IndioGirl55

Delos - OMG you know I have 50+ eyes - but you lost 2 pple WTG !!!

LOVE LOVE LOVE IT YOU LOOK SO LOVELY Well if you were here - I have the bottle of liquid (why don't you ask for that instead of pills - it will work faster) plus I have pills.. Well girl I see you found it... I was at the gym .... Glad to have you back and your DD too !!! I love your signature !!!! Doing good - when you want a treat look at yourself in that BEAUTIFUL DRESS !!! Tomorrow is Mex food lunch day - but I think I am passing this week ( we have these guys who make the food and bring it to the office - $6 for enchillada rice and Beans and some great hot sauce - i don't eat it all but still it's not about how much you are eating but what you eat) and I am going to hit the gym on my day off and maybe friday too.. I haven't gotten on the scales but my pants are feeling a little snug.. I think I need a tweak - but in all reality - I need to move more and eat less..

Hey there Linda - Glad you popped in - Teeth are ok - It was an impluse thing - I am still trying to get use to them - it's only been a week and I had that gap for 48 yrs.. Had teeth cleaned today - am feeling really bloated - might have something to do with the feta cheese - then watermelon w/salt this afternoon - I haven't gotten on the scales - tomorrow - but I did go to the gym last night and leave in just a few for arms tonight.. I haven't heard from Karri - and haven't seen her on FB - I saw that Steph posted there today - I will email Karri and see whats going on - I think her ankle is pretty messed up - she talked about an injury prior to the walk but never said what it was - so I am taking it - it was her ankle and the walk didn't help - you know our Karri - can't keep her down even when she should (yes darling I know that you can read this - so I am not talking bad about you lol) Well it's time to head out the door - cbl Hugs & Love J

Congrats on the 113 - but sounds like you may have over did it a tad... Call the doctor yourself and tell them to you need an immediate refill.. Hell 4 oz of wine isn't going to hurt - but I don't think you should listen to me I am a child of the 70's we mixed drugs and alcohal all the time :tt1:)...

Just a quick ck in - Candice I guess only you and me can ck from work - Phyl's out climbing mountains ...

Karla - the whole thing about teaching and doing so much work on your own - would be a killer for me - I sorta remember - you talked about changing carreers when you 1st joined. Well I sorta plan out my time - come home 4:15 gym till 5:30 or 6 depending on if it's a training day or not - come home - computer for hour or 2 - inbetween cook and feed animals - and pay bills on the 1st of the month - Off computer between 8-9 tv for an hour - bed - up at 5 and repeat. So for you - exercise 3-4 times a week right after work - 1 hr - then 1 hr for grading - then hopefully time for us :0) bed and start over - get up sat morning - do your exercise right away - then allot 2 hrs for school crap.. then the rest of the day is yours.. What I meant about the exercise - is I don't think I would want to get all sweaty on like a 1st date kind of thing.. Hey Marcy !! Karri has had a TT but you don't know her - we adopted her - she's the only one who has had TT - She had a great doc in Oregon but she was at goal - She lost 105+ then got tt - going for breast and upper tummy this Dec Are you going to be able to find a doc to do a TT with losing 50 lbs. Why are you not trying to lose any more??? Karla OMG I can't beleive your insurance cost you so much - My dental is like 60 cents a month for me - my employer pays $15 - Delta Dental - my medical is $96 a month my employer pays 485 - and we are a small group.. Hope open house goes smoothly - You had my lmao on Phyl hiking mountains !!!! You are too funny... Good Morning Gang... Not much to report since last night - I have dentist this morning at 11 - cleaning - they called last night and asked if I needed the gas - I said - nope - I only need gas when they bring out the drill.. Well best get my butt in gear - CBL

Karla - I don't think I would go on an exercise date - uhg and I didn't take it the other way - my mind isn't in the gutter :0) Ok - you need to slow down and find your groove... When you cook dinner - make enought for lunch the next day - and then all you have to do it grab it in the morning... School crap - well I can't help with that - it sounds like you teachers have too much to do on your own time.. Plan your menu for the week - for me it's always been pretty easy - I would make a one pot wonder for lunch for the week - and would eat that all week - and I eat the same dinner most nights fish rice veggies - like tonite - I cut the filet in half - one for tonite the other for tomorrow - I made enought rice so all I will have to cook tomorrow night is veggies.. Just keep eating healthy and exercising the weight will come off - you just need to find your groove and you haven't found it yet - how did you manage last year :0)... OH ya - remember you are suppose to ck into places we could stay next July in your neck of the woods - I would like to see your area. I liked Kari's idea of coming this way next year - but July is too hot for all you cold blooded pple :0) and with our Teachers it's hard to schedule easter break together So how about Phyl's area Washington !!! it would be close enough for Karri to come and I think cool enought for the rest of you.. Karri where are you and Steph... ok my dinners done - so I am saying good nite cb in the morning - sweet dreams and Phyl you are going to be out walking me within a month :0) ..

OMG PHYL CONGRATULATIONS CHICKIE !!! WTG !!! You deserved that extra cosmo !!!

Karla - You better listen to us !!!! Guess you didn't expect all this when you joined the Lucky #7's did you !!! OMG you are one of us - if feels like you have been with us from the start !!! Ok take a picture of the outfit (gosh haven't you guy's learned - that' this is what we do since we can't come see it - remember my fashion show for my commercial) - I think I might go gray stockings and pewter shoes or a very sheer black stocking and pewter shoe or black shoes - if you have open toe make sure you have the kind of stockings that don't have the toe guard thingie.. Glad that you found a outfit that make you feel good !!!! I know how important that is.. What were you made at Peter about - all the plans he made to play music and not spend the weekends camping... Ok gang - 2 things happened today - when I got home from the gym (3 miles 382 cal burned) the phone was ringing when I came in - couldn't find a phone (buried in Andrews room as usual) well the recorder comes on it's my Sister... Call be back if you want - well we have a little problem her son needs to move out of the house as they are getting ready to turn everything over to the charities.. Well Marilyn told attorney last week when he told her this let Janet take care of it - Ya right it's her son and he always knew he was there temporarily - well attorney said he would call - well he tells me today that nephew is causing a stink... Told him to call Marilyn and tell her - that I wasn't going to be the bad guy - I am done being the bad guy So I call her back and she says what are we going to do - I told her that he always knew this was a short term arrangement and that it was her son - she said she tried to talk to him - but wouldn't say what she said or what he said - I told her I am tired of being the bad guy to all of them - and that I didn't want to discuss it with him - cuz all it was going to do was make me be the bad guy again - I told her I wanted this all done cuz I am so over it... Well we all know I am the bad guy cuz I didn't burn the will - even if I had - the estate still would not have gone to him (nephew) it would have went to me - her and my other 2 nephews' - They just don't understand that you can't say I want it to go to someone = you gotta put it in writing - and Michael never told me he wanted his estate to go to her son - so it's just hearsay anyway.. So I guess we will have to hire another attorney to evict him - I told her it shouldn't come to that.. uhg !!!! Then I put the phone on the charger and I see another message - it's my Aunt Dot's stepson - her cancer is back (well I don't know which one - pancreatic or breast) she's in the hospital should get out and go to the nursing home that's at her assisted living place.. Now I am really feeling jinx about putting pictures in albums... So that's my evening so far - it's 7:09 now !!! Oh gotta tell you about my great lunch - 3 oz can of tuna - fresh spinach - Mediterranean feta cheese - yogurt ranch dressing - I forgot my onion - but oh my it was good that Mediterranean feta cheese is soo tasty... Bf was yogurt & that Cereal - it's 190 cal for 3/4 cup but I used maybe 1/3 of a cup it stayed crunchy - and has 15 grms pt (well for the 3/4 of a cup) but anyway - I don't really count Protein anymore - I just try and eat healthy.. Well, I am going to start my fish ... cbl - O

Good Morning Gang.... Yep Karla - some morning not enough time - some morning ready 1/2 early - I was up at 5 - had my coffee 1/2 hr shower, makeup, hair dressed and ready at 6:25.. Got the kitchen cleaned up - took out the trash and Andrew was ready by 7 so out the door. Ok yep that hr of exercise does change things - we don't think an hour is anything but it is.. Some evenings it doesn't seem like I have any me time.. And I am all about me time. Ok your internet guy - next weekend is fine - The guy at the wedding "Eddie" was all over me - drinks etc - but he just seemed like a drunk (not that I most likely didn't come off that way cuz I was feeling no pain - but that's not an everyday thing for me) but I was here and there and every where - I had fun but wouldn't get caught up with him - didn't show him too much attention - was really flippan - after a while he sorta left me alone.. I just wanted to have fun and fun I did have - I think I know how to do that and not get caught up with anyone person... So - if it doesn't work just say sorry but I'm not ready - You gotta learn to say no and don't ignore the signs of things not feeling just right... Like I said if a great man fell in my lap - I wouldn't say no - but my standards are very high these days - I think I have learned from my past relationships... Well I am feeling like my old self again - I need to learn how to drink better - Once I start watch out.. Especially if I am in the party mode - the old Janet comes out.. Linda - Denise - Candice - Phyl - Karla - Kari - Karri hope you all have a greadt day... CBL

Aren't you funny .... Not !!!! So what are you going to do - have you talked on the phone 1st - I might do that 1st..

Karla I am coming to kick your butt GF !!! If you are on a dating site you are looking - Like Phyl said - BIG chicken !!! I agree - coffee at 1st - and hell aren't you 49 or just 50 - what's 3 fricken years... I had a bf who was 3 yrs younger than me for 7.5 yrs.. You are a beautiful woman - you are smart - you have a lot to offer - You need to think of yourself as a gift to someone - you are special - and if they don't see that - then they can jump in a lake an aren't worth your time - How about Saturday Morning or Afternoon coffee - at your local coffee place.. Phyl - I am glad your friend is doing better - like they say a gay guy is a girls best freind - yep drugie girls are tough Cookies - I am glad his family is with him. You are doing fantastic - I can't wait to see you walking and parking that scooter.. Well back from the gym and just like I knew - once my hour was over I am feeling more like Janet... Linda GF you really gotta try it - I was in a funk today feeling all anxious all day long - well the exercise got rid of that feeling.. Went to Target found some Archer farm Protein ceral 19 grms 3/4 cup 190 calories - I will use about 1/4 cup in my yogurt so won't be that much.. Going to have tuna spinach salad w/medertrrain feta cheese for lunch this week.. Got dinner cooking and dogs fed.. Karla - does this guy live in your town - what town do you live in anyway - all I know is montana - how many pple live in your town..

Phyl You are doing so great !!! Just waiting for 5 minutes so I can go to the gym- don't want to go but I know that I will feel so much better at the end of the hour - getting those endorphines going will help my mood !!! Linda - That's a good idea for you - I know you don't like exercise - but I will tell you that I go even when I feel blah (like today - feeling very anxious for some reason don't know why) but at the end of the hour I will be feeling normal again.. Maybe it's worth a try... It can't hurt !!!

Good Morning Gang Hangover yesterday slept and ate... Had a GREAT time at the wedding - Danced Danced Danced - alot pple not recognize me - Had a guy - hanging all over me - but even though I was a bit drunk - I could tell he was a big drunk and not my type - but again - I'm not looking for a relationship - but it was nice having someone (well more than one) guy saying I looked good.. Linda - I agree with you about the pills - today I feel crappy not physically mentally just a icky day.. That happens - I don't feel like being social - so I will stay in my little cube and do my work and hopefully not have to talk to anyone today - some day are like that.. And I find that it usually happens after a day of not getting out - I could become a hermit very easily... I get emails from pple on lbt often.. I don't watch the news except maybe for the weather - just for the reasons you state - it's depressing (and it doesn't matter which side of the fence you are on - it's just as depressing) - life is hard enough with our day to day lives - the news just makes it worse - We can't do anything about it - so I just avoid it... Candice - You know I love that quilt - I love the colors and the pics just don't do it justist (sp) Phyl - You are doing so good !!! Karri - Great on the food.. Karla - Sounds like you had a busy weekend and going to have an even busier week - Well gang I gotta get to work - cbl

Ok Karla - Thanks to you I did 4 miles burned 484 cal this morning - You all keep me motivated !!! That's why I keep coming back and haven't quit posting !!! IMHO those who have dropped off for the most part are the ones who aren't as successfull - not always true - but when they do pop back in ususally they say they haven't done well.. Ok I am off to the shower - gotta go get nails done... I still want to know how Karri hurt her ankle - I sent them a note but havent heard back

Good Morning Gang Karla - I had a gf from work over for dinner & a movie last night - we had stuffed bell peppers (w/turkey) and sf/ff white choc pudding with sf choc suryp & walnuts. Watch the Beyonce movie Obessesion - Very predictable - but loved it when she kicked the other girls ass.. How do I stay focused - Well I think it was easier in my weight loss phase than now - I find it a lot harder now - I keep letting little bites of this and that get in the way and I seem to be missing 1 day at the gym - that's why I keep struggling with hitting the top of my 5 lb weight limit and it's bugging me. But for me I really just think I had my ah ha moment and the way I feel now is a lot of incentive to keep away from junk.. Plus I don't keep crap in the house to eat and once I am home I won't go out again to get something, Hell last night we (andrew & me) stopped at the store - to p/u a few things - I forgot I needed skim milk to make the pudding - so I said wait here and I jogged to the back of the store to get it - I thought to myself - OMW look at you.. When I walk fast I think what a change.. Right now sometimes I can eat about 2 cups of food - and that's a concern for me - I am thinking about getting a tweak to my fill - but again - do I really need it. It's this whole mind over matter stuff - yes I know I got the band to act like insurance but I make the food choice and I do pretty good for the most part - but am finding it harder than it was before. I got up last night and ate a ck leg - I ate it way too fast and I could feel it - I slimed a bit - so do I really need a fill - I don't think so I need to stop and listen to my band - which is hard.. Head hunger is a bitch and that's what my problem really is - and I think it is for all of us... But look I ate a ck leg and not a bag of candy - that's how I look at stuff - Boredom is my problem - not stress so much .. Just get the crap out of the house and then you can't eat it cuz it's not there.. Linda - Hugs Hugs GF... I don't know if more meds are going to help - I think I understand that you just feel usless now adays that your life was wrapped up in your kids and now that they are gone - that's what are you all about (being a Mom).. I know you have seen a shrink before - do you think that maybe revising that would help. I wish you lived closer (I know we all wish that) I think you need some gf support... I'm needy - you could take care of me :0).... Wish DH was more supportive - As to not losing - well gf as long as you aren't gaining that's a plus- hell everyone struggles with 10/15 lbs - so don't sweat it Sorry about work - I understand the frustration there.. Just know that you are loved and you are more than just a Mom - That you deserve your own happiness - You are a good and loving person.. You give so much.. Like I said I wish that you weren't 2000 miles away - I would keep you occupied ... Love you!!! Phyl - on the liquid stuff - there are a couple schools of thought about the nasiads like you read about. - I will take them occassionally (rarely) but when I do I make sure it's on an empty stomach so that it goes right thru (pill form) - but I take most of my pills (well I only have 1 bp antenoal ) on an empty stomach.. Don't they make a tyenol for arthirtis - just thought of that - is there something in those that will help with inflmation... So I ck'd FB this morning - did Karri hurt her ankle - I didn't understand toe nail/fail - then being in med tent and ankle is a disaster??? Well I am up as you all can tell - got up 4:45 - having coffee - need to wrap wedding gift - get dressed for gym but that I still have 1 hr til they open Then come home shower - nails and that's really about it til I have to get ready for wedding that starts at 5... it's 86 right now - feels hotter to me - there is a bit of a hot wind - suppose to be 106... Well, just cking in - Hugs to everyone - when you are feeling down - Look at Phyl - think about how good she is doing with her weight loss and surgery/knee issues - I know that when I'm down - I think about her and all that she has gone thru and I think to myself - Look she 60ish and she has accomplished so much - if she can do all this then you can.. I so admire her... Ok - cbl

Good Morning !!! Karla - wtg on the exercise - you had to pee 3 times - I bet you are retaining waters - and yet those bite of this and that do add up - but it didn't sound like you had that much... I am up this morning too - but I know it's the lack of exercise for me - I will go in the morning and hopefully life won't get in the way next week.. I have a gf from work coming over for dinner & movie tonite - we are having stuffed bell peppers made with ground turkey & salad. Tomorrow gym - nails - and wedding @ 5 p.m. - should be alot of fun !!! Steph & Karri walking today !!! You go girls.... We will have to ck fb to see how they are doing... Ok I need to get my butt in gear .... CBL

CANDICE STEP AWAY FROM THE PB CUPS !!!! WEDDING - REMEMBER !!!! Karla OMG - If I were her - I would be contacting an attonery - WTF was that all about - just up and fired her - I understand we are employed at will - but still (did she have a contract or was she an employee at will) I do have candy occassionally (didn't too much during my weight loss phase) but the diff is I buy 1 candy bar -not a bag - cuz if the bag was here I would eat them all.. Well, I have only gotten to the gym Monday & Wed - and the scale is showing it - I will go Sat morning - but hopefully life won't get in the way next week .. I just finished putting Xmas 90 to 7/92 pic's in a new album-- now I am going to go cook my fish.. Linda - We miss you. Denise - How are you doing ?? Steph & Karri - have fun on your walk... Phyl - you must be out walking the block Kari - How's your food & soda addiction this week.... Ok - I'm out for the night - TTYL Love to you all - Hugs J

Karla - Yes we have very much in common - I didn't grow up in the back seat of a car - but my Mom had some mental issues - she was the abuser to her hubbies.. (3 of them) my sis dad - my dad and my stepdad. On the outside of our house it looked like ozzie & harriet - but inside it wasn't - not always bad but I remember some terrible fights - I do remember good stuff too.. But I was the wet rat to my mom - then oh what a pretty face too bad your fat.. Food has alway been my comfort - and I think I stayed in abusive realationship with DS dad cuz that's was love. Well when I got to be 22 I figured out it wasn't.. Pple who really love you don't hurt you.. After that in very co-dependent relationships - got out of those - married a guy who didn't have a drug or alcohal problem - had his own house - vehicle and job - thought I was doing really well in improving my choices of men - but I ignored the whole controling issues that I did see while dating - Well, I can't/won't be controlled for long - so that ended.. I am far from perfect on the self esteem issues - but I do know and have always beleived that you can't let your past control you - that's a copout - it's the past - you are in charge of your today - yes your past is what molded you -but you can overcome those issues - just cuz your mom or whomever says you aint worth shit - doesn't make it so - you know that you are - look at what you have done - become a teacher - raised 5 DD.. I never thought you were mad at us - I know that you understand where we are coming from that we love you and want the best for you... I forgot your sis was coming - I think we all did :0) Phyl - I'm glad to hear that your other knee isnt causing problems - each day you will get stronger and stronger.. Ok I have lost those pic's :0(.. it's not 8 gotta get to work - cbl

I went to the gym - arms - then came home and trying to put all the pic's that I had printed (you know those ones that sit inside your computer and never get printed) well I printed I think 400 - got them in year order (I think I am confused now - these pic's went back to 2001) any way - Looks like I am missing 2004 xmas pic's and some 2005 pics - I found a disk that I made 2003 to 2005 but I can't open it - I think something has happen to it - it says something about needed 95 adadpter - who know - I have written all over it - it has brooks 1st bday - I am going to take it to work to open then maybe to like wallgreesn = hopefully it's not screwed up But am confused cuz some of these pics are on my computer but not all of them.. Then I made folders with years and took all the folders I had an moved them into the year that pic were taken.. it's 8:30 and I haven't even cooked yet !!! Phyl - you are doing good - how does the knee feel when you walk - how's the other one.. Where's Karla !!! She's always here .... Maybe doing my self esteem classes lol lol.. Well til tomorrow - guess I am having eggs for dinner - don't feel like waiting 1/2 for dinner ...

Good Morning Phyl you are my idol !!!! You are such a trooper !!! I am just amazed by your determination - It is a reminder to me that if you can do it - I can too... You are just fantastic !!! Steph - Hugs - at least you are unfilled and will be able to drink and eat to fuel your body for this walk - that was my concern when Karri & I were talking about it - With my restriction I think I would have a problem fueling my body during the walk.. Hopefully whatever is wrong will fix it self while you are unfilled - just make healthy food choices you will be ok.. Karla - Yes You can come and live with me - I would kick your self esteem up - I think we all have issues to some degree - the way that I always covered up my fatness even as a kid was to make fun of myself before others could - I also would say that I can come across very aggressive - pple say they are no longer afraid of me since I lost weight - I don't seem so "big" for lack of a better word.. I cover up my insecurities by coming across as having none.. It's the whole fake it until you make it.. Even fat I thought I was cute - omw in looking at all these pics that I am putting in albums - I have some where I was like 180's and at the time thought I was skinny - well - I wasn't - I never saw how fat I was.. Like I said - I am lucky that I had my Dad - I think he was the saving grace in my life and I also think it has to do with our makeup (dna) - But girl friend I am telling you and you are going to get this from all of us.. You are beatiful - we all look better w/make up that has nothing to do with your inter-beauty - You are beautiful w/ or w/o make - it's just you - and we are going to get you to beleive this.. Ok I gotta get to work - cbl have a good day gang:wub:

Oh Denise Hugs - Have you tried counseling - 17 isn't that still juvie - it is here - but that's not great place either - but I hate saying this sometimes you gotta let them deal with the consequences of their action - How about a rehab.. Sounds like he is drinking/drugs - I know my son started at 15 - I took him to the county and got some conseling.. Can't say it helped he got busted at 17 and spent a few months in a boy's home (placement as they called it then) He straighten up for a while - hell he's 38 and you all know where we were with him and family last May ... I still worry that he will go back to his old ways.. I agree with Phyl that at that age there really isn't much you can do - I know you want to save him from himself - I understand that and it's so hard to feel so helpless- I have been there done that.. My only suggestion would be find him a rehab.. Come cry on our shoulders we are here for you - wish we could fix it - Prayer & Hugs !!!!

Phyl Glad you got out a bit - but remember slow and easy - you are just our energizer bunny !!!! Can't keep a good a good woman down can you :0) xoxox J I agree 100% - I really try and practice what I preach - I will say things like stupid Janet - but then I say stop you aren't stupid - I whine and cry a little about my addicition sometime - but gotta say that my self esteem isn't too bad -really never was even when I was morbitly obese - I and I thank my Dad for that

Karla Here's your homework for tonite Ck out these websites on Positive Affirmations - Self Esteem !! http://www.more-selfesteem.com/affirmations.htm http://ezinearticles.com/?Positive-Affirmations-For-Improving-Self-Esteem&id=1013615 http://www.positivepoweraffirmations.com/positiveaffirmationsselfesteem.html

Good Morning Gang !!! Well it's Tuesday - back at work ugh !!! Where did the weekend go - I finally got the 400 pics uploaded to Target and will pickup tonite along with some more albums... Found this white choc sf ff jello pudding - would be really good with some walnuts - but alas it's 4 servings and I ate it in 2 servings - so I don't think I will buy again - I didn't have any nuts - I am laying off them for a while just to many calories - even though they are good calories.. Karla - I figured Tuna Man wasn't going to turn out - since he made the comment about weight - I don't think he's going to talk to anyone who weighs more than 110 soaking wet - it's him and not you ok. If the conversation is good - and you have a lot in common what's a few lbs. But some pple are super superficial and he sounds like he is - I could understand if you were 400 lbs - but heck whats 20 lbs.. His loss - Plain and simple and yes we are going to have to do something about the self esteem issues.. Your 1st project is to stop the neg talk to yourself - You know when you think - oh this is useless - why bother - I'm a failure - when that though enters your head - say STOP!!! and replace with a posititive thought - and yes you can come up with one - I have lost 73 lbs !!! You baby sounds like my baby (angel) - sometimes she won't go potty before bed - then wakes me up in the middle of the night to go - or 1/2 hr before I have to get up... Well pple are walking around so I gotta get to work - CBL