Boo Boo Kitty

It is on Tuesday I believe! Can't wait to see who goes home! lol...

I feel it in my esophagus,like a choking almost in my throat. I know then I am full. I have never felt full in my tummy!

Ok, you have obvisouly NEVER been pregant or have small children. It can be hard as hell to get small kids into a store safely. There is the stoller, the bag and everything else you have to have. AND forget someone giving you a courtesy to give you a good spot. SO sorry this bothers you but you have obvisouly never been in those shoes. I had 2 under 2 and used this spot often ONLY when needed.

I am not able to physically eat anymore when I am not hungry. For me that is a sign of good restriction. That is what I enjoy most about my band! I have learned to eat only when hungry. I do lots of things now that in the past I would eat. I exercise quite a bit, but that is a good obsession. I also write, read and play with my kids more. Trust me, it is hardly ever an issue and if it is I go get a fill and I am all better! :eek: One thing with the Bypass, if the stretch their pouch, they are just stuck and done. If we do, we get to start all over again! SO it is almost fool proof!

Wait till she looses more, then she will get it! Sad to think we have alot in common with an anorexic. But I think you are absolutely right. Everytime I look in the mirror I see "Fat Mommy" as my girls call the former me. I can't wait until she stops staring back at me!

Girl there is hope, I was a 44 HHH, yes a triple HHH. I did know they made bras that big, lol you probly pay as much as I do for them. Well there is hope I am now a 38 DDD, and I don't have to pay $80 a bra now!! Good luck to you!

So Cal--you are alot like me, you prboly still see a fat chick in the mirror. Get over it, we are no longer fat sister! Take the compliements with pride you deserve them! Good luck to you!

Truth be told--CBS would NEVER want Dick out, he makes for great ratings and he makes people watch to see what he will do next. They couldn't let him go!

Hey Girls Well went to the Dr yesterday for a fill. I was absolutely right and I had lost .25 ccs from my last fill. So I still have 3.75 ccs and am feeling happier..lol... I am miserable though. It is always rough on me when I first get a fill but it rained all day yesterday which mold is high today. SOOOO I have thrown up about 32 ozs of snot....it is horrible. Nothing works for me when I get like this...blah.... Claud-- I will be in San Diego November 14-18. The 14th I am flying in and work won't be started yet. Where do you live are you close to there?? VA-my girls are almost 7 and 8. He has made an appoitnment for Wednesday I doubt if he will go! Gotta run and throw up...hugs to all.....

I am searching for Dr's now for my tummy tuck and breast augmentation. For those of you that had it how long before you were able to back to work? I am thinking of having it done inbetween semesters at school. If I had it hte 2nd week in December would I be up and ready to go back to school (including a long drive) by the 2nd week in January? Also what kind of questions should I be asking a plastic surgeon??

Brandi--I had it done by an Herbalife representative, so I am sure if you can find one you can get it done. Of course they watned me to get onto their prggram, I am not but I ordered some protien shakes and these really good protien drinks like kool aid from them. I have a friend that sells it so I can find you someone if you want me to! It is weird you have these little pads hooked to your hand and feet and it measures all that stuff. It was developed by a UCLA Dr! Pretty neat! And I have been thinking maybe the 12 pounds of fat to loose is right. I mean how much do you think this HUGE pile of skin on my tummy weighs? I am thinking 15 pounds or more, it is huge. That gone would take me to 15 pounds to goal, so I think it is right~~woo hoo....lol.. Steph--drama queens, ok got it. I thought you were watching tv or something...rotfl... Claud--I am sorry sweetie you are having a rough go of it. But like you said Chicago may not be for you right now! I am going to San Diego in November, go there!

YOU mean LOVE to HATE him! lol...did you see him with Janelle??? I am betting his tounge got sunburned...lol...

Awww, there's a good sign! lol...????

Steph--who is Chef Dan and Pro Lynn?? I am clueless there girl! lol...I think fills may take a bit sometimes to know if they are gonna work or not! Brandi--he DID just up and leave with my kids, really. I didn't want the girls to see anything that they didn't need to so I decided to wait. I am glad it worked out, and I am confident he will NEVER do it again. All they did was fight! Serves him right! lol... You are a hard working girl for sure! 5 minutes in a tobacco field and I would be done....I am prissy most of the time! lol.... I am going for that fill tommorow, even though everyone is yelling at me! I had a computer analyzation today that made me feel awsome. BMI is 26%, and I am only 53 lbs of fat. According to that computer I need to only loose 12 lbs of fat...lol...I disagree highly but whatever! I am going to make an appointment with a plastic surgeon and start shopping around. I can take NO MORE!!!!!!!!!

Claud--sorry about the delay in the flight mucking everything up. Also sorry about the job hunt. How do they expect you to move there with no promise of a job?? A little silly if you ask me. Sweet-- I remember those inspections, they have those in Texas and North Carolina...Always hated them! Bv--I am glad they are letting you see the kids, you all deserve more, but at least it is something. Faith--thanks for the support, I love your common sense! I am going to Hurley Friday, to see if I have lost from my last fill. I back to being able to eat bread, so that sucks for me. Things are quiet here, I am taking it day by day. I realize I love him enough to try to stay, if he loves me enough to get help. I just want to be happy, on my own terms! Puppy driving me bat shit crazy though... Cake, bad, vodka good....yeah!

Ok girls.... Here is all the drama... He left on Friday night. He took the girls and told me it was over. I took it MUCH harder then I ever thought. Dove right into a bottle of booze...ugh... He kept calling, more fighting, more drama. Then about 3 am my oldest calls me crying, she was so incoherent I couldn't even understand her. She hung up and I was able to call her back. She said that she was sorry that she made us mad and she would do whatever it took so mommy and daddy could be together. Talk about a dagger to the heart. Well she must have gotten to him because by that morning he called and told me where they were and asked me to come be with my kids. He told me he was sorry and he was wrong to treat me that way, and gave me a puppy...(uh, yeah I need that eh?) We haven't talked yet, 4 days later about what he did or what happened. I have just been trying to get by. I am going to tell him he has to get help or we are done. I can not handle this anymore, it is killing me. And to top of the calories from the booze I have been eating like a pig. I freaking hate myself.....probly 2200 calories a day....I am thinking of a 4 letter word....ladies please kick my ass. I need it.... I am starving and I have no clue why. I can't need a fill at 3.75 can I???

Thanks, I try! I am in the gym everyday at 4 am, it pays off!

Hi girls--- Well I am home alone after he left and took the girls. In my heart I know I need to let him go, so why do I go back??

Please share your secret...I need it. I always go back...why????

WOW Zannie I never knew the real thing behind that stat, but I agree. I ahve come to the realization that I do deserve better, something I never thought of fat.

Jesse I am sorry hun you are having problems, I am sure she is insecure like alot of our men are now. Our weightloss I think comes with alot of emotional baggage for others as well. She may be thinking that you are going to leave her now, have you tried to reassure her that is not going to happen?

My dad is doing that to my mom. I don't think that they see we look at the skin and see reminents of fat. That is what bothers me. I am no longer fat, but I feel it because of this damn apron on my stoamch. Ugh..... Have you tried to tell him how the skin amkes you feel or have you had a rash you could show him? You could always give yourself one!

Bk--I am still praying for you, I am glad to hear things are getting a bit better. I know it will never be the way it was, all time do can heal! Transformer--8 punds is good. You can make it to your goal of 50% in a year, we all believe in you. You know what to do girl! Brandi--I agree "Danger, danger" HOWEVER, my suggestion would e to offer to pay, so that it does feel more like on a professional level. But maybe that is not ideal either, but it is an option! Sweet--I would love to go to Germany! I also have a place waiting for me in Australia! I will pack my bags and get away from here. I know what you mean about if we were religious. I have been praying but when you are married to someone that tells your children there is no God does he even listen to you? Maybe I am pryaing for the wrong thing. I am off to spend a weekend at the campgrounds so Iwill miss you all! I will try to pop on if I can the laptop online there. Have a great weekend to all of you! Hugs

Thanks Green, I agree. I need to fight for me.

Gail 30 pounds in 17 months is still a loss. We can help you get back on track! You have to make a recommittment to yourself to make it happen. Start with tracking your eating and drinking daily. Fitday.com is a free site where you can do that and track EVERYTHING, do not leave anything off because you are only cheating yourself! Do you attend a support group at all? While LBT is great you need a local support system as well. They can help keep you on track and have someone to work out with as well. As far as the ticker I uploaded mine to photobucket and copied it over that way, it is the only way I can get it to work!