IndioGirl55

Good evening gang... Candice - when you disappeared for a minute and really weren't posting your food - I figures things had gone south again.. Girl you gotta find things to do when he's gone - don't you enjoy time to yourself - well ya - you eat ... You really are a closet eater arent you lol... Karla - love the pics of your Dad - sweetie - he's with you in your heart - you can talk to him anytime - ya he can't answer - but I bet you $100 that you know how he would respond to your question.. Time does soften the hurt - but it will always be with you - even 15 yrs from now you will have your days where you miss the hell out of him - but it won't be all the time.. Well got my hair cut - love it bouncy and more stylish - same basic angled bob - not as short as last summer.. Then went and spent my Macy $25 rewards - got a long skirt - 2 blouses - a pair of white shoes. Then went to the AAA travel agent - got prices for all inclusive and cruise on the Oasis of the Sea - Royal Caribeean newest ship - hold 5400 pple - I think the vote from the family will be the all inclusive Bacelo Maya Playa Deluxe Resort in Mayan Riveria - Playa de Carmen.. Food today - sf/ff frozen yogurt 160 cal - 1 cabot cheese Hugs Phyl - you have had one shitty week - the unfill WILL reslove things - think postitive and know we are praying for you and if you want - go buy a plane ticket and come and visit me..

Good Morning Gang... Karla - I never get to sleep in that late - the dogs always wake me up to go potty.. I slept till 6 this morning ;0) - I use to be a night owl when I was younger - most nights didn't go to bed til 1 a.m. - but now bed early and up early - I sorta like it - especially in the summer when it's hot - I try to get my stuff done early so I am home before the heat of the day.. I don't like the heat - i would love it to be 80-100 max - and cool every nite to the 60's (low) not be 100 at midnite.. By the end of the summer can't wait for cooler weather and lower electric bills - but this is where I was born - I would love to live at the beach - if I won the lotto that's where I would live - but so cali beaches - wouldn't live in the mountain - I enjoy visiting them - but love the ocean So I take it my instructions for pic's worked :0) ... Beautifuly DDs :Dancing_biggrin: Phyl I see you are on line - you aren't at the gym lol - I know you have dr this morning - you better let us know what he says - but I now think it was your brocituss (sp) - That's dr. janet opinion ;0) Need to get dress for the gym - cbl

Phyl - you did very well on your food today... I am pretty sure Karri will take me to the airport on Monday.. Food for me - bf - greek yogurt 140 cal (pomagranite) it was good - lunch - pinto beans 1.5 cup - handful of chips - so far tonite 3/4 cup buttter nut squash - will have some meat in a little bit.. It's weird when you don't have to go to work - it's 8:30 i would be getting off the computer - by now - but since I don't have to go to work - I don't have to rush to bed ;0) Plan on getting up and going to gym before hair appt in the morning - gotta leave here by 9 - then after that going to Auto Club to plan Family vacation.. and that's about it for the day...

Departing Flight Information - Thursday, July 1, 2010 Flight 301 4h 20m, 987 mi Makes 1 Stop From Palm Springs Regional (PSP) Palm Springs, CA Departs: 7:00 AM To Seattle Tacoma Intl (SEA) Seattle, WA Arrives: 11:20 AM Aircraft Boeing 737-400 Economy/Coach Class Returning Flight Information - Monday, July 5, 2010 Flight 312 4h 22m, 987 mi Makes 1 Stop From Seattle Tacoma Intl (SEA) Seattle, WA Departs: 12:10 PM To Palm Springs Regional (PSP) Palm Springs, CA Arrives: 4:32 PM Aircraft Boeing 737-400 Economy/Coach Class

Karla Picture - this is how I do it Open a reply box - scroll down to manage attachements - click on that - then this will pop up - I click on browse and go to where my pics are on my computer - click the one you want and then hit upload.. - you can up load 5 pics at a time.. Upload File from your Computer Upload File from a URL After you are done close window - type something in the reply box and hit submit - I just renewed my agents license too - good for 4 yrs ;0) Phyl I think Candice is coming in a day earlier than me or even a couple days and she's staying w/you ;o) - don't really remember - and I think Linda isn't getting in till 7/1 like 8:30 at night.. I was suppose to leave 7/5 like at 10 a.m - but got a notice awhile back that my flight got changed to 12 p.m - I guess I should go look Karri has boot camp that she wants to do that morning before she leaves to come to WA - but she won't get there till like 1ish -

Just had a short email from Karri - she might not be able to pick me up from airport - I arrive 11:15 a.m on 7/1 - Remember 7/1 is her bday too - so we should have a cake or a fake one made of lettuce - she's doing boot camp... Maybe a protein bar cake lol So I may need someone to pick me up... Oh 4 weeks from today - we will all be at the Beach House having cocktails !!!!

Karla - I just ck'd and yep that side does have one of those breakers - i just pushed it - it works !!!! (I know where the phone plugs in has one of those breaker but never noticed the other one ;0) Hooray the kids spent alot of $$$ on that stupid coffee machine that I don't really like.. Coffee isn't strong enough.. Well tomorrow is my Furlough Friday ;0) and then next week off the 10th & 11th - going to the beach on Thrusday- suppose to hit 110 here this weekend and they are admitting to 110 - I bet it's going to be 115 - and that's hot.. I haven't been to the beach in about 7yrs - last time (not counting cruise) was June or July 03 - The whole family is going.. It will be an experience - we will need to take 2 cars cuz there will be 6 of us and my car only holds 5 Phyl - LOL ha ha ha - you are going to have to go work out more - love it - I knew Earl would like it - he and I chatted one morning (sat I think) and he said he was going to have to go cuz you guys had so much rain - that he couldn't walk outside.. It will be good for you :0) I am sure glad you are feeling better... Hell I would cancel my appointment ;0) Well had to work 1/2 extra today to get last minute stuff done since I won't be there tomorrow - Hoping escrow close - just ck'd email - won't be closing till tue- wed next week - I see Jackie on FB but haven't talked to her.. Haven't seen Steph on FB much though or Karri

Good Evening Peeps... Phyl - Continued prayers for Steven - Hope this scares him enough to take his pills... I think you have told us about your nieces bf - already a convict - dog abuse and this isn't the 1st time he hit her .. Hope she's doing well - in city jail - it's totally diff than being in prison - they have access to phone - and ya why wouldn't he call her - he's hit her before and she took him back - he thinks this time will be the same.. Or he may threaten her to drop charges - but now a days that doesn't fly Karla How cool your 1st vacation - well this is our 3rd Band Anniversary get together - so plan on every yr attending.. This will be Karri's 1st too ;0) - She's met Steph & Me but not the others - Steph couldn't make last yrs get together - Yes it's nice to get away.. Andrew will be watching my fur babies and I think he's babysitting his mom's dog too - so glad I won't be here ;0) I have my gf debbie lined up for november vacation - but hope to find a real dog/house sitter instead... I called the one who can't do it to see if she recommends some.. Well back from the gym - got dogs fed - kitchen cleaned up from last night ;0) - I think I blew something up - I was cooking my squash in the mircowave 30 mns - it beeped that it was done - then went to get it out - it had no power - well it came back on (guess it cooled down) but now my new coffee maker doesn't work - I need to doubt ck the breakers - but I think the are fine - something might have shorted out..

Good Morning Gang Drive by - it's already 5:45 and I need to get in the shower Hugs Denise - We are all watching the news - I guess this is why pple don't want off shore drilling - this is a major disaster.. Karla - Kids - what can I say - but she DD#4 isn't a kid age wise Hugs.. Phyl - How's Steve and Niece today.. Candice - How's the food Gotta jump in the shower - dinner last nite 3/4 c butternut squash 1 rib 1 100 cal popcorn 1 100 cal yogurt cbl

Omg Phyl - I hope Steven is ok... Keep us posted on that - Prayers & Hugs - Also on Niece - OMG I hope she doesn't go back to that monster.. I need to go to your dermatologist I have a cyst in the middle of my forehead - And when I went yrs ago about it - the dr I went to said leave it alone and gave me antibotic's - Since I have lost weight it shows - It shows in our pics last yr at Candice's .. But I know they have to get the sack and she didn't want to cut me an have a scar.. Mine's the size of a pea (a big one ;0) Hugs about Earl - don't you have a flat rate phone - I pay like $30 for the house phone - that includes long distant - which I rarely use cuz my aunt is gone and I don't talk to sis - What happen to your personal account??? You just need your own account - I don't ck my bank daily - maybe once a week - especially if I am going to go shopping ;0) Glad your tummy is better - makes me feel better... Karla - I couldn't leave the dog in the kennel that long - it's not the dogs fault - it's hers - I agree get rid of him or it becomes yours - hell who's paying all these vet bill simon has anyway - I thought Simon was your dog.. Since you are always taking it to the vet.. Work out went fine - made it thru - came home ate and fell asleep around 8 on the couch - at 9 went to bed and slept till 5:30 this morning.. Well hear ryder in the trash around 2 or 3 got up then .. but had a pretty good nite sleep last night Work was ok today - Bf was Jerky - a girl brought chicken wraps for lunch today - trying to raise $$ for Tender Kittens or something like that - to help pay for spaying/neutering them. They were awful - Tortilla's weren't cooked so chewy - then the insides were watery and I could barely see any ck - avocado or onion - ended up eating the insides only and had a large handful of chips.. dinner will be fish or ribs & veggies - don't know which yet.. I went to the gym tonite - Yea Janet !!! I really was going to say - no - I gotta go to bro's house - well I don't think they p/u trash today cuz yesterday was a holiday - and also when I called nephew - his phone is now turned off - so called and talked to BIL and told him that he need to tell him to get stuff out of the house - escrow suppose to close tomorrow.. At gym saw one of our insurance reps - she was going to boot camp - so after I finished working out I went to look at the class - it's teacher/leader is a girl who use to work at my work - Class isn't till 5:30 - I may go next Tuesday to see if I can hang .... I may work out with weight and do the treadmill but boot camp is a whole nother issue ;0) Well that's my day so far ;0) - it' 7:03 - cbl chickies..

Well went to the show to see Sex in the City too - Well I should say went to the show to nap!!! I saw the beginning and the end ;0) guess will have to wait for dvd ;0) - I usually fall asleep in the show - I do it at home to if I sit down for too long and get relaxed. I am pooped I mean pooped - but have to leave for gym in about 10 minutes.. Phyl - maybe that's why you keep getting sick - you go too much.. Out in the rain and you aren't well - going to kick your butt.. Hope you are having fun at bday parties ;0) Ya I can't buy those truffles - like them too much - will eat 3 ;0) I can't eat corn and I love corn - especially on the cob - but it doesn't seem to agree w/band - but part of that is I eat it too fast.. Karla - get on the damn scale - avoiding it isn't helping - get on it and deal with it - it's not like nothing is happening if you don't get on it :0).. Well gotta get moving - wish me luck this is going to be one hell of a workout - I could take a nap..

Good Morning Gang.. Been up since 5:45 a.m. - Ya you got it - Dogs .... I wanted to go back to sleep - but going to show to see Sex in the City at 11:20 a.m.- so needed to pay bills - work on bro's estate cking and Ranches - got that all done and now it's 8 Thought it was Sunday went to get paper then there was none - realized that today was Monday - I only get paper on Sat & Sun.. Phyl - Glad you are feeling better - Yes you gotta eat slowly!!! ;0) I will ck out that album of Carries - I liked her last song.. Rest as much as you can !!! If you don't you aren't going to get any better.. Omg Ryder is running thru the house - playing by his self - I should get dressed and take him for a walk - na don't think so ;0) Karla - I would be PISSED about the bed too ... and about the carpet - what's up w/the dog it's not a puppy.. is it old or just not use to the new house - stick it out in the back yard and close the doggie door.. I had lite ice cream (100 cal 1/2 cup) I had about 3/4 of a cup w/instant oatmeal 160 cal - so 300 cal (added some nuts and raisin) last nite too - my comfort after being at bro.. I deserved it - ya right - but anyway - I will be good for the rest of the day I won't buy B&J just cuz of the calories - I buy lite ice cream only... I know that there are times I want it (I am not a super ice person - but I do get a taste for it every now and then) - hell b&j has like 200 cal per serving - 4 servings in a pint 800 cal (don't know who came up w/that - to me a pint is a serving - but guess that's why I was fat) where as if I eat a pint of the lite stuff it's only 400 cal - I normally have 1/2 to 1 cup of ice cream when I eat it. Yes girl - you gotta get the lite stuff - you could have splurged and saved 400 cals !!! You gotta find lower cal foods to fill that void sometimes - I am not one to say don't do it - just do it in a liter way... and not too often (everyday) Once a week treats are fine - How's your scales - I don't think you have mentioned it lately. Well, I have gym at 5 - need to get dressed and get my shopping done - p/u Debbie at 10:45 - gotta be home by 4:45 so I can get dressed for the gym.. CBL

Ya they can go jump in a lake !!!! Ya my hair is straighter than straight - envy those with some curl -- If I curl mine (curly) I have to laqure (sp)it with hair spray.. Well left here about 2 - just got back 8:30 from being at bro michael's house - stepbro brad came after I had been there 3 hrs and helped then I took him out to eat at the taco shop - had menduo - was able to eat 1/2 small bowl which really is a large bowl.. I am filty - need a shower - and something sweet (you know comfort food) Just so piss that my sis makes alll this trouble - still haven't gotten the signature card back from her that she just fricking had to be on cking account - where is she when work needs to be done... NO WHERE - she did absolutely nothing for being a co-administrator and she will get just as much $$$ as me... I think I will write a letter to the judge myself.. That's been my day....

Good Morning Gang - it's 11:51 so it's still morning - going to be hot here today 100 !!! I got to sleep in til 9:15 this morning !!! went to bed around midnite - didn't watch crazy hearts - ended up watching "it's complicated" again - I love the part where they are smoking the joint and where the sil see's them in the hotel !!!! Food yesterday - popcorn - 2 eggs - 1 cup pinto bean w/ham hock meat - 1 mini corn bread muffin w/butter and some pistactio nuts and lite rasberry/apple juice and water.. 1 hr weight training legs and let me tell you I am feeling it already.. I've read the paper, cut the dead heads off roses - going to wash patio down then get dress and go ck bro's house.. No plans - just do what ever I feel like - did a little estate accounting this a.m before I got on here - need to pay my bills - you know life crap - nothing exciting... Karla - You crack me it - You need to come and design a garden for me :0).. I took to xanxa last nite (total 10 mg) and slept well - but I remember getting up and eating pistachios had nuts in bed this a.m. - i guess better than candy :0) Candice - Yep Debbie cut Joseph's hair on her own cuz supposeilty he had gum in it - he had an afro to make angela davis jealous - and let me tell you his Dad was pissed - come to find out years latter - there was not gum - she just didn't like combing his hair - he's tender headed and Deb isn't the gentlest person.. Phyl how are you feeling this a.m. - how was the concert last night...

Candice - I had my treat - can't over do it.. I would like to - I don't eat alot of them but 150 cal every day adds up.. When do you go back to work?? Ya I would pay too to see her (carrie underwood) I don't know if she's been to our casino or not.. Well need to get off the computer - I hope I can sleep past 5 tomorrow..

Hey Gang Phyl - you are going to see Carrie Underwood tonite - How cool is that !!! I loved her new song that she sang on finale... Yep stick with soup - maybe it's just the bronctius .. You know you can't drink w/antibotics ... Candice - OMG the drama - I don't think I would be doing bday parties.. WTG on just a lick of icing - You owe both me & phyl a drink - we are the ones who bet :0) Karla - You love being outside and putzing around in the yard - so it's a good ache and you feel good about fixing the yard. Well you know #4 bf will only be for a week or 2 - she doesn't seem to stick w/them too long - so don't sweat it.. I got dressed - went and got hair color - then to ride aid to get a new pair of readers - even with contact some print I cant read (tiny or if I don't have good lighting) got 2 pairs of 125 and then a new pair of 250 for when I don't have contacts in - all of my current glasses are scratch all to hell then went to the bank deposited State tax return - then to the grocery store - didn't get any junk - almost got some of these fab tato chips - but said no - cuz I ate that cake last night - got a pot of beans on the stove - debating if I should make cornbread or not :0).. Watch Dear John move .. had a cat nap - had a cup of coffee and skyped for an hour or so w/joseph and family - just fed the dogs - going to go watch crazy heart..

Karla - No thank you... I'll keep Andrew - may give up Ryder just cuz of the whole puppy issues - but Andrew is a keeper - hell I deserve 1 good kid :0).. Yep - half the day is over - but you needed the rest - I wish I could sleep in that late - maybe I will shut my door and lock the dogs out and I could :0) I need to get up and go to my bro's - but don't want to - so here I sit - got a load in the washer and dryer - feeling like some ribs - may go to the store.. I have no great plans for the weekend - which is fine w/me... Debbie and I may go see Sex in the City if she's feeling better - but I don't want to go if she's still sick - cuz I don't want to get sick Phyl how's the tummy this a.m.?

Hi Andrea This thread isn't very active - you need support - I have a support thread - I'm here to help - look for it on the main page under mentors.. What's up?? How are you doing?? It does get better - you are still healing - what food phase are you on.. Hugs Janet

Morning Gang... Phyl - Next Friday WTF - I think you need to go in Monday and have some fluid taken out now !!!! Somethings not right.. Stick to liquids or super mushies - be careful - Ya to adopt an animal is almost as hard as adopting a kid ;0) Earl will soften - and a small dog if well trained you can take w/you - even on a plane - I think my Angel would bark too much cuz you gotta leave them in the carrier - but in all my travels lately (hell since we have gotten together I have travled every summer ;0) plus my trip to vegas for lb and trip to FL) I have seen pple with little dogs on the planes.. My Angel isn't well trained - Need Ceaser on Ryder chasing Sheba.. Hell they work me up at 5:22 this morning - wanted to sleep in til 6.. Ya last night coming home from Candy's house via the freeway - tons of traffic - pple going to the river or glammas Got home around 9:30 - Andrew took it upon himself - to rent a carpet cleaner and cleaned all the carpets and then took the couch covers to the cleaners - Really proud of him for doing this on his own.. Funeral was nice - even though I really didn't know Michael that well - meet him a few times - everyone talked about how sweet he was - his exbil got up and told great stories and was crying - I was crying from all the stories.. The only issue I had was when the preacher got up and preached AT us - All I can say is I wouldn't go to his church.. Had friend of candy & louie (dh) sorta try and hit on me - just laughed him off - I know too much about him and sure in the hell don't want what he has to offer (which isn't anything) Karla We know why you didn't eat the pizza - you can't lol - that was funny.. You are lucky to have a count down - i wish I did - well 6/4 is my ff (furlough friday) then then kids will be here 6/9 and I have taken off the 10th & 11th.. Then 7/1 will be here soon.. Well have gym at 8 Idrise was suppose to be making up for missed class on Wed - but his stepson has baseball - so Vickie and I are going to work legs ourselves.. Food yesterday - BF don't remember - lunch 1 pot wonder from the night before - dinner 1/2 taquitto (sp) 1 small ck thigh - 2 big chips and some hummus - and 2 pieced of Cake ;0) one at the house and I brought one home :0) So I gotta hit they gym... Candice where are you ????

OMG Phyl - Hugs Hugs Hugs - Go to the ER- Then your doc will have to show up TMI - have you ck'd your stools for blood???

Karla I know it's hard - but you know - this is your time - you need the $$$ - they are adults and need to learn to grow up - I think we baby them too much - which in turn makes them babies and they will never grow up- hell look where/what we all were doing at their age - our parents weren't babing us.. I have been ok tight wise today - we will see how dinner goes and I hear you girl on food filling that void.. I still haven't figured out what to cook - need to go back into the kitchen - cuz I took the meat out now need to cook it.. cbl

Eggs/hash browns = 250 cal (estimate) Lunch - Ribs 125 - bb 120 - cs 180 - lattes -12 oz 122 - or a 16 oz 168 - cookie 75 Dinner Wine 100 (1 wine) - cheese 100 - pasta/chick 150 since I guess you didn't eat all of it ?? cs 100 So estimated total w/12 latte 1322 cal - if it was a 16 oz coffee 1368 What size lattes ??? 12 oz 122x2 244 cal - soup 125 - cracker 120 wine 100 total so far today 589 Phyl - I really think you need to go see your band doc - how's reflux heartburn?? It's been what a year since your last fill - or do you think you are eating too fast and not chewing.. Today has been uneventful for me - Thank you God !!! Food today - bf Jerky 100 lunch a ww meal beef & veggies oreintal style 160 c - 3 tristic's 75 cal.. Dinner ??? I need to cook that ground turkey - just don't know what to make - I'm in that don't know what to eat stage - nothing sounds good - well ya a bag of reese Peanut Butter cups - but food - naw.. Stopped at Stater bro after work - picked up some ww & lean cusiene meals - most are 250 max calories some as low as 160 Well need to unload the dishwasher - I'll be back in a bit Karla hope you had a good day at school Candice - how are you doing... Linda, Steph, Denise xoxoxo

Good Morning Gang... Drive by as I was cking emails this morning - now it's time to get in the shower... Glad Lee won last night - it was the girl vote I bet - there was only 2% diff between the 2 - I guess my 45 minutes of voting helped :0) dinner - scrambled eggs & green onions I think we are all tight for some reason... I think your band is working Karla - but I agree - I don't enjoy food as much - cuz I can't eat as much as I want - but I think that's the purpose of the band ;0) - We have to learn to eat smaller amounts of food - last night I tried some trail mix - when I woke up once - well - it came back up - dumb me - I was still full from dinner.. but again maybe you are too tight - have a day of liquids... well gotta jam cbl

Ya Karla - there's not much I can do - so why get too worked up - I am just feeling a little defeated - most likely partner will buy them out.. It will all workout in the end - but it's a little bit of weight on my back along with tenant issues and sister/estate issues - I just want to be done with all this - I guess my sis was right I should have burned the will - but oh hell no then she would have been my partner - and I am not reporting to her anything... My bros just let me take care of everything - they bitched - but not to loudly - she would want to be a co-signer on the cking account.. I am tight today - just had 3 tiny crackers w/hummus - gave me heart burn - I was taking this new med - starts with a z - it's otc and took away heart burn - but haven't taken it for a couple of day.. back to it in the morning.. I don't know if insurance will pay for converting - your bmi isn't high enough and most ins co aren't paying for the sleeve - yet - weren't you self pay anyway?? That's what my doc said anyway when i asked about it..

Good Evening Gang.... Phyl you have me rotflmao - I can write it down - Ok report it and I will - you know what a control freak I am :0) - You may be right - you are at your happy weight - If you are happy then we are happy you have come a long way. Ya Lee didn't do great last night - but I still voted for him - don't know how many times - but I voted for about 40-45 minutes.. I think Crystal may win - and I will be happy if she does- but remember last yr - we all thought Adam had it in the bag and Kris won - so who knows - the girls may love Lee better and vote for him - cuz damn he is a cutie !!! If I were 30 yrs younger ;0) and he looks so much like my bro Jimmy and his son Jimbo - (the eyes) I was crying last night makes me miss my bro... LOL on the cheese - while he's snoring - jump in the suv and jam... You aren't in the RV anymore - you got more space and the Cabot cheese is only 50 cal for 1 so you can eat 2 for the price of a regular one - hell Andrew doesn't even like white cheese and he was eating mine last night.. When I was w/Ralph he did most of the shopping and cooking but - in no way as controlling as Earl - I would still go on the weekend just to pickup whatever we wanted to eat and didn't have in the house.. I think he did the costco shopping and I did the Stater Bros or Von's shopping (some things just too big at Costco for the 2 of us) Candice - WTG on your 5 lbs !!!!! Fantastic !!!! You Rock.. OMG no we won't be like them - we are too vain... I think we are younger at 55 than our parents where at this age - I think it's just the times.. Well today has been a shit day (literally) - Opened a letter last nite from the County Enviromental Dept - the Tenant on the ranch has an open leech pit/septic tank issue and if we don't fix by 6/1 going to get find - I had this letter since last week and just never got around to opening.. These tenant's don't speak english which was fine when I was with Ralph - but now it's not - plus the # they gave me - no one know Maria (the tenant) So I call septic pple - the go pump $200 . I call the County and talk to the guy their - tell him I just got letter and am working to fix it - he tells me the place is a mess - which I had heard - and that we are most likely going to get a letter from code enforcement - He was a really nice guy - said he would meet me out there and he does speak spanish - so got half the problem solved. Then the Accountant calls - he most likely will be Trustee of Michaels trust and that the charities look like they want to sell the land NOW.. Which isn't good - they own 1/6 of the 4 ranches we own - Michael s share is about 25 acres - 3 of the 4 are leased. 25 x $25,000 per acres - and this is just a rough estimate would be $550,000 - so I can't buy them out - oh I could if I wanted to take all my retirement - but that's just it - I can't do that - they don't produce enough income - they really just pay the taxes insurance and accting fees with just a tad left over.. and I am not working til I'm 75 - oh hell no.. So I called my partner on the ranches to tell him about the tenant issue - I think we should just evict and raise the house cuz it was build in 40's and needs major work (joseph use to live in the house when Kaitlin was born) and if we just broad it up - hobo's will get in and burn it down - (it's out in the middle of no where) and then I tell him about the Charities - He and account are partners - and he (partner has his own construction company and concrete company - he is doing very well) so I guess he most likely will buy them out (the charities) no sure - he's meeting w/accountant on Friday - and then he said he would meet me out at the ranch house next week so that we can figure out what to do.. As it stands now - I was hoping that in about 5 yrs the prices would come back up and that charities would wait for that - but they don't want to.. Accountant will get current appraisal - to see what the land is worth in today's market.. So to say the least - I am a bit over whelmed - I was talking w/partners sister today (she's a partner too) and she a physiologist(well I don't know if she's certified - she at least a counselor) - I asked her if I was being un-realistic that in this phase of my life - I just want things to go smoothly - don't want all the drama... She said she felt the same way - she's gone thru all her $$ and is working a 2nd job - I might spend - but I save too :0) So that's been my day gang - oh ya remember I told you I messed up my bumper when I went to Temecula - well now the airbag lights are on.. So I gotta go get this fixed ... Well, dinner will be something w/ground turkey - don't know what - but that's what I have defrosted..