Carrie

I did fine during the phase my doctor had me on liquids and then full liquids. Now that I am on mushies, it doesn't matter what I eat. I get what feels like labor pains and then I have to RUN to the bathroom to make it in time.

I can honestly say I am excited about a Washington get together. I just have to get my house together first...lol.. I'm from Texas so 300 mile distances aren't anything for me. So let me know when and where, we can get a mixed plate and share it should be REALLLLLY cheap!

Tiff, I think every fat person has issues, some deeper than others. All have to be dealt with whenever that person is ready to deal with them. I know support is a two way street and it's hard to understand where a person is coming from based soley on the internet. At this time I am not seeking psych support from this forum and having upteen people say get professional help is really of no benefit. Everyone has their own path to and from this or any other WLS, regardless of what path they are on each and everyone deserve respect and support. If you look at my replies to folks I haven't told one single person NOT to get the sleeve regardless of my personal experience with it. One person asked if anyone regreted and I spoke up, she was asking about a reversible surgery as she wasn't sure. I believe if a person isn't sure then the sleeve isn't for them at this time, kinda like a tattoo, if you think you will regret it next week then it's best left at the tattoo shop on the wall not on your skin. I will however agree with you based on the amount of frustration I am experiencing my thoughts and opinions of this surgery change often as do I believe most people's view. My experience with this surgery thus far has sucked. But I have realized I am stuck and I'm trying to move on and work my life around what is left to work with. That's all I am seeking, help with what I have physically.

I'm in the process of moving to Redmond. We should be up there around this time next month as we are finishing up on stuff down here. I am not familiar with the area as I've only been to Seattle on vacation about 2 years ago for a weekend so it's going to be an adventure. How far away are you?

You will slow down in the next month or so. I had Lap Band before this and started at around 300lbs. The larger you are and the more weight you have to lose the quicker you will lose. If you have say 50lbs to lose it's much harder, meaning more effort is going to be needed via exercise on your part, but not impossible than someone who wants to lose 100-150lbs. I know when I was 300lbs, it was like walking around with an extra 100lbs on at all times thus a semi-workout if you want to call it that.

I'm sure I'll get scolded in some form or fashion, but I drink 2-3 cokes a day and I'm about 3 weeks out. If you care about weight loss it's not the best idea to do so. I decided I would rather drink coke than lose a few pounds here or there. I do think it comes down to what hurts or doesn't though for you personally.

Thanks MlkPas.

Again, you don't have to post if you don't want to. I am here for support as are most folks, if you aren't capable of offering support really what's the point in posting a reply? I believe I made it clear on how the IGNORE feature works.

I sincerely appreciate you concern. I simply do not want nor do I need rumors or people to believe I am a drug abuser because of a misquote, thus I felt the reason to clarify. Take care,

I think part of the problem is just going so long on liquids and then trying to eat mushies. It's probably a shock to the system. I am going to try eating more yogurt and perhaps some probioitics like Tiff suggested. I know Align is a popular choice.

I know the last couple weeks have been pure hell for me and I have simply been trying to find an outlet. I no longer have the ability to talk with my spouse about this surgery as it has caused a major problem in our almost 10 year old marriage. I'm moving and I will not have a surgeon. Someone posted about my pain management and Fibromyalgia. Yes, I am on medication for that but it is NOT regular opiate pain medication and NO it does NOT effect my judgement. My doctor told me I would never get into trouble driving even if they tested my blood for it so that's hardly under the influence. There are many people who suffer from Fibro and if you want more information on my specific medication simply send me a PM and I'll be glad to share my experience and help you if possible. Don't accuse me of being a drug abuser because you are ignorant and unfamiliar with a decision my doctor and I made together for a particular medication regime that is simply off label use he feels comfortable prescribing. In other words, my medication usage is my business, but this is a forum and if I can help someone feel better great, but don't accuse me of abusing drugs or having my thought process clouded by drug use. No matter how I got here I'm here. Everyone deals with this surgery differently and while I do have my personal opinion on why I am here I will keep that to myself. I don't have a problem with any single person on here except maybe littlesteve but that's because of the way he chooses to answer people and simply being rude and unhelpful. As I mentioned previously. This surgery does not come with an owner's manual and who better to ask than someone who has already been there? If you don't want to deal with me, it's really easy. There are ignore features or you don't have to read my posts and certainly nobody is going to force you to respond. Again I am sorry if I offended anyone with my opinion. At this point I wish to not discuss how I got here but deal with what I am stuck dealing with day to day and simply survive.

I did not have a drain 3 weeks ago when I was sleeved. I specifically asked my doctor and he said that unless there is a question in regard to internal bleeding he never uses them. I did however have what is called an On Q Pain Buster pump. They place it while in surgery to areas where most patients complain of pain due to a certain surgery. Apparently they can use it after many different kinds of surgeries (C-sections, hernia repair, etc). I went home after 1 night and Hubby and I had to remove it the following morning.

Thanks for the answer Tiff. I think I'll try some Align or eat more yogurt, between moving and dealing with healing I didn't even think about that. MP- I've made a few good friends on here actually even though most people don't understand where I am coming from. The reality is this surgery doesn't exactly come with an owner's manual and who better to ask than someone else who had the same surgery? If you don't want to deal with me, it's easy, don't read my posts and certainly don't reply. Thanks again Tiff.

It doesn't matter what I eat I dump. I know it's rare but can happen with VSG. Has anyone had this and it eventually go away? Thanks

Again I'm sorry I have posted here. I feel that because I am anti-sleeve and had a bad experience this isn't the place for me. I won't pollute you forum with anymore requests for support because the Lord knows I'm one in a million with this. Best of luck to the rest of you.

I sincerely appreciate any and all help and or support I have gotten from this forum at one time. It is very hard to relay one's complete feelings, emotions and issues on any forum not just this one. With that being said I am reminded why the idea of a break sounded so good. To be honest with each of you the only thing I feel I have in common with anyone one here is a lack of a whole stomach. I continue to wish you guys the best.

I don't want $$$ I want him to know what he has done and what I am stuck dealing with. As far as not being in my "right mind" he did cover his ass by by giving me Versed. He said at the time it was for my Epilepsy to avoid me having a seizure. I have had Versed on many occasions and it has zero effects on me, I have been known when having a spinal injection in the past to talk to the nurse about purses and stuff and remember the entire conversation all the way through recovery. I told him before he gave me the Versed it had ZERO effect on me. So yes, I understand legally I maybe screwed because of the dose he gave me, but I'm not asking for a law suit. I just want him to know the hurt and misery he has caused by staying on his schedule for the day instead of listening to the wishes of the patient.

I have now worked up the guts to complain to my surgeon and to the hospital that the Anesthesilogist works at. I have zero intention of complaining against my surgeon as he did what he was hired to do. The person I hold responsible for having this done against what I wanted will have a formal complaint filed against him. I intend to consult my attorney in regard to having formal assault charges filed criminally against this Anes. because he drugged me against my will after I clearly told him I did not want to have this surgery and I wanted to be released and go home. He chose to override my wishes so I will chose to make him pay both professionally and personally. I will keep you posted.

Honestly had been given the option I would not have had the sleeve done but the other procedure instead. I do feel my case was a one in a million being done against my will but that was here in the US. I wish you the best regardless of which procedure you choose.

We got notice that we are moving to Washington State (Redmond area) from DFW in about 2 months. I am excited to start a new life in a place I haven't even visited. I've been to Seattle but not Redmond and that was only on vacation. I continue to regret having this surgery. My life would have been so much better if I had just had the Lap band removed and NOT had this surgery. I try to avoid any reminders of this surgery which is impossible. My outside physical scars are almost healed. I went to the dentist yesterday for my teeth and forgot about the bright light they use. Which immediately caused me to have flash backs of the day of surgery and the powerless feelings I have associated with that. I go between feeling like I want to just give up and literally starve my body. I have no physical hunger and feel like a freak because of it. I try to get protein in but following that diet reminds me of that powerless feeling. I hated my physical self before this surgery and now that feeling is about 10x that. :thumbup1: I hope everyone else is happy because I'm not sure if I will ever be happy again. I honestly don't care about weight loss as it's yet another reminder of that day.

I'm moving from DFW to the Redmond area. At the moment I'm still in a funk with regret but would like to know who will be near me in the Seattle/Redmond area of Washington. I'm sure eventually I will be happy again and would like to find others like me who've had this surgery.

Thanks, we rented a place in Redmond. I have been to Seattle but not Redmond specifically. We made sure to get a place with an indoor pool, indoor basketball court and fitness room to hopefully make rainy days easier with the kids. I made the mistake of going to the dentist for my braces today. What a mistake. I forgot about the medical bright lights. I told my dentist the reason for my dislike of lights and closed my eyes. The bad thing is because of the move he has decided to make my visits more frequent to get as much work done as possible and allow me some time before I have to see another dentist when we get settled in Redmond. I have an appointment coming up in the next week or so with the surgeon who did the VSG. I have decided to cancel that appointment due to the move and the fact their is nothing to be done other than saying you've lost 30 pounds. I'm not going to another Bariatric Surgeon for follow up care once we move so what's the point? I have so much to get done around here I don't see the point of wasting his time or mine. Thanks again for all of your support.

Thanks everyone. Of course I continue to be stuck in the body I don't want as I have no other choice. Our relationship has improved as I no longer tell him anything. Nothing said equals no problem. So as long as I can keep a smile on my face all is well. Yesterday we got what we were expecting, a job transfer from Texas to Washington State. So in 6 weeks I will be living in an apartment that I have yet to see in a new state I've only visited once. Our extended family will continue of course to live in Texas so we are on our own. I hope the sense of something new and adventure will keep me distracted from the reality of my situation and the body I do not want. And LittleSteve please have the respect for yourself not to make yourself out to be an ass in front of everyone because that's exactly how you are coming across.

I'm very thankful to see the support each of you have given. I am back from the weekend from hell. This surgery had destroyed my life and being. I was watching tv with my 1 year old and a commercial came on Nick Jr. Talking about how fun it would be if grown ups could play. It showed an OR. I saw the bright OR lights and immediately had a "flash back". I can not express how unhappy I am. I actually really like my surgeon and he has no idea how I feel or that he did a surgery on someone without consent. I feel I am constantly reminded via pain and discomfort of healing from this surgery and the fact I am scared to eat and often times drink because of pain or discomfort. Then I have nightmares of the OR at night. It got so bad that law enforcement has paid a visit. I am going one day at a time at this point. I have two young children and I owe them at least 20 years. After that I can't guarantee anyone anything. I wish I had a better update that things were better. But they aren't. I have no idea what I am going to do. My husband and I have been married for almost 10 years and this has almost destroyed our marriage. I feel I can no longer tell him how I feel due to him freaking out and getting the cops involved. I would wish this on nobody. I feel I am the only freak in the universe with this problem as if I am some weird mutant. As I said, I wish the news were better, but that's all I got for now.

It's no secret to those who have kept up with me that I've been on a very thin line between buyer's remorse and just dealing with life after surgery. I have what I feel to be a unique situation where I feel I made a horrible decision and had surgery I was not ready to have. I did this because as the wife and mother, I am, who refuses to disrupt others and make things go as smoothly as possible it was the ONLY time I could do this because of various situations in my family aka my husband's life. I had asked to cancel this surgery for a week previous but was constantly reminded of all the negative issues it would cause to happen to myself and more importantly my family. I went into the OR telling them without any drugs in my system that I had changed my mind and wanted to stop. But was knocked out and woke up as is. I have gotten many comments to the order of "deal with it". I posted in my personal blog my feelings and that's all I get. Well obviously, I can not undo what has been done, so I have no other choice but to "deal with it". I feel that I am no longer getting the support I need from this forum at this time. I feel like I am of a VERY slim majority of people who had a situation thrown at them, thought they were making the best choice for the family and is living with regret. I know the majority of folks on here are really looking for support and guidance. I feel I have neither to offer anyone. So with that being said, I think at least I will take a break from here. I'm sincerely happy that everyone who is happy has found what they believe to be the right choice for THEM. And with that I wish them continual success and happiness in reaching every goal they set for themselves. I feel until I am able to deal with the cards dealt I do best to stay away from being reminded the need to simply deal with it as that's all I have to do because I have no choice.