Full of questions

We got notice that we are moving to Washington State (Redmond area) from DFW in about 2 months. I am excited to start a new life in a place I haven't even visited. I've been to Seattle but not Redmond and that was only on vacation.

I continue to regret having this surgery. My life would have been so much better if I had just had the Lap band removed and NOT had this surgery. I try to avoid any reminders of this surgery which is impossible. My outside physical scars are almost healed. I went to the dentist yesterday for my teeth and forgot about the bright light they use. Which immediately caused me to have flash backs of the day of surgery and the powerless feelings I have associated with that. I go between feeling like I want to just give up and literally starve my body. I have no physical hunger and feel like a freak because of it. I try to get protein in but following that diet reminds me of that powerless feeling.

I hated my physical self before this surgery and now that feeling is about 10x that. :thumbup1: I hope everyone else is happy because I'm not sure if I will ever be happy again. I honestly don't care about weight loss as it's yet another reminder of that day.