IndioGirl55

I hear you girl "Janet, I know what you mean about waiting to wake up fat. I deal with it every day. I will take the vomiting over being fat again. I know that is wrong, but I can NOT go back to being fat." I take a target brand - but the ones I have now aren't as good as the ones I had before - but I can eat - some pple have problems w/yogurt - I don't but blueberries yes - it's the skin - I have been having raspberries or blackberries w/mine for bf ;0) - I can't do plums either - skin doesn't do well - I most likely don't chew well enough. Well took Bella for a walk - 1/2 mile - I think I need to make it a mile.. Ok the robot is da vince - I thought you were getting a new coffee maker or something ;00

When in March Steph - Vegas is a 4-5 hr drive for me - I really don't know my plans yet - I know that my Mentor thread is looking into a cruise in April or May.. And the we have our July get together.. So gotta see how $$ is after the 1st of the year.. I'm a maybe ;0) for now... Maybe we can talk Linda - Candice into is - and Phyl will still be here in the Desert - so maybe a mini reunion ;0) Linda Hugs on being sick - that's the pits !!! Great advice for Karri - I think maybe she was a little implusive - in her quiting - but again she didn't know all the facts and now they have come out - I need to call her tonite or tomorrow - see how my evening goes - I need to walk the dogs once the sun goes down - well really Bella ;0) As to being more like me - well dear - I have no one in my life that I have to answer to or take care of - except the dogs & cat ;0) - I have the time and luckly the body to be able to exercise (no hip or major knee issues) as far as food goes - I have good days for the most part - cuz I do love the way I look - and every time I put on a pair of pants I think - Oh I hope they button.. In the back of my mind - I worry that I am going to wake up 250 again - that this is all a dream - and I myself am shocked in that I have kept up eating healthy and exercising for 3 solid yrs - but I still am afraid that I am going to wake up tomorrow and lose it all (the motivation) Not to the point of obsessiveness over it - but I think I have a healthy fear.. So it keeps me in check.. Will you get your hip fixed once you retire?? That's going to help you tons - even though you don't like to exercise ;0) Maybe after you retire - you can come and visit for a week - I know you love the sun and palm trees ;0) Karla Glad you called your doc - this has been going on too long - I really feel a little unfill is in order.. What's da vince machine ?? what did i miss?? You have to maintain a b - hell what's wrong with a c.. it's average - so to do a masters you have to be above average. ok I guess - I am just average - I hate writing so I would be terrible at it - I would be typing pple instead of people etc :0) hell I have to watch my emails at work - cuz of they way I type here ;0) Well - gang just cking in - having a cup of coffee - need to ck out my bills so I have them paid before the 1st since I won't be here.. but hell that might have to wait to tomorrow :0) see I am such a procrastinator Phyl - is it to hot for you ;0) how's the old man feeling - did you go to the doctor today...

Because there are a lot of pple here who think the band is going to do all the work - they don't want to take responsiblity for their eating.. I know you all have read these post --- " I'm 3 days out suppose to be on liquid ate but ate pizza" - or "I'm not losing 5 lbs a week" - "Oh I don't think the band is working for me - but oh ya I had Cookies last night and the night before".. I think TV & Doc's do sell some pple a bill of goods - Oh the band is going to take your hunger away - As we all know it does nothing for head hunger and that's the majority of our problems... I think pple should be told up front 75% of the work is up to you and the band will do the other 25% Take a look at the statistics - this is why the majority of the pple banded lose 50-60% of their excess weight.. They don't choose to do the work to get 100% of it off.

Candice - Do you have any gigs planned... Ya looking forward to meeting my girls - Great has been w/that thread since 5/08 so I am really looking forward to meeting her and Charlene - they are the ones who have been on the longest - looking forward to meeting the others too but you know what I mean Yep ready for Mexico - Sun, Sand - No dogs to wake me up at 4:15 :tt1: Yep Phyl 1.5 hrs ;0) That's the problem w/me once I get on the phone - I don't get off - I don't get on it much but when I do the conversations seem to go on and on ;0) WTG Phyl on that Onderland !!! We all know Men are such babies when they are sick - Hugs.. Karla - I missed the post about the surger - they say don't eat past mid-nite - so that means - you can eat at 6 a.m. Well back to work

Steph - When I got Andrew back at 11 I got some book - I don't remember the name of if - but it was a parenting book cuz I am not the best disciplinarian or follow thru w/what I say - anyway - this book did say that we aren't to explain ourselves to our kids - There is no reasoning with them and if you try - it just goes on and on.. There is no end cuz they aren't going to see things our way - it's just like me trying to convince you that my way of thinking is better than yours - it aint going to happen. I agree w/counsler - by 15 kids have the lifeskills they need to live - Think about it weren't you out on your own at an early age.. I remember my dad telling me when Joseph was like 16 - oh this will be the last yr he comes up w/you to visit in the summer - and you know what he was right - that was the last summer he went with me.. I know it's hard to let go - but you gotta let them see that the grass isn't greener on the other side.. Have you talked to his Dad - what do you know about him now - Maybe you 2 should meet and talk.. Hugs it's hard having a teenager - I know I've done it twice.. Candice - Maybe you should get the hip ck'd out - another reason to eat healthy - you gotta get the weight off as it will help some - our bones aren't meant to carry around the extra weigth.. How's singing going any new gigs.. Karla - I don't know how to make things short either - it takes me alot of words to get my thought across.. Wrong font how stupid.. Well gang - never got here last night - Phyl called we talked for 1.5 hrs ;0) - we are excited about our trip next week to Vegas.. Meeting my Mentor thread peeps... Not much to report - food good - oh ya Joseph and family will be here 9/30 I'll get to see them that nite - then I leave for Vegas and they are going to Brawley for a wedding - 6 hrs will be enough time - cuz I will see them in phoenix in about 8 weeks ;0) - we meet up in Phoenix and fly to Mayan Riveria together from there.. Well up at 4:15 this morning - at least tomorrow I can go back to sleep if I want - TGIF gang..

Drive by post in between gyms - back from weight - have yoga in a few. Karri - I will call you tomorrow or friday by the time Candy left it was late and busy on the weekend - and Sunday thru Wed gym.. Dont get home til late.. - Hugs baby girl.. Things happen for a reason - sometimes we don't understand it right now - but it will show it's self - Maybe - you can go back to RPA next school yr - maybe he will fire her or maybe you will find another school like RPA in another place (AZ) ... Steph I agree w/Candice - about the battle of control between you and him - and it could be worse.. The high school drama - hugs on that - kids now adays are so full of it.. Phyl has landed in the Desert - ;0) Took the dogs on a short walk - now leaving for yoga Tomorrow gang.

Good Morning Gang Had boot camp last nite then took all 3 dogs for 1/2 mile walk - it about killed bear and angel - bella was fine - bear kept stopping told him I wasn't carrying him so plan now is shorter walks for angel & bear - bring them home then bella and I will go again ;0) Karla - yoga massages your organs and all that breathing !!! So glad you could eat... I was super tight last nite - could barely eat.. Phyl - I map quested it - but ya you are right phoenix is like 400 miles and you were on the other side of phoenix - Glad you had a nice visit w/Eva and on your way home - Ya it's still warm 95-104 ish but like right now it's 66 so it is cooling at night Candice - How are you doing girl... Linda - has Mel made the appointment Steph - Hugs on your kid issues - we are here - remember I'm an empty nesters ;0) Well - I was posting my humble opinions yesterday so I had 4 messages this morning - now it's time to get in the shower.. CBL if I can' - tonite is weight & yoga.. Late night - I don't know when I am going to have time for tv ..

600 cal a day??? You need to up your calories - you body is in stravation mode - also - I find that if I back off exercise for 1 week - the lbs come off - makes no sense - but for me it works.. You need to stay off the scales every day too - weigh once a week - same day same time

LOL no wonder I like your Mom- she and I are alot a like - I loved that game that we played - answering questions in fact I have a few of your cards ;0) must have put them in my pocket as we were playing cuz I found them when I got home ;0)

Hugs Hugs Hugs for all your struggles.. Finding that sweet spot is hard for some - but you gotta know that band doesn't lose the weight for you - it doesn't make your food choices or exercise - you do those things.. As you all state - you have found out no matter how tight you are you can eat around your band - and that's the problem with being too tight - we tend to go for soft/mushie foods and those are normally higher in calories.. They have banded our stomachs and not our heads - where imho the majority of our issues w/food lie.. If you can't eat 3-4 oz of hard Protein - you are too tight - you will feel physically full on this amount of food - doesn't mean that you are going to be satisfied - doesn't mean you aren't going to want to continue to eat for the taste and comfort you get from food - but you will be full - but your head and body will still craves more food I'm 3 yrs out and this happens to me every nite.. I eat my dinner and am full - but not satisfied and my body wants more - it's my addiction at work.. This is what you have to realize - You band is never going to take away your head hunger and I think most of what we preceive as hunger is really head hunger - if you really sit and contimplate your stomach you aren't really hungry - you just want the taste or to soothe your stress etc.. IMHO you gotta quit thinking you are dieting - you need to change your eating habits to healthy (I haven't dieted since day 1 I am eating healthy - lower fat - limited sugars and limited starches) and you gotta exercise If you are absolutly starving - eat a some meat or veggies or even a piece of fruit not a candy bar, bag of chips or some cookie etc.. You crave the bad stuff - again cuz this is our addiction talking to us - and if you need sweets - have sf pudding - sf fudgesciles - sf yogurt - hell a pure protein vanilla cream pre-made pt shake has 110 cal - add 1/2 banana and 1 tsp of Peanut Butter and some ice blend and you will think you have died and when to heaven - about 200 cals - 19 grms of pt and you will be full and your sweet tooth satisfied.. You all can do this - you really can - I was 52 when banded I'm now 55 - I feel 10 yrs younger - have so much energy - I eat healhty and don't feel deprived and I exercise 4-5 days a week (have bootcamp tonite) if I can do this - so can you- I'm no diff that any of you - I have had this addiction my entire life - I was just sick and tired of being morbity obese - letting life slip by without being able to participate in it cuz I was too fat and tired all the time.. So make up your minds that you will never be able to eat like you use to - why - cuz our normal eating is what got us fat in the 1st place. Definition of insanity - doing the same thing over and over and expecting a diff result... You gotta make the lifestyle change and with the help of your band you can do that - I did 75% of the work by changing my habits - the band did 25% by providing restiction.. Good Luck to you all !!!

I lost 100% of my excess weight in the 1st yr (105 lbs) I have maintained that weight loss for 2 yrs now (even lost an additional 14 lbs by continuing my healthy eating & exercising) BMI was 42.9 now 23.3. Those statics have to do with our additiction (food) not everyone can over come their addiction - I wanted to prove those statistics wrong - and I did !!! 75% of the work is up to you - eating healthy and exercise and the band is only a tool that helps 25% of the time once you get to your sweet spot.. This really is about making a lifetime lifestyle change in our eating and exercise habits - Eating "Our Normal" is what got us fat in the 1st place - it's not just the quainty we ate - it's the types of foods we ate - high fat/sugar...

I kept a food diary for the 1st year (til I got to goal) I counted calories 800-1200 daily and varied them - I counted pt grams too and logged my exercise. I weighted and measured for the about 3 months till I could eye ball what 3-4 oz looked like - and I will still pull out scale even now when I'm not sure.. .. I read lables - I know the calories of 99.9% of the foods I eat and what a correct portion size is I used these as learning tools- why - cuz that's why we got fat in the 1st place- eating 3000-4000 cal a day - Yes the band restricts your food intake once you get restriction - but even then you can eat 1/2 gallon of ice cream or 10 candy bars - or 5 cups of mashed potatoes with no problems/restriction as these are sliders So imho - I think that learning what 4 oz looks like and not guessing is good - I think knowing that 1/2 cup of mac & cheese has approx 150 cal 11 grms pt 47 grms carbs.. Where as 4 oz of baked salmon has 140 cal - 23 grms pt 0 carbs & 1/4 cup spinach has about 20 cal -

Good Morning Gang Steph - I can relate to Rose - I say to myself - oh I'll call or send email in a few - then I'm off onto something else and forget - then remember oh ya - well I'll do that after I finish this - but then get sided track and never do it at all ;0) That being said I need to call Karri back from last Friday - great example of how I'm a flake too :0) Karla There are some days I don't eat real healthy - mostly on the weekends I don't always eat bf &/or lunch - will have popcorn around 3 cuz it's to late to eat lunch and to early to eat dinner.. During the week I eat pretty good for the most part cuz I plan - like today I will have a pt shake w/banana & peanut butter cuz I have bootcamp tonite and need the protein - lunch is fish - veggies & a little rice - I usually don't eat starches for lunch but again I have bootcamp and need to fuel my body - That's how I look at it pretty much now a days - if I want to work out I need to fuel myself accordingly.. When you go just have them take out like .25 and see if that helps. That's the hard part of our bands - finding that sweet spot and we all think about eating less equates to weight loss - well yes that's true - but mostly it's about our food choices - even if you can eat 2 cups of food at one sitting - if you are eating 4 oz pt - and the rest veggies you aren't going to gain weight and will continue to lose - but if you eat 2 cups starches, fats, sugar you aren't.. It's mostly about our food choices - not starvation... You wore shorts in WA - I thought your legs looked great - the inside of my knees are ugly ;0) Well gang gotta get to work -

Jachut - I hate burpees - but what the hell - here you are having chemo and going to boot camp - You are a freakng inspiration girl - so tonite when I go to bootcamp - I will work extra hard on those burpees and be thinking of you the whole time - If she can freaking do it so can I !!! Love you - thanks for being such an inspriation especially during your cancer treatment - You Rock Girl !!!:thumbup::thumbup:

That's what we are here for Crispaholic ;0) ... to support each other... I give tough band love (love being the operative word) as I firmly beleive that we all need to get a hold of our head issues w/food - We need to know that a little hunger isn't going to kill us - we need to know that we can't continue to eat high fat - high sugar - junk and think we are going to lose the weight - that's the kind of eating most of us did pre-band and what caused us to become obese in the first place.. This is a journey - I wish you the best in it... Hugs Janet

You guys posted while I was gone - see above Steph - Why is she being a flake?? Candice is 1hr away from Ontario - I think Monteral is far from her but I don't have a map so not sure ;0) Karla - It's call Downward Dog ;0) - Girl I don't wear shorts for that reason - ugly knees - but I do go sleeveless now - who cares.. I take an acid reducer (target brand) its small and I take it daily and I don't have any heart burn issues - I will get it from just drinking water - but if I eat a cracker it goes away - I think you need to coat your stomach and water doesn't do it.. I think you need to see the doc and have some fill taken out - you aren't eating much at all and this (the band) isn't about starving your self.. Heartburn is the burning - acid reflux to me is when you are asleep and wake up choking/throwing up stomach acid.. I could be wrong - I'm no dr.. But thats the diff imho.. Acid in our pouch is not good... PS - Phyl you are 330 something from Indio - so you should be here by Wed ;0)

Back from the gym - Had a good workout - got the dogs fed now I gotta watch Bella - cuz it will be potty time in just a few Phyl Sure glad to hear your back is doing better !!! Have you found a starbucks yet - Wilcox AZ pop 3700 - omg what a small town - what's there besides a truck stop ;0) Well I'm back - took Bella for a walk - 1/2 mile I think - she still hasn't pooped - I got her a collar like you have for Zoey Phyl - she did excellent - it was the 1st time I took her for a walk - but I don't think I have it on correctly.. But it worked I even jogged 3/4 of Vincent - which is a long street - but it's hot 99 degrees.. - I was trying to wear her out so I can type on the computer - tomorrow I may try all 3 dogs :0)..

Off to the gym - 1 hr weight training Arms !!! - What was your exercise today Candice - My food for the day so far BF greek yogurt & raspiberries Lunch - ck thight & butternut squash Snack - pistaciho (sp) nuts Dinner will be fish or chicken haven't decided along with some veggies Karla is doing yoga tonite - WTG Phyl has pass cuz of her back & Linda cuz of her hips -

CONGRATULATIONS !!!! I'm so jealous !!!

Good Morning Gang.. Don't know what happen to my post last night.. Linda - I'm cool w/Andrew gone - Yes I miss him - but I'm not cut out to be Mom all my life ;0) - It's weird at times knowing that he isn't going to be coming home - but like Saturday - I was cleaning the pantry in my bra & undies ;0) not a cute site but it was just me and the dogs :0) I think I am nesting - Making my house my own - Plus I can't shop ;0) so gotta keep busy or I would lay around and eat ;0).. Plus - I seem to see him often and he calls too.. He's coming home to watch the dogs when I got to Vegas 10/1 $350 ticket to detroit - but can't go til next yr and don't know if I want to fly in the winter months ;o) change planes in ohare ;0) then to detroit.. Yep you better make that call for Mel - Men??? There is a billboard I see that says something to the effect "# of men who are going to die this yr because they don't get ck'd" Karla - I don't even buy milk ;0) don't drink it - I use sf creamer in mine ;0) You are going to love yoga - if you have never taken it - you will learn down dog, plank, chair, sunflower breath - but again I take gym yoga which she says is a little diff than regular - I think the diff is the spirtual part not sure.. Phyl - No latte for 2 weeks OMG I can't beleive that - have Earl get some day quil - it really helps ;0) You did really good on 1/2 cup - last night I had 2 cones - so at least 1 cup - 90 x 2 = 180 - cones 20 x 2 = 40 - 220 not to bad :0) - it was that sugar thing - I think I am going to have to quit buying it.. Steph - Hugs on the issues - we are here for you... I spoke w/Karri for a few on Friday - but had to go cuz Candy came over - she's not happy teaching in a regular school ;0).. Well I'm at work - need to get to it... CBL

Here's the letter you need to write ;0) Dear Food, I’m breaking up with you. Don’t be surprised. I’ve certainly tried to do it many times before, but I always weakened and went back to you. I finally woke up and realized this relationship is not good for me. I’m not getting what I need from you. It’s hurting me, not allowing me the space to grow in the ways I need to grow. You’re holding me back. I know I’ll have separation anxiety, but I’ve stayed with you too long, way past when I should have. This just isn’t working for me. You don’t listen to me. You don’t give me attention. You don’t care about what I’m going through. It’s almost like you don’t have any feelings for me at all, yet I’ve stuck close to you, helpless and dependent. I know you won’t let go of me so easily. I know you’ll keep calling me, asking me to come back. But please, let me go now. In the beginning you were always there, ready to calm me and soothe me, but it went too far. I came to rely on you. I looked to you for everything. In all fairness, it was too much to ask of you. No way could you fulfill all my needs. For so long I’ve settled, afraid to go out there and find something better for myself. I need to do that. I now withdraw my heart from you so I can be free to put it elsewhere, some place where I can be loved back. I’ve tried to break up with you before. This time it’s real. I want to be on the cutting edge of my own life, and I can’t do it while I’m still tied to you. Thinking about being free scares me, but I want it. I must have it. I know I’m brave enough at last. I know I’ll long for you. I know I’ll think of you a lot, especially during those hard times. I know I’ll be tempted to come back to you. But this time I’ve got a plan, things I’m prepared to do when I get lonely and sad. I’ve been thinking of other ways to Celebrate when I’m happy or proud. I have remedies in place for being bored or tired. At this point you’re a troublemaker in my life and I intend to keep my emotional distance from you. So in a way, this is goodbye. Of course, I’ll still come into contact with you day to day, but let’s just be friends, not lovers. Don’t cry (although you never do, it’s me who does all the crying). Author not known by me :0)

Check w/your Doctor as to when you can start doing it again - I couldn't do crunches for a while or lift weights don't remember how long - Ck w/your doc.

Back from Gym - well at 11:30 - came home finished mopping - then Andrew came over - I guess he needs some peace and quite :thumbup: we went to Target - and as he was putting stuff in cart I said I thought I was done w/this lol ;0) he said well your water, electric, food & gas are going down ;0) lol - But he's getting ready to take a shower ;0) Phyl Safe travels - I ck'd that lady out - hell even with a face lift (and you can tell) she's not that cute - I don't care if she's your freind - REAL friends are always happy for you. My gf Candy - and pple at work even the bosses are always giving me complements Candice Quilting is good then you can't munch :0) Well I'm headed for the couch.... CBL

WTG KARLA :thumbup::thumbup::thumbup::thumbup::tt1::thumbup::w00t::thumbup: :thumbup:I am so very happy for you:thumbup: :thumbup:Glad to see the scales moving down:tt2: Well been up since 5:30 - You all know why - but what the heck - I got floors mopped - doors clean (well some of them I have colony doors (think that's what they are called - they have panels and omg dust - Andrew wasn't a deep cleaner - The perfectionist in me avoids it till I can give it my full attention - even moved the washer and dryer and cleaned behind there - hadn't done that since I got new ones a few years back and I think that was October - If you ever want to know were those socks go - ck behind the stuff - I found a few :0) - plus Bear likes to do the leg thing not marking but after he peeps or poops the bull things (moving hind legs) well that some times leaves poop on the doors/wall - so got that cleaned too. Disinfected the doggie door - they say that is a big bacteria place.. Now I gotta get dressed for exercise - tempted not to go - in a cleaning mood - but need the exercise - at mexican last night - reminds me to take something out for dinner - chicken I think.. Well just a quick ck in - will ck back after exercise.. Happy Sunday...

Karla Peter is Candice DH - & John is their friend who plays in the band too.. ;0) I like foof foof drinks too (drink of the day)- like a diet coke & bourbon haven't had one of those in years, gin & tonic - Sauz Green label tequilla & Tonic - Lemon Drop Marnities Use to drink 151 rum straight up too ;0) Canada is a little far from me to fly for one nite :0)... So they are going to have to have someone record and she can post it.. Well I can tell you getting re-dressed is a lot easier now a days - I threw on my summer dress and went an pickup Mex food - Enchilada & renello (sp) & beans - ate the enchilada and 2 bites of the relleno and am stuffed.. Dieing of thrust right now.. Tomorrow got pilos @ 10 - and the rest of the day just chilling I think -