a lunchable, but they're still good protein. I'm just frustrated like no end. I think I need a hug. :smile: I just feel like crying. :thumbup: Dark chocolate is my weakness, one of my triggers big time. Today while I was at the gas station getting my coffee I found the ultimate. A dark chocolate snickers bar. What evil person thought of that. However, I only ate half of it and threw the other half in the garbage. I wanted the other half, but couldn't eat it. I guess that counts for something. Then for dinner I had a little bit of cheese tortelini my hubby made the other day and some fried rice. Not a lot of protein, I guess that's why I don't feel full. I'm satisfied, just not full. I've discovered when I eat solid protein I get fuller faster. When I eat pud stuff like rice or pasta I don't get full at all. I get satisfied, but not full. And I know I didn't eat too much, hubby is really good at telling me when he thinks I'm eating too much. Which is good, that's what I want him to do. I just don't know. As most of you know my folks refinanced their house for me to have this surgery (I didn't ask them to, once I found out that my insurance woudln't cover it, I gave up. They did it against my knowledge and didn't tell me till all the appointments were made.) But it raised their house payment so much they don't know if they're going to be able to make the payment. Not helping me from feeling very depressed and kind of out of sorts. My dad is an over the road truck driver and is working himself into an early grave trying to make this house payment. :thumbup: I'm so sad for them. Maybe that's why I'm feeling this way. On the upside, I've lost 28 pounds so far though and I had my surgery the 16th of June. That's not since surgery though that's since I started my liquid diet June 1st. I know I can do this and that it's going to work for me. It's my last chance to have a baby, it has to work for me or that ship sunk. I bought a new outfit the other day and wore it to work yesterday, everyone LOVED it! It's my "I just lost 30 pounds outfit". That's pretty much been the highlight of the last few days. Well I guess all I can do is go to bed and tomorrow is another day. Hope this finds you all feeling and doing well. I love you all, you're like family to me. My bandster family. Enjoy your day all. Talk to you soon.

I'm frustrated today. I can't seem to shake the feeling that I'm eating too much. Which severly depresses me. I guess this is bandster hell. I've had my first fill. That was Monday and my doc asked me to come back in two weeks for another one. In hopes to get me to my sweet spot faster. I'm still eating around my plate the right way. And usually I have solid protein for lunch. Tuna or a turkey burger something like that. The worst I do is a lunchable, but they're still good protein. I'm just frustrated like no end. I think I need a hug. :cursing: I just feel like crying. :cursing: Dark chocolate is my weakness, one of my triggers big time. Today while I was at the gas station getting my coffee I found the ultimate. A dark chocolate snickers bar. What evil person thought of that. However, I only ate half of it and threw the other half in the garbage. I wanted the other half, but couldn't eat it. I guess that counts for something. Then for dinner I had a little bit of cheese tortelini my hubby made the other day and some fried rice. Not a lot of protein, I guess that's why I don't feel full. I'm satisfied, just not full. I've discovered when I eat solid protein I get fuller faster. When I eat pud stuff like rice or pasta I don't get full at all. I get satisfied, but not full. And I know I didn't eat too much, hubby is really good at telling me when he thinks I'm eating too much. Which is good, that's what I want him to do. I just don't know. As most of you know my folks refinanced their house for me to have this surgery (I didn't ask them to, once I found out that my insurance woudln't cover it, I gave up. They did it against my knowledge and didn't tell me till all the appointments were made.) But it raised their house payment so much they don't know if they're going to be able to make the payment. Not helping me from feeling very depressed and kind of out of sorts. My dad is an over the road truck driver and is working himself into an early grave trying to make this house payment. :cursing: I'm so sad for them. Maybe that's why I'm feeling this way. On the upside, I've lost 28 pounds so far though and I had my surgery the 16th of June. That's not since surgery though that's since I started my liquid diet June 1st. I know I can do this and that it's going to work for me. It's my last chance to have a baby, it has to work for me or that ship sunk. I bought a new outfit the other day and wore it to work yesterday, everyone LOVED it! It's my "I just lost 30 pounds outfit". :cursing: That's pretty much been the highlight of the last few days. Well I guess all I can do is go to bed and tomorrow is another day. Hope this finds you all feeling and doing well. I love you all, you're like family to me. My bandster family. Enjoy your day all. Talk to you soon.

Got my first fill today. Wasn't near as ugly as I thought it would be. There was also someone there to hold my hand though. That always seems to help. AND I'VE LOST 28 POUNDS! Party, party, party. In a little over a month, 28 pounds down. I can't believe it. And that's without working out. Because I tried a couple of times and it hurt, so the doctor told me not to do it if it hurt. Then I just never went back to doing it. I know, bad Erika. :smile: Things at worki are getting much better. I've received a little more power to do what I wasn't allowed to do before. At least now if I get in trouble for not doing something, it is actually for something I was supposed to do to begin with. That usually makes a difference. Well, that's all I have. Talk to you all later. Good luck to you all.

Got my first fill today. Wasn't near as ugly as I thought it would be. There was also someone there to hold my hand though. That always seems to help. AND I'VE LOST 28 POUNDS! Party, party, party. In a little over a month, 28 pounds down. I can't believe it. And that's without working out. Because I tried a couple of times and it hurt, so the doctor told me not to do it if it hurt. Then I just never went back to doing it. I know, bad Erika. :thumbup: Things at worki are getting much better. I've received a little more power to do what I wasn't allowed to do before. At least now if I get in trouble for not doing something, it is actually for something I was supposed to do to begin with. That usually makes a difference. Well, that's all I have. Talk to you all later. Good luck to you all.

YAY YOU! I'm with Arb, my piggies are still MIA, hopefully I will find them soon. However, if you see them, let them know I'm looking for them. CONGRATS TO YOU SISTA!

OK, so I'm sure you all are wondering what this is about. Well, mine and my husbands wedding anniversary was the first of this month and my father in law wanted to take us to dinner. So the boys picked IHOP, which is fine. I can eat eggs and actually called the doc and they said I could eat pancakes since I'm three weeks out as long I didn't put syrup on them or used sugar free. Well, I haven't eaten pancakes since I've been banded so I didn't think that would be a good idea. Don't want to eat something I haven't yet and find out, in public no less, that it was a bad idea. Quite embarrassing I can imagine, my aversion to vomit aside. So I order an omelet cuz I know I can eat those. Had one at home the other day, thought it would be a safe bet. They bring me this omelet the size of a PLATTER! This monstrous omelet also came with three pancakes, and hashbrowns. This thing was huge! And so I did what we're supposed to do, when I ordered I asked the waitress to bring me a to go box with my meal. Upon getting the box I immediately dumped half the omelet, half the hashbrowns and all of the pancakes in the box. I ate about 1/4 of the gigantic omelet I received, maybe not even that. I have a food a scale here at home to make sure I'm eating the right size portions (after my meltdown a few blogs ago, I went straight out and bought one, no more eating more than 1/2 cup for me by golly). I told my hubby on the way home I was going to weigh this thing on the food scale to see what it weighed. Moral of the story.......I get my to go box home with 3/4 of a gigantic omelet, a very healthy helping of hashbrowns and three pancakes and set that baby on the food scale. TWO POUNDS OF FOOD! Even after what I ate being absent of course. Scary thing is, before surgery I could have eaten all that and not batted an eye. No wonder I'm so fat. Wow, what a day, what a moment. As a side note, my dog didn't poop on the floor by the door (she does that when she's mad at us....lol) so she got one of the pancakes. And now the beagle thinks thinks I'm a God. Have a great day my bandster family.