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Yes, I cried. I am not really sure why, but I did. Well, I knew partly that it was because as I started my pre-op diet today and my old habits would die hard. I knew that today I would start a new journey that would bring me to new points in my life that I have never been before. I was a huge ball of emotions. I was happy that I would reach my goal but sad that I would have to leave my comfort zone in order to do so. Food to me is like a security blanket to a toddler. I will have to find comfort in something else. Maybe that's one reason I cried. What? What would I find comfort in?? Would it be enough to find comfort in each goal that I reach?? I don't know. I am simply going out on a limb knowing that I will grab hold of another "security blanket." a habit that is healthy. Perhaps, it was knowing that I simply couldn't binge as I sometimes did in rough times. I feel like a baby, literally. I know that I will have to learn new habits and find comfort in something else. I have been over weight my whole life so it's almost as if I am going to be reborn again. I read alot of post where people said that, now I really get it. Who will I become?? Will I be the same me?? I like who I am just not what I look like. Wow, this is a lot to take in. Well fellow bandster and bansters-to-be....I do know one thing; I am going to take this leap with my head held high! I will try not to worry so much about the "what if's" and such. I am greatful that my insurance has approved me! :w00t: Maybe I just needed to blog. I do feel better now. I also know that I am not alone in this world. Someone out there in bandland has felt what I am feeling or something similar. I will leave my insecurities at this blog. From this day forward I will wake each morning happy and thankful that I have a new happier, healthier life ahead of me. :crying: Shwooo.....that felt good. Goodbye old worries. Hello new life!!!

Yes, I cried. I am not really sure why, but I did. Well, I knew partly that it was because as I started my pre-op diet today and my old habits would die hard. I knew that today I would start a new journey that would bring me to new points in my life that I have never been before. I was a huge ball of emotions. I was happy that I would reach my goal but sad that I would have to leave my comfort zone in order to do so. Food to me is like a security blanket to a toddler. I will have to find comfort in something else. Maybe that's one reason I cried. What? What would I find comfort in?? Would it be enough to find comfort in each goal that I reach?? I don't know. I am simply going out on a limb knowing that I will grab hold of another "security blanket." a habit that is healthy. Perhaps, it was knowing that I simply couldn't binge as I sometimes did in rough times. I feel like a baby, literally. I know that I will have to learn new habits and find comfort in something else. I have been over weight my whole life so it's almost as if I am going to be reborn again. I read alot of post where people said that, now I really get it. Who will I become?? Will I be the same me?? I like who I am just not what I look like. Wow, this is a lot to take in. Well fellow bandster and bansters-to-be....I do know one thing; I am going to take this leap with my head held high! I will try not to worry so much about the "what if's" and such. I am greatful that my insurance has approved me! :tongue2: Maybe I just needed to blog. I do feel better now. :thumbup: I also know that I am not alone in this world. Someone out there in bandland has felt what I am feeling or something similar. I will leave my insecurities at this blog. From this day forward I will wake each morning happy and thankful that I have a new happier, healthier life ahead of me. :frown: Shwooo.....that felt good. Goodbye old worries. Hello new life!!! :smile:

Hmmmm....this could be way off but I work at a hospital and I know how some doc's are. They are in it just for the money. Don't get me wrong not all of them are like this, just some. I will have to research this, so don't hold me to it but I think that it costs more to have bypass than it does lap band. ?? Maybe he's pushing it for the money. I don't know ??? Make sure that you make it very clear that you DO NOT want the bypass or you might wake up with the wrong surgery. It happens. I don't want to scare you, just want to make you aware that it wouldn't be the first time if it did happen. For your sake, I hope not. Make sure that he's hearing that you want the Lapband. Make it simple to him if you have to. Plainly state "You do understand that I want the lapband and I am not the least bit interested in bypass??" Make sure that he responds clearly. I even seen on one post that someone suggested that the person write on their tummy "LAPBAND" in marker. That person was having the same problem that you are. If you are still uncomfortable that he's not listening, you might want to go with another surgeon. Afterall, if he's not going to listen and hear what you want as the patient, your after care may not be what it should be. Get the drift? Good luck. Keep us posted.:cursing:

Ah, at last, I don't feel alone. LOL! :cool2: Yeah, I feel totally confused but I am trying to take things one day at a time. I started my pre-op diet today but that's not what confuses me. It's the post op-diet that makes me nervous. I did some research and it seems that just as many doc's have different pre-op diets, they too have different post-op diets. I don't live in the town where my surgeon is located but when I go for my pre-op appointment the day before my surgery, I'm going to ask a million questions and take lots of notes. Besides, if I miss a little detail or something, I know I can always call them or ask someone on LBT. :cursing: Good luck!

Karen, first of all girly, give your self a pat on the back and some credit. Your accoplishments are one step closer to your goal. I weigh 215 and my bmi is 42. Yes, I'm a short one. I carry a lot of my weight in my legs and butt. Therefore, I hate shopping for any kind of pants ecspecially jeans. My thighs are so big I have a super hard time finding pants. Most of the time when I buy pants they are tight and I just have to stretch them. =0( SO.....my point here is instead of looking on the bad side count your blessings. I know that when you're the person on the outside looking in, it's easier said than done. Chin up girl! Keep working out. If you lose 18lbs more, you will be under 200. I know I would be stoked! You should be too! Keep up the good work and applaud your sucess big or small. If you don't recognize the good you've done you may back track. Be positive and keep moving on up! LOL!

CONGRATS on taking a step closer to a healthier life. :dita: I have not been banded yet but I will be soon enough. It took me a long while to decide too but I don't doubt my decision. This is just a tool to help with the weight loss process. I know that it will not be easy but it will all be worth it in the end when I reach my goal! I wish you luck on your journey and I am glad you found us too! This site is WONDERFUL! :biggrin: Again, good luck and keep us posted.

:thumbup: CONGRATS! Reading each and every story of sucess makes me more anxious to get my band! I can't wait! Keep up the good work. Before you know it those jeans will be falling off. :thumbup:

No big deal :thumbup: Thanks!

I'm not on the list?? :biggrin:

Sounds like we have a deal. :thumbup: Well, good luck with your pre-op diet. I think that it's great that your doing it even though you don't have to. 18 Days and counting!!! I can't wait! Keep in touch. :frown:

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Yeah, the PFT does take about an hour. When I did mine, she said that my lungs were really inflated. My asthma is uncontrolled! I hate it. In fact, my chest is hurting as we speak. I kinda panicked because I thought it would hinder my approval because I couldn't breathe. The lady doing the test reassured me that the test is just to insure that if I do have an attack while under anasthesia, they would know that the breathing treatment would control it.:thumbup: I do remember when I was in high school though, my asthma wasn't as bad when I was active. I hope that this is the case as I start to lose weight and become more active. Good luck to you on your approval journey.

I actually heard from my insurance first, that I was approved. I called them though. I guess I was so anxious I beat them to it! LOL! Good luck with your approval! :thumbup:

Yikes! I am sorry to hear about your fill from hell. I am not banded yet but will be soon. I keep reading all of these nightmare stories on getting fills and it is freaking me out!! I haven't changed my mind though. I guess I am not freaked out too badly huh? LOL! I hope that your next fill goes smoothly. You've earned it.

Keep it up! I hate the feeling of hunger. There is nothing worse! Yes, it is a hassle to prepare your food ahead of time but a hassle well worth it. Now let's see if I stick to my preaching when I start my pre-op diet! LOL! I'm kidding!

Awesome! I used to run A LOT in High school. Since I have put on so much weight I stopped. I have issues with my knees. I hope they will subside with my surgery. I loved the "high" I got from running. It was a great stress reliever. Keep it up girl!

Yayyyy! :wink2: Doesn't it feel surreal? I know when I called my insurance and they told me that my surgery was approved, I thought to myself maybe the guy misread the notes or something. I got my letter yesterday from the insurance and they did approve it. It made me feel better to see the letter though. You will be banded a couple of days after me. I wish us luck!!! :tongue2: Welcome to the Smashing Pumpkins!

Congrats! My date is also 10/15! We should stay in contact and lean on on another for support. Sound good? I'll send you a friend request. Keep in touch. Do you have to do a pre-op diet? I do. :tongue2: I start mine on the 1st. The Dr.'s nurse told me that I needed to have 3 Protein shakes a day and two healthy meals.(low fat, low carb) Anyway, I can't wait. The 15th will not be here soon enough! :wink2:

Are you having the single incision LB done? Just curious.... I think that's great! :tongue2:

I AM!!! I never thought that I would be saying that I am getting the LB. I never dreamed that my insurance would approve me but they did. I am so anxious to have my surgery. I'm a bit nervous though. :tongue2: Well I just wanted to join the group. I know that I will have several questions later on down the road. I am glad that we all have each other to lean on for support! :wink2:

Congrats on your decision to be banded! I can't wait to get my surgery!! I too browsed LBT before joining. When I joined I didn't post for a really long time. I was aprhensive about getting the band because I didn't have anyone to relate to. That's why I love this site so much! It's real, honest people that live life with similar issuses such as myself. I love it! :wink_smile: I think once I have my surgery, this site will be my security blanket. :smile: Well congrats again. Keep me informed of your progress.

I finally figured it out. Thanks! :cry_smile:

Thanks for the congrats on my approval. I wish those of you waiting the best of luck! :cry_smile: