MzB

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I just finished my work outs for this week so I am checking in a day early. 5.5 hours. [emoji846]

I really like to pretend that everything is fine, even when it is not. Yesterday, I discovered that my 17 year old son was engaging in self-abusive and self-destructive behaviors. When I confronted him with these facts he began hysterically screaming and behaving in a very unstable way that I will not elaborate on. Tomorrow morning, I am taking him to a center for an evaluation--and I am afraid. These last few days, I have been out in the neighborhood walking several miles--because I cannot stomach being at home and watching the person I love the most--my son, self-destruct. I was just sleeved 2 months ago, and so I am feeling a lot because I cannot medicate with food--and to be honest I don't want to. I am not a feeling person. I went to law school and I work in a very difficult complex area of law--where I don't have to feel too much, and I could always go to Starbucks get my goodies several times a day and just do what I needed to do. That shit doesn't work anymore, and I feel so afraid of dealing with my son's mental illness and I feel so angry that this is happening to him, I feel like kicking a tree or stabbing a pillow and mostly, I just feel afraid because I realize how little control I have as a mom, as a human being. So, today I am going to continue eating properly, and going for walks and I am going to try and carry on--but I really believe that being sleeved has both saved my life and also made me feel a lot more deeply--and sometimes that is a tough pill to swallow.
Leilie

So I am a trying some different approaches ,overall not ready to discuss as this just started...but I have a small example.
Last night I was on a second date with someone I like, but of course hardly know him yet. I sensed a certain cooling toward me by the end of the date. There were a couple of things that came up in conversation that I imagined could be the reason, but who knows. My old way would be to remain silent, and just see what happens..leave things in his court...if he didn't contact me, just let it be.
I decided today to do something different. I sent him a note telling him how I enjoyed myself (vulnerabilities in the face of sensing a cooling) and then asked him if he would teach me to gamble since I have no idea and want to check out Vegas. He responded enthusiastically with inviting me over, he'd cook dinner and to see if I have friends that want to learn too.
I have a guess at the"cooling"thing and we still havent kissed or anything, and this may not go anywhere, but I was pleased at myself for breaking an old pattern.
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Oh and I love these new yogurt dressings by Bolthouse! I just found them and they are great. I have been using them baked with cheese on top of chicken for a great low-carb dinner option (3g). I am really fond of the Salsa Verde Avocado. YUM!
http://www.bolthouse.com

I wasn't sure if we need to log it in this week or not....
I got 4.6 hours last week. Oh, and week before was 4.3 hours.
BTW, Congrats @@Rebeccaabrooks86 on hitting ONEderland. !!!!

@@MzB I'm going to have to try this!

Making it through GS cookie "season" has been my big NSV for this week!
I threatened my hubby with bodily harm if he brought them in the house. He was stashing them at his BFF's (if guys have that sort of thing....) but then his friend said that he was eating way to much of them and gave some of them away. I think my hubby did sneak a few boxes of Thin Mints in the house but he hid them well and didn't tell me. I love him for the willingness to help me stay on track.
Just glad it is almost over....

Oh and I love these new yogurt dressings by Bolthouse! I just found them and they are great. I have been using them baked with cheese on top of chicken for a great low-carb dinner option (3g). I am really fond of the Salsa Verde Avocado. YUM!
http://www.bolthouse.com

Making it through GS cookie "season" has been my big NSV for this week!
I threatened my hubby with bodily harm if he brought them in the house. He was stashing them at his BFF's (if guys have that sort of thing....) but then his friend said that he was eating way to much of them and gave some of them away. I think my hubby did sneak a few boxes of Thin Mints in the house but he hid them well and didn't tell me. I love him for the willingness to help me stay on track.
Just glad it is almost over....

Oh and I love these new yogurt dressings by Bolthouse! I just found them and they are great. I have been using them baked with cheese on top of chicken for a great low-carb dinner option (3g). I am really fond of the Salsa Verde Avocado. YUM!
http://www.bolthouse.com

I have been craving some crunch lately, but working hard to stay low carb. (really, really, hard!) Yesterday I found San Franola. While not totally low carb, and you have to watch the calories, it is an option if you really want granola. It taste pretty good too. I went with cinnamon almond. http://www.sanfranolagranola.com/.

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Making it through GS cookie "season" has been my big NSV for this week!
I threatened my hubby with bodily harm if he brought them in the house. He was stashing them at his BFF's (if guys have that sort of thing....) but then his friend said that he was eating way to much of them and gave some of them away. I think my hubby did sneak a few boxes of Thin Mints in the house but he hid them well and didn't tell me. I love him for the willingness to help me stay on track.
Just glad it is almost over....

Making it through GS cookie "season" has been my big NSV for this week!
I threatened my hubby with bodily harm if he brought them in the house. He was stashing them at his BFF's (if guys have that sort of thing....) but then his friend said that he was eating way to much of them and gave some of them away. I think my hubby did sneak a few boxes of Thin Mints in the house but he hid them well and didn't tell me. I love him for the willingness to help me stay on track.
Just glad it is almost over....

I wasn't sure if we need to log it in this week or not....
I got 4.6 hours last week. Oh, and week before was 4.3 hours.
BTW, Congrats @@Rebeccaabrooks86 on hitting ONEderland. !!!!

Making it through GS cookie "season" has been my big NSV for this week!
I threatened my hubby with bodily harm if he brought them in the house. He was stashing them at his BFF's (if guys have that sort of thing....) but then his friend said that he was eating way to much of them and gave some of them away. I think my hubby did sneak a few boxes of Thin Mints in the house but he hid them well and didn't tell me. I love him for the willingness to help me stay on track.
Just glad it is almost over....

@@VSGAnn2014 Oh wow! That qualifies as a super challenging MONTH! Hugs and hope for a full recovery!

Update 199.6!!!

I have been stuck on a stall since the beginning of January and have only managed to knock off 10lbs or so in that time. So frustrating, especially because I was stalled at 253-- and being under 250 was a HUGE milestone for me.
This morning I weighed in at 249!!!!!!!!!! I am so excited- I haven't weighed under 250 since high school (20 years ago!) HOLY CRAP GUYS!
I did it- I got under 250

@@VSGAnn2014 He passed out twice this week and still wants to try to drive? I second your exasperated "Men!"

NSVs this week --
* Decided a week ago to kick my new dark chocolate habit -- and haven't had a single bite all week.
* Hubby didn't die. Not kidding. Really.
* I finally had time to take a shower.
(And that's what they call burying the lead.)

This !!!!!
My last two trips to the grocery store have found me walking by those little minions pushing their wares.......Lawd......the pressure that the little sprites and their mom's can put on a guy whose just trying to grab a cart or basket and get in/out of the store.
I wound up making donations but left the Cookies. Seemed to be an arrangement everyone was happy with. Did leave one of the Girl Scouts puzzled, though. I could hear her ask her mom, "Why doesn't he want to take the Cookies ?". I didn't hear her reply.......I was busy putting safe distance between me and the Samoas & Thin Mints.

Wonton wrappers with a little sauce, cheese and ground turkey pepperoni will give you the feeling of pizza without all the carbs. just a suggestion....