Only person on the planet..

with this problem.

I feel like I have been totally honest with everyone about how I feel. I really regret having this surgery, that's my experience. I feel like when I state this I am rediculed (sp) and told to deal with it. Well obvioiusly I have to deal with it because I have no other choice. I can't turn back and change what my body is these days. My husband and I continue to argue, I'm still covered with the nasty ozzing rash after almost two weeks. I've tried everything on the rash. But beyond that, I'm starting to question if this forum even benefits me anymore. I am purposely avoiding answering people's question because I don't want to be the bitch who regrets or the one to pops everyone's balloons at their birthday party. It's easy to say do this but your experience is totally diffferent than mine. I'm not happy and I don't know what to do in order to become a whole person again. I think with that said until I can somehow become a whole person again, to avoid opinons of those saying deal with it, I'm going to deal with it my way and steer away from here for a while. I'm happy everyone else is happy with there CHOICE but I'm not, it's the worst fucking thing I have done in a very long time. At this point it has destroyed my life and it's working on my 10 year old marriage. So with that being said, I wish everyone the best sincerely.