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it was when i first acknowledged that i had a food addiction that i was able to get serious about this whole process. keep trying as hard as you can, and take it one hour at a time if you have to... it will be over soon!

Seashelles, first off... big hugs!!! I was actually about to post something regarding therapy. I'm seeing a therapist who specializes in bariatrics. I know I'm going to need the support to deal with my emotional eating disorder. People need to remember that the sleeve is just a tool and will not fix your relationship with food that you had before the surgery. Even if I never crave food again after the surgery, which would be a dream come true, I may substitute an old eating addiction for something else.
I'm hoping therapy is just one more tool that can help me achieve long term success!!! Best of luck!!!

@@Seashelles I feel for you. This is not an easy process by any means. I know all the fears you have because I had them too. I didn't cheat but please believe I wanted to! I just had to constantly remind myself what this was all about and why I had to do it. If your surgery turns out anything like mine you won't be hungry after surgery....I know that sounds unbelievable to you at this time but I Had my surgery Monday and I still have no hunger. I enjoy my clear drinks but I Have no desire to eat at all. It won't be as hard for you as it is right now. Your body is use to eating and nothing has changed that feeling yet. It is hard but just try to look past this misery and keep focused on your goals. Maybe right them down. I will tell you what I did. I took some pictures of myself in a bra And undies and everything I started going crazy wanting food I looked at those pictures, drank my shake and moved on! It might sound strange but it really worked! Good luck!

We all, or a lot of us, cheated during the pre op diet. Just make a commitment to stay on track, starting NOW! Your surgery is in a few day. You can do this. I don't mean to make a joke out of this, but as the slogan says" just do it". Picture November 12th and become obsessed with what's going to happen on that day. Use it as your novitation. Best.

My surgery is on Nov 12th and I have been on my pre-op diet since Oct 29th. I am a miserable mess and cheated the first 4 days of it. I am so depressed because this diet has re-affirmed the issues I had with food. I sit at work all day and think about food and what Im missing. I even started to get depressed about how after surgery I will not be able to eat. I was excited about that starting out because one of my main problems is Portion Control. But now this diet has me think about my relationship with food and I am kind of coming to terms with the fact that I have a food addiction. After my surgery I am going to seek help with a therapist because I really dont want to sabotage my chance at a new start. I am just depressed over the fact that I spent most of the first week cheating and now I have to try to make up for it. I just dont really know how...

Sleeve Nov 4, 2014. I am still in the hospital as I type this very moment. Wow I can only say wow. I have been truly blessed. The surgery went very well and I have had basically no pain! I expected to hurt but I haven't at this point. Mild discomfort but more like soreness than true pain. I walked the night of surgery then over 1/2 mile just in the halls today. Was on ice chips only until leak check this morning then moved onto one oz of juice or clear liquid. Nurse told me I have been the best sleeve patient she has had and I didn't even act or look like I had just had major surgery.-Dr made second round this evening and said I was doing well and tomorrow we would try sipping liquid as desired and if it goes well I would go home tomorrow. I find myself unable to sleep because I am so excited for what awaits me in the future. 1st I was approved for surgery..next started a new job.. Then in Sept transfer to new location. A week after my transfer they offered me a promotion. The new position will have me walking 3 to 6 miles a day just at work and maybe more. Now that ive got the sleeve I can only take one day at a time and watch my new life unfold before me. I am blessed beyond measure and thankful!

Today's the day. One journey ends and another will begin. Surgery is at 430pm today. Sure wish I could drink some Water lol.

Im scheduled for the 18th! Very exciting! I'm happy an want it to happen now! I'm now starting day 3 of my 14 day pre-op diet. I have to admit this is fucking hard! I get 3 protine drinks a day. I get one low cal frozen meal like lean cuisine. And one cup of vegetables every day. I also get unlimited amounts of Water and Vitamin water zero.
My head hurts all the time! I'm hungry faster then usual it seams, I am peeing a nice clear yellow which is good. I just am getting really worried about how physically draining this pre op diet is. And I'm only 3 days in.
I'm very out about my surgery, and people are now telling me how impressed they are with my dedication now that they see what it is im restricting myself to.
This just makes the pressure to do well harder on me. I'm starting to get really scaird about how this good thing is going to work out.
So yea now more then ever, I want my surgery to happen tomorrow! Not only because I'm excited but because I'm not sure I can survive this pre op diet. ????????????????????????????????????

I am on day five of my pre op diet. 3 Protein Shakes a day, Water and chicken broth. I've lost 10 pounds since Saturday. Surgery at 730 tomorrow morning!

Got sleeved yesterday! At home resting. Gas pain is the worst also having "ghost pains" in my shoulder due to the hernia repair. Stomach muscles are sore as well. So glad it's finally done!

just had my sleeve on Monday and first full day at home. feeling good. sore stomach muscles, lots of gas. At first it was difficult to swallow liquid, my stomach would cringe and cause me to burp, causing my whole stomach and chest to hurt, but not it isn't so bad

ugh, my office changed their firewall and i can't reach this website easily. what a huge bummer.
this morning i woke up and wondered how it would be if it snowed early and heavily and i have to get around in it post-op. the things you think of! i'm 14 days away (11/18) and i am fluctuating madly between wishing it was tomorrow and being scared sh!tless.

Hello!
I'm excited to start my journey on this forum, I have been reading through posts and you all seem so helpful and encouraging! I am starting step #1 tomorrow by calling to make my initial consultation meeting with the bariatric center. I hope I don't have to wait long for the appointment, I want to get this ball rolling!
I have steadily been gaining weight ever since I was young, it seemed like my dress size grew with me, I was a size 18 when I was 18 yrs old, size 20 at 20 yrs, etc. I am 32 now and am up to a 26/28. I prayed and prayed for a job with insurance and my prayers were answered this year! My insurance had kicked in and I'm not wasting any more time! I have high blood pressure, sciatica, and a fatty liver. I can't walk around a store without having to sit down every so often. I am miserable. I'm hoping and praying for a new lease on life and a great success story I can share!

just me, but i wouldn't want to go alone. other people have gone alone and done fine. i think it has to be what you are comfortable with.

you DO NOT deserve to be sick and die early!! c'mon, you don't really believe that.
i'm in awe that you quit smoking after 20 years! that's amazing, congratulations!
why won't you be celebrating your birthday? there are many ways to Celebrate that don't include eating and imbibing. i mean, what's so special about going out on the town, you can do that any day... but how often do you give yourself a gift like you are giving yourself this year? this is the start of a whole new episode in your life, and you deserve to smile and anticipate it happily, looking forward to feeling better, being able to do more, and living to Celebrate many more birthdays.

just me, but i wouldn't want to go alone. other people have gone alone and done fine. i think it has to be what you are comfortable with.

just me, but i wouldn't want to go alone. other people have gone alone and done fine. i think it has to be what you are comfortable with.

rofl! licking the lasagna...

i can totally relate. it took three weeks of me calling either the insurance company or the surgeon's office (i alternated, calling one of them every two or three days) before the insurance company gave me the news that i was approved.
then i thought i would be scheduled for the next week, and the surgeon was booked through 11/18, so here i am still waiting.
it's another step closer, and that's all you can say. be patient, be polite when you call (especially the surgeon's office, no need to tick anyone off there). it will happen, the surgeon doesn't want you to go away.

I am having it done at the Barix Clinic in Langhorne PA, I have to drive 3hrs each way, which kinda sucks, but I feel really comfortable with their program. I was in another program for 2yrs and everytime we would get close to surgery I would never feel comfortable would only have and uneasy feeling so I always backed out. So I decided to switch programs and doctors, I now feel so much better about my decision. Also the other program didn't offer the sleeve and that is what I wanted, I didn't like that they had to re-route the intestines. I thought I would be more nervous only being a week away from surgery, buy I am feeling very comfortable with my decision and looking forward to the new me. I am looking forward to being able to stay up with my kids and not always having to tell them to slow down.... The liquid diet is not bad so far I start my 3rd day today, I really only fell hunger when I wake up in the morning so I drink a bottle of Water to quell that right away. 8 more days till surgery!

So excited! I got my insurance approval today. Just waiting for my surgeon's office to call so I can schedule my surgery. Very good day.

I eat the whole thing! Funny. I HAD high cholesterol pre-op when all I ate was egg beaters, (medicated with a statin). Today I eat a real egg for Breakfast almost every day and have normal cholesterol, un-medicated.

Aaaaaaaaaaannnnddddd there goes a woman who is smart and strong enough to see the right path to a strong and healthy mind, body, and soul. Not only will you be setting an excellent example for your daughter, but you will also be attracting the right kind of man who will treat you and your daughter well. Congratulations ! Well done ! (P.S. Had my band done mid Dec, 2011, made it through the holidays juuuusssstttttt fine. I wanted the weight loss more than I wanted the food. Best decision ever !)

So, I'm not going through the thinking phase - oh boy where do I start?!
First off - I'm going for surgery 6 weeks sooner than originally planned. I was excited to get it done after the holidays because it meant I wouldn't have the issues or discomfort of sitting at holiday dinner with my big Italian family. I will be on liquid. There goes the antipasta, lasagna, and ham. AND! My birthday is 4 weeks after surgery! The lifestyle of drinks with my friends, Red Lobster as a birthday dinner, and some awesome flavored cake is done-zo.
But this is stupid little things that I know I'll get over and beyond all doubt get through. I have faith I can make it through the insanity.
I am worried about my relationship though. He didn't like the idea of the surgery in the beginning.... or even 2 years ago when I was first contemplating it. (Just a little background : my fiance is a chubby chaser, as were all of my exes). I'm afraid that no matter what he says, and though his fears were that I would be the one to leave him, that he will lose attraction once I start losing mass amounts of meat from my bones. With all that I have put aside for him, and the bs I've sucked up and dealt with, and all of the things I've looked past for him - I don't think he'll have that ability to just accept my weight loss. And I fear my ultra confidence and new vanity will give me that slight boost I was looking for to leave. \
I have read a few people say they see people get these surgeries for vanity reasons that they won't admit to. I was actually fine with living how I was and looking how I do. I enjoy my curves. I knew I only attracted guys with BBW fetishes. But I was all good. I was happy. I knew I could and did get guys. But then I had my beautiful little girl. For her, I want Mommy to be healthy, and able to run after her, and pick her up without back pain, and be around for decades to come without some sort of mortal complication. So it's not always vanity - but I know I will look damn amazing, even if not attracting the same guys. Which I'm fine with. As long as I can spend eternity with my pride and joy.

How exciting!!! R u ready? So many emotions before and after. I'm 7 weeks post op and still excited!
Just remember to sip Water non stop and stay hydrated.
Good luck and let us know how you do ????????