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my new theme song: Domino by Jesse J "IM FEELING SEXY AND FREE!!!! LIKE GLITTERS RAINING ON ME!!" So today I am 4 months post op! I feel Amazing, im running and working out almost every day and I can't think of one negative in my life right now! Who would have thought that would be coming out of my mouth! lol Im still not perfect in any way shape or form, but that is ok with me cuz every day im doing something to strive for a better me. Im down 61 lbs, and im only 26 lbs from goal... Im not tryin to hit goal quickly either, i want to lose kind of slowly because i want my skin to be able to bounce back, but i think im still doin ok in that matter because im gaining muscle so that i can off set the saggy skin as much as i can. But either way, I am really happy with the changes. I just wanted to share.. and give anyone that is in doubt a huge thumbs up to this surgery. IT WILL CHANGE YOUR LIFE FOR THE BETTER. And if you don't believe me... here are a few before and after pics.. now obviouly my journey isnt done but here are some pics taken just this week! me in the bahamas Oct 2011 just before surgery dec 2011 1 month post op 2 months post op 3 months post oP TAKEN 4-8-12

So I have been so outrageously busy lately.. I completely forgot to blog this past monday.. So here goes. 5'7'' HW: 265 DoS: 238.1 CW: 176.5 GW: 150 I FEEL AMAZING!!!!! I am still sick unfortunately, but Im still hitting the gym and running as much as possible. I have slowed my gym time down, mainly because im trying to get better, but I don't wanna completely stop hitting the gym. Anyways, I was stuck for a week bouncing between 179-182 but finally broke that a few days ago and have now been stuck at 176-177 for a few days..lol.. oh well.. Im not really trying to complain about it because its not really a stall, just need to get on a set work out schedule. However, the lbs are still comin off and its only been 4 months to the day since surgery! So i think im doin really well. Right now I have a lot going on in my life, My band, my 2 jobs, hitting the gym, and actually looking for another job so i can quit the other two..lol. but im still finding time to take care of myself as much as possible. I do sometimes feel like there is not enough time in the day to do everything, but its a balancing act right? And with this new found body of mine, trying to have a normal life and deal with guys....lol well thats just a riot! Mainly, I just wanted to let everyone know that life can be good, work the sleeve.. have the confidence that we all deserve. But mostly, LOVE YOURSELF... I am realizing that the more confidence I have in myself.. the more confidence other people have in me! And it feels damn good! And can i just say its really showing cuz I just got asked to be in a fashion show as a runway model..he he he.. WHO WOULDA EVER THOUGHT THAT WOULD HAPPEN?!?!?!?! anyways... leaving you with updated pics.. and much love!

So im a little late with this weeks blog... I was in L.A this past weekend trying out for THE VOICE.. he he he.. Well ill keep this blog short n sweet.. Im still feeling really good, but ive had a head cold now for about a week.. and it doesn't seem to wanna leave any time soon unfortunately so i haven't really been able to work out cuz every time i bend over i feel like my heads going to explode from the pressure..lol.. sux but what can ya do. LOTS OF TEA FOR ME!!!!! So anyways, this past sunday I auditioned for the Voice in L.A and when my group got called in we all sang out of the 10 of us.. I WAS THE ONLY ONE THEY CALLED TO SING AGAIN! lol.. so everyone left the room and i was told to sing another song.. well they judge said "Im not gonna tell you no.. im gonna tell you maybe and when we do call backs you will get an answer." well i still haven't heard anything.. ( and from what i am beginning to think is that if they dont call then its a no.. im a little bummed, but hey there is always next year!!! Im keepin my head up.. well anyways.. thats all for now.. I hope everyone is doing well and of course i leave u with stats and pictures!!!!!! HW: 265 CW:179 GW: 150

congrats hun!!!! And good luck to you... I will pray for a quick recovery so that you can get on your journey to the new and improved you!!!!!!!!!! Please keep us updated on your recovery!

lol thats awesome... swedish fish are the little gummy candies.. normally red in the shape of a fish

AHHHHHHH THAT IS SOOOOOOO EXCITING... IM DOING MY TOUGH MUDDER IN SEPT!!!!!!!! i can't wait!!!!!! Congrats..... so really how hard is it? lol

thank you lisa... and i wish you the best on your journey... its the best thing that ive done for myself in a long while and i know you wont be dissappointed if you get it done!

like NIKE says: JUST DO IT!!!!! lol And boy do i take me advertisments seriously!

thank u anamor... i love to sing.. its my passion!!!

I had my surgery 12-12-11 Im down 55lbs... Im feeling really good and am seriously active and hitting the gym! I dont really have a fear of stretching out the stomach because the docs cut out the elastic part on ur tummy and u would literally have to eat and drink to fullness on the daily to stretch ur tummy out.... I dont wanna press that envelope any time to soon..lol.. But other than that i dont have any food complications or issues with my sleeve... just feeling sexy and doin my thing!! BTW congrats everyone on ur awesome weight loss.

5'7" HW: 265 CW: 182.6 GW: 150 So I know im a few days late on this one... but it just seems like im always on the go.. Between training for tough mudder, getting in band practice and singing competitions.. Just not enough time in the day! Whats new?!?!?!?!!?! Well let me start by saying Im auditioning for the Voice on April 1st in L.A .... im soooooooo excited and I hope that i make it on, Also last night I was in a competition for Ozkat Radio... I TOOK 1ST PLACE!!!! I am overflowing with joy right now because... this is a national competition where the finals are held in Las Vegas, and there is a Prize pool for $369,000!!!!!!!! So wish me luck guys cuz im gonna need it! Hmmm... whatelse.. oh yea, can i just say.. I HAVE LOST A LITTLE WEIGHT ...lol, no but seriously.. now I think im bout to get myself in trouble, cuz im beatin these guys off with sticks.. Ive never been asked out so many times.. and is it bad that im lovin every minute of it?!?!?!? I mean seriously, even when i was chunky i never really had problems getting a date, but this is takin it to a whole new level.. My life can be summed up in one song.. its called DOMINO by Jesse J... if you haven't heard it.. go youtube it... its amazing "Im feeling sexy and free.... like glitters raining on me!" My new theme song!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ok now that i got to just glow for a min, lemme get back to buisness... So working out is gettin a little tougher each day.. my body aches since im pushing it even more than usual.. I recently attained a personal trainer just to give me more of a boost when it comes to my workouts.. but dang he is kickin my butt! lol... I guess im a little nuts, cuz who PAYS to have someone torture them!!!! Well anyways, as u can see not much to complain about here, enjoying ever minute of my sleeve.. and u know no blog is complete without pictures..... taken 3 days ago taken 3 days ago before surgery around 240 lbs

THAT IS AMAZING!!!!!! Congrats on your journey!!! I can't wait to be where u are!!!!!!

Congrats on taking the steps to a new u!!!! Keep us updated on if journey.

its not really that i WANT to be able to eat a whole meal, but i would like to go on date and actually eat a meal..lol.. i feel like the girl that orders a salad just cuz i dont wanna eat in front of my man...totally not the case.. and its almost pointless to go out and eat right now.. about the only thing i can get more of one bite from is sushi..minus the rice. which is fine by me, but im just wondering if ill ever be able to enjoy a meal again?

How long did it take before you were actually able to sit down and eat a meal! And dont get me wrong i love my sleeve the not being able to eat part is whats helping my weightloss, but Im just kind of wonderin when i can go on a date and actually be able to eat a meal as opposed to 3 bites and go damn im full.. ..

ok this might be TMI.. but can i just say..... now that im seeing someone... my eh hem.. libido is getting worse...lol.. its like i get some and i just cant seem to get enough!!!! WTF?!?!?!? I am officially a dude! lol I think im wearin the poor guy out! lol Might have to go find a spare...OK IM SERIOUSLY JUST KIDDING ABOUT THAT ONE... but it was too funny not to put in.

thank you.... and im glad that i can inspire anyone!! lol... We are all just doin what we can to better our lives right?!

5'7'' surgery date 12-12-11 HW: 265 GWfS: 250 DoS: 238.1 CW: 186.8 GW:150 Today is 3-19-2012, I am starting a new work out regimen so that I can prepare myself for TOUGH MUDDER! I am really excited about this journey and because I want to do everything in my power to succeed I went and got myself a personal trainer! Now this is only for 3 months, so Im making a short term goal! MY GOAL IS TO HIT MY GOAL WEIGHT BY THE END OF JUNE! I think its very doable. Now in all reality I don't care if I really hit goal because I will be doing a lot of strength training which undoubtedly will build muscle which mean possible weight gain or just lack of loss.. as you can see by the fact that I have only lost half a lb since my last weigh-in.. But im not discouraged because even tho im not losing weight i am toning up and losin inches... thats all that really matters.. Hopefully I will have great news come next week about my training.. but until then i leave you with pictures...lol

thank you guys! I know im gonna mess up.. lol.. hell thats a given, i just want to make sure im doin everything i can to better myself, for as long as this sleeve will let me. Cuz i know that as time goes by its gonna get harder to lose especially the closer i get to goal and I wanna get there and then some. I dont want to look back and go, damn i screwed myself over and if i would have just not done that i could be at goal by now.. no regrets...its what im aimin for! I work out diligently, hell probably more than i honestly need to but my goal is not just to hit a certain weight, but to maintain it.. and by god as my witness.. IM GETTING INTO A BIKINI!!! LOL

thank you for understanding and not reaming me a new one.. lol.. I will do better, in all reality, im sure im still gonna cheat every once in a while, but i will do my best to keep it to the bare minimum.. again thank you all for your support! and frumpy.. that is so funny we are really close in everything, and we share the same birthday.. lol small world. well good luck to you all as well on your journey!

5'7'' surgery date 12-12-11 HW: 265 GWfS: 250 DoS: 238.1 CW: 187.5 GW:150 Ok.. so I normally write how well im doing in my blogs, and honestly this week isn't really different.. Im doing well. I think I am actually doing really well with my weightloss, but here is the thing, when people ask me what im eating and how im losing the weight.. i kind of feel bad cuz the truth of the matter is.. Yes, im am exercising my butt off.. LITERALLY, but im also eating what ever I want, and that is a bad thing. Let me explain... Its not like im just eating junk food, cuz im not. However, if i feel like eating chips, or a cookie, or whatever happens to pop in my mind, well then i eat it! Not like a huge portion of it, but just a bite or two to satisfy my craving. And this early in the the game its just a really bad habit that I am forming. I still eat healthy food for the most part, but im 13 weeks out and i eat fast food, carbs, and sweets! Its funny cuz as i am writing this i have to stop and pause, and i think, wow.. im insane.. i went and had this surgery and im actually sabotoging myself..WHO DOES THAT?!?!?!?!?!?! In my mind i think im justifying myself by saying well im goin to the gym enough to counter what im putting in my body, but the reality is... a year down the road when im at goal and i DONT have to go to the gym every day, what will i have just done to myself. Im not writing this to condone my actions or to even make and excuse for them.. I just think that i need to be honest with myself and those of you that take the time to read my blog each week. Yea im gettin results.. and to be honest even while writing this im still really happy with my weightloss, and my body, because yea even tho i eat bad things sometimes, i still work my butt off in order to keep losing the weight. Im having the worst inner turmoil right now.. and i just want be as good a role model as you all have expected out of me. Anyways, now that ive written an essay ill get to at least some of the good stuff... I went shopping the other day, and here is the awesome part... I bought 3 pairs of pants.. IN THE JUNIORS SECTION..size 13. I was soo excited!!! And to top off the great deals, i bought a medium shirt.. GO ME!!! and you know me.. no blog is complete without a picture.. this one i took just last night.

Lissa, get your grove on!!! lol... and yea i must be doin somethin right cuz i have 3 dates lined up this week..lol.. im such a hussy.. no not really, but dates are just fun..i love gettin all dolled up. LMAO!!! im sure its just for our benefit!!!! we are so lucky to have men like you around.. you know willing to make sure that we are..eh hem.. completely satisfied! lol... a man that has no interest in his own personal gain. Oh thats ok.. you should see me at the gym.. i swear im getting whiplash!!! It takes all my effort not to jump the hot sweaty boys right where they stand..lol

Oh its only gotten worse...I'm just one big raging sex hormone right now...only I have no partner to release my um...frustration on..lol....

wow a HUGE congrats is in order... that is wonderful!!!!!! i can't wait to hit goal... do your thing!!!!! and keep living that healthy life!