Mariposa Bella

I take great pride in my little girls (12 and 6) and my son (5), of course. And because they are little girls, they dress like little girls. It is very hard to find suitable clothing for them. Especially shorts, wow, just about 80% are daisy dukes, horrible, isn't it?? Since I pay and buy their clothes, I buy appropriate clothes.. Yes, I'm probably going to piss some of you off, with saying I like brand name stuff.. But I'm in love with Ralph, yes, Ralph Lauren. His children's clothing is always very appropriate and classy.. I like the preppy look. Even my son wears nothing but Ralph. (Don't think I'm a snob, just a master at shopping the sales) My older daughter who is 12, still plays with dolls and is a true little girl, she is maturing, but at a slow pace (Yes, I'm very fortunate). She isn't one bit interested in hair/make-up and any of those things.. Give her her jeans, t-shirt and sneakers and she is happy as can be.. My 6 yr old, is very girly, she wants her hair to be perfect, loves to buy little costume jewlery and loves skirts and dresses. And has a purse collection that rivals mine.. I know, I know, but I have fun with her. She always, though, dresses appropriate for her age. No hoochie stuff for my girls. Have you seen some of the baby phat stuff?? Hoochie mama central?? Gross.

OOPS, I know, I know, your tired of me, but I missed highlighting some.. Can someone please teach me to edit my posts.. When I try to edit, all I get are happy face creatures in front of letters..

I am posting again to explain that the writing in red was Chickies response to me.. I am not to familiar with this new posting stuff. Too high tech and complicated for me.. Well, that's all, gotta go back to work.. I've been goofing off alot today, can't concentrate, too much going on.

By the way, right now, I'm at 155, yes I've put weight on, STRESS IS A BITCH.. But I haven't had a fill in a year and am way overdue.. I'm Getting one in two weeks. Just had to tell you that for me, fighting the weight monster will probably be a life-long process.. Thank God for my band.. Now I just have to put it into use again.. And I'm back on the board trying to get inspiration and support from all of you. Thanks.

Originally Posted by Mariposa Bella I'm 5"2" but always say I'm 5"3", started at 195 lbs a busting out of size 16, got down to 137 size 8, sometimes, very few times a 6.. and now I'm at about 155 in a size 10. Okay now tell me, why have some of you chosen to have such small goal weights of 120 or below?? I thought I wanted to weigh 130 but when I was 137 my husband said that is enough, don't lose anymore, you are starting to look sickly, you look great like this please don't lose anymore, so I stopped. I was a nice size 8, and felt great at that weight, I am truly amazed when I read that some of you are a size 0 or 2, WOW, I don't think I'd ever want to be that skinny.. Not for me, I need to get back in my 8 and I'll be comfortable.. So ladies, please don't feel that you have to get to a tiny little number, re-evaluate yourself when you lose weight, find a healthy, normal range for you, just my humble opinion. My goal weight picked me. I didn't try to get down to 107lbs, but through a good healthy diet, and daily exercise that's where I ended up. And I don't look ill, or sick at all. I am not skinny, nor do I feel pressure from anyone to be thin. At an 8 or a 10, I am still fat. I am tiny. I have tiny feet, tiny hands, and and am just a little person. So my current weight suits me just fine. Skinny is not actually a word I would use to describe myself. I look athletic, and healthy. Not skinny. My weight does not define me at all. Nor does the tag on my dress. And I am sorry that you get the impression that it does, but you are very wrong about that. I'm glad to hear that you feel perfectly healthy at your weight, I was just saying that I would hate for some of us to feel like somehow we were not successful with our bands if we don't get to such a tiny number. For me, 137 was a great weight, so that's is all I meant. Maybe I'm just jelouse.. I'm happy for you.. don't misinterpret my post.. I'm not the most eloquent at speaking or writing. I just want everyone to decide what is best for them, not for anyone else. Was my post what started this debate?? Good Lord, I hope not. As I said, FOR ME, that would be too small or yes in my eyes too skinny.. and I hate to say this, but there is such a thing as being too thin.. Look at how Nicole Ritchie and the Olsen twin girl looked.. they looked disgusting. I'm not the only one that thinks that. I am happy that some/all of you are meeting your goals at 100%.. Forgive me if I fell short of meeting my goal of 135 and stopped at 137. I personally looked really good, some oldies on this board saw my pictures taken after my weightloss and surgeries and if I say so myself, I looked pretty damn good. For me, 137 is a good weight.. My 12 year old daughter weighs about 120 lbs (very athletic and toned, she's a dancer) and is a size 0 or 1 depending on the brand.. And for me that would not be a good weight.. I could however steal her very cute clothes, Hugh?? There's a thought. No seriously, I don't want to offend anyone, but each and everyone of us, needs to evaluate themselves and decide where they feel good and healthy. And to those idiots that are sending pm's offending others, stop it.. Be happy with yourself, love yourself and respect others.. Didn't your momma teach you all this??

I spoke with my daughter and explained what was going on. She said she believes her sister is lying and said that her dad would never do that. She said her sister is just mad, because she was being really bad and got caught. She also confirmed what her dad said about her sister threatening him and him following up with the police as to her threats.. So that makes me feel better about the situation. Sounds to me like this teenage girl is lying.. For her sake and my daughter's, I hope it is all a lie. I did explain the seriousness of this and told her it would take a while to get this staightened out. She was very upset, but handled it well. Her dad called me yesterday and tried to explain things to me. I asked him if he did this and he denied it. He said he loves this girl as if she were her own and was very upset to find out she has been sneaking out to meet boys (plural). He said his wife was not helping the situation by being too liberal and not letting him impose rules/consequences for the girl. He said he is afraid that his daughter will make incorrect choices that will ruin her life. He said even though he is not guilty he was very afraid, because the detectives that interrogated him told him that that an accusation was enough to find him guilty.. And that no evidence was necessary to convict someone of this. They asked him if he would be willing to take a lie detector test and he said yes, that he wanted to prove his innocence. Well the detective said, so your a smart ass that thinks he can beat the test?? He said he told him no, he just knows he would never do that to a child especially his own.. He was able to bond out and is getting an attorney to help him. He wanted to tell me more about his problems with his wife, but I told him I don't care about that. The only thing I care about is how this will affect my little girl. If he is convicted that will change her life and that is what scares me. She loves her dad to death and she would be devastated if he wasn't in her life anymore. Please keep us in your prayers.

Thanks for letting me post this, I feel a little better now that I've gotten this off my chest.

Okay, this is going to be long, but I need to tell someone or I'm going to go crazy. Yesterday afternoon, I had a message from my ex-husband. He said some detectives went to his work and asked him to come in for questioning. He said he didn't know what he was accused of and wanted to know if I had anything to do with it.. Well, I don't. My brother works with him, so I thought I'd try to call him to get some information on what was going on. My brother didn't know anything, and said all their co-worker's were speculating whether I had anything to do with it. (My ex and I had major problems -custody/divorce-but over 11 years ago). I tried calling him back to no response, well, I called the jail and sure enough he had been arrested. When I asked what the charges were they said he had been accussed of sexual assault on a minor over 12 yrs of age under 18. I thougth my heart was going to pop out of my chest. I could not believe what I heard. I called his sister and she proceeded to try and explain to me what was going on. Sorry this is long, well, she said that 3 wks ago his step-daughter who is 13 was discovered missing in the middle of the night. He and his wife called the police and she was later found at some boys house. Well, they brought her home (my ex apparently had an anxiety attack over this) and all her privileges were removed (phone, friends, etc.) she was grounded. Well, later that week the girl and him has more problems and he threatened to hit her and she said that she would call the cops on him.. He then apparently went to the sheriff's office to tell them he was having a hard time disciplining her and that he had threatened to spank her but was afraid of getting in trouble with the law. The person he spoke to said that if he is married to her mother and he is supporting her he could spank, but no beat (in so many words). Well, then yesterday, these allegations come up.. I don't know exactly what she is saying he did. I don't know what to think.. I have a 12 year old daughter with this man. I'm devasted for my daughter. If he is guilty, he commited a serious offense and needs to be punished. I pray to God that this girl is just making this up and that it will all get cleared up. I hope he didn't do it, but what if he did?? From what I've seen, this girl is treated just like his own, he does just as much for her as he does for my daughter. She calls him daddy and apparently had a good relationship with him. What am I going to tell my little girl? If he did do this, I can't trust him with my daughter anymore. Bit they have an awesome relationship, she is daddy's girl and would be devastated. What if he goes to jail?? I am going crazy here. There are so many what if's.. Meanwhile, today, I called and he is still in jail waiting to go before the judge. This morning I talked to my daughter and told her that I talked with her aunt last night and that she told me about this girl running away. (My daughter is very private and never brings or takes any problems/gossip from or to her two homes) I didn't want to tell her about her dad this morning and have her sit in school all day and worry about it. I just am at a loss of what I should do to tell her and help her get through this. And if he is guilty, I have to wonder if he has ever tried to do anything to my little girl (I'll kill him if he has). I'm just rambling now, I know he loves her and would never do that. My gut tells me he is not guilty, but I can't stick my hands in the fire for him. Please pray for my little girl and for me, this is just a bit more than I can handle. My life is already falling apart.

I have a funny story to tell. I am a sweetaholic, if sweets did not exist I would be thin. Well anyways, I have been under tons of stress and not making good food choices. Well, here I am now 20 lbs heavier and feel like crap. (going to get fill in two weeks, way overdue). I've been complaining about how much I've gained, yada yada... always bitching about it to my friends.. Anyways, we have two ladies that bring in goodies to the office and yesterday, one of them brought me some carrot cake (my favorite thing in the world). Well, I was late getting to work and on my desk was an emply plate with evidence that there had been cake there. On the lip of the plate was a sticky from my best friend. It read: "I stopped by to see you, and you weren't in.. saw your cake.. ate it.. It was for your own good". I thougt it was very considerate of her to sacrifice herself for me that way.. yeah, right.. But she was right, if she had not eaten the cake I would have eaten it up.. Well, thought I'd share.

Well, it bother's me too. But you know what I hate worse, when you are already freaking going 90 in the fast lane and someone is still tailing your butt trying to get you to go faster or to switch lanes.

I suffer from this, everything that I come in contact with or think of during the day is combined in these freaky, crazy dreams.. My husband thinks I should write a book because I have this huge, crazy imagination that is arranged quite funny in my dreams..

Well congratulations on the new skinny you.. I called someone skinny on another thread and she was offended and thought I was bitchy.. OH well, we can't please everyone all the time.. But doesn't it feel great?? I remember people would tell me and I loved it but aometimes it didn't seem real.. And my little brother, who called me fattie all my life, saw me and told me, Man you look so skinny and it made me cry.. never been so happy in my life.

I'm glad to hear that you feel perfectly healthy at your weight, I was just saying that I would hate for some of us to feel like somehow we were not successful with our bands if we don't get to such a tiny number. For me, 137 was a great weight, so that's is all I meant. Maybe I'm just jelouse.. :bounce: I'm happy for you.. don't misinterpret my post.. I'm not the most eloquent at speaking or writing. I just want everyone to decide what is best for them, not for anyone else.

I'm 5"2" but always say I'm 5"3", started at 195 lbs a busting out of size 16, got down to 137 size 8, sometimes, very few times a 6.. and now I'm at about 155 in a size 10. Okay now tell me, why have some of you chosen to have such small goal weights of 120 or below?? I thought I wanted to weigh 130 but when I was 137 my husband said that is enough, don't lose anymore, you are starting to look sickly, you look great like this please don't lose anymore, so I stopped. I was a nice size 8, and felt great at that weight, I am truly amazed when I read that some of you are a size 0 or 2, WOW, I don't think I'd ever want to be that skinny.. Not for me, I need to get back in my 8 and I'll be comfortable.. So ladies, please don't feel that you have to get to a tiny little number, re-evaluate yourself when you lose weight, find a healthy, normal range for you, just my humble opinion.

Me too, but you know, I never dreamed of running around in a two piece, so I don't mind the scars. It would be great to not have them, but I do.. And my tummy tuck scar healed really nice on one side and on the other half it is dark and gross, but what the hell, my stomach is flat, right?? And I do wear a 2 piece, only at home, though, it is quite obvious that I had a tummy tuck, the new belly button gives me away, but I look good in clothes.. Well, not too much right now, I'm a little chunky, but hey I am thinner than I was in high school and look better at 35 than I did at 20.. Don't stress about the scaring. In a perfect world we wouldn't have any scars, but in a perfect world I wish I would have never been fat and had toned abs.. So there that's my opinion.. Don't stress over your little scars.

I totally agree. Good luck, keep us posted.

I curse alot.. use the word f#*k way too much.

I have not had a fill since last November and am soooo over due for one.. I have one scheduled in two weeks and I can't wait.. I had maintained my weight really well this past year, (137-140 a good weight for me) but currently with almost no fill restriction and it doesn't help that I don't make good food choices and have tons of stress in my life. I have put on some weight, about 10-12 lbs, which is a lot. I feel miserable, I can't fit in any of my clothes and I refuse to buy a larger size and get comfortable there.. I just need to get my fill and get back on track.. I will definitely let you know how it goes. I have been reading up and trying to get acquainted with everyone.. I missed being on here and getting the support. It is such an important part of this journey.. Well, thank you for welcoming me back and hope to hear from you soon.

I see Dr. Gomez in Miami and he is wonderful, I highly recommend him. He is also very nice to look at, quite a hottie if you want to know the truth.. I have an appt. next month for a fill and boy do I need one haven't had one in a year.. His phone # (305) 285-5090 (ask for Emilio)

Hi there, just thought I'd check in to see how everyone was doing. I haven' been on here in ages, so I am out of touch with who is still here and what is going on.. I notice the forum has grown -- just a little, hugh?? My life is not going well, too much stress, starting to spin out of control and thought I'd come back home to friends.. hope everyone is doing great.. hope to hear from you soon.

Hi there, I too had a flipped port, and it was not painful, my doctor was able to hold it down to do my fills but suggested I have surgery to fix the problem. Since I didn't have the money to do it I was able to put it off for awhile.. Well, when I had my tummy tuck, my surgeon stitched my port into place and said that sucker won't ever flip or move again and he was right, haven't had any problems to date..

Thanks guys, I haven't been on here in a long time, life has been hectic, but I wanted to check in with you all, its nice to see that I"m not forgotten. I had a quiet birthday, but it was really nice. Thanks so much.

Me too, I've been wanting to go for awhile, but have never gotten past checking out the hotels and rates. So when are we going??? I'm on board.

I have been on and off Ambien for about 2-3 years (I think?) and it works well, but I was affected very stangely by it. I was reading an article yesterday about some women that are filing a lawsuit because they were experiencing binge eating during the night and couldn't remember it the next day... that happened to me many times, there would be plates of food next to my bed with the crap I was eating and had no recolleciton of it..My husband laughs at this because he says I would be in and out of sleep sitting on the bed eating... I was also doing stupid things like getting up and going in my closet to try on clothes, lots of clothes, I would also wake up my husband for sex and not remember any of it the next day and I was having horrible halucinations (sp?). I would also call my mom and other relatives and have conversations with them and not remember any of it the next day. So I finally stopped taking it and have not had a good night sleep since. I have a dr's appt on Monday and I am going to try Lunesta, hopefully it will work.

This is really weird, but after years and years of wearing secret after banding I developed hives in the underarm area and it was so severe it spread to my breasts and it was so uncomfortable and itchy... at the time we were on vacation and I went to see a doctor, he thought it was a food allergy and restricted me from certain foods. It was not getting any better because of course every time I would shower I would apply more, well I finally stopped because the hives were so bad and slowly they started clearing up. Well I don't exactly remember how but I forgot to put some deodorant on and all we had in the car was hubbys so I used his and his worked great and it was unscented so I continued to use that while on vacation. Well when we got back I went back to secret and again broke out in the hives and I've since tried others and every deodorant I try breaks me out... don't know why but it does.. So this girly girl only wears gillette gel men's deodorant, it is the only thing that works for me and I refuse to go without. So weird.